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“Mmm.” Lauren snuggled closer. Her breasts
pressed against the side of his chest and her knee brushed casually
against the hard ridge of his shaft.

Xairn stiffened but tried not to move.
Clearly this was something Lauren wanted—to hold and be held by the
one she loved. But Gods, how hard it was to fight his natural
impulse to flip her over, tear off her clothes and take her! His
fingers itched to cup her breasts and pinch her nipples and his
shaft throbbed to be inside her, filling her sweet wet cunt with
his cum—marking her,
bonding
her.

I could tie her hands above her head with
my belt—stretch her out to fully appreciate her beautiful body.
Could tease her for hours until I finally took her. I want to hear
her moaning my name as I fuck her, as I mark her as mine
forever…
No! He had to get hold of himself! Taking a deep
breath, Xairn fought for control.

“Relax,” Lauren murmured, her warm breath
tickling his ear. “You’re tight as a wire, baby. Don’t you like
snuggling with me?”

“It’s very stimulating, this…snuggling,”
Xairn admitted in a strangled voice.

“Well, it’s
supposed
to be relaxing.”
Humming contentedly, she slipped a hand into his shirt to stroke
his chest. Her fingertips slid, cool and ticklish, over the raised
letters of the brand the Judge of the Market had put on him. Xairn
jumped. “I’m sorry.” She looked up at him. “Does this still
hurt?”

“No,” he said stiffly. “I am a fast
healer.”

“Your eyes…” She bit her lip. “For a minute
they went back to their old color.”

“Did they?” He shrugged. His eyes felt hot
again in their sockets and he wondered if that had anything to do
with it. “Don’t worry,” he told Lauren, who still looked concerned.
“It wasn’t because it hurt when you touched me.”

“It was hard for me to watch them do it,” she
whispered. “To know you were being hurt for my sake and there was
nothing I could do about it.”

Xairn felt some of his tension melting at her
soft words. “I didn’t mind,” he assured her softly.

“Well, I did.” Leaning over him, Lauren
unfastened his shirt and pulled it open, baring his chest. Her long
black hair trailed over his skin, raising chillbumps along his arms
and setting his nerves afire with need. “Xairn…” she murmured,
looking up at him once more. “I wish I could have done this
earlier, to take the pain away.” Gently, she pressed her lips to
the brand, kissing the places he was marked with her name.

Xairn felt like he was going to explode. Her
mouth was so warm and soft and wet and when she finished kissing
the brand, she began to move lower. He clenched his hands into
fists at his sides as her lips trailed over his tense abdomen and
lower, to the waistband of his black flight pants. When Lauren
reached for the fastening of the pants he bolted upright.

“Oh my God, what? Are you okay? Did I hurt
you?” She looked up at him anxiously, her amber eyes filled with
concern.

“I’m fine. I just needed some…some air.”
Xairn sat on the edge of the bed, breathing raggedly, his chest
pumping like a bellows. His eyes felt like they were going to burn
a hole in his skull they were so hot, and his primary heart was
thundering in his ears. In his mind’s eye, a scenario was playing
over and over again.

Lauren on her knees, naked. Her hands tied
behind her back and a black blindfold covering her eyes. She would
be helpless, completely under my control. First I would place the
collar on her and then I would pierce her nipples. Two small hoops
of silver—the contrast of the bright metal against her dark skin
would be beautiful. The piercing would sting but I would kiss the
pain away and stroke her body until she was ready for pleasure.
Then I would take her over and over, marking her with my cum.
Bonding her to me.

The scene was so vivid Xairn couldn’t stop
seeing it. Couldn’t stop imagining how it might go. He saw himself
pushing down his pants and rubbing his cock against her soft cheek.
She would turn her head blindly, unable to see but searching,
trying to find his shaft. He would feel her warm, wet mouth closing
on him, taking him in, sucking him. But not just his secondary
shaft—no. She would suck and stimulate his primary shaft—his
bonding shaft.

