All I Want Is You (8 page)

Skie

              I was holding Blu in my arms while she slept; we have been up for almost two days. I was tired and I was sure she was too. I couldn’t believe what she found out, her father had been there this entire time, but she didn’t know. I was scared to tell her that I had an addition for this new dance movie that was coming out. I would have to go all the way to California for a week, it was for a lead role, and it was a Lesbian dance film. I just didn’t want to leave Blu here alone with all the things she is going through. She didn’t start her job until next month, so she really didn’t have anything to do to keep her busy. We graduated in a few weeks. I never planned on going, and the way things are going with my baby, I didn’t think she would either. I fell asleep right along with Blu. I woke up during the night, and she wasn’t lying beside me.

              “Blu!” I screamed, I got out the bed and went to my bathroom door and opened it. I sighed a breath of relief, Blu was taking a shower.

              “You doing okay baby?” I asked in a gentle tone, I jumped and sat on the counter next to the sink.

              “Yes, I’m fine, I can’t just sit around moping around anymore.” She turned off the water and grabbed one of my fluffy white towels.

              She walked over to me and kissed me on the lips, I kissed her back softly. I loved this girl with everything inside me.

              “I love you, Blu.” I blushed and pulled her closer to me. I was so scared to lose her; I wouldn’t know what to do without her in my life anymore.

              “I love you too, Skie. Thank you for being here with me through all this this.” She kissed me once more then walked into my bedroom.

              “I want to take you to my special place today.” I watched her while she went through the bag of clothes we bought her.

              “Okay, I would love to go to your special place.” she looked at me and smiled, then went back to looking in the bag of clothes.

              I went and hopped in the shower, I got under the water and let it run down my body. I was about to open up to Blu about my child hood. I never liked talking about it to anyone, Monroe is the only one who knew about my past.

              I got out the shower, grabbed a towel and walked out the bathroom and into my closet. I looked at the racks of clothes I had and grabbed a pair of my yoga pants and a sports bra. I felt like being comfortable, and besides I was very comfortable in my skin. It took me a long time for me to say that about myself, I used to hate everything about myself.

              “Ready to go, babes” I laugh while I grabbed my car keys.

              I hopped in the driver’s seat, and watched as Blu walked over to the passenger side and got in. I started the car and pulled out the drive way. I sped down the highway, I was taking her to the beach. I did all of my thinking there. If you walked far away there were these big rocks and the waves crashed into them. I always sat on the edge and dangled my feet, while the water hit my feet.

              I pulled into the parking lot and got out the car, I went to Blu’s side of the car and opened her door for her. I held my hand out to her and she grabbed it, I locked the car and we walked hand in hand down the beach. We both took off out shoes and enjoyed the sand and water on our feet.

              We finally reached my spot. I climbed up on the rock and helped Blu up. We both looked at the sky and water meet, it was so beautiful.

              “Where did you find this spot, Skie?” Blu looked at me and smiled; it was amazing. She grabbed my hand and looked into the water.

              “I found this spot when I first moved here, I used to just walk for hours and one day I came across this spo.t I do my best thinking here.” I looked over at Blu, I felt so lucky to have her her.

              “Tell me your story, Skie. I want to know. You’re so closed off, I want to know why?" She questioned.

              Well, sit back we might be here for a while,” I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and exhaled. I thought back to my child hood. “When I was five I got molested for the first time, by my uncle. My dad found out and killed him.”

              We sat in silence for a minute, I had to take a break. This was bringing back all the feelings I use to feel inside.

              “I’m fine now Blu, that’s in the past, I use to hate myself but I grew to love myself” I smiled at her and kissed her lips softly.

              “I’m sorry you went through all that, Skie, this makes me love you more” We moved closer to each other and watched the sunset. I couldn’t be happier then I already was, this moment was so perfect.

              “You should talk to Ghost, I know it might be too soon for you to talk to your mom, but Ghost is dying and I don’t want you to regret not hearing him out.” I reached into my pants where I stuck her phone. I powered it on and handed it to her.

              “Call Ryder and tell him to meet us here and go see him together, I will even go if you want.” I smiled at Blu and kissed her check.

              “Okay Skie, I’ll call Ryder but I need to there, I don’t know if Ryder will be enough support.” She dialed Ryder’s number and told him the plan.

              We walked back to the car hand in hand and when we walked up to my car, Ryder was sitting on the hood.

              “Are you sure about this Blu?” Ryder stared us down. He looked tired like he had been up for days.

              “Yes, as ready as I’ll ever be,” Blu said then got into the car. I waited until she shut the door.

              “I’m worried about her, Ryder and I know this is something that she needs to do.” I looked at her through the windshield.

              “I know; I’ve been with him the past few days. He’s getting worse, it is actually starting to show. He doesn’t want to do any treatment. My girl’s mom is a nurse, I moved her and my girlfriend in.” he looked so broken, I took him in my arms and hugged him.

              We both got into our cars and I followed him to his house so we can see Ghost. I looked at Blu a few times, she looked so nervous,

“Everything will be okay Blu, maybe not right away, but it will happen. Things won’t stay bad forever.”  I grabbed her hand to comfort her, then sped up to catch Ryder.

              we got into the gates, and we jumped out the cars, I looked at the other cars in the drive way. Ryder walked over to us, and grabbed Blu into a hug.

              “My mother is here; I don’t want to see her,” Blu said while pointing to her mother’s car. “I don’t think this is a good idea.” she went to turn around, but I stopped her.

              “Ryder, can you go tell your dad that Blu is here and that she would like to speak to him without her mother there?” I pleaded and we all walked into the house.

              As soon as we walked in, Ghost and Emilia were sitting at the kitchen table. Oh boy, this is gonna be harder then I thought. I was thinking they were gonna be in the room or something.

