Authors: Chris Jordan
while waiting on Kelly’s latest test results. Got to be routine,
almost. No big deal. ’Scuse me, Doctor, while I huff into this
for a while. Okay, what were you saying, another course of
radiation? More chemo? No problem, puff-puff-puff.
Oddly enough, the longest time ever without an anxiety
attack was while pregnant. All kinds of stress in my life—
denying the pregnancy, then hiding the pregnancy, then
dropping out of school, parents breaking up, money prob-
lems—but it never triggered an attack. Maybe it was
hormones. Maybe it was Kelly inside me, calming me down.
Whatever, the hyperventilation episodes came back with a
vengeance when Mom got sick, and continued right through
the day of her funeral. But for the past couple of years,
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months go by without a problem, and when it does happen
it’s not so severe as in the past. Until now.
Shane, the man who never sleeps, it figures he’d under-
stand.
“Not a problem,” he says. “We’ll keep a bag handy.”
“Thanks.”
In my present condition a few kind words make me weepy,
which he’s kind enough to ignore, which in turn makes me
more weepy, until finally he has to find a box of tissues, tell
me to blow my nose. Feels like I’m three years old, making
a scene in day care. Honk, honk.
“You sound like a duck,” he observes. “Or maybe a
goose.”
That gets me laughing and then crying and then both at
the same time. More tissues, more honking, until finally the
tears dry up and all that’s left is the gentle laughter.
“Good,” he says. “Better?”
“Yeah, thanks.”
He fiddles with a pen, making doodles in his notebook.
Waits a beat and says, “Maybe from here on out, you could
stay by the phone, sort of guarding the home front, and I’ll
take care of the fieldwork.”
My head shakes before my response is fully formed—an
instinctive, powerful rejection of his offer. “No way. Don’t
you dare. She’s my baby, I need to be there.”
Shane nods like he expected me to object. “That’s okay,
too. You realize we have to go to Florida?”
To be honest my brain hadn’t got that far, but of course
he’s right. “So this man, this boy, whatever, he flew them to
Miami in his father’s plane? And they got in trouble there?”
“Looks that way,” Shane says. “It’s the best lead so far.
Theoretically a Beechcraft King Air 350 could make it to
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southern Florida without even a pit stop. Aircraft like that
could fly there and back in a day, easy.”
“But they didn’t make it back.”
“No indication of that, no. Evidence suggests that Seth and
your daughter have been detained in Florida. Something hap-
pened down there.”
“They were kidnapped. That’s why Seth’s father is so
scared,”
“Yes, but kidnapped for what purpose?” Shane wants to
know.
“Money. All that money makes him a target.”
“Yeah,” Shane says carefully. “But Edwin Manning has
hundreds of millions, so the big question is why hasn’t he taken
charge of the situation? Guys like that, hugely successful,
they’re alpha dog personalities. They assume they can use power
and wealth to fix just about anything, and usually they’re right.”
Hand to my chest, I say, “You trying to give me another
attack?”
“No. But you need to know what we’re facing. This isn’t
a typical abduction or extortion. And that means I have no
idea what we’re up against.”
“I thought you had a plan,” I protest, sounding plaintive.
“Oh, I do have a plan,” he says, utterly confident. “My plan
is to find your daughter.”
29. The Truth Almost
When I finally admitted I was pregnant, and failed to
name the father, Fern joked about my immaculate concep-
tion. She called me the swollen angel and talked about my
unborn child as the baby Jesus. And always it made me smile
because that was just Fern being Fern. Think of a white
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Queen Latifah except slightly taller and without the celeb-
rity diva glitches. A big beautiful woman who can enter a
room, size it up and make it her own. No matter what the
occasion, wedding, funeral, or lunch with the posse, she’s out
there, a wild girl with a wicked sense of humor. Words that
on another person’s lips would be rude or insulting are,
coming from Fern, an invitation to laugh at yourself, at her,
at the whole crazy world.
First thing she says when seeing Shane, “Get a load of Mr.
Big Hunk. So, is everything in proportion?”
“Fern! Be nice!”
“Bet you get that all the time,” she continues, ignoring me.
“Girls checking out your hands and feet, wanting to know if
the rest of you is built to the same scale. Am I right?”
“Randall Shane,” he says. “Care to shake my big hand?”
Fern takes the hand, draws him close, gives him a smooch
on the neck, which is as high as she can get on tiptoe.
“Keeper,” she says to me, with a wink. And then back at him,
“You’ll have to make the first move. Janey has the shy bug.”
“Fern, stop it.”
“She hasn’t had a date since the Clinton administration. So
here’s the deal. Help her find the kid, then I’ll treat you both
to dinner at a schmantzy bling hotel. A big juicy steak and then
big juicy you. Let nature take its course, what do you say?”
Shane chuckles, carefully disengages himself from Fern.
“You lost me at schmantzy.”
“Ha! Fat chance! So dish, darlings. What’s the haps?
Where’s Flygirl and how do we get her home? Tell me all
before I read it in the tabloids.”
The big guy gives her what I’ve come to think of as the
Randall Shane eyeball. Not an accusing kind of look, exactly.
More careful, studied, but still the sort of serious look that
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makes you not want to play him. A look that reminds you that
despite the good manners he can, under the right circum-
stances, be dangerous. “Jane warned me about you,” he says,
more or less affably. “She also said she’d trust you with her
life.”
“She said that? Janey, that’s so sweet.”
Shane bears down, insisting on serious. “She’s about to
do just that, Mrs. Cabella. Trust you with information that
could put Kelly’s life at risk. Or hers, or mine, for that
matter.”
“Mrs. Cabella?” Fern looks shocked, eyes getting bigger.
