Disasterology 101 (25 page)

“Think you can take this?” Cedric taunted, probably emboldened by Kevin’s reaction.

The thought of Cedric possessing his body was both terrifying and exhilarating. It almost made Kevin get on his knees and stick his ass up in the air. Do it already. Get it over with so that he could finally experience the feel of a man inside him and come all over the bed like a geyser.

But he didn’t want it like that. He didn’t want to be yet another faceless body to Cedric. Being with another man for the first time was a momentous occasion for Kevin, and he wanted his partner one hundred percent involved in it.

He swallowed hard and said exactly what was on his mind. “If you get me ready, I will.”

Cedric’s hand stilled mid-stroke, and his face blanched. “I never had to.” He tugged on his lip ring. “I never had to touch anyone like that.”

“Would you like to touch
me
like that?” he asked, encouraged by the longing he could see in Cedric’s brown eyes.

“I don’t know if I can.”

Cedric’s distressed whisper broke Kevin’s heart.

He cleared his throat, leaned forward and extended his hand. When Cedric let go of his dick and grasped it immediately, a warm feeling extended inside Kevin’s chest. This was a good sign. They were on the right path.

“I think you absolutely can.” He rubbed the back of Cedric’s hand with his thumb, and dragged his gaze away from his crotch. “You’re in therapy, and you said you’re doing stuff now that you could only dream of a few years ago. Besides, we’re trying lots of new things, you and I. What’s one more?”

“This is different.”

“I know it is but, babe, think about how much better it’ll be for me if you put your fingers inside me….” Following his instinct—and also the inner slut who had remained dormant until that moment—Kevin captured two of Cedric’s gloved fingers with his mouth and sucked on them. Hard. It tasted like shit. He didn’t stop. “If you lube and stretch me up good for you.”

Cedric didn’t say a word. Whether it was because he’d just called him “babe” or because he was envisioning Kevin’s words, he didn’t know.

“We’re both wearing your spiffy gloves.” Kevin placed a kiss on Cedric’s left hipbone. No way was he giving up just yet. “And I really want this.” He dipped his tongue in Cedric’s belly button briefly. When he felt fingers in his hair, he did it again. “It was so dark when we first met….” He traced Cedric’s long, thick erection with one finger. “You’ve no idea how good it feels to see this up close and personal.” He grabbed Cedric’s lean hips and leaned close to inhale his scent. Musky and male. Good enough to eat. “Fuck, you smell so damn good.”

Cedric spread his legs farther apart, as if he was bracing himself for something bad, and his hands clenched and unclenched in Kevin’s hair, but his dick flexed and moved in reaction to Kevin’s nearness.

“I want to touch you all over.” With one hand Kevin covered one of Cedric’s ass cheeks; with the other he cupped his balls. “And lick you.” The sight of the heavy ball sac in his hand made Kevin moan. He wouldn’t mind wearing gloves every single time. It was fucking hot. “I say we at least try…” he whispered while looking up at Cedric, “and if it doesn’t work for you, we stop.” Closing his eyes, he stuck his tongue out and caught a wandering drop of pre-cum before it leaked onto the carpeted floor. “No harm done.”

“Kevin?”

Cedric pulled on his hair until he had no option but to look up.

“Don’t get your mouth anywhere near my dick before I put the rubbers on,” he warned. “I can’t risk getting your saliva on my dick… or something worse. I can’t deal with it.”

Kevin stared at the guy for God only knew how long. He felt like a damn fool. Had he been able to move he’d have gotten up from the bed and left the room.

“Shit.”

He barely registered Cedric’s hissed word.

He needed to shut the fuck up and forget about seducing Cedric.

“That came out harsher than I intended,” Cedric lamented.

Kevin let go of Cedric’s hips and threw himself back on the bed. Then he covered his eyes with his arm.

He should’ve known better than to get so close to Cedric’s dick. It wasn’t as if he’d forgotten their encounter at the sex shop. Three condoms were used back then, proof of how extremely paranoid Cedric was about catching something through his piss slit. Kevin hadn’t even been allowed to breathe near it before the condoms were in place. Protection came first. That was a lesson he should’ve learned.

“Look at me.” Cedric grabbed his arm and tried to move it out of the way.

“Give me a minute.”

“Kevin, please.” Cedric pulled again, and Kevin swatted his hand, but the guy refused to go away. “I’m sorry I sounded like an arse. I didn’t mean to—”

“Throw the proverbial bucket of ice water on me?” Kevin snapped. “Fuck.” He rubbed his eyes, then turned to look at Cedric when he laid down next to him.

“I’m sorry.”

Cedric sounded remorseful and ashamed. He wouldn’t make eye contact, but he tucked his head under Kevin’s chin and rested his cheek on his chest.

“Don’t worry about it.”

“I make a lousy lover,” he said in a small voice. “I told you so.”

Kevin licked his lips, and blinked a few times to clear up his suddenly blurry vision.

Jesusfuckingchrist, this boy’s gonna kill me.

“And I told
you
, if something doesn’t work for you, we stop.” He wrapped his arm around Cedric and rubbed his back. “No harm done,” he finished with a trembling voice.
Even if it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, we stop.

Cedric slid his fingers through Kevin’s chest hair, and draped a leg over his hip. Kevin couldn’t hold back his sigh of relief when Cedric’s erection poked him. It wasn’t as hard as it had been moments ago, but he hadn’t lost it. Thank God.

“You’re not leaving?”

“Not if you want me to stay.” Kevin knew he sounded equal parts hopeful and pleading. He didn’t care. He’d known getting with Cedric would be difficult. He wasn’t going to bail.