              Ryder walked up to his father and said something to him and looked over at Blu. I didn’t hear what he said.

              “Emila, can you please leave for a little while,” Ghost spoke up Emilia just sat there and looked at him with a pissed off look.

              “Why do I have to leave!” She yelled. “I will not be going anywhere, I am staying right here!”

              “Emilia, Blu wants to talk to me!” Ghost raised his voice, you can’t force Blu to talk to you, now leave! He yelled, Emilia jumped in her seat, but didn’t move.

              “Can we go to another room then Ghost?” Blu spoke up for the first time since we walked into the house.

              “Yes, we can Blu, let’s go outside it’s a beautiful night,” Ghost said and stood up. we all went to walk outside, including Emilia.

              “I don’t want you coming with,” Blu said ,with a stern voice ,looking at her mother for the first time since we walked in.

              “Why are you doing this to me Blu?” Emila asked, looking like someone hit her. Me and Ryder just stood back not knowing what to do.

              “I don’t want to be around you right now, if I wanted to speak to you I would have went home!” She yelled “you’re a selfish person. She hid one of the most important things in my life because you were scared!” Blu stormed to the back yard and we all followed.

Blu

              I was nervous, I knew Skie was right, I should talk to Ghost, but I really wasn’t ready to talk to my mother and here she was. We moved to the backyard and was all sitting around a table next to the pool. I had so many memories in this house, it was crazy. I was ready to get Ghost side on things and find out why I was never told. I know they explained, but I have a feeling that my mom had more of a part of keeping it away from me.

              “So, Blu I know you may have some questions for me, but first I wanna say I am very sorry for not telling you all these years.” Ghost gave a warm smile, then began to cough.

              “I do have questions, but first I wanna know why you didn’t tell me all this time till now?” I said, with sadness in my voice, while I looked at my father.

              “I wanted to tell you many times, your mother stopped me every time. She was scared that you would hate her, and never forgive her. This last time I told her I was telling you with or without her in involved. I didn’t want to hurt your guy’s relationship.” I couldn’t place the look he was giving me.

              “Why couldn’t you have just gone behind her back and told me before? At least I would know!” I raised my voice, I was beyond frustrated.

              “I didn’t want to disrespect your mother. I felt like we should have done it together, but when the doctor told me I was getting worse, instead of better, I knew I had to tell you and Ryder the truth. I am not proud of everything I’ve done; all I have ever wanted to do was make everyone happy, but I failed.” He looked so sad and broken. I wanted to be angry with him, but I couldn’t, I felt like he was telling me the truth. It would have been nice to know before, but better late than never, I guess.

              “Well, I forgive you, I guess you were still apart of my life, even though I didn’t know you were my father. But you treated me like a daughter the whole time I was growing up when I came over.” I smiled and walked over to Ghost and gave him a hug.

              “I am happy to hear that come from you,” he smiled at me and hugged back. We sat like that for a minute. I saw my mom looking into the backyard with tears running down her face. I wanted to feel bad for her, but I couldn’t.

              I got up and we all made out way back into the house, I looked around I always felt safe when I was here. Funny how life turns out sometimes. Ryder have always been my best friend and I’ve always looked at him as my brother, so nothing is really gonna change.

              “Blu can I talk to you for a minute alone?” Ryder looked like he has something very important to tell me. So I followed him up to his room and sat on his bed.

              “What’s up bro?” I laughed at my little joke and smiled. I felt like sadness I was feeling was slipping away. I got my dream job and I had an amazing girlfriend, and I had Ryder.

              Ryder laughed with me and sat next to me on the bed. “So I got Camila pregnant, she moved in here with her mom.”

              “Wow so you’re gonna be a father, congratulations Ryder. I’m gonna be an auntie!” I said excited and smiled.

              “Yeah I’m pretty happy myself, just conflicted on what to do about my situations. Our dad wants me to take over his empire but you know I’ve always wanted to join the NBA. My last game will be on Friday and different teams will be there to watch me.” He looked down at his hands took a deep breath.

              “I think you need to follow your gut ,Ryder. You’ve been working so long to join the NBA.” I leaned my head on his shoulder.

              “You’re right; I think there is a way to do both though.” He stood up and paced back and forth in front of me.

              “You could always ask your uncle to help you out, I mean he is your dad’s right hand. Why not have him be the face while you are the voice?” I looked at him walk back and forth and rolled my eyes.

              “That is actually a good idea, thank you!!” Ryder grabbed me and hugged me tight.

              “Your welcome, I’m about to leave,” I got up and walked to the door and down the stairs. Camila and her mom were walking through the door with bags in their hands.

              “Hi Camila,” I smiled, she dropped the bags and ran to me, we gave each other and hug and smiled.

              “Blu!” She screamed, we haven’t seen each other in forever. “We will have to catch up soon! I’m sure Ryder told you the news,” she laughed.

              “Yes, he did, well you know my number. Me and Skie are about to head out,” I walked to the front door, and Skie was already in the car. I got in and looked at her.

              She pulled out the drive way and we headed to her place. She was being awful quit right now.

              “You okay babe?” I reached my hand out and touched her thigh. I knew she had something on her mind.

              “I have an audition, it’s a lesbian dance film, but I would have to go to Cali for a whole week.” She looked at me then turned her face back to the road.

              “Then you need to go Skie, this have been your dream for so long.” I was kind of upset because what if she got it, how long will she be gone? I looked out the window.

              “I didn’t even apply, they saw my dancing videos online and contacted me,” we pulled up to the house and both got out the car.

              “I’m happy for you Skie, go to the audition. I’m not gonna be the one to stop you from following your dreams. I’ll call Remi in the morning and see if I can stay with her until you get back.” I smiled and continued to walk into the house