He would thrust into her mouth, his hands
buried in her long, silky black hair and she would moan softly as
she sucked him, as he fucked her mouth. And then when both his
primary and secondary shafts were hard, he would take her. Fill her
completely both front and back and bond her to him until she cried
his name out loud and gave herself completely, until she was his
forever…

No!
Xairn tried to get hold of
himself.
No I can’t let it go that far. Can’t ever bond her to
me.
Because he knew if he ever let go of his control enough to
do that, he would hurt her, would break her fragile body with his
rough fucking and fierce sexual demands.

It’s not safe,
he told himself
angrily.
Damn it to the seven hells, none of this is safe. Her
mother is right not to trust me—I can’t even trust myself!

But then he risked a glance to his side and
saw Lauren’s lovely, worried face. This was what she wanted—to
touch and be touched. She wanted his hands on her almost as much as
Xairn wanted to put them there.
People who love each other show
it by being close and touching,
she’d said. But how could he do
that without losing control?

“Forgive me,” he said roughly. “I’m just…this
is difficult for me.”

“Because it’s new?” Lauren touched his arm
anxiously and he flinched away before he could stop himself.

Xairn hated to see the hurt look on her face.
“Because I want so much more,” he said, looking down at his hands.
“Because…because I’m afraid of what I might do to you.”

Lauren sighed. “You’re not going to hurt me,
Xairn. Just touch me—I won’t break.”

His hands clenched into fists again. “I…I
don’t know how,” he confessed in a low voice. “You know I have
never been with a female, Lauren. I don’t know how to…to bring you
pleasure without going too far and hurting you.”

“Then I’ll teach you.” She smiled at him.
“Will you let me?”

Xairn closed his eyes tightly. Could he bear
this? Would he be able to keep control of himself well enough to
give her pleasure without snapping and taking her completely?

“I…want to,” he said slowly. “Maybe…maybe if
you allow me to do the touching and don’t try to touch me in
return.”

“You wanna be in the driver’s seat, huh?” She
gave him a playful smile.

“More like I
need
to be,” Xairn said
truthfully. He looked at her. “I…I think I can control my darker
urges if I am the one in control. But if I feel your hands and
mouth on me again…” He shook his head. “I just don’t know.”

“All right then.” Lauren nodded thoughtfully.
“We can do that.” Gracefully, she got off the bed and knelt on the
floor in front of him. “I am yours to command, Master.” Her amber
eyes danced playfully. “What would you have me do?”

“Stop it,” Xairn said hoarsely. Seeing her
submissive posture brought his Scourge desires to the surface as
nothing else could. His shaft throbbed painfully in his pants and
he closed his eyes briefly, fighting for control. “I know you’re
joking but please…please don’t.”

“I’m sorry.” Lauren rose and came to stand
between his legs. She was close enough that Xairn could feel the
heat of her body but she was obviously being careful not to make
contact. “I…I don’t know why I did that,” she confessed, sounding
confused. “So…what do you want to do?”

“I want to touch you,” he said honestly.
“Touch you but not hurt you. But first I want…I want to see
you.”

Her eyes widened slightly. “You
mean…naked?”

“Yes. If you don’t mind.” The times he’d
glimpsed her naked body were still burned into his brain.
Especially when she’d offered herself to him if he would save her
from his father. Now she was offering herself for a different
reason—because she loved him. Xairn wanted desperately to return
that love without hurting her but he wasn’t sure he could.

“Well, I’m a little shy…” Lauren bit her lip.
“I know you’ve seen me before, but…”

Xairn shook his head. “It’s all right if you
would rather not.”

“No, I want to. I do.” Lifting her chin, she
pulled the t-shirt over her head, baring the lacy undergarment
which cupped her breasts. It was white and the contrast of the pale
fabric against the creamy light brown of her skin was
breathtaking.

“Beautiful,” Xairn breathed, reaching up to
stroke the outline of one nipple, visible through the white
fabric.

Lauren sucked in a breath and smiled. “How
about if I lose the bra?” Before he could answer, she was
unfastening the back of the garment and slipping it off her arms.
It fluttered to the floor and lay there in a small heap of white
lace, baring her breasts to him completely.

