All I Want Is You (5 page)

Emila

              When I looked at Skie and Blu, I saw the look of love in their eyes. It reminded me of Blu’s father and me. I fell in love with him when I was fifteen years old. I kept it a secret for a very long time. We went to the same school; he was every girl’s crush. I never in a million years thought he would pick me.

              He told me he was in love with me when I turned eighteen years old. I was always second, because he was with another woman. I really didn’t mind though, our parents were kept us apart because there was a war between the mafia and cartel. My dad used to supply his father but something happened and he stopped. I never was exposed to that life, because it was pretty well hidden. Until I met Blu’s father and we were secretly messing around. He showed me everything, he showed me how to use a gun and protect myself.

              I knew we would never be able to be together in the long run. My father would never allow it and neither would his. The love of my life was already set to be married to this bitch named, Linda. She went to this private school; she would carry his last name but I knew I would be the first to carry his seed.

              I still kept in contact with Blu’s father, Blu knew who he was too, but she didn’t know it was her father. Ghost, was the love of my life and I was his. I was afraid to tell Blu that he been there all along. My fear was that she would never want to speak to me, again. Ghost wanted to tell her when she turned eighteen, but I couldn’t come to terms with it, so I told him no.

              Me and Ghost never broke up, even when he got married. Still till this day, we talked and had wild passionate sex with each other. Linda didn’t know about it, but she knew she didn’t hold Ghost’s heart.

              I met Ghost every weekend at our secret apartment together. It was all the way in Atlanta, Georgia. We got it when Blu turned eighteen and went to college. I couldn’t risk it when she was younger, because I was the only thing she had.

              I knew one day soon me and Ghost would have to sit her down and explain that he was her father. I just hoped that she wouldn’t hate me for it. That was one of my biggest fears, I also knew that we had to do it. Ghost was sick and he was going to die soon. No one knew, but me. He had Cancer and it was getting worse, and there was anything anyone could do. You would think by him being sick, it would take away from his looks. It didn’t, no one would ever guess that he had cancer.

              He was tall, dark and handsome. His son Ryder Jr ,got his looks, but Blu looked like me. That is part of the reason why it was so easy to keep this secret all these years. Ghost also had another daughter by Linda. After Blu, I couldn’t get pregnant anymore, I didn’t want anymore children anyway. Blu was our love child, so I was fine with that.

              “Mom, are you okay you look like you’re in deep thought” I looked up from my Mirror and saw Blu standing in the door way.

              “Yes, honey I’m fine, I’m guessing you and Skie cleaned all the dishes?” I got up and walked over to Blu. She was my world; I wouldn’t know what I would do without her. It broke my heart everyday knowing that I was keeping something so big from her.

              “Yes, we did, do you wanna watch a movie with us? We decided on southpaw. That boxing movie you wanted to see.”

              No honey, I have something I need to take care of, I’ll be back a little later. Skie can stay the night,” I kissed her on the forehead and went to my walk in closet to change.

              I was about to go meet Ghost at a hotel a few miles away. He said he needed to see me so I would go even though I really did wanna get to know Skie more. I picked my red pants jumpsuit and put my diamond earrings in my ears along with the matching necklace. I grabbed my purse and shut my room door and walked down my stairs to the living room.

              “You girls all set for the night? I’m headed out,” I smiled at them cuddled up. They could be so opened in their relationship with me. I knew Blu, wasn’t gonna fall in love with a man. Call it mother’s instinct.

              “No, mom we are fine, we are gonna stay up and watch movies and possibly eat popcorn. I hope you have a good night.”

              They turned back to their movie and I walked to the elevator and got on. I went to the underground garage and went to my Cadillac. I loved my car, but tomorrow I was going to get me a new one.

              I drove to the four seasons that Ghost told me to meet him at. I hopped out my car and went to the elevator and went up to the top floor to the room number he gave me. I put the keycard up the the pad and the door unlocked. Ghost was on the balcony, so I put my purse on the bed and joined him.

              “Hi, papi,” I said, in a seductive voice. I came behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist.

              He turned around and looked into my eyes. “I need to tell Blu that I’m her father.” He unwrapped my arms from around him.

              I just looked at him in shock, and folded my arms in front of my chest. “Why now Ghost? We agreed that we weren’t gonna say anything till she was finished with school, so she wouldn’t have any distractions!” I screamed at him.

              “Emila, you’re being selfish! She deserves to know I’m her father. it’s bad enough we didn’t tell her when she turned eighteen! I’m not getting any better,” He huffed.

