Pushing Reset (7 page)

Chapter 17

Jude blinked as he looked down at his hands. He’d played something but he had no idea what. He felt his lips curve lazily and he sighed. There was no way he was going to get any work done, not after what had happened the night before. His heart started to pound as he pictured Brandon in his bed, writhing and moaning as he came for Jude. Nope. His prospects for accomplishing anything productive went up in smoke. He shook his head and hummed “Uh-oh, Spaghetti-Oh’s” as his fingers picked out the tune. There was a soft chuckle behind him and Jude turned in his seat to find Brandon leaning against the door.

“Writer’s block?” He asked and the corner of his lips tilted and Jude’s stomach flipped. Jude pushed a hand though his hair and shook his head softly.

“More like a complete and total lack of brain function. I’m a little distracted,” he admitted and Brandon’s jaw twitched and Jude suspected he was seeing the hint of a blush before Brandon’s eyes dropped to the rug.
We’re like a couple of teenage girls,
Jude decided.
This. Is. Unbelievable
. When Brandon looked back up, his expression was more serious.

“Can I talk to you in the office, please?” He asked and Jude’s brows pulled together and a ripple of worry rushed through him as he nodded.

“Sure,” he said as he stood. Brandon’s smiled softly before he turned and Jude followed. Brandon waved Jude into the office and his eyes searched Brandon’s face as he passed. His expression was odd, maybe pensive and a little nervous. Jude couldn’t recall ever seeing it. He pushed his hands into his pockets as he waited in the middle of the room. His brows rose when Brandon shut the door and locked it. When Brandon turned, his eyes shimmered as he rushed across the room.

“Jude!” His voice cracked as his hands cradled Jude’s face. “I’m gay!” Brandon whispered excitedly as his eyes poured into Jude’s. Jude couldn’t stop the laugh that burst from his lips as relief and joy burst within him and his arms closed around Brandon.

“I’d say there’s a good chance but I wouldn’t throw out your boxer briefs and switch to jocks yet,” he teased before Brandon’s lips crashed into his. Jude’s eyes flared as Brandon’s tongue tangled urgently with his. The kiss wasn’t smooth or what Jude would consider sensual. It was hungry, determined and curious. It drove Jude out of his mind. When Brandon raised his head Jude nodded drunkenly. “Yeah. That felt really gay,” he panted and Brandon licked his lips as his eyes traveled down Jude’s chest and settled on his groin.

“I can’t stop thinking about your body.” His breath felt damp and warm on Jude’s lips and one of his legs buckled. He tightened his grip on Brandon’s shirt and pulled in a deep breath.
This is not happening,
he bit his tongue hard because he couldn’t risk letting go to pinch himself. Brandon’s eyes were still on his crotch and Jude swallowed a groan when Brandon’s hands pressed against his chest and slowly slid down. It was excruciating and his heart was deafening by the time Brandon’s fingers reached the waist of Jude’s trousers. “Especially this,” Brandon’s voice was gravelly as his hand curved around Jude’s hard-on. Jude’s eyes rolled and he breathed Brandon’s name as his head fell back. “Can I try…” Brandon’s voice failed and he cleared his throat. “Can I try sucking it?” He rasped and Jude’s eyes snapped open wide and he blinked rapidly at the ceiling before his head slowly tilted forward. Brandon’s eyes were heavy when Jude found them. Brandon licked his lips and Jude was sure he was sweating. He couldn’t feel anything but his cock but he was pretty sure sweat was happening.

“Oh… Whaaat?” His voice broke but he couldn’t be bothered with it at the moment. Brandon’s fingers traced Jude’s erection through his pants with such reverent curiosity, Jude lost his breath.

“Teach me how to…” Brandon cleared his throat again. “Show me how to do what you did,” he asked as his lips brushed against Jude’s. This time, the kiss was slower and more tender, it felt like a plea. Jude pulled back and tried to breathe evenly.

“Can I sit down?” He asked and Brandon nodded as he backed him toward the sofa. As soon as he felt it hit the back of his legs, Jude dropped and stared up at Brandon.

