Breaking Through the Wall (Guarded Hearts Book 2) (9 page)

Nicole

I
didn’t know how I was holding myself up right now with everything that man just did to me. When he pushed into me, I got a second wind and I was ready for him. He started thrusting so hard, using my hips as leverage to get himself deeper into me.

God
, I loved him! Wait. Did I just say I loved him? Fuck my life. I had really gotten myself in deep. A hard smack to my ass jolted me out of my own head. He was driving into me, so hard I could barely see straight.

“Nic
, you feel so fucking good, baby. I’m close. You have been tempting me all night and I can’t hold it much longer.”

I started to feel that pull again and I knew I was close too. Jason snaked a hand around my waist and started to play with my over sensitive clit. That was it
. I started spiraling from my orgasm and after that he called out my name and joined me.

We collapsed on the bed together and he pulled me over to him, which was something I was still not used to. I was going over everything that happened tonight and I just had to get something off my chest.
“Hey, J?”

“Hmmm, yea
h, babe?”

“What you said earlier about us both being with other people before…I um…I haven’t.”

He picked his head up and looked at me like I had five heads. Did I come off easy or something? “So, you are saying, before me you never did anything…with anyone?”

He said it with such astonishment that it pissed me off. I jumped up from the bed and started to get dressed. “You know what
, J, screw you. I am not like all of the whores that you had before, and it hurts me that you would immediately assume I was.”

He reached over
, grabbed my hand, and pulled me back down to the bed. “Hey, I wasn’t assuming you were a whore, Nic, I promise. It’s just, you are gorgeous, sexy, and just really fucking amazing. I didn’t think there would have been anyway that no one got to you before I had.” Suddenly, a look of realization flashed across his face. “Wait, so that means your first time was when we were drunk, on New Year’s?” I nodded my head at him.

He got up from the bed, paced the room for a couple seconds, and then punched the wall
, so hard I was surprised he didn’t go right through the drywall. I could see him trying to control the anger that was coursing through his body. I knelt on the bed and reached out to him. “Come here. It’s okay, J, I’m not mad at you. You had no idea, and I should have told you.”

He sat back down on the bed with me and after he had calmed himself down
, turned to face me. “Why didn’t you?”

I sat up so we were face to face. “I had wanted you from the first time Maddy had introduced us, but
you barely gave me the time of day. I didn’t tell you because I wanted it to happen. I felt like if I said something you would have stopped.”

“Damn right I would have stopped. You deserve so much more than for your first time to have been a drunken night of sex. God
, I didn’t even stay the whole night. I am such a dickhead. Nic, I’m sorry.”

I kissed him because I knew that was the best way to get him to understand that I was ok
ay. “It’s fine. Now let’s go to bed.”

We
lay back down and he held me so tight, like he thought I was going to disappear if he let go.

* * *

I started to stay at Jason and Shawn’s on the weekends, mainly because every time I tried to leave, he found a mind-blowing way to convince me to stay. I could feel myself falling in love with him already and it freaked me out because I was scared that he would never feel the same.

I started to see what Jason was always talking about with Shawn. I always liked him
, he was really funny, smart, and he made it easy to be his friend. Jason was right, though, and something was definitely up with him. He was hardly ever home and when he was, he was very distant.

I
couldn’t believe it was Sunday morning and I was up already. My damn internal clock refused to recognize that I was able to sleep late on weekends. J was still sleeping. I had learned that if I woke him up before ten, he was cranky all day. I heard someone coming and when I looked up it was Shawn. Where the hell did he get a black eye?

I scrambled off the couch and ran over to see him in the kitchen. “What happened? Are you okay?”

He
turned around and gave me a smile. “I’m fine, Nic. I was hitting the punching bag at the gym and it decided to hit back. It’s no big deal.”

Jason and I were up until at least midnight last night and Shawn hadn’t come home yet. Now
, I knew that the gym here was open twenty-four hours, but who the hell goes there in the middle of the night? I could see in his face that I wasn’t getting anything else out of him. “At least let me get you some ice or something.” I went over to the freezer and made him a little ice pack.

He took it from me and gave me a smile. “Thanks
, Nic, I appreciate it. How is everything going with you and Jason?”

“It’s good. I still have to keep his pig headed ass in line every once and a while, but
he keeps me on my toes.”

Just then
, I felt two arms wrap around me, and Jason started trailing kisses down my neck. “What were you saying about my ass now? I know that it is pretty incredible.”

I just rolled my eyes at him. Shawn ended up leaving to go back to the “gym” about an hour later. I told Jason that he would be on his own the rest of the day
. I was going to go to the mall and do some shopping.

“Can I come?”

He wanted to go shopping with me? “Um…I guess, if you want to.”

We got dressed and headed off to the mall. My purpose for coming today wasn’t really because I needed anything. However
, my dad gave me a monthly credit card allowance, so I might as well put it to good use. I decided that maybe I would have some fun playing dress up for Jason today.

I took him into one of my favorite stores and had him sit on the chair outside of the dressing room. The first dress I tried on was a short black one. It was strapless and looked pretty modest from the front, but when I turned around
, the back of the dress dipped into a v that stopped just above my butt. When I turned around and looked back, his face was priceless. This was definitely going to be fun.