Xairn felt his eyes go blazing hot for a
moment as he took in the lovely sight. Her breasts were high and
full, just the right size to fill his palms. And her nipples were
tight—ripe berries at the tips of her breasts. Hesitantly, he
reached for her and Lauren thrust forward, pressing her warm mounds
into the palms of his hands. She moaned softly, a sound which
seemed to go straight to the hard ridge of his cock and make him
even harder.

“Lauren…” he murmured, looking into her eyes.
“I want…I need to put my mouth on you.”

“You want to kiss me?”

Xairn wanted to do more than that. He longed
to strip her completely naked and lick and suck and bite every inch
of her skin until she was wholly and utterly his. But he had to be
careful—couldn’t risk losing control. “Yes,” he said at last. “But
I need you to be still while I do it.” If he felt her moving
against him, thrusting her breasts closer to his face, offering
herself, he knew he wouldn’t be able to stop himself from taking
her, hurting her. “Here.” Taking her arms, he folded them securely
behind her back. “Keep them like that,” he warned, looking into her
lovely amber eyes. “Don’t move and don’t reach for me. Hold
perfectly still while I touch you. While I kiss you.”

“All…all right.” Lauren looked puzzled but
she did as he asked, holding perfectly still as he leaned forward
to press his face to her chest.

The skin between her breasts was softer than
anywhere else on her body. Xairn rubbed his cheek against her
there, breathing in her scent, trying to keep control of himself.
It helped that she was holding perfectly still, not provoking him
in any way. If she tried to reach for him or worse, tried to run
away, he was certain his predatory Scourge instincts would be so
aroused that something disastrous might occur.

Tentatively, he put out his tongue and lapped
the inner curve of her right breast. Lauren moaned softly but
didn’t move and he felt his shaft harden even more at the
delicious, slightly salty taste of her skin. Gods, he wanted to
taste her more—to taste her lower! But he knew he couldn’t control
himself if he did that. Instead, he pressed his lips to the tight
bud of her right nipple. Lauren moaned again.

Xairn looked up. “I’m not hurting you, am
I?”

“No, baby.” Her pupils were dilated and her
voice was slightly husky. “You’re just driving me crazy, going so
slow.”

“I have to go slow,” he said truthfully. “I
need to be sure I don’t lose control.”

“You won’t,” she said softly. “Just do what
you want to do.”

Xairn felt his eyes get hot. “I want to suck
you,” he admitted, cupping one breast in his hand and rubbing his
thumb gently over the tight nipple. “I want to take you into my
mouth completely and hear you moan while I taste you.”

Lauren’s breath seemed to catch in her
throat. “Do it then,” she whispered. “I told you, do what you
want.”

If only you knew everything I really want,
you’d run from me.
But he didn’t say it out loud. Instead, he
parted his lips and took the tight bud into his mouth, sucking
softly at first and then harder, listening to her soft cries of
pleasure as he fought to hold himself back.

Lauren couldn’t stop watching the erotic
sight of her tight nipple disappearing between Xairn’s lips.

He sucked her softly at first, as though he
was afraid to hurt her. Then he seemed to gain confidence. He
opened his mouth, taking as much of her breast between his lips as
he could, and sucked fiercely, as though he couldn’t get enough of
her.

Lauren longed to run her fingers through his
thick black hair, to stroke the broad, muscular shoulders knotted
with tension as he pleasured her. She started to reach for him but
Xairn must have felt her movement. His arm slid around her waist
and one big hand suddenly locked around both her wrists, keeping
them in place behind her back. Lauren moaned and wiggled a little
in protest and he released her nipple and looked up at her.

“Hold still.” His voice was hoarse. “Please,
Lauren. Just don’t…don’t move.”

“All right,” she whispered, nodding. She had
no idea why he had to be in such complete control but it
was
his first time doing anything like this, so she supposed she could
cut him some slack.

Still, it was incredibly hard to just stand
there and watch as he sucked her other nipple as deeply and
fiercely as the first. She wanted to move against him, wanted to
press closer and feel his big body, hard against her own. She could
feel her pussy getting wet and hot under her tight jeans. Getting
ready for him. The long weeks of sexual tension between them were
finally coming to a head and she wanted him so
badly
.

“You’re so beautiful,” he murmured hoarsely,
looking up at last. “I want to see more of you.
All
of
you.”