Authors: Mercedes Keyes,Lawrence James
what would he do? One thing was certain, at al
costs, he must protect Suga's honor, regardless of
his restlessness, his steadily growing need and
passion for her, he must keep a respectable
distance so that when the time came, part of the
community would be satisfied to know, their dwel ing
together had been nothing but respectful.
There had to be proof, that he had treated her
as a servant, nothing more - despite what his heart
and soul was growing in torment to do. Whatever
else could be done, he hadn't a clue and would think
on those matters as they presented themselves.
Obviously, Moose was done, he began playing
with Quinton, who laughed and returned the gesture,
chasing him about the yard - neither one of them
mindful of the wind chil , drizzle and moisture in the
air.
Suga stood in the window, staring out at them,
a smile on her face. She thought back to the first few
days there, when she'd asked him for his word on
keeping her - never letting her go. That day, riding
through town, she’d realized that was a promise he
would not be able to keep if others forced him to
conform. She would have to leave, she knew that
and before she went, she would see that he had
everything he needed, that, she felt, was
her
priority -
seeing about him. When Quinton and Moose re-
entered, it was to the sight of her adding to the stew
she'd been keeping alive the last three days. It
cooked constantly around the clock, they ate from it
around the clock, when things started getting low,
more water was added, roots added, herbs, spices
and fresh meat, whatever was available that might
not have been in it before, thus keeping it alive.
She spoke right away on seeing them enter,
"First light, we need t'take that mule an' ol'buckboard
out so we can bring in al I hunt for…"
"Sure, Suga, we can - I told you, whatever you
wish; Moose - wood store until you dry!" He ordered
the animal.
"You like m'bread, I'mo sho' you how I make it,
real fast - won't take you no time."
He thought that odd, "Might I ask, why you
cannot carry on preparing it?"
"I - I ain't gone be here much longer, just wanna
make sure everything right, 'fore I have to go."
"You're not going anywhere, Suga, not as long
as I live."
He answered immediately, knowing that it was
true. She was right for him,
'Hmph.'
He chastised
himself, Suga was right for any man - but not any
himself, Suga was right for any man - but not any
man, was right for Suga. He was right for her. One of
the things that he’d concluded in his mind was that
she was a gift far greater than Henry Bancmen had
given her to be. Quinton had never given a thought of
what his mate would be like, because he’d never
considered taking on a mate, a woman to court and
then, marry – not once. Even though back home in
England, that is what he would be now facing, had he
not taken off into adventures of his own choosing.
He looked back and realized, he must have
been guided by something, or someone greater, in
order to be in place, to receive the best gift any man
could possible receive, and that gift would be, his
other half.
Suga, was – his other half – the part of him that
had been missing; ironical y, he hadn’t known that,
until that moment.
Everything about them together, felt right to him
- right in the way that you never want it to change.
"I like knowin' that, but you can't promise it,
can't give your word; I should’not'ah made you say it.
When time come fo'me t'go, i's gone hurt, but I'ah be
okay – just wanna make sure, you okay – ‘fore I do."
Quinton walked toward her, stopping at the
edge of the huge inglenook fireplace. His move
made her feel nervous, Suga stood turning to face
him, the warmth swarming between them, each
flame dancing to feed the glow to their skin.
"Suga, I have said not a word from the moment
of our meeting that was not true, especial y those,
vowing that you are mine until I die - I meant that
especial y."
"I'on know how you gone stop it. They seen me
today, I wish I ain't go wit' you - I know better, that
was jus’ stupid."
"El en Murray needed you to be there today.
Were it not for you, her husband might have been
burying her today, along with the child."
"You was there, you wudn't let her die."
"I would not have done, what you did, Suga.
She, she would have suffered in my care, I'm afraid.
You are needed here. Therefore, from this moment
forward, each cal - you and I - wil attend together.
I'm asking you to help
me
Suga, help
them
. Wil you?
Wil you help me?"
"How I'mo do that?" She asked, stunned.
"The very way you did today, especial y so,
when it comes to urgent matters involving women,
and those giving birth. I - wil assist
you
, how is
that?!"
She gazed at him, accustomed to him by now,
that he pretty much let her speak her mind if she was
inclined to converse with him.
"Why, Quinton - them is the most foolish things I
ever hear you say, is you done gone crazy, Quinton?
These people ain't gone want me near t'trust when
they feelin' sick, at they worse."
Quinton swayed back laughing, doing a jokers
jig, giddy as a drinking sailor, tickled and thril ed by
her fleeting acts of aggression. To see it, made him
high from the shot of joy he felt witnessing it.
Suga’s face contorted, shaking her head, "Why
is you laughin' - you sho' is crazy!" She was grinning
next, turning away, trying not to laugh at him;
returning her focus to the stew.
"Ahhh, Suga..." He finished off his moment of
mirth, "...come, leave it for now, sit, so we can
discuss this." He invited her, smiling stil , always
when with her. Taking a seat opposite him, Suga sat
and listened.
