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Authors: Kat Helgeson

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Text with Charlie (deleted)

I got written up at work

Text with Evie

you there?

uh huh good timing just got
phone back. 8 billion texts
to read

I just got written up at work for
checking my email and...being
sad on the job.

fascists

they let you text?

hiding in the bathroom...

you okay?

been better.

Sept 9, 2:12 pm

Charlie hasn't been home in

two days.

Sept 9, 2:15 pm

fuck

I need to get out of here.

Old Texts, Received at Once, Following the Reinstatement of Cell Phone Service
Text with Finn

Evie where are you
please don't be upset

Aug 11, 6:15 PM

got your weird number text,
thanks, why am I sending
you this when you won't get
it. Hey future Evie.

Text with Alanah

hey girl. hows college?
crestland's amazing.

levine's a good kisser
lolllllllllllll

Aug 14, 9:17 PM

hey come on i miss you.
we're okay right? trying
to be a grown up and shit

Aug 15, 11:26 AM

come visit slut best parties

Aug 15, 10:26 PM

Text with Dad

sorry about no service, bug!
should be back now.

Aug 19, 4:20 PM

sorry, just found out that was
only our service!
fixed now, right?

Sept 9, 5:06 PM

Text with +1 (416) 555-9173

is this genevieve goldman?

Aug 16, 5:33 PM

oh sorry this is zack

Text with John C.

i've been trying to call you

you're not even answering
emails now?

Aug 17, 10:20 AM

that girl carolyn you texted
me from was a bitch btw

probably majoring in
Unhelpful

Aug 17, 10:50 AM

genevieve i love you

Text with +1 (401) 555-9942

Automated Message from
the Oakmoor Student Health
Center. We are unable to
fill your prescription without
confirmation of your
insurance information. Please
come to the Student Health
Center to resolve this issue
at your earliest convenience.

Text with Finn

on your way?

in cab now en route to
airport

is this going to ruin things with
charlie?

fuck charlie

Sept 10, 1:49 PM

is this gonna piss off your
roommate?

let's hope

Sept 10, 1:55 PM

im a fucking homewrecker

Sept 10, 2:23 PM

sorry I was going through
security

they didn't find my weapons
of mass destruction

oh good

this feels like coming home

Text with Zack

hey it's genevieve. you had the
right number

Sept 10, 2:41 PM

gena!!

hey :)

actually have some downtime
right now, can i call/email?

email's probably best, i'm a
mess

k

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 2:56 PM
subject: :-/

Hey lady. Been thinking about you a lot, didn't know what to say.

The truth is it's been hella tough not knowing what you were up to, and maybe after nine years that's really fucking pathetic. Maybe it's that my whole damn childhood was with you or maybe it's that I looked you up a few times and couldn't ever find you (I'm not sure I would know how to use my fucking email if I didn't have a PA to tell me, thank you TV business for helping stupid people survive) but I don't think it's because of how you left so if that makes you feel any better then...let it.

That's never going to be who you were to me. You were just this sweet fucking little kid who got fucked up by the system and the stress and maybe a little by that too smart for your own good brain of yours but mostly by those chemicals like you said.

I guess what I wanted to say is you're not like a Jake, dorky little fangirl.

So don't worry.

--big brother

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:14 PM
subject: RE: :-/

big bro--

you're not stupid. possibly wrong (if you heard my soggy i've-just-been-crying-my-eyes-out voice you might not be so confident about not-crazy) but not stupid. so shut up. i hear you use that in interviews all the time, aww i'm just a dumb head of hair. doesn't work on me.

just like me being kind of evasive and sarcastic hasn't worked on you, huh. we can't get anything past each other.

--little sis

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:17 PM
subject: RE: :-/

Except that we do. Maybe we shouldn't be trying to do that.

