Pushing Reset (10 page)

Chapter 23

Jude

Finished with the lab. Grabbing coffee and then Noah’s glasses from the optometrist. Want anything?

Brandon

You. Hurry home.

“Hey, Jude! What can I get you?”

Jude swallowed a groan as he began to type his reply and shook his head softly. He was going to be running around town with a hard-on, thanks to Brandon.

“Can I get a quad espresso con panne, please?” Jude murmured then bit his lip as he typed.

Jude

Figure out some excuse to get Mrs. Kelly out of the house. I should be home in about half an hour.

“That will be $3.62. I get off in twenty minutes, if you want to hang around,” a warm voice said softly and Jude’s head snapped up. His eyes widened in recognition and Jude smiled as he opened his wallet and pulled out a $5.

“Hey, Chris.” Jude discreetly checked the name tag and was slightly relieved that he’d remembered the barista’s name. Chris’ smile was brilliant as he reached to hand Jude the change but Jude waved dismissively and pushed his hands in his pockets as he moved down the counter. “How’s business been this morning?” He asked, hoping to appear interested but not encouraging. Chris was hot. He was very hipster with his numerous tattoos and the large gauge things in his ears. He had a shock of bright blue hair that was long on top and shaved at the sides and his jeans were ridiculously tight. Jude liked that now and then and he recalled that Chris gave really good head and was a power bottom. Jude had really enjoyed the six or seven times they’d hooked up.

“It’s been pretty good,” Chris said as he filled a tiny cup with whipped cream. Jude liked that Chris did the whipped cream first. If he was honest, it was probably why they’d hooked up so many times. Jude didn’t like to repeat more than two or three times with the same guy but he was really picky about his coffee. Jude wasn’t above admitting that he was a sucker for a hot guy that could make him a good cup of coffee. “I’m ready to get out of here though,” he said and gave Jude a cocky grin and a wink. “Got any plans for the afternoon?” Chris asked and Jude nodded.

“Actually, I do,” he said and jumped when his phone vibrated.

Brandon

She’s about to run to the dry cleaner. I may have ruined a shirt. If she asks, you you’ve been craving her lamb roast. That should keep her out for at least two hours. Hurry.

“That’s too bad. How about I give you my number and you can call me when you’re free? Maybe we could get a drink sometime.” Chris said and Jude cringed. This was why he never hooked up with the same guy more than a few times. Jude held up his phone.

“I’d love to but I’m actually seeing someone,” Jude said gently and Chris’ grin died and he began to nod as his eyes dropped.

“That’s great,” Chris lied and never took his eyes off of his hands as he finished Jude’s coffee. “I hope that goes well,” he said as he reached across the counter with Jude’s cup. “If it doesn’t…” Chris gave Jude a half-hearted wink and Jude nodded in return.

“Definitely,” Jude lied and Chris avoided Jude’s eyes as he began cleaning the espresso machine.

“See you around, Jude,” Chris mumbled and Jude waved as he turned away.

Jude felt a twinge of guilt as he got in his car. He’d always been careful to avoid getting involved with anyone he might hurt and tried to be completely obvious about his lack of intentions. Chris was a really nice guy. Jude shouldn’t have misled him by hooking up so many times. Jude sighed as he pulled into the next strip mall and parked. He was going to have to find a new coffee place. Jude told himself it was a small price to pay as he got out and rushed across the parking lot to the optometrist’s and prayed he’d be in and out quickly as he pulled the door open.

Less than five blessed minutes later, Jude was jogging back to his car with Noah’s glasses in his pocket. He factored about ten minutes to get home and a shiver of anticipation rushed through him as he pulled out of the parking lot. Jude remembered that Brandon was on his way out for a run when he left for the lab and hoped that Brandon hadn’t showered yet. The smell of Brandon after a run or fresh off the soccer field had always done things to Jude. He grinned as he felt his cock pressing against the front of his jeans and shifted in his seat.

