The Upside of Being Let Down (new adult romance - 1) (20 page)

“
You
want...
”

“
Listen
to me,
”
I said.

I reached out and touched his leg.
My fingers slowly pulled at his shorts until I touched his bare leg. I was turned
on and I wanted Bryan to take care of it for me. I needed him right then. His
body. His movements. I needed those intense moments between us. Just one more
time.

“
I
won
’
t cheat,
”
I said.
“
So the second I leave for this date I consider
something there. Whether it lasts an hour, a year, a lifetime, I don
’
t know. But I won
’
t cheat. On anyone.
”

I swallowed and the emotion started
to catch up with me. I couldn
’
t
believe it. Staring at Bryan I felt like getting upset.

“
Good
to know,
”
Bryan whispered.

“
So,
right now, I
’
m single,
”
I said.
“
I have the intention of not being single but that
doesn
’
t matter, right? If
someone has the intention of being a doctor, are they allowed to slice someone
open and fix their body?
”

“
Your
mind is...
”

“
So,
”
I cut Bryan off.
“
I want you, right now, Bryan. I
want us together, like we did that first night I came over. Because I
’
d hate myself to not have that
one last time... especially if I fall in love with Jon.
”

“
Are
you going to fall in love with him?
”

“
Does
that matter right now?
”

“
No,
”
Bryan said.
“
No. I
’
d prefer to not even talk about it.
”

“
Good.
So, as I said, I want you to fuck me.
”

My hand moved up Bryan
’
s leg. I felt his muscle tense.
He looked down at my hand and I looked too. I felt the bottom of his boxers and
my fingers went right up there too. As I crept, I felt my body warming, aching,
wetting
. Right before I could touch him, I stopped and squeezed. Thanks
to his gym shorts his growing erection became more and more obvious.

“
Come
on,
”
I whispered.
“
We both need this. It
’
s been a messed up week.
”

Bryan nodded.
“
I need a shower first. I stink
from the gym.
”

“
That
’
s okay,
”
I said.
“
A
hot, sexy, smelly man...
”

“
No,
I need a shower.
”

Bryan slithered away. He tried to
turn to hide his hardness but that was impossible. He had a look of doubt on
his face, battling his own heart and mind.

That didn
’
t bother me.

I
’
d
give him no chance at an excuse.

I stood from the couch and took his
hand.

“
What
are you doing?
”
he asked.
“
I already told you...
”

“
It
’
s okay,
”
I said.
“
I
’
ll get in the shower with you.
”

(22)

Bryan stood in the bathroom in
shock. AJ tore at her own clothing without a care in the world. Her pants were
down and as she stepped out of them she tore her shirt over her head. Bryan had
all of a few seconds to look at AJ in her bra and panties before AJ reached
back and unsnapped her bra. She let it fall and then cupped her breasts, moving
by Bryan.

“
Kind
of need to turn the water on,
”
she teased.

Bryan nodded.

His mind raced.

He didn
’
t just want to have sex with AJ in the shower or in
the apartment right now, he wanted it all the time. What the hell was this?
Some kind of goodbye sex? Some kind of last chance sex?

Bryan watched as AJ bent over to turn
on the water. Her panty line cut at all the right spots, driving him wild. His
most basic needs and urges started to take over, forcing all rationale out of
his mind. He began to tell himself that he needed to have sex with AJ. She
wanted it. She begged him for it. More so, this could be Bryan
’
s last chance with AJ. Sex was
always good, but with AJ it was explosive. Plus, somewhere in Bryan
’
s mind he hoped that his sex
would be memorable enough that nobody else would compare to him.

AJ stood at the shower and stripped
off her panties, her back to Bryan.

He watched her strip as his
erection pressed against his pants. If he were in jeans it would have been
uncomfortable.

Once out of her panties, AJ looked
back and smiled devilishly with eyes that could kill Bryan. Eyes that could
change Bryan
’
s life
everyday he looked into them, if he ever had that chance. He knew that if
something happened between AJ and her date, she wouldn
’
t be able to live in the apartment. He wouldn
’
t be able to handle it.