--bb

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:18 PM
subject: RE: :-/

except that we do. --ls

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:22 PM
subject: :'(

Why were you crying?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:25 PM
subject: no no no

ugh no i'm so bored of me. tell me about you. you and toby really as close as you tell people? is the girlfriend real or a publicity stunt?

keep in mind i will, of course, be selling all your answers to tabloids.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:30 PM
subject: :)
infinity.jpg

Aww, yeah, Toby's the best. Except when he's being a dick to you, obviously. (Seriously, he feels so bad. He's making you A CAKE when you come. It's gonna be awful, trust me, I know the guy.)

Miranda's real! Actually has been for way longer than people think. We dated on and off through HS and we've been solid for the past four years. She's fucking unstoppable, I'll try to make sure she's on set one of the days you're here. She hates tv so she's kind of awful but I love her. I'm attaching her with my cat on her head.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:32 PM
subject: ;D

sweet lord that's adorable.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:33 PM
subject: :$

Yeah, his name's Buzz Lightyear. My nephew named him.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:34 PM
subject: XD

i meant the girl!

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:35 PM
subject: :p

Ahhhh I see. I like the cat better.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:36 PM
subject: :-,

stupid big brother.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:37 PM
subject: :'(

So come on. Why were you crying?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:44 PM
subject: (no subject)

i think i'm ruining my best friend's life.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:47 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

Boy or girl?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:52 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

girl. stephanie. goes by finn. she was at the con but you probably don't remember.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:54 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

Eesh, sorry, yeah, there was a lot of people there. Cute, though.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:55 PM
subject: RE: (no subject)

yeah, she is.

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 3:57 PM
subject: |:-)

I meant the name...

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 4:04 PM
subject: :$ :$ :$

fuuuuuuuck

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 4:08 PM
subject: :D

Still crushing on girls, curious little eight year old?

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 4:11 PM
subject: :(

is that relevant?

from: Zack Martocchio
to: Genevieve Goldman
date: Wednesday, September 10 4:12 PM
subject: :p

You tell me.

from: Genevieve Goldman
to: Zack Martocchio
date: Wednesday, September 10 4:38 PM
subject: (no subject)

she's married. practically. okay not practically. but her boyfriend wants to marry her and deep down she wants to marry him and she doesn't know but i do, except the husband has (WE HAVEN'T) set this up as a genevieve vs charlie kind of situation and right now she's on her way to me so like...god, fuck me. i don't know why my tendency for pushing everyone away the second after i let them in doesn't apply to her. she's immune to me like you are i guess.

and maybe that's the issue, that you both have this weird thing where you know too many parts of me. i mean we didn't talk in years and you still know me better than my ex-boyfriend who thinks he loves me because i'm good in bed and i held his hand when his mom was dying and i let him read my weird feminist poetry from my high school phase back when i hated everyone and not just me. and him.
but you know weird child actor me and crazy me and now you know eighteen year old rambly me and you're not judging me for coming to a con for your show like a stalker person or for running out of there or for, let's hope, having crushes on girls. ex-boy

didn't get all of that. ex-bff didn't get all of that. because why would i tell people? why is telling someone everything something people need? i didn't have you for years and as nice as it is talking now, and as much as i all the time thought about getting in touch with you, it wasn't because i needed you to fill some void in my life and i'm pretty sure you feel the same way so whatever.

and then Finn comes along.

this fucking girl, she has no damn idea how amazing she is, and i think if she did then maybe she'd understand why charlie loves her enough to marry her and there we go to the part where i'm ruining my best friend's life, because instead of telling her she's amazing i'm letting her come stay with me, and instead of telling her she needs to forget me and let him love her i'm letting her come stay with me, and instead of feeling bad about those things i'm here crying because i know that at some point she's going to have to leave and go back home and i don't want her to

she knows everything about me. she knows about man of the house. she knows about me coming to your show. she knows about my parents never being home and the issues i'm having right now at college and weird shit i'm into in bed and what i want
to do when i grow up and how i went crazy and how i hear fire alarms in my sleep and how i think i might be going crazy again and what if i tell her too much and finally push her away, and why haven't i figured out how to do that yet.
i'm crying because my practically-married friend can't live with me in my dorm forever.
so there you go.

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