Authors: Mercedes Keyes,Lawrence James
let that baby do what it got t'do t'get here! My mama
say, you got to let go, open yo'body, t'free that baby,
hol erin' and screamin' lock it inside you, the baby
die, you die – 'cause you fightin' somethin' you can't
win. Don't fight – calm yo'self, let everythin' loose so
it can happen – you hear me.” El en smiled, nodding
her head, “I hear you, Suga? That your name?”
“Yes ma’am, Suga my name.”
“Nice to meet you, Suga – pretty name – for a
pretty gal.”
“Thank ya'. An' wha's yo'name?”
“I am El en, El en Udora Murray.”
“Tha's a pretty name too.”
“You stay by my side Suga, don't you go
nowhere.”
“I'mo be – right here. When yo'body start doin'
what it need fo'yo'baby – i's gone take yo'breath
away, but you can't let it – you got's just – keep on
breathin' and let it help that baby to come on out - but
you can't stop it - you hear me? Just keep breathin'
an’ ride that bul – don’ matta’ how it hurt.”
“Okay Suga, I'l do what you tel me.”
“I'm gonna have to look, see if I see it, no
matter what, don't you go pushin' yet. Pushin' too
soon make it harda' on you, on yo' baby - i's got to
get where it need first.”
“Okay Suga...” Suga checked and didn't see
any sign of the baby's head, “I'on like this, but – I'mo
clean my hand, an' do what I see my mama do, I ask
her once, why she do it, she say, to feel where the
baby head at. You gone let me? I's gone hurt a lil' but
I be careful.”
“Yes Suga, I let you. I feel so free Suga, so free
– how odd, how positively strange, yet - good - I ain't
feelin' no pain, nowhere - no ma'am, emmm.”
Suga smiled, glad she came.
Three and a half hours later, Erwin and El en
Udora Murray had a healthy screaming baby boy. As
for his mother, there was little to none screaming
for his mother, there was little to none screaming
from her, the entire time, just barely a few cries as
she pushed him into the world. After al was said and
done, she too was healthy, happy and smiling. She
remained relaxed and at ease and in awe of it al
and more in love with her husband. Suga figured
she'd never heard a woman say she love her man so
much, but it was good stil the same to see, both
were so happy, they were crying over their precious
newborn. El en felt so good, she was hugging Suga,
holding her hand, thanking her repeatedly as if she'd
found her long lost friend – asking if there was
anything they could do for them once she was al
cleaned up and settled in her fresh clean bed -
courtesy of Suga.
As the carriage pul ed away later that
afternoon, Suga sat tal and proud to be in
possession of three more gowns to wear,
new
beautiful gowns that had never been worn; two pairs
of shoes and a ladies matching, winter cloak and
bonnet – which she wore as they left. Quinton
received a promise from Erwin that he'd be there
first thing to get started on a proper chicken coop; no
fox could get through – as wel a reasonable size
smoke house. Quinton and Suga learned that the
Murrays were not poor by any means,
just
starting
out new. Parents of both had sent them off with more
than plenty to get them started on a good footing
where ever they decided to set down and root.
El en was an exceptional seamstress, eager to
get started on her own dress shop there in Weaver
Port.
In journey to their new home, she had sat for
hours, sewing, making new things, two of which went
to Suga. As for Erwin, he was quite the
carpenter/builder – he too would get his start there.
The husband and wife would design furniture
together, as wel as pursuing other plans. They
vowed loyalty to the doctor and his assistant mid-
wife, saying to them as they departed, "Whatever
you need, if it is within our power to provide, we wil ;
that is our promise to you."
With Quinton driving the carriage, Suga sat
back, grinning to herself, feeling proud, stil a tad bit
high from starting the pipe for El en, where instead of
blowing it out, she kept a bit back to relax herself. In
a state of slight euphoria, Suga felt such pride, she
could not stop from smiling; she even giggled once,
covering her mouth bashful y.
Quinton, beside her, leaned down and looked
at her, smiled and then turned back to watching the
road, nodding to anyone he passed on their way
back home. After much thought on the matter, he
spoke up, “Your pride is wel deserved, very wel
deserved – for once, al there was for me to do, was
keep the husband calm, sit with him through it, I
didn't mind that, I didn't mind it at al Suga, not one
bit. I predict, they wil become close associates with
us. Those gowns her husband unpacked for you,
they are quite the way. When might I chance to see
you in one?” He asked, flirting, enjoying the two of
them strol ing back together. He found it a welcome
change from her waiting for him, and him, wondering
if she was okay, home alone.
“One day.” She murmured softly, blushing - she
couldn't look his way for grinning so wide, she
wanted to laugh, but dare not, he might think she had
gone daft on him, when in truth, her joy came from
within. Her happiness stemmed from being with him,
and then to have been taken along and to have
helped someone, al by herself, with him standing by,
not interfering – trusting her to get on with it.