“You want me to show you how to suck a dick?” He asked in utter disbelief and Brandon nodded his head as he carefully lowered himself to his knees between Jude’s legs.

“I’ve been watching videos for the last hour. I think I know how it works, in theory,” he said and Jude’s brows jumped.

“You’ve been watching porn?” His eyes swung to the laptop on Brandon’s desk and it seemed like the most impossible scenario. Brandon’s hands glided up Jude’s thighs and he forgot about the laptop.

“Yeah. You looked busy when I came downstairs so I thought I’d see what I could find online first. But I want you to teach me what you like.” He stroked Jude through his linen trousers and Jude could only stare as his brain broke into hundreds of pieces and crumbled into a useless pile of broken brain. After several moments, Brandon swatted Jude’s thigh and called to him. Jude pulled his lips in and bit down so that he could feel them again.

“Do you realize that I’ve fantasized about this, almost exclusively, for twenty years?” Jude whispered. Warmth trailed down his cheeks and Jude realized he was crying.
Beautiful. The hottest moment of your whole goddamned life and you have to make it awkward.
Brandon’s lips curved into a soft grin and his eyes glittered as he flicked the button at Jude’s waist free.

“Then show me how to make this perfect,” he said as he tugged the zipper down. The pile of brain pieces went up in flames as Brandon tugged at the waist and Jude lifted his hips and gasped as his pants and boxers slid down his legs and his cock sprang free. Brandon’s pupils spread and his focus was so intense, Jude thought he’d probably get off if Brandon kept looking at him like that for a little bit longer.
Jesus, he doesn’t even have to touch me. He can just use The Force to jerk me off,
Jude thought as he filled his lungs. Brandon’s eyes flicked to his and Jude nodded, as much to shake his brain into motion as in agreement.

“Right,” Jude exhaled and gripped the edge of the cushion. “Um… You can start by touching me. Like you did last night,” Jude said and Brandon’s lips curved drowsily and Jude knew he was remembering what happened in Jude’s bed.
Oh, I’m so fucked. Just thinking about him, thinking about making me come last night is about to finish me,
Jude complained. Brandon’s hand slid up Jude’s thigh before it wrapped around Jude’s shaft and began to stroke. Jude clenched his jaw and pulled air through his nose slowly before blowing out, hoping that focusing on the mechanical act of breathing might save him.

“I love how your cock feels in my hand,” Brandon whispered as he looked up at Jude.
Shit.
Jude nodded weakly.

“I love it too,” he agreed breathlessly.
Too much. You have to move this along or you’ll shoot before he’s even started,
Jude warned. “That’s good. Now, lick it. Just all over,” Jude whispered. He wished he was capable of appearing cooler and more knowledgable but he felt absolutely no swagger at the moment. This might as well have been his first time. Brandon nodded and licked his lips and Jude’s eyes grew very wide as Brandon lowered his head and his tongue stretched past his lips. It pressed flat against the middle of Jude’s shaft and ever so slowly slid up and Jude hung onto the sofa for dear life. Brandon hummed softly, a sound that was part surprise and part delight before he repeated the motion and sweat broke out on Jude’s brow as he fought to keep his ass in the seat. The licking became less tentative and more curious as Brandon explored Jude’s erection.

“You taste so good,” Brandon murmured as his tongue swept around the head and Jude bit his tongue to keep from calling out. “Can I try sucking now?” Brandon asked and Jude could only nod. Brandon’s lips were gentle as they wrapped around Jude and he sucked lightly. Jude hissed and his fingers hovered and splayed above Brandon’s head as he fought the urge to push Brandon’s head down. The head of Jude’s cock was sensitive and Brandon was very focused on it. Jude cleared his throat and carefully slid his fingers through Brandon’s hair. It was so soft and cool, just as Jude always imagined it would be when he pictured Brandon going down on him. His balls throbbed and tightened and Jude shook his head.
Pull your shit together. You need to make this one count. He could come to his senses and you’ll never get another chance,
Jude realized and he grit his teeth as his fingers sifted through Brandon’s hair.