“Yes, please.” Cedric spread his fingers wide on Kevin’s chest, and rubbed his hard-on against Kevin’s leg. “I want to try all those things you mentioned, but you’ve got to remember I’m new at this.” He lifted his head and pecked Kevin on the lips. “Be patient with me, okay?”

“And you, too.” Kevin returned the quick peck and moved Cedric’s braids out of the way. “We’ve got about twenty minutes left.” He slid his hand down Cedric’s back and grazed the top of his crack with his middle finger before settling on his butt and pulling him closer. “Get on with it and do me, babe.”

Kevin watched entranced as a burning need resembling his own replaced the sorrow left in Cedric’s pretty eyes. Somehow they’d gotten past a very difficult moment, and were ready to try one more time. Even if Kevin couldn’t name the reasons why he was so willing to work through Cedric’s issues, he knew they were worth getting explored.

Cedric kissed his chest, his neck, his chin. Kevin pulled the tall, lean body with all his strength, and moved them to the center of the bed. Cedric plunged his tongue deep. They dueled and tasted, and stole each other’s breath. Then their three seconds were over and Cedric’s mouth moved down to his neck.

Cedric sneaked a finger under Kevin’s towel and pulled it open. One heartbeat later he had Kevin pinned down to the bed, and Kevin gladly opened his legs to accommodate him. Cedric’s cock brushed his, and their hard chests pressed together. Kevin was so primed, he froze at the sensation.

Yes, yes, a million times yes!

This was what he’d been missing his entire life. What he’d been waiting for since getting divorced. The dominant thought in his mind since meeting Cedric at the sex shop. Nothing like his late night fantasies, though.

It was more.

So much more than what he’d bargained for.

He felt jagged and crazed; balanced on the edge of a cliff. Something told him he had to be careful. That it might be a good idea to back off. Then another voice told him it was too late; he was already lost. He didn’t have the will power to stop. He’d taken a look at the swirling, oftentimes hellish paradise that being with Cedric was, and as scared as he was of what might happen, he knew he’d keep going further.

“You know what I’d like to do?” Cedric wound his hand through Kevin’s hair, tilted his face back, and stared into his eyes. “Slide you down onto my dick, and have you ride me until you come apart.”

“Can we?” Kevin asked shakily.

“Not your first time.”

Kevin’s pulse throbbed wildly in his throat. There were so many things he wanted to do. Touch everything. Taste everything. Crawl inside Cedric’s skin and make the Brit boy feel at least a third of the fire that was rapidly consuming him. But he wasn’t allowed, so he hugged Cedric closer, bit on his cute earlobe and thrust his hips. Cedric groaned and pulled back the tiniest bit.

“I need to get my shorts,” he croaked against Kevin’s temple.

Kevin gripped Cedric’s ass, and writhed against his cock. “In a moment.”

“Oh, God,” Cedric said in a harsh, muffled voice. He cupped Kevin’s face with one hand, and sneaked the other between their bodies. He squeezed Kevin’s length from crown to base, at the same time he ravished his mouth.
Fuck
. “I’ve got the lube in my shorts.”

Kevin lowered his legs immediately. Lube meant he was getting something up his ass, and he wasn’t about to delay
that
.

But wait.

“What about that blow job? Do you want me to do that first?” He rubbed his knee against Cedric’s side. “I thought I was supposed to make it up to you for that
dreadful
time at the sex shop.”

“You can blow me some other time, love. Tonight we shag.”

Kevin took a shuddering breath as Cedric crawled to the end of the bed, and flat-out growled at the sight the guy presented from behind.

Good Lord almighty
.

Had there been any doubt left in his mind that he might not be gay, looking at Cedric’s pink, puckered, little hole would’ve taken care of that really fast.

Yum.

He had to find a way to talk Cedric into letting Kevin eat him out. He wouldn’t be happy until he’d given this unbelievably pretty guy a rim job.

Cedric got up from the bed, threw a bunch of condoms and a bottle of lube next to Kevin, and positioned himself between his legs. He stroked lazy hands over his calves, hips and stomach without making eye contact, then leaned forward and pinched Kevin’s nipples before he placed his hands on his knees. He pushed them up, and forced his thighs apart. Kevin never felt so exposed in his life.

Pushing aside the impulse to cover his body, Kevin forced himself to stay still under Cedric’s wandering gaze. This wasn’t the time to be shy.

“You turn me on so much.” Cedric reached down with one hand to cup his balls. Weighing them in his palm. Gripped his cock. “You know that, right?”

Kevin smiled a little through his moan. “I do.” He liked that Cedric watched him, and chose to believe that the sight of his body was enough to get Cedric harder than he’d been before.

“I want to make this good for you.”

Kevin’s heart swelled at the vulnerability in Cedric’s tone. “I want to make it good for both of us.” He searched Cedric’s face. He looked a little hesitant, and a whole lot scared. “How about some exploring?” He licked Cedric’s jaw. When a few seconds passed and Cedric didn’t pull away, Kevin lowered his hand and wrapped it around Cedric’s cock. “I want to discover the things we can actually do.” He kissed Cedric’s cheek. “And find out what’s definitely off limits.” He stuck his tongue out and licked Cedric’s lip ring. “Let’s introduce my germs to yours, and let them bond.” That made Cedric chuckle, and his eyes twinkled. Kevin smiled triumphantly. “We’ll keep the kisses and the touches under three seconds, and take turns doing it. I’ll count for you, and you’ll count for me.” He nuzzled Cedric’s ear, rested his head on the pillow, and looked up at him. “What do you think?”