Authors: Mercedes Keyes,Lawrence James
scribe, you have already seen, discerned, gathered
- yes - you are aware of my sin - there is no
reasonable means of which I could hide it; thus my
confession and acceptance. My God, Lord, Father -
her curves, the firmness and beauty of her bare
breasts beckoned me so that I fought all within - not
to give in to lustful stirrings, yet - …
I must admit to testing the reactions of my
fingertips upon her nipples - they are dark and
distended to a hardness at my touch.
Quinton sat back and closing his eyes, gulped.
He felt himself jump, stir, lengthen. Replacing the
quil into the wel , he dusted his entry and left it to
complete later. Standing from the chair, he had a
decision to make, climb back into bed with her and
fight his urges for sleep? Or return to the room
below, making the best of resting on the sofa?
"You must see about her needs, not your own!"
He scolded himself. Returning to his bed, he sat,
sighed, prayed, blew out the lantern and laid upon
his bed for rest that did not easily come.
Deep into the night, the wench woke him three
times with her fever, with whimpers, nightmares -
terror in her cries. Yet and stil , al while she
struggled, her voice weak, she came to enough to
plead, "I be betta' masta, I be betta' - don't - give me
up - I be betta'."
Bathing her brow, forcing her to drink more of
the special tea he'd made from herbs he had
col ected while in the Orient, his murmur to her was
gentle, "Sleep, don't be sil y - you are a gift - one - it
is best - that I keep... sleep." There, he said it; he
knew that it was true, that he would,
keep
her. He
wondered if he'd known al along, that he would keep
this gift, and make the best of it – her? At one
moment in the night, her feverish eyes stared into
his; he smiled for her, to reassure her and suddenly
realized he didn't know her name.
"Tel me - if you can - what name your mother
announced upon your birth?"
Licking her chapped, cracked lips to moisten
them before she spoke, "Suga ... my name - Suga."
Once more, taking himself by surprise, Quinton
chuckled out loud; he shook his head in wonder.
Her eyes drifted closed, and again she slept; it
was her final interruption of rest. Al was quiet once
more, he returned to his place beside her, closing
his eyes, before drifting off to sleep, a smile spread
across his face, for in his mind, her name repeated
itself, over and over until the final mention and
version of it, brought his smile, 'Suga
Caine.'
Life
was not so terrible after al . Quinton had a feeling the
Lord was saying to him,
“Life – is not so bad. There
– your day has ended - better? Quinton?”
For him to
answer the Lord,
“Yes Lord, yes - better.”
For their own reasons, both were at the height
of being ful y drained. They slept late into the next
day and through it, only rising for a bit of privacy to
relieve themselves via the chamber pot, Quinton
leaving her to take care of it, returning to dump it
despite the distress it caused her at having him do it.
He smiled and proclaimed, “You are a sil y little rat-
slayer, back in bed, I am not above this. Do as I say,
grumble no more.” Upon his return, again he found
her fast asleep, despite her fight to try and do what
she felt her chore, she was exhausted – drained.
Aware of that, Quinton returned to bed and together,
they slept. Even in her condition, she made every
effort to keep her distance from him while lying within
reach – this Quinton noticed as he would wake,
check on her, giving her soup, water, cheese, tea
and a bit of bread.
No matter how tired himself, needing to recover
from days of being in attendance to sick ones, he
didn’t shirk his responsibility to see to her, he rose
with scratchy, bleary eyes, making more sustenance
for her, for himself where in silence they ate and
drank – the entire time her eyes were cast
downward, as if ashamed of herself for al owing this,
as if it were an unspoken rule that she not look him in
the eyes.
Quinton sighed, he would address her fears
later, but for now, they both needed more rest, thus
he continued to check on her every time he stirred
and immediately upon finding her okay he went back
to sleep.
Side by side they remained; becoming more
familiar with one another – in that time of rest and
healing; Suga learned al she needed to know about
the man she considered, her new master, she lay in
his bed and not even one night, had he made an
attempt to take her against her wil . It was early upon
the third morning when their rest and peace was
interrupted with a banging at his door. Startled
awake, Quinton blinked, trying to adjust his eyes to
opening and staying that way; stumbling from the
bed, he yawned going to his window, his bedroom
was right above the front door; opening the window
he looked out, yel ing, "Calm down, enough of that
banging - look up young man - up!" He cal ed down
to the anxious male wringing his hands and then
banging once more; he caught himself, stopped and
looked up, "Please sir! My apologies, tis urgent - it's
me brother - I've taken off two of his fingers - he's
bleedin' awful! I didn't mean to do it - twas an
accident - hurry sir, please - he could die - blood is
everywhere!" Just like that, he was alert, awake,
refreshed, and ready to go! "Very wel - I need to
wash, get dressed, sit there, wait for me, I haven't a
clue of where you live, we shal take my carriage to
hasten the journey."
The young male nodded, rubbing his
midsection that was tight with worry, he was wishing
to tel him hurry, but kept it back - sitting on the
doorstep, he rocked and waited. Closing the window
to and turning back to the room, Quinton looked to
the bed, it was empty. "Where has she gone to
now?" He blasted, whipping his night shirt up and off
of his body, standing nude – displaying to no one in
particular a body lean, strong with whipcord muscles.