              “She will hate me, Ghost. Whose to say she will even want to talk to you after we let her know?” I backed away from him.

              “She will at least know the Truth, Emila. I know you’re scared she won’t wanna talk to you. We had a good reason to keep it away from her. We couldn’t be together and no one could know that you carried my child! I would have lost everything I was trained for since I was a little boy!”

              I looked at him like he grew two heads. “Look Ghost, I get that all this was important to you. But she is doing fine! She is in one of the top schools for dance, she is about to graduate and she has a girlfriend she is falling in love with!”

              “Emila, this is something I am going to do with or without you!” He yelled. “So, you will either be sitting next to me while I tell her or you won’t! I don’t care who is going to be unhappy after I tell her this, but I will not hide the fact that she is my daughter any longer! Do you understand me?”

              “I am not a child, Ghost, and you will not talk to me like I am one. You’ve been fucking me for years! I haven’t dated anyone because you would kill them, you’re the only man who’s ever been inside me. I never got to have my dream wedding,” I started to cry, I started to think about the life I always dreamed of.

              I was supposed to marry Ghost, me and Blu were supposed to be a family and live in a big house and I was supposed to get my big dream wedding. But I gave it all up because I was in love with him. I would have done anything to make this man happy.

              He walked towards me and wiped the tears away from my eyes. “Emila, don’t cry I didn’t mean to upset you, you know if it was my choice I would have married you and gave you a million little babies. But you knew why I couldn’t. You always held my heart, you still do.”

              I looked up into his dark brown eyes. “I know, Ghost, I know. I’ll help you tell Blu that you’re her father. I’m worried I might lose my daughter, she is strong willed and she is very stubborn.”

              “You won’t lose her baby; she might need time but you won’t lose her.” He pulled me into his arms, while I cried into his chest.

              “Make love to me, Ghost, I need you to make love to me.” I looked up at him, I wanted him to show me how much he loved me and make me feel wanted.

              Take off your clothes, Emila,” he said, in a seductive voice. He pulled his shirt over his head and un zipped his pants.

              I pulled my jumpsuit off. I had nothing on under it, so I was fully naked standing in front of him. He bent me me over to where I was facing the beach. I felt in twelve inch dick enter my soaking wet pussy. He started off slow, and I could feel every inch of him inside me. It was like we were made for each other.

              “Yes, daddy right there, right there.” I moaned. I grabbed onto the balcony while he went in and out of me.

              “I love you my sweet, Emila,” he moaned into my ear, as he started going a little faster. He grabbed my hips with his hands. He started to pound on my pussy like he hadn’t fucked in years, I was screaming.

              “Ohhhhhhhh, yes daddy yes keep going, I like it rough.” He grabbed my hair and wrapped it around his fit. I got even wetter, “fottimi piu forte (fuck me harder)”I spoke in Italian. He loved when I spoke to him in my language.

              He stopped go get on the bed. “Emila, spread your legs wide and put your wrists together over your head.”

              I ran into the room and did what I was told and waited for him to come. He grabbed hand cuffs from his bag and hand cuffed my hands together. I got so wet it was dripping down my legs, I loved when we did S&M.

              “Now, I’m going to eat you out, mami. I don’t want you to move and if you move I’ll bend you over and whip you till you beg me to stop.”

              “Okay daddy, I’ll do what you say,” I loved when he took charge, it was such a turn on to me. He always told me that Linda didn’t do stuff like this with him, that’s one thing that made me very happy.

              He put his face between my legs and blew on my wetness, he started to lick on my sweet peach. He was teasing me, and daring me to move. He started going in for the kill, and ate my pussy like he would never do so again. I couldn’t help myself, before I knew it my whole body was shaking and he turned me over like he said, and bent me over. He grabbed the back of my neck softly, I looked back he had an evil grin on his face.

              “Now, Emila, didn’t I tell you not to move? Now I have to punish you. “He grabbed the whip that he sat on the bed. He ran the end over my ass, lifted and whipped me. He did it again this time a little harder.

              “You want me to stop?” He did it again hard this time, he will keep doing it until I told him to stop. He did it once again. “Tell me to stop Emila,” he ran it over my pussy.

              “I want your dick inside me, papi. Fuck me please,” I wined. He threw the whip to the side and shoved his dick inside me, it felt so good that I couldn’t make any noise. We both came together, and collapsed on the bed. He took the handcuffs off me and went to grab our clothes. “Let’s get into the shower.”

              We got into the shower really fast and washed up. I knew I would be getting a call from Ghost telling me it was time to tell Blu. I got dressed and hurried and put my clothes back on, I put my heels on my feet and headed to the door.