“Deeper. Take as much as you can without gagging and try not to let your teeth scrape,” Jude guided and was immediately rewarded with blissfully soft, wet heat wrapping around his shaft. “Yessss…” Jude hissed as his other hand curved lovingly around Brandon’s jaw. “That feels good. Suck as you raise your head,” he said and groaned as Brandon pulled back. Jude’s fingers trembled against Brandon’s scalp and he gasped. “Not all the way. Not too much with the head. Just tease the underside a little with your lips and tongue but not the whole head,” he explained and Brandon nodded slightly before his lips tightened and massaged just under the head before he lowered and took Jude as deep as he could again. “Ooohhh… That was perfect,” Jude moaned as his head fell back. “Just do any combination of those things and I’m good. Licking, sucking, deep throat and play with the underside,” he panted and Brandon hummed in agreement and Jude jumped as Brandon’s throat vibrated around his cock. Brandon chuckled and Jude had to bite his knuckle to keep from screaming.

The next several minutes were glorious for Jude. Brandon was very enthusiastic and thorough as he experimented with the techniques Jude taught him. He would settle into a steady rhythm, sucking and stroking until Jude felt his nerves tighten before Brandon would take him deep and hum before he’d go back to steady sucking. Then, Brandon would raise his head and use his lips and the tip of his tongue on the underside of the head before he released Jude and hungrily licked up and down the shaft. Once he’d covered every inch with his tongue and saliva, Brandon would take Jude deep again and go back to steady sucking and stroking until Jude felt the pressure start to coil only to stop and cool Jude down with the greedy lapping of his tongue.
Holy fuck! His first time and he’s edging me,
Jude thought frantically as his legs stretched restlessly and he arched on the sofa.

“Brandon… I can’t anymore, I need to come,” Jude begged and Brandon’s eyes rose and held Jude’s as he licked up the length of Jude’s shaft. “Please, just suck.” It was ragged and desperate and Brandon’s eyes flashed before his lips wrapped around Jude and beautiful, searing heat clung to Jude’s cock in combination with insistent sucking pressure and Jude’s eyelids fell as heavy warmth slid though his veins. Brandon’s head bounced steadily over his groin as Jude’s nerves twisted and sparked and pleasure and pressure gripped his sack and pushed into the base of his cock. “Oh, God! I’m close, Brandon!” Jude whimpered as he started to shake. “You can just use your hand, you don’t have to…” Jude’s mouth ripped open in shock and euphoria as Brandon’s arms wrapped tight around Jude’s waist and he began to suck ruthlessly. Jude’s nerves exploded and his body bucked as heat surged up his shaft and come burst from the head, deep in Brandon’s throat. Jude writhed and chanted Brandon’s name as he felt the come sucked enthusiastically from his cock as Brandon growled softly. “Ok! That’s good!” Jude urged as he gathered Brandon’s face in his hand and gently pushed him off. Brandon’s lips pulled tight as he looked up at Jude.

“I wasn’t ready to stop,” he complained. “I want more,” Brandon said and Jude shook his head as he fell back on the sofa.

“I’m done. I’m out.” He threw an arm over his eyes and sighed as his body became heavy and slow. “Jesus, I’m so done,” Jude mumbled. He gasped and jumped when wet warmth brushed his sack and looked down to find Brandon’s tongue a breath away from his balls. Jude shook his head as he leaned forward and reached for Brandon’s face. “Slow down,” Jude said as he pulled Brandon’s face to his. He pecked at Brandon’s lips until they opened. His tongue met Brandon’s and he felt a wave of satisfied warmth wash through him as he tasted his come in Brandon’s mouth. Brandon pulled his lips free and they curved gently as his eyes met Jude’s.

“You taste so good. Can I do it again?” Brandon asked as he tried to push Jude back. Jude shook his head and laughed as he grabbed Brandon’s shoulders.

“You need to calm down,” Jude teased. “I don’t know how your body works but I’m going to need some time. And probably a nap,” he admitted and Brandon sighed as he sat back on his heels.

