Hurricane Butterfly (9 page)

Chapter 19

“It’s so fucking hard keeping my hands off you,” he whispers into my neck before his lips press against it, sending my heart racing. With his hands on my hips, I can feel the heat of his body seeping into mine as he pulls me back into him. My hands slip around his wrists, feeling the muscles moving underneath my fingers.

“Oh God, Josh,” my breath races as his hands move down to my bare legs, leaving a trail of sparks on my skin.

“What are you doing?”

His lips trail along my ear. “What I’ve been waiting all night for.” His lips nibble along my ear as his fingers slip underneath my panties. I throw my head back, trying to keep my eyes on the door, biting down on my lip to keep myself from crying out.

“What’s that?” My breath races as his hand moves underneath my top, pulling the lace of my bra so that my nipple springs free, grazing hard against my shirt.

“Watching you come as I fuck you with my mouth.” He breathes in my ear as his other hand slips between my legs, stroking the soaked strip of cotton, which is the only thing between his fingers and my wet opening. I can feel myself falling into that haze when Ben’s voice comes from the lounge.

“How about one for the road?” Ben yells from the lounge.

Josh lifts his head from my neck. “Be right there.”

His voice is calm as his fingers press more deeply onto the cotton panties, almost entering me before slipping his hand out, leaving me wet and aching for him. “Oh God, Josh.” The words come out under my ragged breath.

He turns me around and pushes a stray lock from my face, tucking it behind my ear. “Is this what you want?”

I nod, unable to string two words together, “Yes.”

His eyes tell me exactly what’s in store for me later and I can feel my knees going weak. “Then that’s what you’ll get.” he says in a low husky whisper.

He takes the bottle into the lounge as I try and collect myself. I take the back stairs up to the bathroom for a much-needed cool down then join them in the lounge. Alice lies with her head in Ben’s lap, busy on her phone, and Ben and Josh talk about cars.

The one corner of his mouth pulls up as his eyes settle on mine, and I feel my whole body tingle. I curl up next to him on the couch, lying with my head on his chest. He casually puts his arm around me when Ben fixes them another drink, pushing his fingers into the back of my hair, playing with the loose strands until I feel myself drifting off.

I wake up when the front door shuts. Ben and Alice are gone, and Josh is standing by the door watching me.

I sit up; feeling flustered, as the lights of Ben’s truck disappears through the window. “Why didn’t you wake me?” I say in a thick sleepy voice.

He smiles and walks to the front of the couch. “You looked so peaceful; I didn’t want to wake you. Why don’t you go to bed, and I’ll see you tomorrow.”

I jump up, “No, please don’t go, I’m fine, really.”

He lifts his hand and push my hair over my shoulder, “Okay…but if I stay I’m going to want to do things to you that I shouldn’t.” His voice makes every part of my body turn to mush.

I lift my head up towards his, “What if that’s what I want too?”

Chapter 20

~Josh~

“Are you sure?” my cock is pulsing as she looks up at me with those big blue eyes.

“Yes, I am.”

Her fingers move to the edge of her top, and she lifts it over her head. She is perfect, every fucking inch of that silky untouched skin. It’s just a shame she doesn’t believe it. I watch as she unhooks her bra, letting it fall to the ground, then steps out of her skirt. I can hardly contain myself as she puts her hand in mine and leads me upstairs to her bedroom where she stops in the door and turns to me. She looks at me unblinkingly.

I walk through the door, lead her to the edge of the bed, and take a minute to take a mental picture of this moment. This is it, she’s going to give me the one thing I deserve least, but I cant stand the thought of any other motherfucker being with her. I need to sort my shit out, I wish I had before I met her, but it’s too late to walk away now. My cock stirs as my eyes graze over the hard pink nipples peeking through her long blonde waves.

The white panties she’s wearing fold deliciously over her pussy lips making me want to rip them off and slam into her, but her inexperience and shyness is such a turn on right now.

“Look at me baby,” I whisper.

“You don’t have to do this if you you’re not ready. I want you, God knows there’s nothing I want more, but, I’ll wait until you’re ready. I promise. “

She steps forward and put her hand on my chest, “I want you to make love to me.”

