Zelda (69 page)

   229 “Millie, who had never had a very strong sense of reality…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 4–5.

   230 “The wide and lawless generosity…”:
Ibid.
, p. 11.

   230 “Tell me about myself when I was little…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 5–6.

   231 “And did I cry at night and raise Hell…”:
Ibid.
, p. 6.

   231 “White things gleam in the dark…”:
Ibid.
, p. 7.

   232 “She grows older sleeping…”:
Ibid.
, p. 8.

   232 When the war comes Alabama plans “to escape…”:
Ibid.
, p. 29.

   232 She falls in love with the romantic figure…:
Ibid.
, p. 37.

   232 “Say, ‘dear,’” he said…:
Ibid.
, p. 38.

   232 “So much she loved the man…”:
Ibid.

   233
(fn)
“His whole life has been torn…”: R. D. Laing,
The Divided Self, An Existential Study in Sanity and Madness
, Penguin Books, Baltimore, 1965, p. 37.

   232 Alabama, then, in a fantasy, enters David’s head…:
Ibid.

   233 “‘The tops of buildings shine like crowns…’ “:
Ibid.
, p. 40.

   234 Alabama turns to memories of her father for sustenance: “She thought…”:
Ibid.
, p. 129.

   234 “Alabama’s peculiar genius lay…”:
Ibid.
, p. 227.

   234 The first sentence was altered to read…:
Ibid.
, p. 48.

   235 “From the sense that she had nothing…”:
Ibid.
, p. 51.

   235 “Alabama had a way of abnegating…”:
Ibid.
, p. 220.

   235 “Alabama had known this would be their attitude…”:
Ibid.
, p. 55.

   235 “Understand,” the Judge was saying….
Ibid.
, pp. 55–56.

   236 “Wouldn’t you mind?” she said…:
Ibid.
, p. 226.

   236 No one but Alabama has dressed for dinner…:
Ibid.
, pp. 229–230.

   236 Alabama thinks, “If they hadn’t been so completely impervious…”:
Ibid.
, p. 231.

   236 Alabama reflects, “‘Another tie broken…’”:
Ibid.
, p. 233.

   237 “The top of New York twinkled like a golden canopy…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 46–47.

   237 Then David says: “I’ll have to do lots of work…”:
Ibid.
, p. 47.

   237 “…she hadn’t been absolutely sure…”:
Ibid.
, p. 50.

   238 “Vincent Youmans wrote a new tune…”:
Ibid.
, p. 56.

   238 “The New York rivers dangled lights along the banks…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 56–57.

   238 “It costs more to ride on the tops of taxis…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 57, 60.

   239 The foliage
is
“black.”…:
Ibid.
, p. 72.

   239 “Pastel cupids frolicked amidst the morning-glories…”:
Ibid.
, p. 79.

   239 “‘It’s a man’s world…’”:
Ibid.
, p. 80.

   239 “When she was a child and the days…”:
Ibid.
, p. 90.

   239 She says, “‘Yes—I don’t know…’”:
Ibid.
, p. 93.

   
240 “I’ll have to tell him…”:
Ibid.

   240 She rips up the letter, and “Though it broke her heart…”:
Ibid.
, p. 98.

   240 This is an almost exact repetition…:
Ibid.
, p. 29.

   240 He wrote one of Zelda’s doctors…: FSF to Dr. Thomas Rennie, May 28, 1933.

   240 It is only when the Knights leave the Riviera…:
SMTW, p.
99.

   241 In Paris the flowers are artificial…:
Ibid.
, p. 102.

   241 In that Parisian world of parties…:
Ibid.
, p. 106.

   241 “I think…that it would be the very thing…”: Ibid., p. 113.

   241 “Life has become practically intolerable…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   242 Alabama pushes her body beyond the pain…:
SMTW
, p. 127.

   242 “Why will you never come out…”:
Ibid.
, p. 126.

   242 “Yellow roses she bought with her money like Empire…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 138–139.

   242 “‘You’re so thin,’ said David…”:
Ibid.
, p. 147.

   243 “The bones had begun to come up in her nose…”:
Ibid.
, p. 174.

   243 There is no car, but “a flea-bitten…”:
Ibid.
, pp. 175–176.

   244 “We should have taken the train-de-luxe…”:
Ibid.
, p. 180.

   244 As Bonnie looks about her she notices “Ladies…”:
Ibid.
, p. 181.

   244 “Riding home through the flickering night…”:
Ibid.
, p. 187.

   245 “Oh, my father, there are so many things…”: Ibid., p. 199.

