Authors: Amy Gutman
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“You liked doing those things.”
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“Yeah.”
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Callie moved a hand to Anna’s back, but Anna wriggled away.
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After a moment, though, she looked at Callie, her gaze shrewd, 5
assessing. The look of a seasoned gambler weighing the odds of 6
a bet.
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“Are you going to marry Rick?”
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The question caught Callie off guard. “I . . . I don’t know, 9
honey,” she hedged. “We haven’t talked about it.”
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“But you
might
marry him.”
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“Look, sweetie, I’m not going to marry anyone unless . . . un-12
less we both agree. Unless you and I both decide that it would be 13
a good idea.”
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“Really?” Anna’s face lit up. This time when Callie touched 15
her, she didn’t squirm away.
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Reaching beneath her daughter’s shirt, Callie tickled her lightly, 17
trailing her fingers down the narrow back in the way that Anna 18
loved.
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“You know, if you want to talk about your dad, you can tell me.”
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“Okay.” Anna’s voice was muffled, her face pressed against a 21
pillow.
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“Do you . . . miss him?” It was painful to ask the question.
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Maybe because she wanted so much to believe that she could 24
make Anna happy.
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“I’m okay, Mom,” Anna said.
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Callie didn’t say anything. For an instant, she had a strange 27
sensation that Anna was protecting her.
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Then, leaning forward, she kissed Anna’s flowery hair. “C’mon, 29
honey, let’s go downstairs. It’s pizza night,” she said.
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“So you’ll be back on Tuesday?”
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“That’s the plan.”
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“I’ll miss you,” Callie said to him. And was surprised to realize 1
it was true.
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Rick looked over and smiled at her, faint lines deepening around 3
his eyes. He looked both older and younger, smiling at her like 4
that. In fact, he was thirty-two, three years younger than she was.
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They’d met late last summer at a neighborhood barbecue. Rick 6
didn’t live in the neighborhood, but his pal Tod Carver did. Tod 7
was Rick’s best friend at the Merritt Police Department. He had 8
curly hair, a rueful expression, and Callie was fond of him. He re-9
minded her a bit of a guy she’d dated back in high school.
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Like Callie, Rick was a Merritt transplant, having moved up 11
from New York. At the barbecue, they’d traded stories over paper 12
plates of food. “Burnout,” he’d said simply, when she asked him 13
why he’d moved. For her part, she’d told him how she’d come 14
here for school, then fallen for the town.
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He was so appealing, so easy to talk to, she’d liked him right 16
away. Still, when he’d asked her out for dinner, she’d found her-17
self hesitating. She’d been on her own for so long now. It seemed 18
safer that way. There was no one to tell her what to do, no one to 19
report to. No one to ask her difficult questions, to dredge up the 20
painful past. Her life was simple, streamlined. For the most part, 21
it worked. And yet there was something about Rick that had 22
caused her to reconsider.
I’ll go out with him once,
she’d told her-23
self. And that was how it started.
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A rustle as Rick turned the page, and a flyer fell to the floor.
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Pushing aside the mail, Callie reached down to get it. A two-for-26
one sale on Easter candy, worth remembering. Once again, it was 27
almost time for the neighborhood’s Easter egg hunt. When was 28
Easter anyway? Two weeks? Or was it sooner?
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She reached into her purse for her Filofax, meaning to check 30
the date. But as she pulled out the date book, she saw that some-31
thing was caught between its pages. The envelope she’d picked 32
up earlier, the one stuck in the door. She’d totally forgotten about 33
it. Now she pulled it out. Edging a fingernail beneath its flap, she 34
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Happy Anniversary, Rosamund. I haven’t forgotten you.
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The shock was so intense that at first she didn’t feel a thing.
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Like plunging into ice-cold water, unable to catch your breath, 4
hurtling down and down and down, not knowing when you’ll 5
stop. She clutched the note tight in her hand. Everything had 6
changed.
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“Callie? What is it?”
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She started at the sound of Rick’s voice, pulled back from the 9
precipice.
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“Just a note from Anna’s teacher,” she lied. “I’ve got to talk to 11
her.”
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With thick, unwieldy fingers, she quickly refolded the page.
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Stuck the note in its envelope back in her Filofax. She was about 14
to close the leather cover when her eyes caught today’s date. The 15
large block letters in the small square box said Wednesday, April 5.
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She stared at the date, hardly able to believe it.
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April 5.
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Today was April 5.
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How could she have forgotten?
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