What Love Has Lost (9 page)

Moans start leaving my mouth. His hands quickly respond and wrap them around my body. I run my hands through his hair as he gently grabs both of my legs, and I wrap them around his waist. He gently places me on top of the kitchen counter. My body slowly surrenders to him. My hands rummage onto his biceps. Man, does this man know how to work out.

In a blink of an eye, my hands tug onto his white t-shirt, letting him know that I want to proceed further. Suddenly, his lips escape mine as they target my neck. His procedure is so mesmerizing: nip and pull. His same routine somehow makes me moan. Then, he crashes his lips back to mine, as he is shirtless and I still have all my clothes on me.

"Bedroom?" he asks in his husky, ragged voice. My head nods, vigorously, as my fingers run through his chocolate, brown hair. He picks me up and leads us the way as my legs wrap around his lean body, still kissing him forcefully.

Chapter Eight

Crazy for You

Kissing Nathan brings back all those memories of our summer romance. In the back of my mind, it is screaming at me that this is all wrong. But my body takes control over my mind. In fact, the barriers, which I created, are slowly weakening as I surrender myself to him. To me, this isn't me and Nathan continuing to make love. It feels so surreal. It feels as if I just want lust from him.

My mind goes to the most inappropriate ways of lust. However, I'm not going into details.

My hands run from his shaggy dark hair to the front of his pajama bottoms. My hands fumble onto the tie of his pajamas. Of course, Nathan stumbles (a couple of times) before we arrive to his bedroom. The door creaks open, and he leads us towards the bedroom. Stopping his tracks, he kicks the door shut.

I feel his hands tug at the bottom of my shirt. Before he rips it out of my body, he gently places me onto the bed. My back hits the sheets, still panting and kissing Nathan's lips. Our breathing gets heavier as our body heat goes intense. Ripping my shirt, I feel a cold chill hit against my bare body. I never wear a bra when I go to bed.

Small moans escape my lips as I feel Nathan moves his hands to my waist, fiddling with my shorts. I always hate wearing pajama bottoms or sweatpants to bed. I feel his hands loop onto my shorts as he proceeds to take it off. Before we go any further, I stop him.

"Wait, do you have protection with you?" I ask, still panting.

Nathan stiffly nods. "I don't want you to regret anything. If you want to stop, I'll stop."

I caress the side of his face and stop at his jawline. "Don't stop."

Kissing him back, I let us go underneath the covers. Then, I pull out the small fabric that is covering my lower region. Nathan still has his pajama bottoms and his boxers. Being completely naked under Nathan, my legs wrap around his body. Suddenly, his lips migrate from my lips to my bare neck. He continues his routine, and then goes lower.

My mind is going out of control as it continues to scream at me for making a stupid mistake. Honestly, I don't care if I make a mistake or regret sleeping with him, again. I just want to experience my teenage years, being rebellious. His kisses trail from my chest area and stops on my lower abdomen. Feeling his hands massage my inner thighs, my moans start to grow louder.

Thankfully, Nathan muffles my moans with his lips, and he continues to massage them. As he scoots closer to my body, I can feel him poking my entrance. My hands run across his bare chest, feeling his tight, lean body. My hands stop in front of his pajama bottoms, which covers his lower region.

Cupping my hands onto his pajama bottoms and his boxers, I slowly take the fabric out of his body. With him being completely bare, he groans as I wrap my legs around him. The heat in my lower region intensifies. My body agonizes for need. My body agonizes for release.

"Mm, Nathan," I whimper as my hands grip onto the sheets.

He nods, vigorously as he fondles in his pajama pockets to find a small piece of plastic. He grabs the silver packet out of his pocket as I watch him tear it before going any further. He kisses me one last time, but more sincere and more lovingly. His kiss lingers there for a couple of seconds, before we reach that sensation of dizziness, utmost uncontrollable, most desirable moment for the both of us.

♠♣♥♦

The next day, I wake up with the sun shining on my face. I feel my brain pounding hard against my skull. My eyes blink rapidly as my vision becomes more vivid. Somehow, I hear a light snore, coming from beside me. My head slowly tilts to one direction, facing a sleeping, naked Nathan.

Oh my god, what the fuck happened last night?

I slowly rise out of the bed and remove the covers away from my naked body. I stare at myself for a couple of seconds, before running towards the bathroom to check myself in the mirror.

