Breaking Through the Wall (Guarded Hearts Book 2) (11 page)

I leaned down to kiss her again. She always tasted so fucking good. Once I added what I had brought up from the kitchen, she was only going to taste sweeter. “Now, you have to stay still, baby, or you are going to make a big mess.”

She nodded her head and I grabbed the chocolate syrup. I held it right above her tits and dripped it all over. When I looked at it
, I had to laugh.

She lifted her head up to see what I had done and
her expression was priceless. “You did not just write your name on me.”

“I told you that you’re mine
, babe. Now I have proof. Where is my camera at?”

“Jason, don’t you—
”

I leaned down and took one of her breasts in my mouth until I had sucked and licked every bit of chocolate off of it, then moved to the other one. By the time I was done
, she was so worked up I could barely keep her still. This time, I picked up the whipped cream and drew a J in the space between her belly button and her clit. I slowly licked it off, taking extra time the closer I got to her spot.

“Please
, Jason!”

“Please what
, baby? Do you want me to enjoy my dessert somewhere else?”

“God
, you bastard, you know what I want!”

I ran my hand over her and wasn’t surprised at how wet she was. “Is this where you want me?”

“Yes!”

I grabbed my faithful chocolate syrup and drenched her in it.
Once I settled in between her legs she lifted herself up to me. “Mmmm, impatient, aren’t we?” I lowered my head to her and ran my tongue up her. The mix of the chocolate and her juices were fucking intoxicating. I grabbed her ass and dove in, licking, sucking, and biting until she came and screamed my name. I kissed my way back up her body. “I’m guessing you enjoyed that.”

She smiled up at me
, then rolled us both over. “My turn.” She climbed up on top of me and, before I could blink she sank down on me. When she looked back at me, the look in her eyes was so damn sexy. It turned me on to know that she wanted me so bad she couldn’t wait.

“Fuck
, Nic!” She lifted her ass up slowly. Then when she was almost at the top, slammed back down, screaming as she did it. This was fantastic, I loved when she took control, and I really loved seeing her on top of me. I grabbed her hand and guided it down her body. “Baby, I want to see you touch yourself while you ride me.”

I let go of her hand and watched her. She started to stroke herself
, although she seemed apprehensive at first. Then she started to get more into it. The faster she stroked herself, the faster she rode me. It was fucking beautiful. “Shit, J, I think I’m…” She collapsed on top of me, breathless and sweaty from her second orgasm of the night.

I wasn’t done with her yet
; I flipped her over and started driving into her. I couldn’t get close enough to her, it was crazy. Her nails started digging into my back.

“God, J
, I don’t know if I can handle another one.”

I was almost there
, and by all the little moans, I knew she would be too before long. I leaned down and took her nipple in my mouth, grazing my teeth over it as I pulled back.

We both came yelling out
. Thank God Holly and Christen were out tonight.

Carter

I was waiting by my car for Maddy to get out of class, and I have to admit, I was nervous. I planned something for her today and I didn’t know whether she was going to freak out about it or not. I was taking her to a shooting range, because I wanted her to know how to use a gun.

With everything that
had happened with Chris, I had wanted to get a gun, but I also wanted her to know how to use one. My uncles hunted a lot, so I knew how to shoot. I’d just feel much safer about going to work, if I knew she could protect herself.

“Hey, you daydreaming?”

I couldn’t help but smile when I saw her. She was still the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her against me. “I want to take you somewhere today, but I want you to keep an open mind, okay?”

“Ok
ay, where did you want to go?”

“I want to take you to the shooting
range, and teach you how to handle a gun. I also want us to get one. It will just give me peace of mind when I need to leave you.” I felt her body go stiff, and I knew the idea scared her. “Please, Maddy, I promise that you will be fine, okay?”

She nodded her head and then got into the car. I hope
d I was doing the right thing here. I understood that the idea of guns scared her, but the thought of her alone and helpless scared me more. We didn’t talk the whole car ride over, I was trying to respect the fact that she was scared. When we pulled up to the range, I turned to face her and grabbed her hand.

“You will be okay. I promise
. I understand that the only experience you have ever had with one was that night, but you will be fine.”

I got out of the car and walked over to her side. Once she was out of the car
, she wrapped her arms around me. I think she might have actually been shaking. We walked in, I paid for our time, and we rented the guns.

When we got to the lane we were assigned
to, I put everything down and turned to face her. “Okay, this is not going to be as bad as you were imagining. I know that you are scared, but everything will be absolutely fine.” I picked up the 9mm and loaded it. “When you take the gun, you are going to extend your arms out straight, and grip the gun with both hands. Do not put your finger on the trigger, until you are ready to shoot.”

She reluctantly
took the gun from my hand and I could see that she was shaking. She turned to face the target that was in her lane.

“Close your left eye
and line the front sight in between the back sights.”

“What do you mean?”

“There is going to be a notch on the front of the gun and two on the back. You want to make sure, when you are aiming, that the front notch is in between the back two. Then, you are going to slowly squeeze back on the trigger. You want to squeeze it in between breaths, though, so that you are not moving when you fire. Do not anticipate or be scared of the gun kicking back, because if you do, it will mess your aim up. Are you ready?” She nodded her head.

