Life's Next Chapter (12 page)

I finally slide into the tub. The warm water melts away some of my tension, but not as much as I was hoping. I look out the window and as much as I don’t want to, I cry because I like Luke and I don’t want him to leave me. Our date tonight has got to be the best date I’ve ever had. Granted I didn’t go on many dates, hell I haven’t had that many lovers, including Luke, if that even counts.
Oh God!! What have I done?

Luke returns with a beer for me. “Thank you.” I so need some more alcohol courage for what I am about to tell him. He strips in front of me and if I didn’t have this mind blowing secret to tell him, I would have
oohed
and
aahed
over his magnificent cock and his sexier than hell body. He slides in behind me, and all the nerves in my body start to quiver; my blood is boiling, and my hormones are swirling around, like a tornado. I inhale the beer, as if I was dying from thirst. I know this moment is awkward, and I am earnestly trying to find the strength to talk to him. Knowing I will have to look in those eyes of his makes me cry.

He asks me to talk to him, so it is now or never, well technically not never. He would eventually find out. So, I muster up the courage, and stand up so I can turn around and sit in his lap. Even though I can feel his cock against me, I can’t think about sex without knowing I am going to hurt him. Just like Danielle did.

“Luke, I have to be honest with you. It was my fault I got pregnant with the girls. I mean, I didn’t do it on purpose. I wasn’t looking to get pregnant. I was switching birth controls, and during the process I didn’t use a backup method.”

With his big calloused hands gripping my face, he looks at me and says, “Kate, I don’t know how you learned all about the birds and the bees, but it takes two to make a baby. So, I can see where you think it’s entirely your fault, but it’s also Keith’s. Where was his back up method? I don’t believe it’s solely the woman’s responsibility. Men need to take action, too.”

I have a feeling he will change his mind in about sixty seconds. “Well, then hold onto that thought because…I haven’t been on birth control since I found out I was pregnant with the girls.”

I can’t peel my eyes away from his. I am waiting for him to throw me across this tub and haul ass out of my life. He’s staring at me, but I don’t think he can see me. His pupils are dilated; in them I’m starting to see only black. I brace myself for the yelling that will come out of his mouth.

“Are you telling me when we had sex earlier today there was no protection against you getting pregnant?” he asks quietly, yet in a choked up manner.
Ouch, that stung just a little.

I just look down into the water and nod my head yes. I can hear him hiss. “Luke, I am so sorry. I wasn’t thinking, hell all I wanted was for you to respond to me. Luke, before today I hadn’t had sex in over a year and half. Then we were kissing, and I just wanted us to be close. I know I fucked up terribly, but I wanted to let you know that if I am pregnant, I completely understand if you don’t want this relationship to continue.”

His black eyes look at me with fury. I shiver from the thought of what is going to happen next. He grabs my arms. “Do you honestly believe I would end what we have if you got pregnant with
my
child? We both fucked up by not having protection, but don’t you dare think I will leave you, or my child. I was a Goddamn child when I became a father and I never ran. I will not run with you.”

Tears are pouring out of my eyes and I’m sniffling. It’s the ugly cry that you never want to cry in front of people. “I wanted you to know you don’t have to stay with me if you don’t feel anything for me. I don’t want to endure another relationship like I had with Keith. If you want out, then do it now…the sooner the better.”

“Kate, you make me feel things I have
never
felt before. In my thirty-six years of life, I have never felt more adoration for another person. What I feel for you blows me away. You make me happy. If you are pregnant, then it’s just another person that will make me happy. I told you at dinner I wanted more children. I know it’s soon in our relationship, and I was hoping to get to know you more before we thought of a baby, but it is what it is and we will live with it.”

He wipes my ugly tears away with his thumbs. “Shh, baby, please, I don’t want to see another tear come down this beautiful face of yours. It will work out, whichever way it goes. Do something for me?”

I look into those big green eyes of his. “What?”

“Make love with me tonight.”

Wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling myself close to him, I kiss him with brutal force. Our tongues entwine and dance with one another. His mouth is warm and sweet. I could spend the night just kissing his mouth. Luke makes me feel like I’m on top of the world when he kisses me.

“Not here. I want you spread out on the bed,” he declares. Helping me off his lap, I climb out of the tub and reach for the towels on the nearby shelf. He grabs mine out of my hands, opens it, and starts to dry me off. Dropping down to his knees, he drags the towel down my lower back, around my hips, and down my legs. When he comes back up with the towel he drops the towel, grips my hips with both hands, and pulls me to his mouth. He trails hot kisses across my lower abdomen. Ducking his head, he gives me the softest kiss on my bare mound. He stands up and pulls me in for another scorching kiss. I return the favor, taking the towel and drying him off. With my hands pressing the towel to his chest I slowly dry his chest. He rips the towel from my hands and throws it on the floor. My hands are still pressing against his chest. I slowly slide them up feeling his pure, rock hard muscle and his rapid heartbeat. My hands cup his jaw, pulling his mouth closer. Our kiss intensifies and I’m ready to be horizontal. Luke grabs my thighs and picks me up, wrapping my legs around his waist. We never lose contact between our kissing.