Why am I naked? What happened last night? Did he and I have sex? I thought I hate that bastard! How far did we go? Oh my god, did we use protection? How long did this last? Oh my god, am I going to be pregnant?

Numerous of thoughts explode in my mind. Grabbing my clothes off the floor, I rush towards the bathroom and check myself in the mirror. Looking at myself in the mirror, I see many hickeys placed onto my neck. My lips are very swollen. I have dark circles under my eyes! I feel puffy for some odd reason!

Is that a sign for pregnancy? I mentally scream.

"Oh god, what have I done?" I whisper to myself, facing the mirror.

Throwing my clothes back onto my body, I tiptoe towards the bed to check any more evidence. Still watching Nathan asleep, I dig my hands onto the bed. Suddenly, my hands grasp on pieces of small packets. Moving my hands away from under the covers, my eyes widen as I see ten silver packets.

"Oh my god," I whisper to myself. Without hesitating, I throw the silver packets in the trash and rush towards the closet to find something to protect me. I find a tennis racket. Who knew that Rhiannon and her family plays tennis?

Walking towards the sleeping body while raising a tennis racket, I poke his body with my index finger. "Pst, Nathan!" I whisper, loudly. He doesn't bulge. However, I try to wake him up, again.

"Nathan!" I scream and see him roll out of the bed, being surprised.

"Ugh, what the fuck," Nathan grumbles, lying onto the floor and showing off his bare back.

"Seriously, put some clothes on!" I shriek, still holding onto the racket.

He slowly gets up and grabs the covers as he swiftly wraps it around his lower region. He turns around with a confused look across his face. Being shocked, I tightly grip onto the tennis racket for protection.

"Inn, what the hell are you doing with that tennis racket?" Nathan questions as he slowly walks towards me.

"Don't touch me!" I proclaim.

Nathan backs away as he raises both of his hands in the air. "Let's take this calmly and rationally, okay? I want to know why all of a sudden you are freaking out."

"Because we had sex, that's why I'm freaking out!" I admit, still gripping tight onto the racket.

Nathan lets out a deep chuckle. "Wow, you're freaking out because we had sex?"

"Well, I hate your guts." I say, lowering the tennis racket against my side.

Nathan forms a sly grin. "That's not what you said last night."

I raise an eyebrow. Staring into Nathan's emerald eyes, I drop the tennis racket. "What did I say last night? Please, do not leave any details out."

Nathan taps onto his chin. "Oh, you know. Those erotic, dirty words that escape from your lips was quite a turn-on. Your sex drive definitely increased mine. You were getting freaky last night as well. It made my sex life very amusing..."

"Okay, stop!" I interfere, not wanting to listen any further.

"You said that you wanted every detail, correct?" he speaks in his deep voice.

Fuck, I hate it when he's right!

My lip starts quivering as we stand there in utter silence. I hate silent, awkward moments!

"Nathan, breakfast is ready and tell Inna to get up and..." Rhiannon stops explaining because her eyes spot Nathan to me. She starts laughing. "Oh my god, what happened here? Inna, why are you here in Nathan's room?" she arches her dark eyebrow.

Then, I watch her eyes avert to Nathan's bare body as he covers his lower part of his body with the sheets. Rhiannon lets out a hyena laugh. "No fucking way! Inna and Nathan did the dirty last night!" she shrieks, but I run towards her to place a hand over her mouth.

I love Rhiannon, but the girl needs to keep her mouth quiet.

"Do not scream. Do not mention this to anybody. Forget what you saw." I whisper in Rhiannon's ear as a muffle sound escape her lips. She stiffly nods. I slowly remove my hand away from her mouth.

"So, breakfast is served at the kitchen." Rhiannon announces, and then leaves us alone, again.

♠♣♥♦

Today, the four of us has to head back to Alabama. Sadly, I will miss sleeping on those comfortable mattresses. I will also miss those home cooked meals that Mrs. Evers prepares. I somewhat wish that we stayed in Denver for a longer period of time, but Rhiannon and Grady has to go back to work.

Although we will be back in Alabama, Nathan and I will have to try to get along when they're gone. Oh gosh, I'm going to try to keep my distance away from him. I don't want to sleep with him, again. Being weak, he knows that he will try his hardest to make me surrender to him.

