Living Again (28 page)

Kayley watched in awe as Ben ever so slowly kissed her, from her lips to her neck, then shoulders, where he slid both small straps off. The top fell and puddled on the floor. Ben’s eyes immediately trained on her naked breasts, and he took a sharp breath. His hands caressed them, kneading and forming them. Kayley’s eyes rolled back at the sensations he was giving her- everywhere. He kissed down her chest, stomach, and then reached the small semblance of underwear she was wearing. His hands reached around her backside, stroking her as he pulled the first strap on her hip with his teeth, then went over and pulled the other. Her breath hitched in her throat as she ran her hands through his hair. Before she knew it, the underwear joined the top on the floor and she was completely and totally naked in front of him. Ben kissed her bare hips, and she tensed, wondering where he was going next.

Ben stood up, sensing her hesitation. He looked in her eyes. “You’re the most beautiful woman, Kayley. I’m in awe of you.” She smiled, running her hands up and down his mostly naked body. He pushed her backwards gently until the back of her knees hit the mattress. She lay back, feeling exposed but not nervous, as he hovered above her. He slid off his boxers, then lay next to her on his king size bed. “You okay?” he asked. Kayley nodded.

“More than okay,” she said, reaching her arms out and encircling his body. “This is amazing. You’re wonderful, and I love you.”

Ben traced her body with his fingers, following her curves. He wanted her now and badly, but he was determined to do this correctly, so she felt completely cherished and loved. “I love you,” he murmured, looking her in the eyes. The connection between them sizzled, always there. But it was so much deeper now, and they both felt it. He leaned over, picking up a small remote on his nightstand and pressing a button. The soft, soulful song
Beneath Your Beautiful
started playing, and he smiled.

“Show me,” she whispered, her heart hammering in her chest. The anticipation of knowing every part of him was killing her. With that, he covered her with his body, nipping, sucking, and touching everywhere that he could touch. His fingers explored her, and she arched her back and moaned, begging him to continue. She touched him, exploring his manhood with reckless abandon. The lyrics caressed them in soft, rhythmic beats, surrounding them like a blanket.

Ben leaned close to her ear and began to sing along with the song. He lifted his head and met Kayley’s eyes. Ben kissed her softly, pouring the words he just sang into her very soul. She felt as if she were having an out of body experience right at this moment. Ben was singing to her, the most heartfelt song she had ever heard about opening herself up again. Tears shimmered in her eyes, and her heart pumped frantically like a hummingbird flitting above its nest. Ben trailed off but continued to look at her, through her, winding himself intricately into her soul.

Kayley swallowed, attempting to maneuver past the enormous lump in her throat. Never in her life had someone done what Ben just did. “C-can you play that again?” she asked, tears clogging her voice. “I’ve heard that song before but I’ve never really listened to it. And after you just did that, I don’t know how I will ever hear it again without crying. Are you real, Ben? I think I’m dreaming.”

Ben kissed her. “I’m real baby, and so are you. You’re my dream come true. That song has made me think of you since the first time I met you. However, I didn’t know I was going to get to listen to that song like this- with you.” He pressed repeat on the remote and settled back next to her.

“I want to make love to you to this song,” she said into his ear, wrapping her body back around his. As it began again slowly, Ben began touching her again, using his fingers to prepare her for him, though she knew she was beyond ready. As the room was surrounded by the meaningful words, Kayley’s heart opened completely to him, and she wanted to show him what he meant to her.

“Please,” she begged as he teased her everywhere at once. She was going to go off the edge, and she wanted him with her. The sensory overload she was feeling was too much to bear, and she couldn’t wait anymore.

Ben hovered above her, watching her. They had come this far before, touching, exploring, enjoying each other’s bodies. But never before had it felt the way it felt right now, and he knew that once he was inside her, it would be all over. She would be his forever, and he would give her what he never thought he wanted again.

“Should I use protection?” Ben offered, kissing her deeply, his hands still touching her in the most delicious way. Kayley shook her head, a sly smile crossing her face as she struggled to make a complete sentence with the music playing in the background and the sexy doctor hovering over her, still touching her.

“I started birth control several weeks ago,” she admitted. Ben grinned, feeling so many things but not knowing which one felt the most euphoric.

“And you’re sure, right?” Ben wanted to beg her not to stop him at this point, but he had to make sure she was 100% ready. Kayley nodded in agreement and he almost sighed in relief.

“No more talking,” she demanded. She sat up suddenly, rolling Ben onto his back and straddling him. Her head was racing, spinning out of control with want for him. Her eyes raked his body and she ran her hands down the silky length of him, hard under her touch. Ben gasped as she pulled her fingers back and forth over him.

His eyes closed as she continued to caress him, the perfect blend of silk and hard. He was beautifully built there as well. Her mouth watered, wanting to savor every moment but
wanting him
completely
so badly
.

“Kay,” he breathed. “I need you.” Kayley watched him, his body taut with need and desire, his eyes half closed and his breathing labored. Her insides clenched with anticipation. Ben rolled her over, taking the top position again. His hands trailed her body, cupping her breasts and then rubbing her nipples until she moaned. He followed with his lips and tongue, his fingers pressing inside her again. Her hips bucked as he entered another finger, pressing her, stretching her. He devoured her lips, sucking her tongue into his mouth like he couldn’t kiss her fast enough. She matched him move for move, pulling him towards her. Her body screamed for him, having a mind of its own and undulating under him, trying to pull him to her instinctively.

