Indulgence (209 page)

“I want to see those beautiful blue eyes of yours.”

Her eyes pierced mine as I rammed my cock into her slow and
hard with my hands braced on her knees. Cassidy arched her back what little the
restraints allowed, lifting her chin to the ceiling. I repeated my movement
into her over and over. I soon recognized the trembling beginning in her core,
signaling her impending climax. She was holding her breath and her eyes were
glazed over.

“Breathe, Cassidy. You’ll feel more if you breathe. You’re
already so close.”

Stilling myself while she caught her breath, I proceeded
with my attack before she could beg me to continue. It wasn’t long before she
let out a guttural moan that sent me tumbling over the edge with her. Her
nipples hardened even more as her orgasm spread across the utopia of her body,
causing a slight blush to creep up her neck to her face. I loved her like this;
in the afterglow with her body still trembling, lips parted and panting for air
as her breasts heaved. I dropped my head to her belly and breathed in her
scent. I could take her like this every day for eternity.

“That was so good, but way too quick, Blackbird. You’re
going to be sore tomorrow when I’m through with you.”

“Just the way I like it,” she panted.

~ CASSIDY ~

My head was on his chest and we were both panting again. I
sat up; straddling him with our bodies still attached, and tenderly ran my
fingers all over his chest before tweaking his nipples before he flipped me to
my back.

“Eeek.” I was giggling and pushing on his forearms as he
pinned his body on top of mine.

“You’re going to be the death of me.” He smiled down at me
before laying his head down on my belly. Running my fingers through his silky
strands, a release of satisfaction left his mouth, “Mmm.”

Before I knew it, I recognized the sound of his heavy
breathing. He was falling asleep. “James?”

“Unh.”

“I’m sorry baby, I have to pee.”

He rolled off me and crawled up to the pillows. I kissed his
cheek and started to scoot off the bed when he grabbed my wrist. “Hurry back. I
want you with me.” I smiled as I rushed off to the bathroom.

Thankful

~ CASSIDY ~

“So, when is the concert?” I lifted my head to meet his eyes
in the mirror and he said, “Your birthday gift.”

“Oh, right.” I let a little chuckle escape my lips as I
finished brushing my teeth. He was trimming and shaving his goatee that was now
a full beard. I rinsed my mouth and responded, “In a few weeks, I think it’s
the week before Christmas.”

“Who’s performing?”

“Umm.” I felt myself blush.

“Should I be worried about this high school crush of yours?”
He had me pinned against the counter while rubbing his nose against mine.

Laughing, I said, “It’s not as bad as my Dad and Cal made it
out to be. I liked his music, I still do. I don’t understand what the big deal
is.”

“So tell me who it is, if it’s not a big deal.”

I placed my hands over my face before grunting out, “Chris
Isaak.” He looked shocked. “What? He puts on a great show.” He just stared at
me with that big stupid grin of his. “Stop looking at me like that. What are
you thinking?”

"I took you more for a Rob Zombie girl."

“I like him, too.” He started belly laughing and I could
feel myself blush further.

“Your taste in music is quite eclectic. Maybe I should take
you to see Weird Al.”

I smacked his chest as I crinkled up my face in disgust.
“Watch it, Mr. Benedict. I’m sure you have some questionable music tastes,
too.”

“Nope, not I.” He winked before heading to the closet to
dress.

*****

It was Thanksgiving. Dad and Lisa were getting married the
next day. We’d planned to have lunch with James’s parents and dinner at Dad’s
since we were staying the night there so I could be there in the morning for
all the wedding deliveries. Dad and Lisa took the news about Mom and Dan better
than I expected they would. Better than
I
did. I had tried not to think
about it, knowing James, Annie, Smith and Cal were doing everything possible to
get to the bottom of it all. It’d been pretty quiet on the Dan front, which I
must admit had me a little worried.

The past couple weeks with James had been bliss, or as close
as I had ever been to it. I couldn’t help but worry something was going to mess
it up. Having had the pleasure of sleeping in his arms almost every night as he
rained his sweet kisses over every inch of my body had been dreamlike.
Missionary, doggy, shower, table, floor, couch, you name it and we’d probably
done it. I was blushing just thinking about it. He had turned me into a wanton
sex kitten. Speaking of sex kitten, Saturday was the fetish party and I was
very curious and nervous, but James had ensured me that there was nothing to be
worried about.

