Authors: Frances Watts
After our first
ikebana
lesson, Misaki began to treat me more as a companion than a servant. She still volunteered no information about herself, but she was always urging me to tell her about life in the valley, in the inn, to describe the beauty of the forest, and the days passed more quickly and pleasantly.
The rains were easing and we were able to spend more time in the garden, gathering material to practise
ikebana
. We had just come in from collecting willow branches by the pond one afternoon when we heard voices outside. I looked at Misaki but she had frozen in place, head cocked to one side to listen as the feet crunched over gravel, bypassing the entrance to the formal reception room and continuing on towards our quarters.
I recognised Shimizu's voice, but the other was new to me. âIt doesn't sound like Isamu,' I said, conscious of a small stab of disappointment.
âIt's not! My husband is bringing someone home. Quick, take the branches away, put everything in order.'
âA visitor!' We repeated it to each other with rising excitement as she thrust the willow branches at me to take into the garden and hurried to replace our vases and scissors in the kitchen. It was a measure of how quiet
our life was that the prospect of a visitor could send us squawking around the room like a couple of chickens. My father often had friends come to sit around the hearth, smoking pipes and drinking sake and complaining about the taxes demanded by the lord of Owari, but I had assumed it must be normal for a man of Shimizu's rank to keep his family life private.
When everything was tidied away, we both went to the reception room, where I fussed around Misaki to make sure her seam was just so, that the collar of her under-kimono was showing just the right amount, that her hem fell exactly to her ankle.
âWho could it be?' Misaki asked, even though I was the last person in the world who would know.
âI couldn't say, my lady,' I replied as the voices reached us from the entrance and we both sank to our knees.
When Lord Shimizu entered the room with a beaming man we were both sitting quietly, heads bowed.
âMisaki, this is Kuroda Taro, an old friend of mine from the domain. We were at school together. Taro, this is Misaki and her
churo
, Kasumi.'
We both touched our foreheads to the floor.
âIt's a pleasure to meet you, Taro-san,' Misaki said. âPlease sit and we'll fetch some tea.'
I kept my head bowed demurely, but looked up from beneath my lashes to examine the visitor. My first impression was of a merry face.
âThank you, Misaki-san. I'd like that.'
I rose and followed Misaki to the kitchen, where Ishi was already spooning tea leaves into an iron pot and ladling in steaming water.
âPut some
wagashi
on a plate, Kasumi.' Ishi waved her ladle at a blue-and-white plate with painted carp swimming on its surface. âTaro-san has a sweet tooth like you wouldn't believe.'
As I arranged the sweets â fashioned to look like the hydrangeas which bloomed in the rainy season, with petals made of sweet adzuki-bean paste in blue, white and purple â Misaki put two cups to match the plate on a lacquered tray.
Back in the reception room, Misaki poured tea into the cups and handed them to the men while I held out the plate of sweets.
Taro eyed them with the avarice of a greedy boy. Shimizu watched his friend indulgently, his gaze occasionally swivelling to rest with pride on his wife.
âSo you have known my husband a long time,' Misaki prompted.
Taro finished his sweet then responded, âWe practised swordsmanship together. It is a measure of Minoru's compassion that I was not injured more often.'
âYou didn't always present such an easy target as you do now,' Shimizu said, nodding at his friend's ample stomach.
âTrue, true, I have grown soft â and large.' He turned to Misaki with a look of mock regret. âWhile your husband works so hard to advance the interests of the daimyo and the domain, I prefer to focus on my studies.' He bent his head to the cup of steaming tea and inhaled. âI see you have been buying tea from Sunsyu, old friend.'
Shimizu raised his eyebrows. âImpressive.' To us he said, âTaro is a master of the tea ceremony.'
âAnd incense discrimination,' Taro added. âDon't forget that. I have a very fine nose â and by fine I mean discriminating, not pleasing to the eye. Unless you would call the snout of a fox pleasing.'
Misaki hid her laugh behind her hand.
âI think your lovely wife sees me as a figure of fun,' Taro said to Shimizu, delighted.
âI can't imagine why,' his friend responded dryly.
âAnd you, Kasumi, do you find foxes' snouts pleasing?'
With his rounded body, I thought he resembled a badger more than a lean fox, but I knew better than to say so. I merely replied, âThe fox is a form of Inari, the
kami
of tea â it seems a very suitable snout to me.'
âHa!' He gave a shout of laughter. âWell said. She has a clever tongue on her.'
