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willingness to take risks, fed my own nascent desire to break away 3

from the life I was leading. For that, I’d like to thank him.

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This book is dedicated to my family. Much love and thanks to 5

my mother, Janet Franz, who has always believed in me and en-6

couraged me to follow my heart; to my brother, Peter, who took 7

time from the whirlwind of investment banking to give the manu-8

script a careful and perceptive reading and who staunchly champi-9

oned my choice of title; to my father, Froncie, who has maintained 10

a steady interest in my progress; and to my sister, Karin, also a 11

writer, whose warmth and good spirits help keep me on an even 12

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LITTLE, BROWN AND COMPANY

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Nashville, Tennessee

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Eleven years ago

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As soon as the jury came back, she knew.

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Faces somber, eyes trained on the floor, they filed back to their 12

seats, these twelve men and women who held his life in their 13

hands. None of them glanced toward the spectators. None of 14

them met his eyes. In her third-row gallery seat, Laura Seton leaned 15

slightly forward. Placing a hand on her throat, she felt a birdlike 16

pulsing flutter. As her fingers traced the delicate bones of her 17

neck, she thought how easy it would be to break them.

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Judge Gwen Kirkpatrick looked down on the room from her 19

position high on the bench. She had thick, dark hair streaked 20

with gray and a bright red gash of a mouth. A bronze disk hung 21

on the wall above her, the Great Seal of the State of Tennessee.

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It floated there like a halo, invoking some higher good. Not that 23

Laura believed in that. She believed in very little these days.

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“All right, if the record would reflect that the jury is back in 25

the courtroom after their deliberations.” Judge Kirkpatrick took a 26

sip of water, then turned to the jury box. “Mr. Archer, you are still 27

the foreperson of this jury, is that correct?”

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“Yes, ma’am.” Archer was a stocky man with blue suspenders 29

and a white moustache, recently retired from thirty years in the 30

insurance industry.

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“I understand that you’ve reached a verdict.”

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Laura glanced at her watch: 10:55 a.m.

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A dark-haired man in a navy blazer seated beside his lawyer.

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His face was beautiful in profile. A high, rounded forehead, straight 3

nose, chiseled chin. He gave the impression of being at once both 4

sensitive and strong. While she couldn’t clearly see his expres-5

sion, she easily pictured it. The vaguely ironic smile. Eyebrows 6

slightly raised. As if he were a little bored but trying to be polite.

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His deep brown eyes would be shining, like stones from a riverbed.

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He leaned toward his lawyer to say something. She willed him 9

to turn around.

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Please, Steven, look at me. There’s something you need to know.

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His back stiffened almost imperceptibly, as if he’d read her 12

thoughts, until a moment later he lapsed into stillness again.

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She hadn’t planned to be here today, had planned to sleep 14

through it all. She’d gotten as drunk as she could last night before 15

passing out on the floor. But at 4 a.m. she’d snapped awake and 16

stumbled into the bathroom. In the glare of the fluorescent light, 17

she’d looked like she was dying. Haggard face, pallid skin, huge 18

burning eyes. “I’m only twenty-four,” she’d whispered. “I’m only 19

twenty-four.” For reasons that now eluded her, this had seemed 20

significant.

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From the front of the room, the voices pressed on, but Laura 22

barely listened. She forced herself to breathe. She noticed her 23

skirt was too tight. During the past few months she’d gained at 24

least ten pounds, but the effect was oddly soothing. Buried in 25

flesh she felt safer. As if she couldn’t be seen.

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Memories were flashing through her mind, like a video on fast-27

forward. Lobsters at Jimmy’s Harborside. Camping in the Smoky 28

Mountains. Dancing at 12th & Porter to driving country rock.

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I’m in the mood, I’m in the mood, I’m in the . . .

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And then there were the other things. The things she didn’t 31

want to remember.

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A blood-soaked shirt behind the bed.

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Bone fragments in the fireplace.

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“Mr. Gage, would you please stand and face the jury?” That 1

was the judge again.

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Steven Gage got to his feet. He seemed calm and somewhat 3

bemused. Simply going through the motions, as if he were hu-4

moring them.

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“Mr. Archer, would you read me the verdict as to count one of 6

this indictment.”

