The Last Confession of Thomas Hawkins (24 page)

As they ride west down the Tyburn Road, the handsome new houses of Marylebone make way for rolling fields, dull brown and muddy. Black crows strut over the ridged ground, wings clasped behind their backs. Beneath the hedgerows, hard banks of snow thaw slowly in the pale spring sunshine. It has been a cruel winter. The air is fresher here, the sky more open. It makes him think of the Suffolk coast where he grew up.
I will never go there again. I will never see my father or my sister again. I will never . . . I will never . . .

‘
Oh, God!
’
he breathes. Only his guards hear him. They watch and listen closely, memorising every detail. People will pay good money to hear of Thomas Hawkins
’
last moments.

And now, there is no road left. He can hear the roar of the crowds gathered up ahead. Tens of thousands have congregated on Tyburn Hill to see the spectacle, stretching far out into the fields beyond. Scores more have come to pick their pockets. Best place to thieve a watch, a hanging.

The constables fight a path through the throng, beat the surging crowds back with clubs. People are climbing trees, hanging from ladders, balancing on the tops of roofs and walls and carriages. A father lifts his little boy on to his shoulders. The rich and fashionable folk sit in raised galleries next to the gallows, wrapped in greatcoats and scarves, chattering idly over the latest court gossip. Hawkers weave through them all, selling fruit and bowls of warm buttered barley. He can smell hot wine and sweet nutmeg in the air. His stomach rumbles. He has eaten poorly since the trial, his fine clothes hanging loose from his shoulders. And now, of all times, his appetite has returned
–
his body in protest, shouting its desire to live.

The carts turn in a wide circuit to the left, and he sees the gallows at last. Tyburn
’
s triple tree. Three solid posts knocked deep into the earth, topped with three cross beams to form a triangle. Big enough to hang a dozen men. The hangman, John Hooper, lies along one of the cross beams, a pipe clamped between his lips, fixing the ropes with strong, deft fingers. As the carts approach, he flips one over. It tumbles down, swinging lightly.

If the pardon comes, it must be now.

The guards prod him to his feet. The Marshal is leaning down in his saddle, talking with his constables. He glances at the four carts, then gives a sharp nod and rides up to the gallows.
‘
Friends,
’
he bellows over the din. On his third try, the crowd quietens a little.
‘
Good Christians.
’
Someone shouts something from the back and a whole patch of spectators laugh.

Hawkins
’
heart is pounding so hard he can barely breathe.

The Marshal waits for silence. He slips his fingers into his saddlebag. Tugs out a scroll of paper, sealed with bright red wax. A royal pardon
.

Chapter Thirteen

I am told that evenings at the Whitehall cockpit are a genteel affair, where peers lose their fortunes with quiet dignity and ladies are barred entrance for fear of fainting. Southwark cockpits, by contrast, are a grand tour of hell. Howard, true to his nature, had chosen the very worst.

The pit was hidden in a maze of back alleys off Deadman’s Place – a series of twists and turns I have no care to remember now. Kitty knew it well from her time working in the Marshalsea, and kept her cape and gown bunched high above the filth as she led the way. I walked a step behind with my hand upon the hilt of my sword, watching the shadows. We were too close to the gaol for my liking – I had earned myself a mean set of enemies in that damned hole, and a cockfight was precisely the place to find them again. I had conceived a bitter hatred of Southwark since my stay in prison, and this was the first time I had returned to the Borough in months.

Another twist, and we arrived at the mouth of an alley blacker than a parson’s coat, rats scuttling and squealing in the darkness. A torch flickered at the dead end, beckoning us forward. A tavern without a name, hidden for a reason. I thought I glimpsed a movement up ahead, and touched Kitty’s shoulder, but there was nothing there. I had come to expect danger from every shadow in this city. As we paused, I heard footsteps behind us and a short, tough-looking rogue hurried past without a glance, hood covering his face, long cloak flapping at his heels as he ran. Not Howard, but a similar build – strong and solid – and fearless in a place bristling with danger.

The windows of the tavern were boarded with thick planks, but we could hear the rabble inside, rowdy and violent. A guard stood at the entrance – a dark-skinned man with a grubby hat shoved onto his bald scalp. His face was a hideous mess of old scars, puckered and seamed like poorly stitched leather. A face to haunt nightmares, but for his eyes, which were clear and in this moment, at least – merry. He was laughing with the man who’d pushed past us, but his smile faded as we joined them.

‘No wenches,’ he said, barring our way. ‘Not tonight.’

His companion pulled back his hood. ‘Sure and what am I, Jed?’

Jed spat a wet clod of tobacco at his feet and chuckled. ‘Fuck knows what
you
are, Neala Maguire.’

Neala
 . . .? The torch caught the man’s face and revealed that
he
was, in fact, a woman – shorter than me by a head, but by God she was as broad and solid as an oak tree. Her black hair was cut short to her nape, framing a strong face and a square jaw. She spoke with an Irish accent, her voice low and rough as a man’s.

Kitty stepped forward, the torch turning her red hair to spun gold. ‘Have you forgotten me so soon, Jed?’

‘Kitty!’ He grinned in surprise, then grabbed her in a tight hug, lifting her half off the ground. ‘Didn’t know you in them rum togs. Heard you was left a round sum.’ He jerked his chin towards me. ‘He come after?’

She put an arm about my waist. ‘
Before.
Loves me for my sweet temper not my purse, ain’t that right, Tom?’

Jed near pissed himself laughing. ‘Go on,’ he said, gesturing inside. ‘Never saw you.’