   245 “Her father!” she had written before Alabama…:
Ibid.
, p. 195.

   246 “‘He must have forgot,’ Alabama said…”: Ibid., pp. 203, 204.

   246 Alabama says: “‘We grew up founding our dreams…’”:
Ibid.
, p. 110.

   246 “We’ve talked you to death…”:
Ibid.

   246 “Always… we will have to seek some perspective …”:
Ibid.
, p. 211.

   246 She tells David it is “very expressive…”:
Ibid.
, p. 212.

Chapter 15

   248 “The eyes of the psychiatrist moved…”: ZSF, “Autobiographical Sketch,” March 16, 1932. Dr. Mildred T. Squires, to whom Zelda dedicated
Save Me the Waltz
, is the psychiatrist referred to at the opening.

   253 “Darling, Sweet D.O.—…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d. (ca. end of March 1932).

   253 “It all went back to Zelda…”: This untitled sketch which exists in typescript and is
six
pages long was attached to a letter written by Fitzgerald to Dr. Squires, April 4, 1932.

   254 “Honey, when you come out into the world…”: FSF to ZSF, n.d. (ca. late spring 1932).

   255 “We have been so close this last year…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   255 “Analogy”…: “Analogy,” by FSF, unpublished.

   256 Scott gave an interview to the Baltimore…: The Baltimore
Evening Sun
, “He Tells of Her Novel,” May 8, 1932.

   256 A colleague of Dr. Meyer…: Dr. Eleanor Pavenstedt to NM, January 15, 1969. Dr. Pavenstedt cared for Zelda during her second period at Phipps, February 12, 1934-March 8, 1934.

   256 Dr. Forel had suggested that if Zelda…: Dr. Forel to FSF, March 8, 1932. Dr. Forel to FSF, May 11, 1932.

   257 Scott wrote Dr. Squires that he wanted Zelda to take the move…: FSF to Dr. Mildred T. Squires, May 20, 1932.

   257 “We live in a nice Mozartian…”: ZSF to John Peale Bishop, n.d. (ca. summer 1932).

   258 The Turnbulls’ son Andrew, who was eleven…: Andrew Turnbull to NM, interview, August 6, 1964.

   258 “When things were going well for them…”:
Ibid.

   258 Mrs. Turnbull found him a charming…: Mrs. Bayard Turnbull to NM, interview, October 12, 1963.

   259 A woman who worked as Fitzgerald’s secretary…: Mrs. Isabel Owens to NM, interview, October 12, 1963.

   
259 “Dearest: I’m writing because I don’t want…”: FSF to ZSF, n.d. (ca. late summer 1932).

   260 Maxwell Perkins visited him and described…: Maxwell Perkins to Ernest Hemingway, July 22, 1932, in
Editor to Author, The Letters of Maxwell E. Perkins
, edited by John Hall Wheelock, Charles Scribner’s Sons, New York, 1950, p. 79.

   260 He entered in the Ledger…: Ledger, p. 186.

   262 “We are delighted with the book…”: ZSF to Maxwell Perkins, n.d. (ca. October 6. 1932).

   262 Zelda wrote Perkins unhappily after publication…: ZSF to Maxwell Perkins, n.d.

   262 Zelda liked a review written by William McFee…:
Ibid.

   263 “…here is a peculiar talent…”: William McFee, “During the Jazz Age,” the New York
Sun
, October 8, 1932, p. 12.

   263 “In the desperate attempt to be contrary…”:
Ibid.

   263 “It is not only that her publishers…”: “Of the Jazz Age,” the
New York Times
, October 16, 1932.

   263 “There is a warm, intelligent…”: Dorothea Brand, “Seven Novels of the Month,”
The Bookman
, October 1932, p. 735.

   263 Zelda told the woman…: Newspaper clipping in Zelda’s clipping album.

   264
Save Me the Waltz
sold 1,392 copies…: Burroughs Mitchell to NM, February 16, 1968.

   264 Zelda earned $120.73…: Maxwell Perkins to ZSF, August 2, 1933.

   264 “Maybe I ought to have warned you…”:
Ibid.

   264 “It moves me a lot…”: Malcolm Cowley to FSF, May 22, 1933.

   265 “But in her subconscious there is…”: FSF to Dr. Thomas Rennie, n.d. (ca. October 1932).

Chapter 16

   266 She also wrote Perkins, saying…: ZSF to Maxwell Perkins, n.d. (ca. October 6, 1932).

   267 “He just wasn’t a stationary man…”: Mrs. Isabel Owens to NM, interview, October 12, 1963.