“Hey, babe, you ready to go?” Pulling me from my thoughts
and my packing, he came back into my bedroom. I would never tire from looking
at him. He was wearing jeans and an oxford under a tight fitting gray sweater
with the lapel collar turned up. His arms and chest were bulging in the
sweater.

“You look hot.”

He smirked, “Not so bad yourself.” I waved him off and
started zipping up my overnight bag.

“I think I have everything. My dress and shoes for the
wedding are at Dad’s; hair stuff, makeup…What am I forgetting?”

“Birth control?” Curling up behind me, he rubbed his groin
into me. “You have enough packed for a week and you’re only going to be gone
two nights.”

“Yes, I have my pills.” I pushed back against him and then
turned in his arms, “You’re very tempting, but your parents are expecting us.”
I grabbed my bags and started for the stairs when he snatched my bags from my
grasp—always the gentleman—and we made our way downstairs.

When we stepped outside I was greeted by a big Ford pickup
truck. “Where’s the Rover?”

He smirked at me as he placed my bags in the back seat of
the quad cab. “Eh, wasn’t feeling it anymore. Figured I’d spread the Ford love.
Do you like it?”

“Like it, I love it. Haven’t I told you I have a thing for
guys in big trucks?” I winked at him as I circled the truck admiring it. “My
Dad and Cal are going to be envious!”

Chuckling as he opened my door, he didn’t miss an
opportunity to squeeze my ass as I climbed in.

“You’re gonna have to wait. Maybe we can christen her
later.” He groaned at my seductive stare before closing the door.

We pulled up to his parents’ place to a flurry of activity
and
not
the activity you wanted to see. There were a few cop cars and an
ambulance parked in the drive. James threw it in park, immediately jumping out
of the truck before I had a chance to unbuckle. He’d already vanished inside
when I spotted Cal and Jane.

“What’s going on?” I was catching my breath from running up
the drive to the house.

“It’s Aunt Eva. She collapsed and wouldn’t come to so we had
to call the paramedics. She was awake by the time they arrived and is now
fighting going to the hospital.” Jane was clearly upset and Cal had a
protective arm around her.

“Oh, God. James told me about the cancer but he hasn’t
elaborated further. How bad is it?” My heart was pounding as my throat
tightened. I couldn’t begin to imagine what James was going through.

Jane tried to speak, but her emotions took over and Cal
pulled her to his chest and I rubbed her back.

“From what Jane has told me, it’s bad. She doesn’t have much
time.”

My stomach dropped as his words sank in. I needed to go to
him. Making my way inside, following the voices, I entered the living room to
find that Eva was sitting on the couch with a paramedic monitoring her vitals
while another spoke to James and his father. Eva spotted me and waved me over
with a reassuring smile on her face. She patted the couch next to her so I sat
down and she grabbed my hand. I needed to spend more time with her; I had so
many questions for her.

“My lovely girl. They’re fussing over nothing. Everything is
just fine. You’re a woman; you know what it’s like to overdo it. I just did too
much preparing for today.”

I was at a loss. I sensed that she was trying to cover up
how serious it was. “Eva, maybe you should let them take you to the hospital
just to be sure.”

“Thank you. She needs to go.” James was now in front of us,
squatting down to our level.

“Pish, posh. This is nonsense. I’m spending Thanksgiving at
home with my family.”

“Dammit, Mom.” We both jumped at his tone. “I’m sorry, but
you’re being a stubborn ass.”

I did my best to hold back my smirk. Watching him take this
tone with his mother was quite amusing.

She seemed to be considering what he was saying and was
looking between him, the paramedic, J.J. and me. “Fine, but I’m not staying
longer than one night.”

I could practically see the tension roll off of James, J.J.
and the paramedics. They wheeled over the ambulance bed and she started cursing
them. We all got a good laugh out of her throwing a fit as she was strapped to
the bed, rolled out of the house and then put in the ambulance. James made his
way back to the porch where I was standing with Cal and Jane.