“Now,” she demanded. Ben settled himself at her entrance, and Kayley watched his face. His eyes connected to hers as he pushed gently inside her, and she couldn’t stop the moan that left her mouth as his full length pressed into her. “Ben,” she groaned. “My God.” Ben pulled out, then gently pushed himself back in, teasing her and setting her on fire at the same time. She shuddered with the movement, sparks traveling throughout her body and exploding where he was connected to her. His muscles flexed as he pushed in and out of her, and Kayley’s eyes were transfixed on him.

Ben leaned over, caging her with his arms, and kissed her gently, breathing heavily. She wrapped her legs around him, pulling him into her. He plunged deeper, causing them both to moan. Kayley slid her hands behind him and squeezed his muscles, pulling up with her hips so that no space was in between them. The sensations that were coursing through her body made her feel light headed. She was in a personal heaven. There was no way to describe the feelings she was having, from her head to her toes. He was everywhere, in every sense she had.

“Kayley,” Ben moaned her name. “You feel incredible. As many times as I dreamt of this, it feels a million times better.” He thrust inside her, a gasp escaping her lips as he filled her up and stretched her pleasantly.

She arched her back as sensations took over, and Ben took that opportunity to take her breast in his mouth, suckling and teasing with his tongue as the sounds coming from Kayley got louder and more insistent. Moving to the other breast, he then reached down and touched her where they were joined, feeling himself moving inside her and then finding and rubbing her sensitive little spot. Kayley’s face contorted in ecstasy as she fought for control over the amazing feeling he was inciting inside her. Ben pulled her tighter onto him, pumping into her and feeling her at the same time, knowing she was close.

“
BEN
!” she screamed, and just like that, stars exploded inside of her and it was like Christmas, her birthday, and 4
th
of July all celebrated at once with an amazingly ridiculous orgasm. Feeling her crashing down and clenching around him, Ben allowed himself to let go. Kayley felt him release, pumping himself into her as he blew his breath out through clenched teeth.

As they both came down from the enormous high, Kayley shook with the emotion and physical exertion she was feeling. Ben rolled over, still inside her, and pulled her to her side as well. They lay there, looking into one another’s eyes, as their bodies calmed and their breathing became regular again. Ben smoothed back her hair, then ran his hand along her cheek and to her lips. He leaned over and kissed her, the most tender, loving kiss. She closed her eyes, relishing laying here with him.

“Tell me what you’re thinking,” Ben said against her lips.

Kayley smiled. “Wow.”

“That’s it?” he teased.

“Can we do it again?” she teased back.

Ben laughed, pulling her closer and hugging her. “As many times as you want to, baby. We have all night.”

“It was everything I thought it would be and more,” Kayley said shyly, allowing herself to touch his hard body again.

“Ditto,” Ben breathed, already aroused again. He moved slowly inside her, and she smiled.

“You’re insatiable, doc,” Kayley leaned down, taking one of his nipples into her mouth.

“I love you,” Ben said, pulling her on top of him. Gripping her face, he teased her lips with his tongue.

“I love you too,” Kayley grinned, feeling like she was on top of the world. And as she showed Ben again how much he meant to her, she thought that quite possibly nothing could top this night.

“So, how would you feel about meeting my parents today?” Ben asked, lazily tracing his fingers along her flat stomach. Kayley rolled towards him, stretching.

“Uh…” Her mind reeled. Was she ready to meet them? Thinking back to last night, though, she knew. This was very, very serious. “Of course, babe. Do you want to bring Alexis?”

Ben cupped her face. “Of course, baby. She’s part of both of us.”

She loved when he said stuff like that. “Are they going to like me?” Kayley asked nervously.

“Ahh, there it is,” Ben said, tracing his finger on her lips. “There’s nothing they could find about you that they wouldn’t like.”

Kayley closed her eyes, relishing in the feeling of his touch. “What if they don’t like that I have a baby?”

Ben’s eyes widened. “Seriously? My parents love kids, and will love Alexis. Come on, Kay. Don’t overthink this. They are very nice, reasonable people. My sister will be there, too.”

Kayley held her breath. “Did you know about this before right now?” She breathed out slowly, trying to calm her nerves. Meeting parents was big. Meeting overprotective siblings was even more so.

“Yes,” he laughed. “But, I didn’t want you to freak. It’s nothing big, just a cookout by the pool. Which reminds me. Can you wear that pink bathing suit?”

Kayley smacked his arm. “No way! I’m going to the store and getting a muu-muu!”

Ben roared, smacking his leg in laughter. “No, you absolutely
are not
. Honey, listen. My sister Lindsay will be there. Even though she has two little kids, she still rocks it. My parents aren’t prudes. Plus, I want to show them all my hot girlfriend.” Kayley smacked him again, making Ben curl up in mock pain. “
Ow
! Ok, ok. Alexis will love her little girls too, they are right around her age. Krista is 4 and Ella is 2.”

“I better go now and get Alexis and find myself a muu-muu if I’m going to make it there on time,” Kayley stood up, and Ben pulled her until she landed back on the bed, on top of him.

“Oof,” she grunted, then silence overtook her. Losing herself in those gorgeous blue eyes, she smiled.

“Let’s go eat breakfast,” Ben said. “Food, then you.”

She laughed and allowed him to make her run very, very short on time getting home for prepare for the cookout.