Struggling Free (Hidden Secrets Book 5) (26 page)
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Authors: P. J. Belden
Nathan
No
matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get my mind off Australia. Moreover the woman I met there. She was beautiful beyond words and intelligent, funny and seemed to love adventure. It bothered me that she just let me walk away. It was a moment that I needed her to leap. I needed her to take that risk, but she didn’t do it.
How
is it that I can’t seem to fall for a woman that wants to fall with me? No matter how damn hard I try. Shaking my head, I walked into my house. Sitting at the picnic today really cemented into my head what I was missing.
Work.
I needed to work.
Love
was how I almost lost my job and everything I’ve built for myself. Love was what brought me to my knees, making a fool of myself and drinking like there was no tomorrow. Love was what sent me across the ocean and found me over there in the form of a black haired, blue eyed bombshell.
Love
was for idiots. I’m tired of being an idiot. Watching all the guys around me finding their spouses was what had me thinking that if they were falling maybe I could too. Well, I fell twice and look where it got me… alone and only my hand to bring me pleasure.
Rosy
and her five sisters were great and all, but I don’t look at my hand, saying ‘Damn you’re sexy let me get a piece of you.’ No, instead I picture the black haired blue eyed beauty that once again has me weak. I can’t be weak anymore.
When
Casey was shot and I watched Jake and Vicky fall apart, I didn’t want that. My job held that risk. But I love my job. So there is what I’ll marry. I’ll marry my job and forget about everything else. Work myself to the bone until I can just come home and crash without thinking about the oceans and the treasures you can find when you aren’t exactly looking. After tonight…
Tonight,
I’m going to grab my cock one more time and remember Kristy. Remember our moments, her mouth around my cock, how she tasted, and the sounds she made. Tonight I’ll remember everything that I’ll need to forget tomorrow. Tonight, I’ll remember her as I throw myself over the edge calling out her name to my empty house. Tonight, I’ll pretend she’s falling asleep next to me. Tonight, I’ll dream of my vacation to Australia and everything I lost and gained there.
If you enjoyed reading
Struggling Free (#5 Hidden Secrets), you might enjoy some other titles by this author…
Hidden Secrets series
(Each book can be read as stand alones, but because the series follows a ‘family’ it’s best to read in order to have the full understanding of each character)
Stranded series
Lost Trilogy
(Must be read in order)
Stand Alone
Forbidden Paths (#1 Hawthorne’s Angels)—Oct. 2014
There are times in our life when we cross paths that aren’t meant to be crossed. Well, consider them crossed.
Faith Harper was
a goodie two shoes. All her life, she’s always done exactly as she’s told, even pushing away her one true love so many years ago. That was until she found out that the man she was set up to marry had a whole secret life behind her back. Angry and hell bent on punishing her family, Faith finds herself on a path she can’t get off of.
Logan James has been the dependable responsible man that everyone needed him to be. After a tragedy strikes his family when he
was only fifteen years old, he was forced to become an adult. Several years later, he still wrestles with the one that got away. Exhausted and needing something to feel alive, Logan finds himself on a path that he never thought he’d find again.
The problem was Faith and Logan should have never crossed paths. They were not to meet. Yet here they are
…again. It can’t be fate, but if it isn’t that… what is it? Sometimes the best paths to walk down are the Forbidden Paths.
This journey has been such an amazing experience for me. I have learned so much, but nothing has been more important than finding belief in myself. Belief that if I work hard enough anything is possible. This lesson was not an easy one for me to learn, but the people that I have come across along the way have been such amazing support that it became easier. I want to take this time to thank a few of them. They deserve to be acknowledged.
First, I want to start off with my girls
Kayla, Kristy, Leanne, Renee,
and
Mechelle.
The endless support and help with making my books polished has been amazing, but it is your friendship and our endless conversations, full of laughter, that have meant the most to me. If I could say one thing to each one of you that you remember it would be this:
We all fight our own demons and struggle down our own paths, but with amazing people to light the way makes even the darkest days seem bright.
Thank you so much ladies, truly from the bottom of my heart, you guys are aces in my book!
To
Vicky
, oh girl what can I say to you that I have already said a million and one times? You have been walking right alongside me from the very beginning. Our endless chats about books and book boyfriends to your encouraging words with each of my books… I can tell you right now that Jake will not be enough thanks for everything you’ve done for me, but I think he’ll keep you occupied enough. HA!! I love you girlie!