After we all ate, I decide to rush back to my room to take a long, hot shower. Unexpectedly, Nathan grabs my hand and laces our fingers. "You know, I was thinking that we should take that erotic night and put it for our morning routine." His sultry, deep voice whispers in my ears.

Hissing, I crane my neck. "No!"

"You honestly cannot deny your feelings for me." Nathan teases, touching my waist.

Abruptly, I turn around and face him. "I do not have feelings for you!"

After giving him a piece of my mind, I continue my tracks towards my room to get ready, go home, and try to forget about last night. Walking into the restroom, I strip all my clothes and turn on the hot water. I grab a towel and wrap it around my bare body.

"Ugh, that nerve of him!" I shout to myself.

Going into the shower, I take off the towel and hang it over the door. I feel the warm water hit my skin. This is a huge relief. I want nothing from him. Last night is a huge mistake. I don't have feelings for him. I don't love him anymore. He's a frustrating, complicated, egotistic jerk!

A knock disrupts me from my thoughts. I run a hand through my hair before turning off the water. Someone knocks the second time. "Coming," I exclaim, huffing an exasperated sigh.

I wrap the towel around my body and promptly walk towards the door. Opening the door, I see a naked Nathan standing before me. My eyes widen. "What the hell?"

Nathan doesn't respond, but he interrupts me by not completing my sentence with his lips crashing onto mine. Hands start going towards my towel, unfolding it as I hear it fall onto the floor.

Oh, fuck me!

♠♣♥♦

"Why are you guys smiling?" Grady questions, as we are all inside the private plane, going back to Alabama. Rhiannon giggles and clasps her hands together. I glare at Rhiannon, so she stops with her excitement before she spills the news to Grady.

I clear my throat, trying to come up with an excuse. "I'm excited for Christmas." I fib, chewing onto my lower lip. My eyes avert to Nathan, as he seems calm and collected. Grady rolls his eyes, not believing my lies. Instead, he asks Nathan.

"Nathan, why are you guys smiling?" he asks again.

"I'm excited that Christmas is coming very soon. I have gifts for all of you." Nathan covers.

"Are you sure that's all? There must be something more." Grady pushes.

Rhiannon better not spill our secret!

"Rhi, is there something that you know, which you're not telling me?" Grady ask, scooting closer to Rhiannon.

"Nathan and Inna had sex!" Rhiannon squeals. I slap a hand against my forehead.

And there she goes!

Grady's eyes grow wider. "What? Oh, I knew you two couldn't stay away from each other!"

Sulking into my chair, I try to hide from my embarrassment. Nathan smirks and winks at me. He leans closer to my ear and whispers, "It's going to be fine. They're just being their nosy selves. It's not like they don't sleep together as much as we do."

My face suddenly turns beef red. I cannot believe he is stating this!

"This is your captain speaking - we are thirty minutes away from your destination. Please, keep your seatbelts fasten and have a great flight." The captain announces through the intercom.

♠♣♥♦

While the plane lands, Rhiannon grabs me from my arm and takes me away from Grady and Nathan. "Don't worry, gentlemen. I just want to have a girl talk with my best friend." Rhiannon winks.

What is she doing?

"What the hell are you doing, Rhiannon?" I hiss through my fake smile.

She stops me. "Do you love him? Tell me the truth, Inna!"

"What are you talking about? I don't love him."

"You're lying to me. I'm your best friend and you're lying to me. You're also keeping secrets from me. What the hell is going on with you? Where's my best friend?" Rhiannon explains.

"I'm still here! No, I'm keeping secrets from you. I know you're mad at him, because he and I had a past together, but whatever goes between us, stays between us. Please, understand what I'm telling you, Rhi; I want you to stay out of my private life! No matter how secretive it is between him and me. Please, keep your nose out." I glare into Rhiannon's brown eyes, spilling the truth.

Deep down, I know that I hurt Rhiannon, emotionally. But I want her to stay out of my private life. She sounds like my mother! My mother always pokes her nose into my privacy. That's why I hate when people pokes their nose into my privacy. It's so wrong.

I'm already an adult, so I have the freedom of speech of speaking my mind!

Truthfully, I want Rhiannon and Grady to stop worrying about me. I know that I have had my heart broken before, but I think Nathan and I having intercourse is nothing meaningful. He probably understands as well. He's not treating me like a delicate flower or something.