“I’m going to want to do a lot of that,” he warned and Jude’s brain seized. Jude wasn’t sure what was going on but Brandon insisting that he wanted to suck Jude’s cock, a lot, couldn’t have actually happened. Not in any world that Jude recognized. He could barely feel his body as Brandon fixed Jude’s pants and claimed his lips for a tender, drugging kiss before rising to his feet. “Lay down and take a nap,” Brandon commanded and Jude could only nod and let his body slide and stretch along the sofa as he watched Brandon open the office door. “I’ll wake you up for lunch,” Brandon said softly as he went to his desk and took his seat. “You’re going to need to build up your energy,” he added and Jude was sure he was slipping into a dream world as he pulled a throw pillow beneath his head.

Chapter 18

Jude had another moment, right before Brandon opened his bedroom door. He raised his hand to knock and it shook as his brain second-guessed reality. None of it seemed possible. The forty-eight hours prior couldn’t have happened and Jude was sure that Brandon was going to open the door and look at him like he’d stapled a dead bird to his forehead.

“Come on in,” Brandon’s smile was warm and relaxed as he waved Jude in wearing nothing but his silk pajama pants. It took Jude a moment before his feet could carry him into the room and his hands were still shaking when he shut the door and locked it. “Give me a minute to finish this email,” Brandon said as he sat cross-legged in the middle of the bed with this laptop.

Jude nodded as he followed and crawled onto the bed and positioned himself behind Brandon. When his legs were resting outside of Brandon’s, Jude slid his hands around Brand’s waist and sighed happily as he rubbed his cheek against Brandon’s shoulder. He felt Brandon tense for a moment before his body relaxed against Jude’s.

“Is this alright?” Jude asked gently as his lips brushed over Brandon’s skin. Jude felt Brandon’s hand wrap around his thigh and the room became warmer.

“Yeah. It’s a little strange having someone this close but I like it.” His voice was a low, smooth rumble and it settled in Jude’s balls and made them throb.

Jude’s hands splayed and pressed against Brandon’s chest as he molded his body to Brandon’s back. It was almost too much. Being allowed to touch so much of Brandon’s bare skin and hold him so close was something Jude had never even fantasized about, it was so unfathomable. If Brandon hadn’t felt so solid and his skin so warm, Jude would have been certain he was dreaming. He heard the click of the laptop closing and Brandon leaned across the bed and set it on the bedside table. Then, he relaxed against Jude’s chest and let his head fall back on Jude’s shoulder. Jude hummed happily as his lips slid up Brandon’s neck.

“I never thought I’d be able to hold you like this,” he whispered when his lips found Brandon’s ear. Brandon chuckled and shook his head.

“It seemed even less possible in my mind until recently,” Brandon murmured as his hands covered Jude’s. Jude laughed softly as he nibbled Brandon’s earlobe. Brandon groaned and his hands guided Jude’s lower. “I thought I was losing my mind, Jude,” he whispered and Jude couldn’t help but smile.

“I know the feeling,” he said as his hands slid down Brandon’s stomach. Brandon hissed and his hips jumped when Jude’s hand glided over Brandon’s silk covered erection.

“I’m serious.” His voice was thin and gravelly. “One day you were the same as you’d always been and the next, I was noticing things like your back muscles and your lips. I couldn’t eat, I’d get so hung up on your lips,” Brandon admitted and Jude’s head snapped back as he put the pieces together.

“The lip reading!” He gasped and Brandon nodded.

“Yeah. My brain was so completely useless, that was the best I could come up with,” Brandon explained and Jude bit his lip to keep from laughing. “And when we were playing basketball, you wiped your face with your t-shirt the way you’ve done about a thousand times before and I almost swallowed my tongue. I couldn’t be around you and not get turned on. At night, I’d have the most insane dreams, I was almost afraid to go to sleep. Some nights, I was practically climbing the walls, trying to think of anything else so I wouldn’t give into temptation and jerk off while thinking about you,” Brandon said and a bark of laughter burst from Jude.

“Really? I don’t think there’s been a day in the last twenty years that I didn’t think about you and rub one out at least once,” Jude said and Brandon shook his head.

“No way. There’s no way I would have been able to face you without having a nervous breakdown if I’d gotten off while thinking about you,” Brandon murmured and Jude nodded his head in understanding. He used to feel awkward around Brandon but he’d had years to adjust.