The entire event felt wonderful; she wanted to
soak it up. She felt reborn, renewed, given a taste of
something she was good for, other than being a
fancy for a man’s bed - even though, she'd avoided
being that for Quinton - she was not sure for how
much longer he would let her get away with it, his
hints, looks, brushes as he passed her by, touching
her back, shoulder, hands; al was happening with an
her back, shoulder, hands; al was happening with an
intensity. “One – day? I see – should I be concerned
that you wil hold out the best for someone else, while
I stand by – hoping for the day, you'l – ful y – trust
me?” He asked gently.
Suga sat chewing on her bottom lip, trying to
think of what to say, they were moving through town –
even with the wind chil ing al in its wake, there were
stil people out mil ing about going for things;
regardless of the grey day. Many of them who saw
Quinton's carriage driving by, stopped and cal ed out
to him waving - they al knew who he was by now.
That day, the town folk - noticed that there was
something different – noticed that someone rode
with him; al eyes searched and widened noticing the
black female sitting next to him.
Their curiosity would not be satisfied that day,
because Quinton did not stop, his eyes were on the
road and the woman beside him, his glance was
fleeting to those they passed. Quinton didn't seem to
pay them any mind, but Suga felt them look, and
knew the questions that went through their minds,
who was she? Did they just see a
Negro
woman?
Why was she riding with Dr. Caine? Knowing this,
made her shrink further into the carriage's cover top
and sides to hide herself from those who stopped to
look closely – she was afraid and by her next words,
Quinton knew it.
“Shhh, Quinton – stop talkin' t'me, look at
th'road.” Suga whispered at him, feeling paranoid.
“There's no need for you to hide Suga, they wil
have to learn soon enough that I have a girl, servant,
maid – what have you – there is no way to avoid it.
Come out.”
“Hush! Don't be talkin' t'me – ignore me, talk
t'them.”
He waved to
them
instead, continuing on
home, thinking about Suga's fears once more. Glad
to see his home, his yard and the path, he went
straight for the barn, taking the carriage in, Suga
hopped down, grabbed her new things, not waiting
for him to come around for her, and ran for the
kitchen door to let Moose out into the yard.
Quinton sighed and turning back, he led his
horse inside to unhitch it. While in the barn –
brushing his horse down, he thought about Suga.
He thought about how it seemed that no task
was too great for her, or test of endurance too long,
no matter what she must go through, she went
through it with calm acceptance and steel
determination to survive in a way that would be best
for her. She dealt with life and what things presented
themselves, with a cleverness that did not surprise
him, yet - gave him a sense of pride in her, yes, he
felt it, deep in his chest.
He was learning many things about Suga, she
did not panic or fret. She did not flap or hesitate;
there was no whining or complaints. She was
his
fancy, and now – he wasn't so sure if the term meant
what he'd always imagined it to mean; given, due to
their looks and beautiful bodies - certainly for the
pleasure of any man able to pay for them. If the term
fancy
did mean that, wel , Suga – was so much more
than that – her beauty was second to the strength
and grit within – her looks,
they
were the bonus.
By the time he started walking from the barn,
he noted a few people riding by that end of town,
looking towards his place, towards him. He waved
and nodded; they did the same, but were looking for
more beyond him, visual y deflated when they did not
find what they were looking for. He noted this, and
began to add it up, he was a bachelor, keeping a
'female'
servant was frowned upon.
Entering the kitchen, Quinton spied Suga
standing by the wood store door, Moose excited at
her feet, showing that he wished to go outside. As he
grew to know her, he recognized her expressions
and body language, "You worry - I read you so wel ,
and body language, "You worry - I read you so wel ,
why Suga?"
Instead of answering right away, she nodded
toward Moose, "He gots't'go outside."
Acquiescent, Quinton cal ed to him, "Come
Moose, out boy." The ever growing mongrel made
his way toward Quinton and the door, his paws and
nails scoring the floor, his rear end and tail, wagging,
hitting him as he eagerly tried to race out the door,
ahead of his master.
Outside, Quinton walked the dog toward their
woods - where Suga, made it a point of taking him in
order to keep their surrounding yard clean of waste.
Slowly strol ing, as was becoming his custom, he
found his mind evermore on Suga, but this time, with
the addition of the town-folk who were now aware he
might not be living alone; in fact, it was only a matter
of time before they knew this for certain, then what?
Al inhabitants of the area, were Christian,
supposedly devout fol owers of the Bible. He
wondered how long it would be before his living
arrangement was chal enged, once the word
spread?
If chal enged, then what? Would they try to force
him to let her go, free her to separate living
accommodations? That, he could not bear - not as
dependent on Suga's presence as he'd become.
Because of her, he'd made many discoveries and
steps forward in medicine - his life was unhampered
- light because she had come in and freed him of his
domestic burdens. Besides, he gave his word, he
promised her - that he would never turn her, send
her, or
give
- her away. He'd given his word; it was a
matter of honor that he kept it.
Yet, something told him, that this was not only
about him keeping
his
honor, but seeing to it,
making sure, she - had
her
honor, her
virginity
.
Exhaling, he had to accept what he knew about
such people and how they could be, the community
as a whole - if they began feeling that he, someone
they trusted and looked up to as one of their
righteous members; an upstanding community
leader, was not living
'right'
- they would have to step
forward and remind him of what it meant to be their
accepted physician. When,
not ‘if
‘- that day came,