Going straight to his clothing, he began
dressing hurriedly, watching his door for her return.
Due to the emergency, he had little time to locate her
as he rushed through his home - going for the
remedies he would use for blood loss and closing off
wounds, tossing al into his medical grip. In a hurry
and impatient with wondering where she'd gone to;
he cal ed out, "Suga?! Suga?!" Stil there was no
sight of her, "Blast you Suga Caine, where have you
gone to?!"
There was no answer, he could not wait, nor
worry. He rushed out his back door, heading for his
smal stable barn when once more, he was brought
to a stop – straight ahead was his horse and
carriage being led from the barn, by none other than
- Suga.
"Al ready masta, I do it for you - you gots to go
- I tol' this horse, hurr'up now - masta ain't got time for
no foolishness!" She'd hurried and was out of breath,
her voice was sweet, feminine, sultry, low - he
couldn't believe his ears, he couldn't believe his
eyes. She was sweating, wrapped in the sheet with it
knotted about her as best she could and bare foot;
his horse, carriage, ready to go.
"Suga, are you mad!? Back inside with you! I
can do such things myself!" He scolded.
"I got's t'do my bit! You don’ enuff now, gone -
don't worry 'bout me - he waitin' - gone!" She
ordered him in her sweet concerned way. Just like
that, head down, she dashed off back into the house,
so that he could climb into his carriage and be off.
Quinton suddenly smiled once more, he was
breaking a record, he’d smiled more since having
Suga than he had that year. Driving to the front for
the young man, who hurriedly leapt on board and
they were on their way.
Sure enough, Quinton arrived to quite a mess,
and true, the man he was to treat had lost a great
deal of blood – the family had also col ected his
fingers, as if he could put them back on.
Cleaning the wound, Quinton wondered if the
body could heal itself back in such a way, as to reknit
the appendages back fol owing such a severing.
Even at his thoughts, he’d heard of no success as of
yet for such a procedure; being honest, he explained
that unfortunately, it was impossible. To do so, would
endanger him further with gangrene and worse.
The family and the young man, had little choice
but accept his advice and he carried on with
cleaning al areas of the two finger stumps, and then
painstakingly sewed them closed, pul ing the skin
over to stitch them. Two or more hours later, the
deed was done, the fingers bandaged with him
warning, if infection set in – to contact him
immediately.
Afterward, the mother fetched warm water for
him to clean up; her husband asking what they could
possibly give as payment. Giving it some thought,
Quinton informed them, “I'm in need of cloth, cloth for
garments, I’ve a new servant who has come to me
with little, in fact, nothing. Have you cloth which can
be made into something decent? What can you offer
to that end?” he asked. “What size of a servant sir?”
One of their young daughters asked, wishing to
contribute.
“She's smal , just a little more of her than you,
but not much.”
“I can spare a chemise, a gown, one of my
older ones, wil that do?” She asked, moving quickly
to fetch them, “They're clean, not yet threadbare.”
“It wil be better than her current state, that wil
be fine, thank you.”
“We can spare you a couple of laying hens,
young ones; don't want to be owing you, sir, Dr.
Caine.” The husband spoke up. Quinton smiled,
“Two young laying hens, and the garments, sounds
fair.”
“Pa, throw in one of them mongrel pups, we got
three left.” A son spoke up.
“Go get'im one, pick that big chubby one – it's
gone be a moose in the en’ I'm thinkin'.”
Quinton sighed, he didn't real y care for the
idea of a dog, but he couldn't turn them down, they
were anxious to settle their debt with him. He wanted
to get moving, his mind on Suga – she was in his
home alone, he’d been in possession of her only in a
better part of a week, and already he worried over
her.
By the time he drove his carriage back into his
barn, chickens squawking behind him from their
crate, the fat, big paw puppy whimpering below his
seat, he was eager to get inside and check on her,
hoping she'd fared wel in his absence. He'd barely
cleared the barn door when out of the house she
came rushing, straight into the barn, “I'm here masta',
I'l do that for you.” She went straight for the harness
of his horse.
“Suga Caine! Where inside of your head did
you hear me cal for you to do such a thing? Get
back inside – back at once!” He ordered.
“Can't masta', gots to help – gots to do my bit.”
“Stop cal ing me that blasted title! Master – I
have gone to great lengths to avoid the bowels of
hel in my passing – I’l not let the treating of you send
me there! This is not your bit! Inside right now – wait
– here, these are for you – and uh – I suppose this is
too.” He passed her the garments and then held up
the grunting puppy, “We’l both starve with the
feeding of this one, he'l be everywhere if we leave
him out here, until we have a place to confine him,
he'l have to stay inside. We have hens as wel ,
laying hens. They'l stay in the crate here in the barn
until I get a coop built I suppose.” He went on,
speaking to her as if she’d always been in his life.
Her look of surprise at the clothing and then the
puppy made him smile, “There you are once more,
that look upon your face, I can't very wel have you
around in that sheet can I? Take them and the pup –
get inside.”