She
took a big breath, let it out, then pulled the trigger. She got so scared from the kickback of the gun that she dropped it. Not only that, but my stupid ass was standing so close to her that when the casing was ejected from the gun, it hit my arm and burnt me. “Fuck!” I knelt down next to her. “Are you okay, babe?”

She nodded her head at me, but was still silent. “I really don’t know if I can handle anymore today.”

I took her home after that, but this wasn’t the last time we would be here. I needed to know that when I wasn’t around, she would be okay. I think a big part of my fear was knowing that Chris might get away with what he did and be free.

Nicole

This week
had been absolutely horrible. Play practice had been unbearable, especially with Aaron being so close. Everything he said to me was either a dirty or sarcastic comment. I knew it was pissing J off, too, that I had to spend so much time with him. I had my cousin’s wedding this weekend and she told me I could bring someone. I wanted to ask Jason, but I wasn’t sure it would be something he was into.

I was meeting him for lunch now
, so I guess it couldn’t hurt to ask. When I walked into the diner, I saw him sitting in our favorite booth in the corner. “Hey, stud muffin!”

“Stud muffin
? Really?

“Whatever
. Next time, I’ll call you ugly.” He laughed and I slid into the booth next to him. When the waitress came over to take our order, I looked up to see Alyssa. God, I hated this girl so much.
Isn’t there a strip club or something she could be working at? I really don’t want her touching my food, who knows where her hands have been.
After she took our order and left, I leaned back against J. I loved being able to be like this with him. It was so nice having him not be apprehensive about us anymore. “So, I have something to ask you.”

“Ok
ay, as long as it isn’t to watch another one of those ridiculous movies again. I mean, I liked what happened after it, but I’m not sitting through another one.”

“No, I have to go to my cousin’s wedding this weekend
, because I’m a bridesmaid, and I wanted to know if you wanted to come with me.”

“A wedding? I don’t know
, Nic, I have never been to one of those before. I wouldn’t really have any idea what to do. Do I need to wear a tux, like at prom or something?”

I laughed
. Jason really had no normal idea of things that you did when you were in a relationship. “No, you aren’t in the wedding, so you wouldn’t need to wear a tux. You could wear black pants and a button up shirt. I just thought it might be fun. There will be lots of food, an open bar, and a DJ.”

“Um…I guess I could come.”

I was so excited that he said he would go! I really didn’t think he would. I leaned in and kissed him. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome
, babe.”

We
finished lunch, then just hung out at his house for the night.

“So
, when you say you are in this wedding, what does that mean?”

“I am a bridesmaid
, so I am going to go over to Jess’ house tomorrow night. We will go get our hair done in the morning, then go to the church and get ready for the ceremony. I’ll leave you the invitation, so you can put the address into the GPS.”

“Ok
ay, sounds good. Is your dad or your stepmom going to be there?”

I could tell by his face that he wanted me to say no. I
didn’t think he was ready to meet my dad yet, and the longer I could keep him away from the wicked witch, the better. “No, my dad is out of town, and thankfully, my stepmother always goes with him.”

“What is up with you and her
, Nic? Every time you talk about her or she gets brought up, I can tell it pisses you off.”

I knew this would come up eventually and
if I wanted him to trust me, I had to be able to trust him. “She married my dad about two years ago. I could tell from the first day that she couldn’t stand me. I even caught her on the phone with one of her friends talking about it. She had said that she was happy I was older, because she didn’t want kids or any of the responsibility that came along with them. I guess I get it, in a way, but she is always such a witch to me. I swear it is like she gets pleasure out of my misery.”

“What about your dad? Doesn’t he notice any of this?”

“My dad is oblivious. He is so caught up in work that I am surprised he even knows I’m home half of the time.” An awkward silence settled between us and I could tell he was trying to process what I had just told him. “What about your parents? I mean, I know you have told me your mom left, but that is all you have really said about her.”

“My mom was…she was great, until she left. She didn’t work and was always there whenever we needed her. I used to think she was perfect,
but then I came home one day and she was gone. I get that what happened with Sara was hard for her, but it was hard for all of us. After she left, my dad just became really bitter. He is half the reason I was the way I was with girls. He always told me, ‘love ‘em and leave ‘em, before you get left’.” He wasn’t looking at me anymore. “That is why I kept avoiding you, Nic, I didn’t know how to handle not wanting to leave you. I wanted to be around you all the time and that was a first for me.”

“I know
, J, and I could tell from the start that there was something there. You’re lucky you are so cute, because if it was anyone else, I would have kicked their ass to the curb a long time ago.”

He started laughing
and looked up at me from his position laying down on the couch. He grabbed me by my waist and sat me on top of him, so I was facing him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he smiled at me. “I am so glad you didn’t give up on me. I know it wasn’t easy. The thing was, I knew I was hurting you, even though it was the one thing I was trying not to do. You better listen good, because I don’t say this very often, I’m sorry.”

I leaned in and kissed him
. My little kiss immediately caught fire. He grabbed the back of my head and held me in place, so I couldn’t move, not that I wanted to anyway. I loved how passionate things were between us and I hoped this feeling never went away.

Jason

I was meeting Carter for lunch today
. He had texted me last night saying that he needed someone to talk to. I didn’t answer until this morning, because I was a little tied up with Nicole. I swear that girl will be the death of me. She was everything I never thought I deserved and I’d do whatever I could to never lose her.