“
Come
on,
”
AJ said,
“
you look ready.
”

Before Bryan could say a word, AJ
reached back and gripped Bryan over his shorts. With just one little tug, Bryan
groaned and felt ready to go. AJ laughed and stepped into the shower. That
’
s when Bryan finally had a
second to collect himself and make the final decision. Not that there was a
fair chance at making the decision since Bryan was hard and AJ was naked in the
shower.

Bryan took his shirt off and wasted
no time going for both his shorts and boxers at the same time. As he stood back
up and stepped out, fully naked, he heard a groan. He looked up and saw AJ staring
at him. He hair was soaking wet. She looked... beautiful. Bryan sighed under
his breath, his heart jumping as he looked at her.

“
Don
’
t forget something,
”
AJ said and disappeared back
into the shower.

Bryan opened the door under the
sink and took out a condom. He put it on the sink and then faced the shower.

I want you to fuck me.

He smiled.

No other girl had ever talked to
him like AJ did. She was so cool and sexy each time she said things like that.
And the truth was that the second Bryan came through the door to the apartment
and saw AJ sitting on the couch, he started to get hard. The way she had been
huddled on the corner of the couch, relaxing. The way the smell of her shampoo,
soap, and body lingered in the apartment.

Bryan tore the shower curtain open
and watched for a few seconds as the water pelted AJ
’
s naked body. She stood with her back to the water,
her head back. Her breasts were beautiful, her nipples thick and erect. She
slowly turned, teasing Bryan by moving so he saw her back instead of her front.
Then the water pounded against her chest. The rushing water creating millions
of beads running everywhere... all the places Bryan
’
s tongue wanted to be.

That
’
s
when Bryan couldn
’
t handle
it anymore.

Right or wrong meant nothing.

Whether it would be amazing or hurt
the next morning didn
’
t
matter at all.

He stepped into the shower, his
hands grabbing AJ
’
s hips.
He turned her, stared deep into her eyes, and then forced her against the tiled
wall of the shower. AJ let out a small cry and Bryan didn
’
t give her a chance to make
another sound as his lips came to hers. His kiss was aggressive and it was
meant to be aggressive. AJ moaned, moved to her toes, and opened her legs.
Bryan bent his knees, allowing himself to slide between her legs. His hands
moved up her body, following her sides. At her breasts, he cupped her,
squeezing and pressing her body tighter to the wall.

“
Oh,
”
AJ managed to growl between
their kissing.

“
What
’
s wrong?
”
Bryan asked.

“
The
wall is cold and your dick feels so good.
”

Bryan smiled. That
’
s why he started to love AJ. She
just said things. She didn
’
t
care.

Bryan opened his hands and slowly
slid them down, letting his middle fingers run along her nipples. He touched
her stomach and then moved around to her ass. He held her and pulled, walking
her back to the water as they kissed. Bryan could taste the sweetness of AJ
’
s tongue and the warmth of the
water rushing in and out of their mouths. When he tried to open his eyes, he
managed so for a second before the water rushed in, forcing him to shut his
eyes. All in all it was the hottest kiss of Bryan
’
s
life. Not that he mentally kept a journal of girls he
’
d kissed and how the kiss went... it just meant
that this moment, this kiss, this everything, he would never forget.

When AJ touched Bryan
’
s stomach, he shuddered. Her
hand turned and she made no hesitations as she hurried down to touch him. Her
fingers moved around Bryan, gripping him, stroking him. She moved with a
passionate speed and force. Bryan kept his left hand at AJ
’
s ass but allowed his right hand
to come around. He felt her hip, her leg, and then her inner thigh. He came up
and his pointer finger touched her delicate skin. With just a few quick
movements, he felt AJ
’
s
burning center opening for him, allowing him inside. Using just one finger, he
entered AJ slowly. As he did, her grip on his erection increased and Bryan
groaned.

That
’
s
when Bryan stepped back, taking AJ with him. They were out of the water now and
they could stare at each other. Bryan blinked a few times, chasing the water
away. AJ stared at him, a single water droplet on one of her left eyelashes.
Her breathing was intense as he moved his finger still, savoring AJ
’
s body. Teasing her. Enjoying
her.

And AJ did the same to Bryan.

AJ
’
s
lips quivered as she said,
“
Are
you done showering yet?
”

“
Yes,
”
Bryan said.