Sweet Jesus! What did I do to deserve this? She moans softly as I pull her up against me, pushing my fingers into her hair at the base of her neck. She shivers as my tongue brushes against her lips, nibbling all along her jaw line before coming back and claiming her mouth, with a long deep kiss. I can feel her hands on my waist; they are so small and careful. I slip my hand down over her shoulder, tailing along her back down to her heart-shaped ass. She lets out a quick gasp as my fingers trail further down between her thighs along the edge of her panties inches from her pussy.

My cock throbs as her fingers dig into my skin. I slip a digit underneath the material, stroking her length. She’s so fucking wet and ready; it’s going to take all my fucking willpower to keep from throwing her on the bed and taking her like I’ve been fantasizing about.

Small moans come from her lips as she starts rocking her hips, grinding herself against my hand as I apply pressure to her wet clit, but do not enter her.

“Josh, oh God, please.” Her lips brush against my chest as her breathing starts to race.

“Turn around baby.”

I press her up against the one poster, securing both wrists underneath my hand above her head as my lips trail down her shoulder and back, over the scars, which have now become mine.

My other hand reaches to the front, palming her soft breast while gently tugging her nipple between my thumb and middle finger. She lifts herself up on her toes, giving me better access to her sweet spot.

“Let me take care of you.” My words fall onto her naked skin as my tongue traces along her back. She throws her head back, mouth open, sucking in that succulent bottom lip. Watching her getting hot and wet for me is like pushing a needle up an addict’s vein and holding your finger on the plunger. She is a blinding addiction and I’m starved for another taste.

“Josh, please, inside.” her words are staccato. One finger is slowly rubbing her clit, circling, pressing the tip in and out of her wetness as I let another finger inside, curling my fingers back pressing against the upper wall, watching her come undone in my hands. She presses back against my hand, grinding her hips, breath rasping, until she spills her warmth onto my fingers. I slowly slip my fingers out and swing her around. Her face is glowing, her eyes hazy, and her lips swollen and wet. I slip my fingers into my mouth, licking her sweetness from them.

I almost choke when her hand moves down to my cock. She gently strokes me from the top right down to my balls. Holy fuck. “What are you doing baby?” Sweet Jesus, it feels as if my head is going to explode. “Baby, you’re tickling, hold it tight.”

She looks up at me with those big eyes, opening her mouth and my knees go weak.

Fireworks go off inside of me as she closes her mouth over my cock, slowly circling her tongue around the tip, licking it like a fucking ice cream. It’s hard to believe she’s never done this before. My fingers fist in her hair as she takes in more of me, sucking harder while caressing my balls between her fingers.

“Yeah baby that good…‌just like that, fu-uck!”

I had my first blowjob when I was fifteen, and countless more after that, but this was the first time that I’ve ever felt like this.

She groans, and the sound of her voice vibrates through my shaft, pulling on my balls like strings. I can feel the pressure building, I need to come but not in her mouth. I just can’t see myself doing that, not with her. I stroke the side of her face as her head moves back and forth faster, she needs to stop, now! “Baby, please, I’m gonna come if you don’t stop now.”

She looks up at me with those big blue eyes, and her lips around my cock, fuck, I can feel myself dripping on her tongue. Her mouth makes a little pop sound as my cock slips out. I take her hand and push her back against the bed, then grab a condom from my pants lying in front of the bed.

I lean over her, pushing myself between her legs. Her hands slowly slip down to her sides, as I lean over her, resting my weight on my elbows. “You’re like crack, do you now that? I can’t fucking get enough of you.”

My mouth closes over hers as I pull her up against me, so that she straddles me as we sit facing each other. She gasps as I ease the tip of my cock into her, slow and steady. She looks at me with puckered brows as I ease into her more, careful not to hurt her, but she starts to rock her hips and I breach her with one thrust. Heat spreads to my chest as I thrust in all the way, filling her up. She’s mine, I’ve staked my claim, and I’m not letting any other motherfucker come near her.

“Ah, Josh, please…‌move,” she says in a raspy voice as she rocks her hips against me. Her arms rest on my shoulders, with her hands fisting the back of my hair. I can feel her shivering under my touch as my fingertips run along her back to her ass then slips in from behind, cupping her pussy.