“Cassidy, I’m so sorry, but I need to be at the hospital
with Mom.”

“I can come with you.”

“Cass, I don’t know when I’ll be leaving. I may miss the
wedding tomorrow and you have so much you need to get done. I’m sure Cal can
give you a lift.”

“I, um, okay. Are you sure? I want to be with you. I’m so
sorry.” He grabbed my hands and tenderly rubbed his thumbs over my knuckles.

“I know you do. I’ll head up to your dad’s as soon as Mom’s
in the clear.” He kissed my forehead before pulling me toward his truck. “Jane,
you can ride with me if you like.”

I looked to Cal and Jane as they exchanged a few words I
couldn’t make out. He kissed her and my heart heated a little for my brother.
I’d never seen him like this with a woman. Cal and James traded bags as I
hopped in Cal’s truck and Jane climbed into James’s.

Cal and I drove in silence for the first thirty minutes of
the hour long drive to Dad and Lisa’s. There was a light snow falling, but it
wasn’t quite sticking yet. Spotting a few houses donning their Christmas lights
and others still putting them on, I couldn’t help but want to be with James.

“Do you think she’s alright?” I asked as I stared out my
window.

I heard him sigh, “I don’t know. Jane is under the
impression she’ll be gone soon.”

I dropped my head back to my seat and closed my eyes. This
time of year had always been magical for my family, even after mom was gone. I
had a hard time wrapping my mind around how
horrible
that time of year
must have been for James.

“Cal, this is the worst time of year for this. With the
holidays, his birthday, Jason’s death, and all at this same time of year. It’s
a cruel joke.” I wanted to get to know Eva better and made a promise with
myself that I would spend some time with her,
if
she made it. I shook
the morbid thought from my brain.

“He knows you want to be there with him and how much you
love him.”

“Does he?” I rubbed my hands over my face.

“Cassidy, he loves you, too. It’s written all over the two
of you.”

I just looked at him, positive that the uncertainty was
plastered all over my face.

He narrowed his eyes at me. “He’s told you, right?”

I laughed, “Nope, nada, zilch.” I stared back out the window
as a solitary tear ran down my cheek, scorching my skin.

“Have you told him?”

“Are you out of your mind? Girls don’t say it first. It’s
like signing your death warrant.”

He laughed boisterously before saying, “Well, I guess maybe.
He seems to speak with his actions and not words.”

“You have no idea.”

He looked at me and shook his head. “I don’t want to know; I
might have to hurt him.”

“Ha, you didn’t hurt Paul.”

“Well, that was an extenuating circumstance.” He gave me a
knowing glance.

“What about you and Jane? Do you love her? Have you told
her?” He simply nodded. “Well, which is it?” He just shrugged his shoulders.
“You’re an ass.”

“Give him time. If he’s worth it, you’ll wait for him to say
it.”

I reflected on our conversation and it wasn’t long before we
got to Dad’s and told them about Eva. They were very sympathetic.

We dove right into final preparation mode for tomorrow. The
lights were up and had been tested in the barn, along with the heat. Dad had
bought this place shortly after Mom died, needing to get us out of the old
house and the ghosts that lingered there. He’d found an old farmhouse on a few
acres with a barn and had spent the last fifteen years or so fixing the place
up.

When we were sure everything was ready in the barn we headed
back inside. Lisa threw some pizzas in the oven while I checked my phone. No
word from James. I wanted to call him, but decided against it. Checking with
Cal, he hadn’t heard anything, either. We spent the rest of the night
reminiscing and playing board games like we used to.

I went to bed still not having heard from James. I shot him
a text to let him know I was thinking of him.

Thinking of you and your mom.

Hope all is well. Miss you.

Love, Cass

I fell asleep waiting for his reply.

*****

The morning was a blur of flowers, caterers, and everything
wedding related. Somehow, I managed to run into town to get my nails done. I
still hadn’t heard from James, though Cal said that Jane called him and said
Eva should be headed home later that day and Jane was on her way up for the
wedding.
She, not we, she.
I didn’t have time to dissect why James
hadn’t called me yet. If I did I would break, and the day was about Dad and
Lisa.