The realization that Jude was rushing home to have midmorning sex with Brandon slammed into Jude as he stopped at a light. His eyes blurred and his mouth fell open as he began to shake his head in disbelief. Jude lost count of how many times they’d kissed and he’d acted out some of his oldest and most graphic fantasies but it still didn’t feel real. He kept waiting to wake up or for Brandon to freak out and bring it all to an end.

So far, Jude was the only one prone to the occasional freak out. A car honked and Jude jumped then waved as he stepped off the brake. He cleared the intersection just before the light turned yellow and rolled his eyes, scolding himself for zoning out at the light.
See. He’s definitely handling all of this better than you are,
Jude frowned as he examined Brandon’s behavior.

In the beginning, Brandon appeared confused and concerned about not enjoying sex with a man. Fortunately, that only lasted as long as that first hand-job. Somehow, Brandon decided to jump head first into being gay and hadn’t looked back. And he hadn’t shown any signs of having regrets. Instead, it was Jude that kept getting overwhelmed and felt unsure. He snorted in disgust. Jude had fucked just about every type of guy, in just about every way imaginable yet with Brandon, he felt as awkward and inexperienced as… well, Brandon. At least as awkward and inexperienced as Brandon
should
have been. Jude didn’t know what to make of the exuberant, curious and boundary-less Brandon he was dealing with.

Not that Jude was complaining. Not at all. He was just a bit confused and a little off his game. And a little worried. What if Brandon was rushing ahead and ignoring any doubts he might have? What if they finally caught up with him and they’d gone so far that Brandon couldn’t cope with the consequences?

Jude put the car in Park and his lips pulled tight as he stared at the house. He had made the whole trip on autopilot and couldn’t remember anything about the drive home. He needed to get a handle on this. He had to talk to Brandon. Jude nodded decisively as he got out and rushed to the front door. As soon as Jude was through the door, the air was knocked out of him as Brandon’s body crashed into his.

“What took you so long?” Brandon complained as his tongue slid up Jude’s neck and he backed him toward the stairs. Jude gasped as Brandon’s hand cupped his heavy hard-on though his jeans and rubbed firmly.

“It was less than half an hour,” Jude argued and Brandon shrugged as he turned Jude and pushed him back against the stairs. Jude grunted as his ass landed on a step and Brandon chuckled as he dropped and reached for Jude’s fly.

“I missed you. And I missed this,” Brandon growled as he unzipped and freed Jude’s cock. Jude’s brows pulled together as he tried to remember what he needed to discuss with Brandon. A satisfied rumble filled Brandon’s throat as he lowered his head and Jude’s eyes became heavy as soft, wet heat washed up the length of his erection.
He’s getting so good at that,
Jude decided and his eyes flared.

“Hey,” Jude slid his hand through Brandon’s hair and he looked up. Jude cleared his throat and pushed against Brandon’s shoulders so he could sit. “Can we talk for just a minute?” He asked as he leaned forward and gathered Brandon’s face in his hands. Brandon frowned and nodded.

“Sure, if it can’t wait until later,” he mumbled as his eyes searched Jude’s.

Jude took a moment to let the lust fog clear before his hands glided down Brandon’s neck and closed around his shoulders.

“Are you sure you’re ok?” He asked as he began to knead and Brandon’s head pulled back in confusion.

“Ok? Why wouldn’t I be ok?” Brandon asked and Jude sighed.

“We’re going so fast and I worry that you’re not giving yourself enough time to process what all of this means for you,” Jude explained and Brandon’s eyes flicked to the ceiling. Jude wasn’t sure if Brandon was considering his point or about to argue. “Most guys take years to come to terms with being gay. You had a few weeks of feeling weird around me before you decided you were gay and now you’re sucking my cock and eating my ass like it’s cake every chance you get.” Any gravity Jude’s comment might have had disappeared when his cock jumped at the mention of sucking and ass eating. Brandon raised a brow and gave Jude a pointed look.