“You told him my name was Mrs. Cabella? I haven’t been Mrs.
anything since I traded Edgar for his Barcolounger, and
his
last name was Fineman. Cabella is my father’s name, so I
guess technically you could call me Mr. Cabella’s daughter,
but see, Mrs. Cabella? That’s my mother.You want a date with
my mother? She’d love you. Can’t remember her own name,
or who I am most of the time, but she always loved big,
handsome men. Janey, I ever tell you she once propositioned
Burt Lancaster in the lobby of the Waldorf? She was married
at the time, too. My aunt Nancy told me all about it, they were
having drinks in the bar and she wrote her number on a napkin
and gave it to Burt Lancaster. And you know what he did? He
thought she wanted an autograph, so he signed the napkin and
handed it back. Isn’t that a riot?You know who Burt Lancaster
was, Randall? Do you like old movies? I’m like plugged into
AMC, that’s my default channel, all day long I’m watching
these good-looking dead people. I like the noir. Can’t be too
noir for me. You know what noir is, Randall? That’s French
for ‘the bitch is going to shoot you in the end, you big dumb
moron.’”
Fern is still going when I walk her to the couch, persuade
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her to sit down. She’s always a talker. But this is something
else. Like she feels she’s made a fool of herself and has to
keep yakking to cover the embarrassment, which is really
strange because Fern doesn’t do embarrassed, it’s not part of
who she is, and then I realize, hearing her babble on about
old movie stars, that she’s nervous, maybe even frightened.
She goes dead quiet when she learns that Kelly has gone
missing in Florida and has possibly been abducted, and that
I’m leaving immediately.
“All you have to do is answer the phone,” I say. “Tell
people there was a family emergency, I’ll get back to them
in a few days. If it’s a fitting or some sort of fabric crisis that
absolutely has to be handled, Tracy can take care of it. She’s
good with nervous clients.”
“You really think Kelly has been kidnapped? Oh my God.
What do I do if the kidnappers call?”
“You tell them I’m not here, you give them my cell
number and tell them to call me. And Fern? We don’t know
for sure that she’s been kidnapped, okay? All we know for
sure is that she’s missing. No one has called to demand
anything.”
Shane and I previously agreed not to share all of our in-
formation with Fern. I desperately need her to mind the
phone, take care of business, but he’s says it’s better if she
doesn’t know about Edwin Manning, or the FBI phone tap
or the shadow investigation. No sense alerting any bad actors,
he says—cop talk for bad guys. The less she knows the less
they’ll know, if someone does call my landline and speaks
to Fern. Which makes sense. I’d trust Fern with my life, I
really would, but she does love to talk and doesn’t always
know when to stop.
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Still, it’s hard not to be completely straight with my oldest
and dearest friend. “There are things I can’t tell you right
now,” I caution her. “Are you okay with that? Can you do this
for me?”
“More secrets, Janey?”
“Not for long. All we have to do, establish what’s really
going on, then the police will take over. The police and the
FBI.”
“But don’t mention the FBI,” Shane warns her. “Not over
the phone. Very important. You don’t know where Jane is, or
what she’s doing.”
“You don’t know anything,” I urge. “You’re just answer-
ing the phone for a friend. Mostly it’ll be business calls.
Vendors and clients. Use your best judgment, make excuses,
whatever. Anybody calls about Kelly, what do you say?”
Fern shakes her head, exhales sharply. “Okay, okay, I get
it. Jane isn’t here, try her cell. Other than that I’m like Colonel
Schultz—I know nothing.”
“Perfect,” says Shane.
“Cell will be off for a couple of hours while we’re en route,
but I’ll get any messages. And I’ll call you as soon as I can.
Love you, Fern,” I say, hugging her. “You’re a lifesaver.”
“Go,” she insists, waving me away. “Find her.”
We’re heading for the door.
“I mean it about the bling hotel!” she reminds us.
Thanks to small miracles, our flight departs on time. An
added bonus, it’s only three-quarters full, so the middle seat
is empty. Shane has a real problem with his long legs, so he
takes the aisle and I snuggle up against the window, hoping
the hum of the engines will be calming. Trying not to obsess
on what might be happening to Kelly at this very minute, or
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what might already have happened to her, or if she’s suffer-
ing or terrified or just plain lost.
Too much to think about. I have to find a way to put it
aside, concentrate on the here and now, and whatever the next
step may be. Get to Miami, then worry about Kel. Once
we’re airborne and at altitude, Shane opens his laptop. No
Internet connection, but he’s downloaded what he describes
as scads of data, and he starts sorting through the files.
Catching up on paperwork, he calls it.
“Mostly I’m treading water until I can get back on the
Net,” he admits. “My advice, put your head back, close your
eyes, get some rest.You’re going to need it when we get there.”
“But you never sleep,” I say reprovingly.
“Not on a job.”
“How is that possible?”
He makes a rueful face. “Never got a satisfactory answer.
I’ve been brain scanned, studied by sleep deprivation special-
ists, checked into insomnia clinics, examined by neurologists,
shrinks, fortune-tellers, you name it.”
“Fortune-tellers? Really?”
“No,” he admits, “but the rest, yes. They never found any
organic brain disorders, nothing they can point to.”
“Sounds terrible.”
“It can be,” he admits. “The brain requires sleep—being
deprived of it can actually kill you—so when my brain
doesn’t sleep for too long it compensates by sending me into
a fugue state for short intervals.”
“Fugue state? How does that work? Do you mind my
asking?”
“No, it’s fine,” he says. “Basically I sleep with my eyes
open, but don’t know I’m asleep. I can be up, moving around,
unaware of my condition. Sort of like sleepwalking. When
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it gets really bad I tend to hallucinate. They call it wakeful
dreaming or sleep state misperception.”