Her head falls back as my tongue flicks and rolls over her nipples while gently applying pressure against her clit. She starts to rock harder against my hand, moving her hips from side to side, breathing heaving, mouth open, making the sexiest little sounds.

She looks down at me as I lift her up, positioning her over my glistening glans, dripping with cum, impaling her slowly.

Her bottom lip quivers as I slip into that tight opening, filling her up. She leans back, resting her hands on my knees behind her, moving up and down at her own pace, giving me the best fucking show ever. I lean forward, my eyes locked on her, taking one rose pink nipple mouth, licking and pulling gently between my teeth.

She throws her head back, riding me faster and harder until I can feel my balls ache with pleasure and the rush of blood in my head before I explode inside of her. We stay like that for a few moments, just holding each other. With my cock buried deep inside of her warm sheath, the movement of her hips slows with her breath, until she lies still.

With her eyes on mine, I can feel the darkness inside of me surrender, and I know…it doesn’t matter that I am not fucking ready for this, she is it, my vice, my demon, my salvation, and there’s nothing I won’t do to have her.

Chapter 21

~One week later~

I smile inwardly as I squeeze the soapy bath sponge in my hand. I try to keep my eyes open, but I can’t, I’m not ready to let go of this moment just yet. My whole body tingles as I imagine the feeling of his rock hard body against mine, his hard length pressing into my side. My breath starts to race almost choking on the cloud of steam as my fingers glide down where it aches between my thighs. The feeling of his cock stretching me open as he thrusts harder and faster, pushing me into infinity and then pulling me back again with one breath.

I close my eyes, and I can feel his big soapy hands rubbing deliciously over my body, slow and intentional as he moves from the fold of my breasts down my waist between my thighs, leaving me vulnerable, wanted, breathless, and a thousand other feelings I’m not able to put into words.

Being away from him is so freaking impossibly hard. Since I met Josh my life has changed so unexpectedly that I have to pinch myself to be sure that it’s real. Going from sitting in my room with an empty diary staring out the window wishing I had my old life back to filling up the pages with more feeling and emotion than I ever thought I’d ever experience in my life.

Now, my day revolves around his nightly calls. He said he’d come and see me as soon as he could and even though he didn’t say much about what’s going on I could tell that it’s making him anxious.

Ben tolerates Josh for my sake, but I knew he was waiting for something to happen, to go wrong, which made me even more determent to prove him wrong. I guess he’ll always be looking out for me, and that isn’t a bad thing. The truth is I know very little about Josh’s life. He shows me the parts that he feels comfortable sharing with me, but there is so much more that he keeps to himself.

He knows someone who has an apartment available in Seattle and arranges for Alice to stay there until she can find a place closer to work. With less than a week before she leaves for Seattle, Alice is in her own little bubble and not very good company. Last night at dinner when I asked her if everything is okay she started crying. Now that it looks like they actually have a shot at this thing, she is moving away. She was still hopeful but the reality was just too hard for her to face.

I finished my last assignment, which kept my mind occupied for short periods. Thursday afternoon Ben showed up at my house. He looked like crap. He said he had been out in the park, taking on extra shifts as the guy who worked with him recently got married for a second time and took his wife to Las Vegas for a honeymoon. I think he is trying to avoid dealing with his feelings.

Alice came around with pizza, and we all sat in the lounge eating in silence. Alice scooted in underneath Ben’s arm as he stared at the television. He gave her a peck on the top of her head, and my heart melted. Ben said he’d drive up on Saturday and spend the night and then the two of us could come back home Sunday evening.

~Friday morning~

Alice called to say Ben was taking the car for a checkup before she leaves. He was very sweet and brought her a coffee, and they had a good talk. They were going to try and see each other more often, see how it goes. She is even considering asking her boss for her old job back, but Ben forbid her to.

My stomach is in knots knowing I’ll be seeing Josh in twenty-four hours. It is hard to gauge his feelings on the phone, and I can’t shake the little devil on my shoulder telling me that whatever is going on between us can never work, but I am beyond any salvation at this stage. I am ruined for any other man.