The tavern was packed, the air thick with pipe smoke, sweat and liquor. The noise alone almost knocked me from my feet – men yelling to be heard as they clustered around the ring in the centre of the room. I stood dazed, battered by the sound, the stink, the roiling mess of it all. I’d fought in riots quieter than this. If a man found himself in trouble here, then God help him – no one else would. I craned my neck, searching for Howard, but couldn’t see him in the crowds. There must have been two hundred men in there at least.

Kitty grabbed my hand and pressed eagerly to the front, kicking ankles and treading on toes to carve a way through as spectators fell back in shock, open-mouthed. There were no other women that I could see. Some fellows grinned at me as if I were the luckiest devil alive, while others spat oaths and frowned in disapproval.

We pressed forward to the edge of the ring, leaning over the fence. The cocks were being paraded before the fights began, smart and proud of their silver spurs. Kitty studied them all keenly, as if she were choosing one to marry. ‘I like the look of him,’ she muttered in my ear as one strutted by with its chest puffed. She elbowed the man on her left – an old gent in bent spectacles. ‘Hey, there. What’s his pedigree?’

His eyes swivelled behind his thick lenses, then widened in dismay. He tugged at my cuff. ‘Sir, this is not proper! The entertainment tonight . . . It is not suitable for a lady . . .’

Kitty laughed at him. ‘Do I look like a fucking lady?’

The man opened and shut his mouth like a panicked fish. Damned with a ‘yay’ and damned with a ‘nay’. By God, I knew that feeling.

Two of the cocks began to squabble, pecking and clawing the air. The room goaded them on until they began to fight in earnest, turned savage by the crowd. The owners shouted and waded into the fray, but it was too late. The larger cock jumped upon its opponent, and with one vicious slash of its spur, ripped open the other bird’s belly. It was still pecking and jabbing furiously when its owner pulled it free. The injured bird lay bleeding and calling piteously, guts spilling out onto the sawdust. Its owner cursed and wrung its neck. The cock’s legs scrabbled and danced, then fell still.

The parade over, the tavern owner lumbered into the ring to announce the start of the night’s entertainment. A gladiatorial fight with swords . . . he skidded to a halt as he spied Kitty. ‘Out!’ he yelled over the din. ‘Take that strumpet
out
!’

Two hundred men craned their necks to stare at us. There was a woman in the crowd! For some reason I couldn’t fathom, this was an outrage beyond measure. True, most cockfights were meant for men alone, but there were always a few women allowed in the room – women of the town, in the main . . . but tonight there were none, save for Kitty.

A fat, sweaty man in a waterman’s doublet cupped his hands to his mouth. ‘Have you come to see a handsome cock, slut?’ He grabbed his breeches.

‘Aye, but I’ll take the last one standing,’ Kitty yelled back. ‘Not the first one spent in the ring.’

The waterman’s jaw dropped, and then he guffawed with laughter, raising his fists in approval. Nothing a Thames boatman appreciates more than a filthy mouth. The crowd roared with him, but there were as many protests as cheers. I drew Kitty closer. ‘You might be safer outside with Jed,’ I whispered in her ear. Scenes such as this could turn ugly very fast.

The landlord grabbed me by the coat. ‘Out. Both of you. Unless you want a blade in the ribs . . .’

A shot rang out. There was a moment of shocked silence, and then chaos, as men ducked beneath tables or pulled out their own daggers and pistols.

‘Fuck,’ the landlord breathed, lifting his gaze to a bench at the back of the room. A man in a dark velvet coat stood on the bench with a pistol in his hand, smoke trailing from the barrel. A gentleman with a mad man’s face, lips twisted in a humourless grin.
Howard
.

The men who had drawn their own weapons groaned or sat back down upon seeing him. Perhaps because he was a nobleman – or perhaps because his reputation was well known in such a place. Either way, no one had the appetite for a fight.

He stared at me for a long, terrifying moment, as if he might eat me alive. Then he relaxed, and tucked his pistol back into his coat. ‘Let ’em through, Smith,’ he barked at the landlord. His manner was rough, but his voice had the clear, irresistible authority of a courtier. Smith obeyed at once, cursing under his breath as he led us across the room.

Howard was sitting above the ring on a raised platform, attended by a gang of five men. Two I recognised as his chairmen, the rest were gentlemen – of a fashion. Howard watched me without a word as I clambered up to meet him, his face curiously blank. I tensed as he stepped forward, jaw aching at the memory of his last punch. At least there was no powder left in his pistol. If he attacked us I could pull Kitty back into the crowds and out of the tavern in a flash. I was sure she knew the back alleys around here better than Charles Howard.

‘You’re a brave man . . .’ he said, taking a long swig from a bottle of claret.

I said nothing, watching him closely. Ready to run.

‘ . . .bringing such a fine jade here.’ He bowed towards Kitty, then returned his gaze to me. His eyes seemed to glow in the candlelight – the gleam of a man standing on a precipice for the sheer hell of it. ‘What’s your name, sir?’

I stared at him. Was it possible? Did he not recognise me? ‘Thomas Hawkins,’ I replied, too astonished and relieved to lie. I gave a short bow.

‘A gentleman,’ he said, voice thick with sarcasm. ‘Well then, sir – join us.’ He gestured to his chairmen to leave the bench. As they rose, the young rake propped between them slid boneless to the floor and lay still. Howard put a foot beneath the boy’s ribs and rolled him out of the way.

The rest of the party was drunk too, bottles littered beneath the bench, but Howard seemed steady enough. Well, he had enjoyed years of practice – he was in his early fifties now, though he looked much older. I thought he must have been a handsome man in his youth, but he had ruined himself by decades of wild living. His face was bloated and sallow, with burst veins across his nose and cheeks.