Ryan's Love (14 page)

When the only response me got from
me was sobbing and me clutching his shirt, he continued on to tell
me what he was wanting me to know.

“
First I have to tell you that only reason that I was with
Rachel today was because her mother died.
”

That brought my eyes up to his face.
I had to see if he was telling the truth. I watched his eyes as he
talked.

“
My
mother called me this morning and asked me to bring her up to the
office to go over her mom
’
s will. I was only
holding her because she started crying when we walked off the
elevator. I didn
’
t even want to bring
her up here. It took my mom
’
s pleading for me to
bring her, to do it. Please know that I would never hurt
you,
”
he says looking into my eyes.

He
looked like he was pleading to me with his eyes to believe him. I
want to believe him, but I just don
’
t know if I
could.

“
But
when I looked at y
’
all she looked like
she was happy that I was crying. You knew she was a snake when she
crawled into your bed when you were sleep. Why would you even let
her hang onto you like that? You knew that I would be there at work
and how much it would hurt me to see her on you like that. How many
times do you think that I can stand seeing you and her together
like that,
”
I shout.

I know
I shouldn
’
t be so upset, but I
’
ve been wanting to
say all this for months.

“
Please calm down. You shouldn
’
t be getting so
upset,
”
he says matter-of-factly.

I blew
out a deep breath and started to say more, when the elevator door
opens; and instead of yelling like I wanted to. I simply walked out
of the elevator, leaving him standing there all wide-eyed and mouth
hanging open. I willed myself to not turn around, to keep walking
to my car; get in and drive to my apartment to meet Mrs. Callahan.
As I got in the car, I could hear Ryan calling after me. I ached to
turn around and run into his arms, but I didn
’
t. I drove
off; making my way home. I really wasn
’
t paying attention to
anything around me. I should have though. If I was I would have saw
Ryan jump into his car and follow behind me.

~~~

As I walked up my stairs and am
standing in front of my door, I hear voices on the other side of my
door.

Oh no,
I think to myself. What am I going to do? Who is in my house? If I
hadn
’
t heard a man and a woman
’
s voices through the
door, I wouldn
’
t be so freaked out.
I would have just thought Mrs. Callahan was here by herself. I did
give her my spare key a few months ago. I have my key up to the
door and am about to put it in, when I feel someone grab my
hand.

I jump as I turn around to see who
was touching me.

“
Sunshine, please we need to talk. I can
’
t keep
going on like this,
”
he says.

I
didn
’
t say anything. I am still a little nervous about
someone being in my house. He could see the hesitation and fear on
my face because he placed his hands on my
shoulders.

“
Honey, whats wrong?
”

“
Someone, someone
’
s in my
house,
”
I stammer, pointing to my apartment door.

He
instantly moves me behind him and says,
“
Why were you about to go
inside if you thought someone was in there? I
’
d die if
anything happened to you or our child.
”

I was stilled by his words. I felt a
sense of relief and love wash over my body and I grabbed tightly
onto his back.

“
I
’
m sorry. I was thinking straight. I was just to hurt
when I thought about you and Rachel together,
”
I said crying into his
back.

He swiftly turns around and had me
backed up against my apartment door.

“
I
love you. I
’
d give my life to
make sure you were happy if I could. I will spend the rest of my
life making up all of the pain that I caused you, if you let me.
Please let me love you. Please be mine. Please tell me that you
still love me. I so want to hold and kiss you so bad right now. I
miss your soft lips on mine,
”
he says as he rubs my bottom lip with
his finger.

I moan at his touch. He leans down
and kisses me right at the corner of my mouth, then he looks back
up at me.

“
Can I kiss
you,
”
he asks?

When I nod yes, he smiles and leans
back down to kiss me; when my apartment door opens.

“
Why
the hell are you touching my sister?
”

“
James,
”
I squeal as I peek around Ryan
’
s large
frame.

I see
my brothers
’
stern face as he glares at Ryan. Ryan
turned around to face him, when James sees me full
on.

“
What
the hell,
”
he proclaims as he pulls me to him.

“
You
’
re pregnant?
”

I shrink back into Ryan and his arms
immediately encases me.

“
I
wanted to tell you. But you were away and I didn
’
t want to
worry you,
”
I
say.

“
Worry me.
You
’
re my sister. I love you. Its my job to take care of
you.
”

“
Actually thats my job,
”
Ryan says, speaking
up.

My