He was far from being done
showering but he didn
’
t
care about that right then. He grabbed AJ and forced her up. She jumped and he
caught her. Their bodies connected in the most sensual way, his thickness
resting between her legs. He wasn
’
t
inside her but just there. Bryan could feel her desire touching him. He couldn
’
t move fast enough.

He managed to turn the water off
and then carried AJ from the bathroom to the bedroom. They were soaking wet as
they crashed to the bed. Their mouths came together, their hands touching
everywhere, sliding against the wetness of their skin. He moved to his knees
and continued to kiss AJ - her lips, her neck, down to her chest, back up to
her neck - as he slid the condom on himself. He touched AJ
’
s hips, holding her, loving her,
and then came forward.

As he entered, he watched her arch
her back and cry out his name.

Never before had that happened.

Bryan put his hands to AJ
’
s back and held her there, her
back arched. He thrust deep into her and began to have her -
he began to
fuck her, just as AJ wanted him to
- and his mouth came down to her chest.
He kissed her. He licked her. His tongue teased her nipples. His mouth tasted
her breasts, sometimes gently and sometimes with enough force that AJ had to cry
out for relief.

The sex was beyond perfect and
amazing. The harder he thrust at AJ, the more she wanted and the more he wanted
to give her. They groaned, moaned, and even a few times, they growled. AJ
grabbed at Bryan
’
s arms,
squeezing tight as she thrust back at him. When Bryan matched her movements,
her nails began to dig into his arms. He could feel his skin giving way, the
pain somehow mixing with the pleasure. Bryan looked up and down AJ
’
s body, studying her features
and the way her body moved in such an orgasmic way, it brought him to the brink
of orgasm. He felt his body tightening and he tried to hold off.

“
AJ...
”

AJ put her hands to Bryan
’
s chest and pushed.

Bryan moved away just in the nick
of time. AJ hurried and sat up, coming at him with command. She put Bryan to
his back and straddled him, moving faster than Bryan had a chance to think or
even breathe. She was on top of him and then he was inside her. AJ took
control, lifting and lowering herself, with Bryan holding her sides, just below
her breasts. He guided her and thrust up when she moved up, never wanting the
feeling to end. But as AJ
’
s
body started to throb against him, Bryan knew he couldn
’
t hold it any longer. And as though AJ could read
it in his face, she lowered herself and started to kiss Bryan the second he began
to come. Her movements became slow and gentle as she fucked Bryan. They kissed
with the same passion that started in the shower. And long after Bryan finished
and long after AJ stopped moving, they continued to kiss. Bryan had his hands
around her body, holding her tight.

And Bryan didn
’
t want to let her go.

Letting AJ go literally meant
letting her go.

AJ was the one who ended the kiss.
She looked at Bryan, kissed the very tip of his nose, and smiled.

“
Now
that was hot,
”
she
whispered.

“
Just
a little,
”
Bryan said.

AJ climbed from Bryan and started
to move under the covers. Bryan saw her shivering from being wet and chilly.

“
You
can go shower now,
”
AJ
said.

“
I
have someplace better to be,
”
Bryan said and joined AJ under the covers.

They faced each other, both
lingering what to say but never speaking it.

“
Just...
just don
’
t fall in love,
”
Bryan said.

“
Why?
Jealous?
”

“
No,
”
Bryan said.
Liar.
“
I just don
’
t want to see you hurt.
”

“
Sure
you do,
”
AJ said.
“
When I
’
m hurt, I put out even easier. And the sex will be
even hotter.
”

“
Well,
if that
’
s the case...
”

AJ slapped Bryan
’
s face and held her hand there.
She moved her fingers. Their eyes connected. Bryan felt something between them,
something that could seriously be intense. Maybe it just wasn
’
t the right time in life for
intense. There was just so much spinning around them.

“
I
like you,
”
AJ said.
“
You
’
re different.
”

“
Same
to you.
”

“
Too
bad we can
’
t do this
anymore.
”

“
I
know,
”
Bryan said.
“
I
’
m
going to be hoping though that this guy is a real ass.
”

AJ moved towards Bryan and rested
her face against his neck.

“
Part
of me does too,
”
she
whispered.

Bryan
’
s
heart jumped again and he wanted to wrap his arms tight around AJ and never let
her go. But he couldn
’
t do
that. He couldn
’
t trap AJ.
All he could do was just be there... be there when she left, be there when she
got hurt, and be there when she came back.