I was trying on about my sixth dress
, when the curtain to the changing room was pulled back. Jason walked in and immediately closed it back behind him. He closed the couple of steps between us and had me back against the wall of the room. “J! What are you doing in here?!” I only had the next dress halfway up my body right now, so my breasts were completely exposed.

“I
can’t watch you walk out there in one more of those dresses. I need you now, Nic. I can’t wait.”

“Jason, I don’t think
—” Before I could finish my sentence, he crashed him mouth against mine, and started to slip off the remainder of the dress I had been trying on. He took my underwear down with it and I was now standing in front of him completely naked. When he pulled back to look at me, he had a smile on his face. “You are so gorgeous, baby.”

He lowered his head to take my breast into his mouth and any words of protest I was going to say
, were lost. I reached down and started to loosen his pants. Once they fell, he reached around, grabbed my ass, and sunk himself deep inside of me. God, he felt so good and I had no idea how I was going to keep quiet.

Jason braced me against the wall
. He pulled back and continued playing with my breasts. The amount of need and urgency in his eyes was only fueling my fire, and I felt myself start to quicken. “God, J, how do you always do this to me?”

He leaned in close to my ear
, while one of his hands made its way down to my pussy. “I told you before, Nic, that this is mine.” He stoked me and started to play with my clit. “I know how to make you crazy, and I love every minute of it. I will always take care of you, baby.”

Hearing him say those words
, along with everything else, had me shoving my face into his neck to mask the moans of my climax. After about ten seconds, he lowered his head to my breast and bit down as he finished inside of me. We were both sweaty, out of breath, and I was now sporting a new love bite.

After a couple minutes
, I kicked him out and decided I had teased him enough today. We decided to grab something to eat before leaving. I couldn’t help but notice all of the dirty looks I was getting from the girls here. I recognized many of them from campus, but I didn’t know them.

Then I looked up at Jason and it clicked
. Did they really hate me because I was with him?

Jason

I really wish I could just skip most of these classes. It was all a bunch of shit I couldn’t care less about. I was majoring in sports medicine, and I hoped one day to work with a professional team, but most of the classes were boring as hell.

My after
noon classes were the ones I didn’t mind going to because they actually taught me things I’d need to use when I graduated. Unfortunately, Stacey was in one of them with me, and that girl would not take a hint. The teacher assigned us a project to work on in groups of two, and of course with my luck, I got paired with her.

When I walked out of class
, Nicole was waiting for me, and just seeing her there made me smile. I felt a hand grab my arm and looked back to see Stacey, the stalker, standing there. “What?”

“So
, if you want to come over to my place tonight we could start researching.” I knew exactly what she was doing. She wanted to get me into her room and onto her bed. In the hopes that once I was there, I would be overcome with a need to have her again.

“No
, Stacey. Any kind of research I do with you will be in the library. I will talk to you on Wednesday.” I started walking toward Nicole and I could see that she was wondering what the hell that was about.

When I reached her
, I gave her a hug and lowered my head to kiss her. I could tell she was apprehensive, though. I pulled back to look at her. “Listen, I got paired with her on a project. There is nothing you need to worry about, I promise.” I placed another kiss on her lips, and she looked up at me.

“Ok
ay.” She gave me a smile, but I knew it was still bothering her.

* * *

Tonight Nicole had plans with the girls, so I figured I would catch up on some of my schoolwork that was already starting to pile up. Shawn walked in about an hour later, and I decided to take advantage of this opportunity and try to figure out what his deal was.

He grabbed a beer out of the fridge and sat down on the couch. I looked over at him
, trying to figure out how to start the conversation. “What’s up, J?”

Well that made it easier. “Nothing. What’s up with you lately?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean
, what is going on with you? You always seem to be disappearing and you are hardly ever home anymore. You never go out with us, and if you do, you usually have to mysteriously leave in the middle of whatever we are doing.”

He looked at me as if he wa
s contemplating his answer, but then his phone rang. Damn that fucking phone, it was half of the problem. “I have to take this, J, don’t worry, I’m fine.”

Before I could answer
, he was in his room with the door closed. About five minutes later, he was on his way out the door.

“Shawn
, wait!” He turned around to look at me. “This is what I’m talking about, dude. Where are you going?”

“I just have something I need to take care of
. Lay off, J.” He was out the door before I had a chance to say anything else to him.

I don’t know what is going on with him
, but whatever it is, it can’t be good.

Madison

I was working in the coffee shop today
, and Carter had work tonight, so I really wouldn’t see him much. Chris was home while he was waiting for the hearing, and I’m not going to lie, it scared me. I didn’t understand how everything always worked in his favor.

I knew his dad was powerful
, but I didn’t know he would be able to get to the people that he did. When the detective first told me that Chris was pleading not guilty, I couldn’t believe it. Then, when he said there was no record of my hands being tied or my mouth being taped shut, I swear I almost fainted.

It seemed like this was the way the world worked today. Money and power got you anything and got you out of anything. The district attorney agreed to prosecute my case
, but he said we didn’t have a very strong one right now. Shawn was at the coffee house with me today, and I was glad, because I had hardly seen him lately.