To
Kylie
and
Ashley
, oh Lord what dare you say to two crazy chicks? How about, I lubbers you both so much! Yeah, I think that’s a safe topic. Haha. You girls are like the best friends that a girl could ask for! You’ll be forever in my heart and I will always be there for you!
To
Allison
, Man girl what can I say… You are one of the best freaking people I have ever met. I’m so grateful to call you a friend. Our conversations cover such random topics, but we bonded over books and you entered my heart because of the amazing person you are. Don’t change. I’m always here no matter what. <3 Hugs! <3
To
Shannon
, we’ve been walking the same path, but at different times, always seeming to miss each other. Behind you, you leave a trail, a brightness, from your beautiful heart and loving personality. From the moment I met you until now, you have made an imprint on my life and on my heart that will forever remain. I don’t know what I can say to show you how much you mean, but from every text or message…the light you give grows brighter. I love you girl!
To
Lia
and
Faith
, you two have been more than amazing support to me throughout my journey and I can’t even begin to tell you guys thank you enough. Even when I can’t, you do and that touches my heart so profoundly. You are AMAZING and I am so blessed to call you friends. I love you both!
To
Kaylie,
My dear sweet, loveable Kaylie. You are just… simply… I’m at a loss for words. You’re friendship has been a guiding light as I weaved my way through my path and there is no way I can thank you for that. The strength you carry about you day in and day out is astounding and even more inspiring. Girl, you are one cool chick! I love ya! Here’s to more time with laughs and inspiration.
To
Isa,
You are a driving force in getting my name out there. Without your constant support and ability to make me laugh even when it’s the last thing I want to do, I’m not sure I’d be this far. You are simply amazing and soon you’ll have your own book with your own book boyfriend hehehe. <3 Hugs! <3
To
Jennifer, Shawna, Kimberly, Kia, Amber, Kim B., Michelle, Kerry, Jamie, Tabatha
(crap I know I’m forgetting people), you girls are simply amazing. Each of you sprout wings and share your beautiful personalities with the world on a daily basis. Don’t let anything dim your lights. You are ALL in my heart and I’ll always be here when you need me and even when you don’t. <3 you all bunches!
To the
Beta Ladies
, you girls are one hell of an amazing group of women. Each of you so unique and talented, I’m winded by your support and guidance. I wouldn’t be here without each of you. So from my heart to all of you, Thank you so much!
To all the members of
P. J. Belden’s Beautiful Bellas Street Team,
all you ladies are amazing and I’m so blessed to have you along for the journey. There are no amount of words that will express my gratefulness for what you do. <3 you all!!
To my
Readers
, what can I say? Without you guys, I wouldn’t be writing this out to begin with. I’d still have all these books sitting in a notebook on my shelf never to see the light of day. Because of all of you, I continue to type them out and thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to do something that I love. Each of you has touched my heart in a way I can’t describe. Thank you, thank you, thank you! <3 Hugs! <3
I am sure there are people that I’m missing and I’m so terribly sorry if I did. Please know that you are still important to me and always will be (even if I spaced and didn’t get you on the list). Thank you for reading another one of my books…Here’s to the next one y’all!!! *waves*
Writing has always been an outlet for me. Growing up, I’d write poems based on my moods or events happening around me. Eventually they grew from there. It was a great way for me to clear my head at night. A way to kind of shut down the day, so to speak. Now here I am so many years later, finally taking the leap into the author world.
My husband has been my rock this whole journey. We’ve been married for eleven years and have three
amazingly beautiful children (10, 8, 5). They are the reason I push myself as hard as I do. They are my reason to strive each day to be better, to give them better. We are currently living in a small town in Indiana, but we have lived in Alaska, Illinois, Georgia and Tennessee. Out of all the places we’ve lived, Alaska has been my favorite and most inspirational too.
When I’m not writing, I’m chasing my three kids,
a four year old Siberian Husky, or even sometimes my husband *winks*. We love having family craft day. If it is a down day, you can find me curled up with a good book or occasionally watching some television.
Our lives are like books. We’ve just got to write the story. So let’s write the best one to hit the pages.
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