“You seem to be enjoying it and eating your share,” Brandon said and Jude scrubbed his hands over his face and groaned.

“That’s not the point,” he argued. “Or maybe it is,” Jude said as he lowered his hands and stared at Brandon. “I knew I was gay when I hit puberty, maybe earlier,” he explained. “It took me years before I first rimmed a guy and I wasn’t all that enthusiastic about it until you,” Jude admitted and Brandon grinned. Jude rolled his eyes. “You could wake up tomorrow and realize that in the space of a few weeks, you’ve gone from being straight but celibate to a gay nymphomaniac and not be cool with it. This is you, Brandon,” he pointed out and Brandon’s eyes narrowed as he waited for Jude to explain. “When we were eight you cried because your mom made you wear jeans with an extra pocket. You almost had a stroke when I got my ear pierced in high school. You told me you almost fainted the first time you kissed a girl and you didn’t have sex until you were in your mid twenties,” he said and Brandon remained still. Jude threw his hands up. “So, it’s not outside the realm of possibility for you to have some sort of reaction to all of this. I mean, could you?” Jude asked and Brandon blinked several times before he shrugged.

“I’m not a child or a young man anymore, Jude,” he pointed out. “I think most guys struggle with being gay when they’re young because they care so much about what everyone thinks and they have so much to lose,” Brandon explained. “I know what it’s like to be really unhappy; with life in general and with myself. And I know what sex felt like when it was wrong. It doesn’t feel like this,” Brandon said as he pushed his hands up Jude’s thighs. “The minute I stopped fighting what I was feeling for you and decided to go with it, was the first time in my adult life that I felt happy. I’m not going to wake up and regret any of this,” he insisted as he pushed Jude back. “If anything, I’ll wake up and regret all the years I spent being clueless that I could have spent sucking your cock and eating your ass like cake,” Brandon murmured as his lips brushed up and down Jude’s shaft. “Could you imagine all the sleepovers we had? All the times we went camping?” He asked and Jude’s brain melted as his head fell back on the stairs.

“Oh, my God!” Jude whispered as his hands pushed into his hair and he stared blindly at the ceiling.

“MmmHmm…” Brandon hummed as his lips wrapped around Jude’s cock and he began to suck.
Fuck, he’s so good at that,
Jude decided as his eyes shut and he let Brandon have his way with him.

Chapter 24

Was it the way he smelled or the way his skin tasted? Brandon couldn’t make up his mind as he wrapped his body around Jude’s and buried his face in the corner of Jude’s neck. Brandon growled softly as he ground his hips against Jude’s ass and spread his hands, pressing them to Jude’s chest as he pulled him closer. Maybe it was how warm and solid Jude’s body felt as he slept and they way it fit so perfectly against Brandon’s. He thrust and his cock rubbed along the cleft of Jude’s ass and he bit into Jude’s shoulder as need clawed at his control.
What would he do if you tried to push your cock into his ass?
Brandon wondered and his erection throbbed angrily and his balls tightened in expectation. Brandon would have laughed at himself if he wasn’t on the verge of serious pain.
What the fuck would you do? You wouldn’t know what to do if you tried,
he pointed out and he groaned as he thrust again and wondered how far he could get on instinct. Not very far before Jude would stop him and warn him about rushing and remind Brandon about his test results.

“Stay right where you are,” Jude murmured then reached for the lube on the bedside table. Brandon’s heart slammed against his ribs and his skin prickled with heat as he watched Jude open the tube and pour a generous amount in his hand. Jude reached behind him and wrapped his hand around Brandon’s cock and slathered it with the lube. “We’re going to need a shower after this,” he warned and Brandon’s eyes flared as Jude guided Brandon’s cock toward his ass. Brandon grabbed Jude’s hip and stilled him.

“Jude?” He asked softly and Jude chuckled as he lifted his leg slightly.