brother finally looks Ryan over from head to toe then says,
“
Well it
doesn
’
t look like you
’
ve been doing a good
job now does it. Look at my baby sister, she
’
s so small and
sad looking. She should be happy and glowing.
”

“
Sunshine, sweetheart what are you all doing talking in the
hallway,
”
Mrs. Callahan says from behind James.

I grab
Ryan
’
s hand and gently push past James, going into my
apartment and to Mrs. Callahan.

“
Oh
Mom, thank you for being here,
”
I say hugging her
tightly.

“
Mom,
”
I hear James and Ryan say questioningly from behind
us.

She
looks over my shoulder at the two of them and says,
“
Yes, this is
my baby right here; and she is having my babys
’
baby.
I
’
m going to do everything that I can to make sure she
is ok. Now what the two of you need to do is sit down and start
getting along. Because she comes first not you,
”
she says and leads me
back into the bathroom.

Leaving the two of them standing
there looking at each other then back at us.

She leads me into the bathroom,
where I see a steamy bath full of bubbles waiting. There was also
dozens of candles all around the bathroom; and slow low music
playing.

“
What
’
s all
this,
”
I ask
her?

“
It
’
s just a little something to help you
relax,
”
she says as she takes my purse off of my
shoulder.

“
Now
let me help you get in this nice warm bath so you can soak a bit,
while I go set these two knuckle heads straight.
”

“
Ok,
”
I say as she helps me out of my jacket and clothes; then
helps me carefully lower myself into the warm bath
water.

I let out an almost embarrassing
moan as the warm water soaks straight thru to my bones.

“
Aaaah, this feels so good,
”
I moaned.

I closed my eyes as she fluttered
around in the bathroom a bit more, before she left out.

“
I
’
ll be back later to check on you,
”
she says as she quietly
closes the bathroom door.

I sink
into the bath even more. After a few long relaxing minutes, I start
to fall into a deep sleep when I am woken up by the bathroom door
softly opening and closing. I assume it
’
s Mrs.
Callahan.

She
kneels beside the bathtub and starts pouring water over my
hair.
“
Thank you Mom for all of this. This feels amazing. I really
needed this.
”

She
didn
’
t say anything thing, but she started to massage my
hair after squirting shampoo in it.

“
Its
funny. I am so thankful for everything that you are doing for me,
but I really wish that Ryan was the one who was washing my hair
right now,
’
I say.

“
Is
that right,
”
Ryan whispers close to my ear.

My eyes pop open and I see a very
sexy Ryan leaning over the tub with his hands in my
hair.

Chapter 10 (Ryan)

“
So
what are your intentions with my sister,
”
James asks me as the
both of us stare at each other?

“
I
intend on marrying her.
”

“
Well
don
’
t you think you should have already done
that,
”
he says stepping closer to me.

I
could see that his hands are balled up at his sides and he was
close to flipping out on me. Really I can
’
t say that I
blame him. If she was my sister I
’
d be just as upset.
I
’
d probably pound my face in without even asking what
happened. So I respect him a lot for showing such restraint as he
talks to me.

I sit
down on the couch and say,
“
I know. I should have
married her a long time ago. I love her. I
’
ve made a mess
of our relationship; and I have been trying for months to get her
to come back to me.
”

His
whole body relaxes a bit and he sits down beside me.
“
What
happened,
”
he asks?

I take a deep breath and sit back
into the couch. I know that he is going to be upset, but he should
know. Maybe not all of the details, but most of it. So I start by
telling him how we met. All of the craziness surrounding that minus
the steamy details. I told him about all of the other things that
happened in our relationship. I told him about the baby and what
happened with Rachel. He hopped up at that and was ready to pound
me one, but I also told him about how Rachel was trying to break us
up the whole time. That she was upset that I wanted Sunshine and
not her. It was my fault for putting myself in that situation. But
that I never meant to hurt Sunshine.

“
Ok,
if all that is true then why were you with that Rachel
today,
”
James asks?

“
I
can answer that,
”
my mom says walking from the
bathroom.

“
Ma
’
am,
”
he said to her.

“
You
see Rachel
’
s mother passed away suddenly a few days ago; and
she called me crying and telling me that she
didn
’
t have way to the office for the reading of her moms
will. Me not thinking anything of it; I called Ryan and begged him
to bring her. He told me that he didn
’
t want to be around
her, that he had somewhere more important to be. But I basically
guilt tripped him into bringing her.
”