“I’m sure all of this is a bit of a shock for you. You’re handling it really well though,” he said gently as his hand stroked Brandon through his pants. Brandon hummed as he turned his head and found Jude’s lips.

“I wouldn’t describe my current mood as shocked,” he whispered and Jude grinned as their lips brushed. Brandon’s tongue traced Jude’s lips and there was more heat. “I feel relieved, Jude. I thought I was asexual. I just had no interest in sex and my body never felt things. Now, it’s like I’m awake and I want to try everything.” Brandon turned and pushed Jude back on the bed. “Can we have sex tonight?” He asked and Jude’s eyes flared as he looked up at Brandon.

“That depends on what your definition of sex is?” He said slowly. Brandon might not be feeling any shock but hearing him ask if they could have sex was not something Jude’s brain could process easily. Brandon licked his lips as he stared down at Jude.
This is so surreal,
Jude thought as his eyes followed Brandon’s tongue.

“I’m thinking it involves your cock in my ass, or mine in yours,” Brandon said as his lips lowered and settled over Jude’s. “We could take turns, flip fuck.” His lips clung to Jude’s and his breath was cool and minty. Jude groaned as he slid his hand into Brandon’s hair.

“You’ve got to slow down with the porn, dude.” His other hand glided down’s Brandon’s back and slipped beneath the waist of his pants. Brandon growled softly as Jude’s hand wrapped around the firm swell of his ass and squeezed. “You’ve been gay for about a week. Everyone loves blow jobs but anal sex is a whole different game,” he warned and Brandon raised his head and looked confused.

“Isn’t that what gay men do? That’s how they have sex, right?” He asked as he ground his hips against Jude’s. He was definitely turned on by the idea. Jude shrugged as he pushed Brandon’s pants down over his ass.

“There’s a lot we can do that doesn’t involve this,” he murmured as his fingers traced the cleft of Brandon’s ass. Brandon shivered and his cock twitched between them. “Some guys don’t enjoy getting fucked or fucking guys like that,” Jude explained and Brandon’s brows pulled together.

“I assumed it was mostly blow jobs and anal sex,” Brandon said and Jude shook his head.

“That’s what you get in porn. Or when you’re meeting up with someone from Grindr. I know gay couples that don’t have a lot of anal sex. There are lots of other ways to get off,” Jude explained and Brandon chewed on his lip for a moment.

“Are you not into it? I just assumed that you did a lot of that,” he said and Jude laughed softly as his fingers slipped between the cheeks of Brandon’s ass. Brandon hissed and became very still.

“Oh, I really like fucking men. I’ve always been a little hesitant about letting men fuck me because it always made me feel submissive if I didn’t really know or like them. But I really want you to fuck me. I just want to wait a while.” He found the puckered tightness of Brandon’s hole and teased it. Jude felt it quiver and Brandon trembled. He swallowed loudly before his tongue swept over his lips and Jude rocked his hips, grinding his cock against Brandon’s.

“Why do you want to wait?” His voice was ragged and thick and Jude shut his eyes as a current of heat and need swept through him.

“I want to get tested first. When we fuck, I don’t want condoms between us. I’ve never done that with anyone and I want it to be different with you,” Jude stated. He rolled them and Brandon lifted his hips when Jude grabbed the front of his pants and pulled. “And I don’t imagine you’ve spent a lot of time playing with your ass when you masturbated.” He managed not to laugh when Brandon’s eyes grew wide and he shook his head. “I’ve got a lot to teach you, then,” Jude whispered as his head dropped into the corner of Brandon’s neck.

“I assumed,” Brandon mumbled and Jude grinned as his lips slid across his collar bone. “Are you sure you want to wait?” He asked and Jude nodded as his lips glided through the soft hair in the middle of Brandon’s chest.

“I want you to feel comfortable with everything and I want to learn what works for you,” Jude explained. “Like this,” he murmured as his tongue flicked Brandon’s nipple then swirled around the puckering mound. “How much do you like that?” Jude asked and chuckled as Brandon’s hips came off the bed.

“A lot!” He gasped as his hands wrapped around Jude’s head. “I like that a lot,” Brandon said hoarsely. Jude grinned mischievously.