“Just wait,” Jude commanded as he guided Brandon forward until his cock settled between his thighs. He lowered his leg as he reached back and grabbed Brandon’s hip and Jude locked his groin against his ass. “Slide back and forth,” he whispered and Brandon’s body became tight and warm as Jude’s voice rolled through him.

Brandon nudged forward and he bit his lip as the head of his cock rubbed against Jude’s perineum and sack and was gripped in the firm warmth of Jude’s thighs. He drew back and moaned against Jude’s neck as pleasure flooded his groin. God, it was so good. His cock was wrapped in tight, hard, slick heat and when he pushed forward, his balls pressed against Jude’s ass. And his hands… they were all over Jude’s chest and stomach, drawing Jude tighter against his body as he rocked into the slippery haven between Jude’s thighs.

“Oh, fuck,” Brandon panted. “This is so perfect,” he gasped as Jude squeezed his thighs.

“It’s really good,” Jude breathed as he reached back and clawed at Brandon’s ass. “Really, really good.” He shivered and pressure slammed into Brandon’s sack as he watched Jude’s other hand wrap around his cock and begin to stroke.

“Can I go faster?” Brandon pleaded and Jude nodded quickly. “I don’t want to hurt you,” Brandon whispered urgently and Jude squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head as his hand tugged quicker.

“I promise, you won’t hurt me. Go crazy,” Jude said breathlessly and Brandon growled through clenched teeth as he grabbed Jude’s hip and slammed against his ass.

Brandon rolled his hips faster and Jude moaned as he arched and his hand slid into Brandon’s hair as he urged him to go faster and harder. Brandon leaned back and his eyes grew wide as he watched his hips pounding against Jude’s ass. He was thrusting so fast and so hard, it looked like his cock was disappearing into Jude’s ass. Brandon heard Jude hissing frantically and pulled Jude’s back against his chest and his finger found Jude’s nipple and pinched. Jude chanted Brandon’s name as he bucked and started to shake. Jude’s head snapped back and his eyes were wide when they found Brandon’s as a long gasp spilled from him. Brandon paused and watched as come shot from the head of Jude’s cock in ropes onto his chest and the sheet and poured over his fist. Brandon grabbed Jude’s hand as he rolled them, pinning Jude beneath him. He drove into Jude’s thighs as he pressed Jude’s hand to his mouth and began to suck and lick, coating his lips and tongue with Jude’s come as he rode Jude wildly. The feeling of Jude’s hard, sleek body beneath his and the taste of Jude’s come flooding his mouth pushed Brandon over the edge. He grabbed Jude’s shoulders as he thrust hard and froze as his nerves clenched then exploded and pleasure and pressure shot up the length of his shaft. Brandon pulled in a deep, shuddering breath and held it as light flooded his body and come burst from the end of his cock, deep between Jude’s thighs. Brandon clawed at Jude’s body as he convulsed and twisted. When his body finally slowed, it became heavy and loose and Brandon hummed deliriously as he rolled off of Jude and onto his back.

“Jeeezusss…” Brandon slurred as he covered his face with his hands and waited for his body to stop vibrating.

“I know, right?” Jude muffled into the pillow before he turned his head to face Brandon. He exhaled loudly and groaned as he got his arms beneath him and pushed up. “I need to take a quick shower and then go back to my room,” Jude complained and Brandon swallowed a groan as he tamped down the frustration he felt every time Jude had to leave. Just because Brandon was an adult and understood why Jude had to leave, didn’t mean he had to enjoy it.

“Let’s go,” Brandon sighed heavily as he sat up. Jude gave him a hard look and pointed in warning.

“Don’t start anything in the shower, I’m already worried that we’re pushing it but I can’t get in my bed with all of this lube and come on me,” he warned and Brandon nodded in agreement. They were both a slippery mess from the waist down and Brandon knew he had lube in his hair and he could see streaks of it on Jude’s chest.