              Ghost came up behind me. “You’re not gonna give me a kiss goodbye?” I turned around

“Ghost, let’s not do this right now. Goodbye, let me know when you wanna tell Blu, I won’t be seeing you until then. I walked out the door and to my car. I had tears in my eyes, because everything was about to change. 

Linda

              I followed Ghost to the four seasons hotel, and I watched as he paid cash for a room. I wondered who he was meeting. He had been acting different. He always kept secrets, but lately it seemed like he didn’t tell me anything. He was the man of my dreams when we first started dating. He was everything I wanted and when he asked me to marry him I was the happiest woman alive. His father loved me and I got along great with his mother.

              I came from a small city in Mexico that wasn’t even on a map. My mama and papa worked long hours in the field for little pay so me and my seven sisters could have clothes on our backs and food on the table. I was the youngest of all my sisters, and they all went off and married. When I turned twelve my dad shipped me off to the United States to live with his brother. He wanted me to have the best in life, he said him and mama would be right behind me. But, they never made it. My papa got shot and killed trying to protect my mama. The cartel in Mexico took over the town and rapped the women, while killing anyone who got in their way. All my sisters died, but one. Maria ended up moving here with me and my uncle and got on heavy drugs. My uncle tried to get her off of them, but she wouldn’t stop. She saw our whole family get killed; I didn’t blame her. I knew what she was going through because I missed them too.

              I watched as Ghost got on the elevator and saw the floor he went to. There was a large display that showcased each floor’s number. He was headed to the top floor, as I watched my husband go up, I spotted, Emilia walk in. I knew she was here to see Ghost; I wasn’t a dummy. . I saw some emails exchanged between them throughout the years, but never said anything. I knew he wasn’t in love with me. He loved me because I was the mother of his children, but that was it. He was forced to marry me, and I found that out a couple years ago when I heard him whispering about it on the phone. I also found out that Blu was his child as well. I hated that Emila carried and delivered his first child. When I confronted Ghost about it, he told me that it wasn’t my business and to stay out of it.

              I wanted to divorce him when I found out, but he told me if I ever tried to leave or tell anyone what I knew he would kill me and make it look like an accident. Since that day I hated him with everything inside me. I was planning on leaving, but in order to leave with money I had to catch him in an act of cheating. I hired a private investigator to follow Ghost’s every move. He and Emila met every weekend at an apartment in Atlanta. I was going to black mail him into giving me a half a million dollars.

              I left the hotel in tears; I couldn’t do this anymore. I needed to leave and start my life. I wished I could bring Ryder with me, but Ghost would never allow me to. But, I knew the best I could do was write Ryder a letter and leave a new phone number where he could contact me.

I was planning on moving to California to start fresh. I already cleared out my bank account and put the money in a new bank account with a fake name. Ghost wouldn’t be able to trace it. I made copies of the photos with him and Emila and left it on his desk along with a letter explaining if he didn’t give me the half of Million in the account I gave him, in forty-eight hours I have my lawyer on speed dial.

              I drove to my massive mansion and ran up the stairs to grab the bags I had packed. I put them into the car and went to Ryder’s room. I looked at all his basketball things and looked at a picture that he had of me and him on his fifth birthday; I started to cry hard. I left the note on his pillow and whispered “I love you Ryder no matter what and I am sorry.”

              I got into my car and drove to the airport. I had some things already shipped to my new condo on the beach. I ran through the airport and made it to my plane just in time. I felt like I could finally breathe.

I went back to thinking about the day Ryder saw me and Ghost having sex in the kitchen. Me and

Ghost had got into a fight about him and Emila. It was about how he still kept in contact with her, and how Blu was his daughter. The next thing I know, he slapped me and bent me over. He ripped my swimsuit bottoms off, and stuck his dick inside me. He forced me to have sex with him a lot. Whenever he wanted he wanted sex, and even if I said no; he even made me suck his dick. All he would do was grab my hair and force my head down. Sometimes when I was sleeping he would stand over me with his dick in my face.  Most of the time he called me disrespectful names. He used to make love to me and make me feel special, but after his father passed, things changed. His whole attitude turned really dark, and I was scared of him.

              Unbeknownst to him, I was having a affair of my own. I met this handsome business man a few years ago when I was on the beach. He was dark chocolate about 6’4, 220 pounds of muscle. He made me feel wanted; he was the reason I chose to move to California. He lived there and he would be moving into my Condo with me until we found a house of our own. We were planning on having a child together, I couldn’t be happier with my future. I was hoping that one day Ryder would want to join us.