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Archer rubbed a hand over his mouth, then, eyes down, 8

started speaking. “We, the jury, unanimously find that the State 9

has proven the following listed statutory aggravating circum-10

stance or circumstances beyond a reasonable doubt . . .”

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The words rolled on, endless and without meaning. A barrage 12

of neat official language to disguise what was happening.

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Now, Steven. Look. Now.

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But his eyes remained on the jury. He didn’t turn around.

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The sense of déjà vu grew stronger by the moment. It seemed 16

to Laura that they’d done this all just ten days ago. But after the 17

determination of guilt had come a whole new round of proceed-18

ings. They called it the penalty phase. Mitigating factors. Aggra-19

vating factors. All of them brought to light. The testimony had 20

lasted for more than two days, but the jury was back in an hour.

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Laura’s eyes roamed the gallery, the sea of crowded benches.

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The elderly man beside her smelled like wintergreen. The fami-23

lies were sitting in the front rows, as they had throughout the 24

trial. Dahlia’s family to the right of the aisle, Steven’s on the left.

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Dahlia’s parents sat ramrod straight, their teenage son between 26

them. The boy, sullen and slightly sprawled, looked utterly out of 27

place. Across the aisle, Steven’s mother was flanked by two 28

grown sons. A small, plump woman with bottle-blue hair, she’d 29

shrunk down in her seat. Laura had a sense that if her sons 30

weren’t there, she’d slide right onto the floor.

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was dry as sand. She breathed in hot recycled air, blown from 33

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Laura felt the words before she heard them, as her heart tore 2

into her chest.

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“We, the jury, unanimously find that the punishment for the 4

defendant, Steven Lee Gage, shall be death.”

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An instant of absolute silence, and then the whispers began.

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Laura’s stomach heaved, and she pressed her hands together. It 7

had happened, it had actually happened, and she couldn’t take it 8

in. She’d tried to imagine how it might feel, but she’d never 9

imagined this. An utter absence of feeling, a blankness akin to 10

sleep. Sentenced to death.
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the meaning. But before the words could fully sink in, something 12

was happening. Up front, a flurry of action. Steven had lunged 13

toward the judge.

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“I do not accept this verdict! I do not accept it, do you hear 15

me?” He stood slightly crouched and quivering, glaring at Judge 16

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me? All of you will pay!”

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A muffled roar in the gallery, as Kirkpatrick pounded her gavel.

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“Mr. Phillips, control your client!”

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“Steven. Please. Calm down.” George Phillips raised a slender 22

hand, but his client didn’t respond. Instead, Gage took another 23

step forward, his eyes burning into the judge.

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Two court officers were rushing forward, converging around 25

Gage. The first one, well over six foot five, tackled Gage from be-26

hind. He seemed to have gained a hold until Gage bit down on his 27

hand. The injured man stumbled backward, let out an agonized 28

shriek, as his partner, hurling himself toward Gage, wrestled 29

him to the ground. “No! Steven. No! Oh God!” Steven’s mother 30

clutched her other sons’ arms as her screams gave way to sobs.

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Gage fought back from the floor, spitting, writhing, kicking.

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This is what they saw,
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He’d managed to get to his feet again when one of the bailiffs 2

grabbed him, jammed a knee in his lower back and hurled him 3

against a table.

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“Jesus Christ, get him! Get him!” That was Tucker Schuyler, 5

Dahlia’s younger brother. He pounded a fist into his palm, his 6

face as red as his hair.

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Another vicious flailing struggle, and Gage broke free again.

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He flung himself toward the gallery, his eyes bulging grotesquely.

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A swirl of movement now, as spectators streamed for the door.

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The jurors, who’d climbed to their feet, seemed astonished, dis-11

believing. Pretty, blonde juror number four wore an expression of 12

abject terror, one hand clapped over her mouth, her eyes enormous 13

and bright. Jurors number six and seven were edging toward the 14

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“You motherfuckin’ fascists,” Gage shrieked. “You don’t know 17

what you’re doing. Get your fuckin’ hands off me!”

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He was still cursing and kicking when the handcuffs snapped 19

on his wrists. His body strained frantically, shivered, then went 20

slack. His mouth fell open, and he gazed at the room, drained of 21

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