“I give you my word,” Brandon announced as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and got up. “Just make sure you keep your hands to yourself. You know how you get once there’s hot water and soap involved.” He dared Jude to argue and he clenched his jaw to keep from laughing as Jude’s tongue pressed against the inside of his cheek and his eyes narrowed.

“You suck,” Jude stated and Brandon shook his head.

“Not this time, I just gave you my word,” he said as he strode past Jude into the bathroom and laughed as he heard Jude curse behind him as he turned on the water.

Chapter 25

Tonight. Tonight is the night.
Jude’s nerves were wound so tight he’d barely been able to eat and an anxious giggle kept tickling his throat. All he could do was stare at Brandon’s hands and lips and imagine him naked. His body felt taut and his clothes clung to his body through dinner and as they played board games with Noah. As soon as Noah went to bed, Jude excused himself to take a quick, cold shower. Brandon might not have noticed the flop sweat but Jude was pretty sure his boxers and socks were saturated. When he was showered and he was sure that Noah was asleep and Mrs. Kelly was gone for the evening, Jude knocked softly on Brandon’s door. He patted both pockets of his robe despite knowing that he hadn’t left his results or the lube in his room. When Brandon swung the door open Jude’s stomach flipped and he had to lean against the frame as a grin tilted Brandon’s lips.

“Hey.” His voice was soft and warm and it made the fluttering in Jude’s stomach worse as he passed. “Everything alright?” Brandon asked as he locked the door and Jude nodded as he pulled Brandon into his arms.

“Everything’s great,” he murmured as he tilted his head and found Brandon’s lips. They were soft and tasted like mint as Jude’s tongue swept across them. “I have something to show you,” Jude said as he pulled the test results from his pocket. He offered them to Brandon and his lips twisted as he read them.

“You’re going to have to explain this to me,” he mumbled as his eyes bounced over the page and Jude chuckled as he pointed at the most pertinent section.

“I’m clean. My body is yours to do with as you please,” Jude offered a cocky smile when Brandon’s eyes jumped from the paper to Jude’s. Brandon’s jaw fell and he pulled in a very long breath before his cheeks puffed as he exhaled slowly.

“So… We’re going to…” He blushed as he searched Jude’s face for an explanation. Jude nodded as he stepped close enough to feel Brandon’s heat seeping through his robe. His hand curved around Brandon’s neck before it slid down over his chest.

“You’re going to fuck me,” Jude whispered and Brandon’s eyes were huge as he pulled his head back.

“Are you sure?” His voice was nearly gone as he backed away from Jude. Fortunately, he was headed toward the bed. Jude nodded again as he pulled the lube from his pocket and tossed it at Brandon. He fumbled before he clasped it against his chest, his eyes still on Jude’s. He looked into his hands and gasped then tossed it on the bed. His brows pulled together as he frowned at Jude. “I barely know how to do that to a woman. Why don’t you go first and we’ll just do that for a while until I learn?” Brandon suggested and Jude shook his head as he unfastened his belt and tossed his robe away.

“No. I’m ready and I want you to know what to expect before I fuck you. I think it’ll be easier for you if you’ve seen it from the other side, first,” Jude explained as he reached for Brandon. He was tense in his arms as he stretched his neck forward and offered his lips to Jude.

“I don’t want our first time to be a catastrophe,” he complained as Jude rubbed his lips against Brandon’s cheek.

“It won’t be,” he promised as his hand slid down Brandon’s back and under the waist of his pajama pants.

Jude pushed them over the firm swells of Brandon’s ass and they dropped and pooled at his feet. Brandon groaned as his hands splayed against Jude’s back. Jude made a soft shushing sound as his lips covered Brandon’s. He kissed Brandon tenderly, letting their nerves settle and desire build before he guided Brandon onto the bed. Brandon’s eyes were heavy as he crawled backwards, his eyes clinging to Jude’s as he followed. Jude covered Brandon’s body with his and they sighed in relief as their limbs tangled and hard, hot skin slid against hard, hot skin. They rolled and twisted as their hands and lips explored and words dissolved into moans and gasps. Jude wound Brandon tight, covering his body in teasing kisses and nibbling his way down before lightly licking and stroking his cock.