"Starting this day, you wil learn al of my
instruments, what they're cal ed, why they are used.
While you cannot yet read, you wil learn al I wil
teach you - including, to read. Ah, don't flash your
eyes at me - you can do this Suga, you can do this.
There is so much intel igence and wisdom inside of
you, you need this to give those things a purpose - a
place to be used, or else, find al wasted by the road
side.”
His
eyes
gazed
at
her
with
gentle
understanding, “No, not while with me - you wil learn
and -
you
wil teach me things, I should know. As for
the town-folk, leave them to me, and trust me, please
- wil you?"
Having no other choice in the matter, Suga
nodded, "Yes, Quinton."
Frightening to Suga, but true to his word he
was tenacious.
The rest of that day, he began schooling her,
laying out before her everything that he used as a
physician, explaining just as he’d promised.
Then
came reading, he explained the structure
of letters, their sounds. How they were put together
to form words. How the words were linked to form
sentences they used each day to communicate.
He explained how to take what one hears, and
how to apply it to what one sees in letters, missives,
and journals and in books - thus, cal ing it reading.
He made her sit with his quil , the ink wel and a
new journal book - where he taught her to write the
letters and words she said each day; in one instance
while teaching her, he leaned over her shoulder, his
larger hand, cupped over her smal er one, directing it
on what was a comfortable position while writing. He
found his face, just a bit too close to hers; his body
instantly reacted to being so near; thus a battle not to
kiss her, inhale the scent of her, not touch her lips
with his own - giving into urges that bombarded his
mind daily. Snapping himself out of it, he moved
quickly away, pointing her attention back to the
booklet, and off of him. “You must learn to write your
name.” He directed her.
“Suga?” She asked, smiling, excited at the
prospect of seeing her name.
“Yes, Suga
Caine
.” He added, his gaze lost on
her lovely features. Suga nodded and looked away.
Did she notice? He knew that she had to have
noticed that he had feelings for her; yet, he could only
wonder, did she think those feelings were merely
what he as a man felt because he desired her in his
bed? He couldn’t be certain exactly what she thought
of them, but what was clear was this thing, between
them, it existed - this relationship that should be
more, but wasn't, because he would not force her to
take what he would give, as a man would a woman -
that knowledge was like a steadily growing beast
that sat alive in their midst, mocking them both -
wondering
which
one would come through it, to get
to the other.
As a consequence of what was happening
around them, Quinton knew to touch her would be
foolhardy - a move he would come to regret, thus -
he kept a respectable distance, while certainly
tempted to do otherwise. The key was to stay very
busy and focused; he returned to correcting her. Her
speech was soon improving, with him guiding her on
her grammar each time he heard a way of speaking
that could have been better expressed. .
Suga, sighed, not too sure about this new
notion of his, educating her, making her his nurse. At
times he said things like, "No more butchering the
English language." He was relentless, making her
feel that he was paying her too much attention with
his instructions. He had assigned her to writing the
first sentence she spoke each morning; and the last
sentence each night, both would start with, ‘Suga
said’. He taught her to form a picture in her mind
when she saw and read a word, so that as she read
it, she could see it as clearly as what her eyes
beheld each day.
Frightening as wel as true to his word, she
attended each cal and he would introduce her,
"My assistant, Suga – she nurses those I
attend." Because the cal s were urgent, those who
were surprised by her showing up with him, kept al
thoughts to themselves as their first concern was to
their sick loved one.
No matter how bloody the job, how horrific
some injuries, how sick some patients, she stood
firm, never balked, felt il , queasy, dizzy or faint - she
cleaned them and dressed their wounds. Not
escaping Quinton’s notice – Suga had a calming
effect on many, she lul ed and soothed them with her
gentle manner and persuasive direction. To help
some patients in extreme pain, Laudanum or the
pipe was used to relax them. Depending on their
malady - while sitting in attendance, Suga would mix
them tinctures to fortify their blood, to fight infection
and pain in their absence.
Word got around about the doctor.
Word got around about his assistant, Suga.
Tongues started wagging with the question of
where did his Negro assistant live? She did not
reside with any of the local families, nor had she a
room for boarding in town.
They were being checked upon without their
knowledge – in conclusion, they surmised that there
was only one place for the girl to be, and that was
living with the doctor.
The first motion against them took place as
they were deep in the woods, going from one spot to
another, col ecting fungi for food and medicines. It
was Suga’s turn to teach him, show him, and help
him identify the various things her mother had taught
her to use in any given situation. Using the mule and
cart, Moose running about their heels, they returned
with a bumper crop, only to stop and see, walking
about their townhouse garden, looking for them, was
Henry Bancmen. Moose ran halfway between them,
barking at him, turning back to Quinton and Suga,
and then running so far once more, barking.
Suga clicked her tongue, tapped her thigh and