Luke carries me to the bedroom, tenderly laying me on the bed. His eyes are full of need and want. He looks at me with desire and longing as he gently lies on top of me. I can feel his throbbing erection against my upper thigh. He crushes his lips to my mouth and we kiss with an intensity that could set the bed on fire. He breaks the kiss and moves away, kissing down my neck to my chest. He licks the swell of my breast and sucks on a hardened nipple. He licks and nips. I moan with cravings for more. I want more. I need more. “Luke,” I moan his name. He samples my other breast with the same concentration. He licks all the way down the center of my abdomen, until he reaches my bare mound. With his head in between my thighs, he looks up at me. “I’ve dreamt of this moment since the day I laid eyes on you.” With that he takes his thumbs and spreads my folds. He dips his head and licks me up and down.

I jolt from the sensation of his tongue. He torments my clit, makes it feel things it has never felt. “Oh God…right there…Luke.” I shout. The sensations running through me are intense. I’m perspiring and my breathing is labored. Luke continues to suck on my clit until the throbbing intensifies, and then the tightness in my abdomen starts. “Luke, I’m going to come,” I force from my dry mouth. I grab onto his head.

“Let go, baby, I want to taste you.” With those words I explode, my orgasm so violent I fear I’ll pass out. Luke continues to torment my clit, tasting all my juices that are flowing freely. Finally, when I’m about to beg for mercy, he pulls away, “Damn, baby, that was hot.”

With short breaths I reply, “Was it everything you dreamt of?” Giving him my biggest smile, as he moves up my quivering body.

“Sunshine, it was better. Taste for yourself.” He crushes his mouth to mine. I taste myself on him and it is erotic. He pulls away from the kiss and leans over the side of the bed, where he pulls his wallet out and grabs a condom.

“You came prepared,” I whisper to him.

“This time I did.” Getting his bearing straight, he kneels on the bed and slides the condom on. Laying back over me, he kisses me again. “I need to be inside you.”

“I need you, too,” I murmur to him.

Using his knees, he spreads me further then I feel his cock press at my entrance. His kisses deepen as he waits. “Luke, please!” I demand. With those words he slides his cock into my warm and greedy pussy. I tighten on his cock, letting him feel how much I want him.

“Sunshine. You. Feel. So. Damn. Good.” He gasps out each word while thrusting into me harder and faster.

“Don’t stop!” I breathlessly exclaim. The pleasure of having Luke’s cock inside of me makes me delirious with desire. I start to sweat, my legs are shaking, I can feel the tremble in my lower abdomen and my clit is pulsating, as if it is electrocuted. The feel of his large calloused hands running over my sensitive skin has me whimpering his name. My body is about to burst into flames. Luke makes my blood boil and my heart skip beats. Luke thrusts into me over, and over, until I feel the pleasure of my orgasm take over my body.

“Luke,” is all I can say.

“Come for me, Kate. I want to feel your pussy milk my dick.” Boom; my body explodes with the best orgasm of my life. My body shakes and tightens in areas I never knew existed.

Luke follows my body’s reaction and comes right after with me. Luke leans his forehead to mine as we struggle to catch our breath. “Kate, you’re amazing.” I can’t say anything; I’m struggling to find the brain cells to breathe. He rolls to the side of me and continues to kiss my neck, then moves to clean up. When he comes back, he pulls the covers over us and wraps me in his arms. With kisses to my forehead, he murmurs, “This is just the start, sunshine. There’s so much more I want do to this body of yours. Thank you for tonight.”

I leave kisses all over his scarred shoulder and collarbone. “Thank you, Luke,” I manage, as we fall into a deep slumber.

I SLOWLY AWAKE to the house phone ringing. I’m enveloped in Luke’s arms. Swinging his arms off of me, I reach over to the nightstand and grab the cordless phone. Seeing it is my grandparents’ number I hit the call button immediately. “Hello” I answer in my groggy morning voice.

“Momma!”

“Morning, princess. What are you doing?”

“Nana, me, and Juju are making banana nut pancakes. Want to come over for breakfast? I sliced the bananas, momma!” Her sweet voice exclaims. I look at the alarm clock and wince that it’s only seven in the morning.

“Yeah, baby, let me get up. Can I talk to Nana? Love you, princess.”

“Love you, Momma.” She just melts my heart. It makes me think of the shit Keith said. I don’t see how he can say such hateful things about his flesh and blood. My Nana gets on the phone and I ask her when breakfast would be ready. I also ask if I can bring a guest. I can hear my grandmother snicker, knowing my guest is still sleeping next to me. She tells me breakfast will be ready in an hour and that my guest is more than welcome to come. Hanging up the phone, I look over at Luke, who looks so beautiful sleeping. I slide out of the bed and head for the shower. A couple minutes later Luke joins me.

“Good morning, sunshine,” he says as he wraps my body in his muscled arms.

My back is against his chest and I can already feel his hard erection against the small of my back. “Good morning to you,” I reply, turning around and wrapping my arms around his neck. He picks me up and holds me up against the cold tile. He kisses me hard and roams his hands across my body.

“Babe, as much as I want hot shower sex, we can’t. I told my grandmother we would be at her house for breakfast.”

He furrows his brow, “We?”

“Yes, I want you to come to breakfast. The girls would love to see you,” I reply, rubbing my hands along his chiseled back. I don’t think my hands will ever get tired of feeling his rock hard body, or the rock hard erection that has prodded my abdomen.

“Alright, I’ll go for breakfast, but I need to taste you first.” I throw my head back and giggle. I feel like I have unleashed the insatiable beast. Not that I mind, I love how close and connected Luke and I have become. He’s an amazing lover.

We take a little longer from our need for a morning quickie. Once we’re both out of the shower, Luke leaves the room wearing only a towel. “Where are you going?” I ask in astonishment.