“Ok. I’ll fuck you,” Brandon ground out as his head thrashed on the pillow. “What do I do?” He asked as he rose on his elbows. His hair was wild and his eyes glowed as he stared down at Jude.

“First, we do what we’ve been doing. You’re pretty big, so I’m going to need a little help getting ready,” Jude murmured as his lips cruised over Brandon’s stomach.

Jude heard a soft growl and grinned before his tongue swirled around Brandon’s nipple. He hissed as his fingers wrapped around Jude’s head. Jude felt Brandon’s cock twitch between them and he knew it was as much the prospect of playing with Jude’s ass as his nipple being teased. Brandon had been obsessed with Jude’s ass since he introduced Brandon to the delights of rimming and prostate massage. Jude suspected that Brandon was as turned on by being able to reduce Jude to a babbling mess as he was when Jude has his fingers and tongue in Brandon’s ass.

“I can do that,” Brandon announced before he rolled them. Jude laughed up at Brandon and pulled his lips to his. Brandon’s tongue was demanding and impatient as it swept through Jude’s mouth before he released Jude’s lips and dove for the corner of his neck. His teeth grazed before his tongue lapped. Jude shivered and Brandon hummed in approval as his lips danced over Jude’s chest. Jude hissed as Brandon’s tongue traced the groove between his abs and dipped into his navel. Brandon growled softly when his lips wrapped around Jude’s cock and he sucked hungrily as he took Jude deep into his throat.

“God, that’s amazing,” Jude whispered as his fingers sifted through Brandon’s hair.

Brandon hummed around Jude’s cock as he pushed his thighs wide and settled between them. Jude’s jaw fell as he stared at the ceiling and marveled at the incredible impossibleness of the entire situation. None of this seemed remotely likely a few months earlier. He’d spent most of his life certain that he and Brandon would always be best friends but nothing more. Jude gasped and his feet slid higher as he opened himself as Brandon’s tongue slid into the cleft of his ass. Nope. He never thought that would happen. Tears stung Jude’s eyes as he realized that this was the first time he was truly giving himself to someone. He sighed Brandon’s name as he felt a finger press against his hole before it slipped past the tight ring of his ass. Jude could barely remember any of the times he’d let someone fuck him and he knew he’d done it for the wrong reasons. While he’d enjoyed it in a hollow, detached sort of way, his body hadn’t truly been engaged, his mind and his heart had had nothing to do with it. It was so different with Brandon. Pleasure rippled through his body as Brandon’s fingers reached deep and stroked Jude’s prostate.

“Not too much,” Jude said softly then hissed as the tight, wet warmth of Brandon’s lips slid up his cock before it slipped free from Brandon’s mouth.

“You don’t want to come first?” The words were a low, heavy rumble against the head of Jude’s erection and he was tempted to say yes. He shook his head as his fingers traced Brandon’s jaw.

“Another finger and a lot of lube,” Jude murmured and Brandon nodded as he reached for the tube.

Jude shut his eyes and willed his heart and body to relax. He wasn’t worried about the pain, Brandon was probably the largest he’d ever been with but he knew he’d get used to it and Brandon wouldn’t plow into him unless he asked for it. Jude couldn’t help but grin. He was definitely going to ask for it. Jude was nervous because as far as fantasies went, this was the ultimate and it went so far beyond being sexual for Jude. Deep down, he’d always been saving part of himself for Brandon. He never thought it would happen but he could never give himself to anyone else completely. He’d never let himself be truly intimate, to experience pleasure completely, to mentally and emotionally connect. He’d always scratched an itch, now he was opening himself and letting Brandon in. When he felt Brandon’s fingers sliding easily in and out of him, Jude grabbed Brandon’s wrist and called to him.