   267 In an article written during this period…: “One Hundred False Starts,”
Afternoon of An Author
, pp. 131–136.

   267 But the crowd no longer seemed to him…: Ledger, p. 68.

   268 First he blamed his mother, then Zelda…: Mrs. Isabel Owens to NM, interview, October 12, 1963.

   268 His secretary remembers them talking to each other…:
Ibid.

   269 His secretary says: “The next day…”:
Ibid.

   269 “We had a formal relationship…”:
Ibid.

   269 Zelda wrote Maxwell Perkins…: ZSF to Maxwell Perkins, n.d. (ca. October 22, 1932).

   269 Scott’s secretary remembers her as “skinny…”: Mrs. Isabel Owens to NM, interview, October 12, 1963.

   269 Scott once wrote: “Family quarrels…”:
CU
, p. 198.

   270 He said that when their “conversations”…: FSF to Dr. Adolf Meyer, April 10, 1933.

   270 Scott felt that he needed some strongly enforced authority…:
Ibid.

   271 “One of her reasons for gravitating…”:
Ibid.

   271 Dr. Meyer answered Fitzgerald…: Dr. Adolf Meyer to FSF, April 18, 1933.

   272 “I felt that from the difference between my…”: FSF to Dr. Adolf Meyer, n.d. This letter exists in a pencil draft and may never have been sent to Dr. Meyer. It is, however, clearly a response to Meyer’s letter of April 18.

   272 He said: “I can only think of Lincoln’s…”:
Ibid.

   275 In a few more years, by 1936, he would understand it more clearly…: “Author’s House,”
Afternoon of An Author
, p. 188.

   
276 The spring before this one, sixty young students from the Baltimore area…: I am indebted to Don Swann, to Mrs. Rita Swann, and to jack Day (who played Uncle Messogony) for their reminiscences about the Vagabonds.

   276 “Ahead of me, near the gate…”: The description of Zack Maccubbin’s meeting with Zelda, his Sunday dinner with the Fitzgeralds, as well as of the rehearsals for
Scandalabra
, are drawn from an unpublished sketch Mr. Maccubbin, now Mr. Zack Waters, wrote October 10, 1963. Some of this material is also drawn from our interview, May 12, 1965.

   278 If
Scandalabra
ran within the time limits…:
Scandalabra
exists only in a sixty-one page typescript. This must be Fitzgerald’s revision of the farce, for it has a prologue and three acts. In the program for the original performance,
Scandalabra
is said to have a prologue and two acts.

   279 “There is probably nothing more embarrassing…”: H. B. S., The Baltimore
Evening Sun
, June 27, 1933.

   280 The night
Scandalabra
closed another reviewer…: J. P. C, “Final Performance of Scandalabra Given,” The Baltimore
Evening Sun
, July 2, 1933.

Chapter 17

   281 When Malcolm Cowley came down to visit…: Malcolm Cowley, “A Ghost Story of the Jazz Age,”
Saturday Review
, XLVII, January 25, 1964, pp. 20–21.

   282 Scott wrote Rennie saying she was selling the naive young psychiatrist…: FSF to Dr. Thomas Rennie, October 6, 1933.

   282 “…conditioned on the charm of a very shrewd…”:
Ibid.

   284 “Last year or whenever it was in Chicago…”:
Tender
, p. 122.

   285 “I could not walk in the streets…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   285 “I write to you because there is no one else…”:
Tender
, p. 123.

   285 “I would always be more than glad to see you…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   285 “The mental trouble is all over and besides…”:
Tender
, p. 123.

   285 “At any rate one thing has been achieved…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d. See Chapter 11, p. 168, where this particular letter is quoted in full.

   285 “I would gladly welcome any alienist…”:
Tender
, p. 124.

   285 “I will more than gladly welcome any alienist…”; ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   285 Fitzgerald even quoted directly in
Tender…
:
Tender
, p. 128. According to Dr. Bleuler’s November 22, 1930, report on Zelda, fear for one’s own sexual identity is a classic element of schizophrenic disintegration. Her accusation about Fitzgerald was a “typical counter-effect.” Dr. Forel to NM, May 6, 1966.

   287 “After all, Max, I am a plodder…”:
Letters
, p. 247.

   287 At the close of the same letter…:
Ibid.
, pp. 247–248.

   287 “Dear, Monsieur, D.O., The third installment…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d.

   288 “You
don’t
love me…”:
Ibid.

   288 “Do-Do: It was so sad to see your train pull out…”: ZSF to FSF, n.d. (ca. March 1934).