“And this?” He asked before his teeth nipped and tugged. Brandon cursed and one of his fists hit the bed.

“Yeah. That’s good too,” he rasped. Jude’s lips closed around Brandon’s nipple and he sucked hard. “Fuck!” Brandon squeaked and Jude felt Brandon’s cock throb against his thigh. Jude bit his lip and raised his head.

“See. That’s important to know,” Jude said before he switched to the other side and Brandon whimpered as Jude blew and caused the skin to draw tight.

He laved and sucked, enjoying Brandon’s distress and the way his hips thrust as Brandon ground against Jude’s thigh, instinctively seeking relief. Jude slowly explored Brandon’s chest and stomach as he made his way down. He learned that they both enjoyed it immensely when Jude licked Brandon’s Adonis belt and that Brandon was very ticklish on the inside of his thighs. Jude bypassed Brandon’s cock and spread his thighs wide as he pressed his face into Brandon’s sack and licked and sucked as he massaged the soft skin beneath Brandon’s balls. Brandon became silent and barely breathed as Jude pushed his thighs up and back as his tongue dipped into the cleft of his ass. Jude’s mouth watered as the soft, salty sweetness of Brandon’s skin washed over his tongue and he parted Brandon so he could find more. Jude began with broad strokes, lapping and humming as Brandon twitched and jumped. Jude looked up and Brandon was resting on his elbows. His hands were fisted in the sheets and his chest heaved as he watched Jude. Jude let his tongue stretch and his eyes held Brandon’s as he circled the tight, puckered bud of his ass. Brandon’s chest locked. Jude flicked and Brandon flinched. Jude pressed his tongue flat against Brandon’s hole, letting it drag hard and Brandon began to shake. Jude’s lips pressed against Brandon’s tender skin and he sucked. A loud gasp filled the room and Jude would have laughed if he wasn’t so painfully turned on. Rimming was another thing Jude rarely did because he got very little out of it but there he was drooling and suffering a serious hard-on as he feasted on Brandon’s ass. Jude shook his head in disbelief, tugging on Brandon’s flesh in the process and he hissed. This time, Jude laughed softly as he looked up at Brandon.

“You had better like this,” Jude warned and Brandon nodded drunkenly. “Good. Because this is my new favorite thing,” he announced before he lowered his head and sucked greedily before he made his tongue firm and flicked against Brandon’s hole.

Brandon fell back on the bed with a loud moan and his hand clapped over his mouth to stifle a scream when Jude began to drill into his tightness. Brandon was so sweet and tender, Jude couldn’t get enough. He held Brandon open as he probed and sucked hungrily as Brandon lolled and writhed above him. Jude knew Brandon was close and his jaw twinged in anticipation as his hand wrapped around Brandon’s cock and began to stroke.

“Shitshitshitshitshit…” Brandon whimpered and Jude’s eyes flared as his hand quickly became slick with pre-cum.

Jude sucked and thrust with his tongue in time with his strokes until Brandon’s shoulder’s came of the bed and his toes curled. Jude pushed off the bed and dove for Brandon’s cock. He wrapped his lips around the head and sucked as his hand slid and tugged at Brandon’s length. Brandon’s head snapped back and his body locked as Jude’s mouth was flooded with burst after burst of thick, hot come. He swallowed as he sucked and Brandon began to babble and convulse wildly. Jude hung on until Brandon’s body went limp and melted onto the mattress. Once Jude was satisfied that Brandon had given up every drop he had, Jude growled softly as he licked Brandon’s cock and stomach clean. There was a lot of pre-cum and Jude practically purred as he rolled onto his side and licked it off of his hand. Brandon sighed contentedly as he rolled toward Jude.

“My turn,” Brandon growled as he pushed Jude onto his back and attacked Jude’s mouth for an urgent, demanding kiss before his teeth grazed down Jude’s throat.

“By all means, you know how I like to be fair,” Jude mumbled as his fingers sifted through Brandon’s hair. Brandon’s lips locked around Jude’s nipple and sucked hard and Jude didn’t say another coherent thing for the rest of the night.