âShe does indeed,' said Shimizu. âA clever tongue and clever eyes â a good protector for my Misaki.'
âIf you believe she needs protecting,' said Taro, in a way that suggested to me they had spoken of this before. He drained his cup, then rose to his feet. âWell, I won't bore you with my company any longer.'
As we all raised our voices in protest, Taro gave Shimizu a meaningful look. âIf my company is really not displeasing to you, perhaps next time you'll invite me home and it won't be necessary for me to invite myself.'
Shimizu and Misaki accompanied Taro to the gate, but I stayed where I was, thinking. So Shimizu's old friend had had to invite himself over to meet Misaki â yet Ishi was familiar with Taro's tastes, which suggested that he had not always been such an infrequent visitor. Why hadn't Taro been invited over since Lord Shimizu's
marriage to Misaki? Did this have something to do with the secret I had heard them discussing on my first night in Edo? I thought it could, though I was no closer to discovering what that secret might be.
Shrilling cicadas
As the air starts to smoulder
Sound summer's warning
As the plum rains waned and we began to feel the heat of full summer, Edo came alive with festivals â or so Isamu told us. Lord Shimizu was visiting the domain of Matsumoto, a hundred miles to the north-west, and Isamu had taken it on himself to visit us regularly in his absence.
As we sat in the coolest part of the garden one scorching afternoon, hoping to catch a wisp of breeze from the pond, Misaki asked, âWhat's going on in the city at the moment, Isamu-san?'
âWell, I saw the Sanno festival,' he began, pausing to take a sip of
amazake
, the cool sweet rice drink that was so effective for dispelling heat fatigue. âIt started at the Hie shrine. I swear, I've never seen such a procession â it was the length of your entire village, Kasumi.'
A procession as long as my village â how many people would that be? I wished I could see it with my own eyes. Sometimes it seemed that the life of a samurai lady was like that of a rock in a stream, still and quiet as the fast-moving water flowed around it. Though in a daimyo's mansion it would be a different matter, I supposed; it couldn't help but be more lively with hundreds of other women living there.
âI'll tell you what I'm really looking forward to, though,' said Isamu, leaning forwards to accept more
amazake
from the jug Misaki held. âI can't wait for the â'
âThe fireworks festival, of course!' a voice cried.
We all turned to see Kuroda Taro, and by his side Lord Shimizu.
âMinoru,' said Misaki, happiness giving her voice the musical lilt of a blackbird. âYou're home.' She bowed to him and then to Taro. âCome, Kasumi, we must fetch more cups.'
Still on my knees, I bowed before rising and hurrying after her, though I longed to hear about the fireworks festival.
Remembering Taro's fondness for sweets, I set out squares of plum wine jelly, a perfect antidote to the heat with its cool translucence.
On our return, the men were in deep conversation, their heads bent together; judging by their serious expressions, it wasn't festivals they were discussing.
When Shimizu caught sight of us he sat back abruptly and the three all seemed to make a conscious effort to resume the cheerful tone of earlier.
âSo will you be going to see the fireworks, Taro-san?' Isamu asked.
âAs often as I can,' said Taro. âThere's to be a viewing party held by Shunsho-san on the night of the first festival. It's held by Lord Kinoyoshi every year for the senior men of the domain and their wives, but since the daimyo is currently absent, Shunsho-san, who is Lord Kinoyoshi's most senior retainer, is hosting it. You'll be bringing Misaki, of course,' Taro said to his friend.
Misaki's hand stilled momentarily in the pouring of the tea, then she continued as if she hadn't heard.
âI'm not sure,' Shimizu said. âIt's possible my work will take me away from Edo again.'
âSpeaking of work . . .' Isamu stood. âI'm on guard duty tonight, so I'd better be going.'
âI'll see you out,' Misaki said. âKasumi, will you bring the tray to fetch more
amazake
?'
As Misaki and Isamu walked back to the house, I put the empty jug on the tray along with Isamu's cup and withdrew. I was hidden from the two men by a row of shrubs when I heard Taro say, âYou'll have to introduce her sometime. People are beginning to talk. They wonder if you're keeping her a prisoner here.'
âA prisoner? I'm protecting her â from idle gossip among other things.'
âThey also speculate that there's something wrong with her, that you're ashamed of her,' Taro said carefully.
My mind went immediately to the scar on Misaki's cheek; but that was invisible beneath her makeup, it could hardly be counted as a significant disfigurement.
âYou know I don't believe this nonsense,' Taro was saying. âI'm just telling you what is being said.'
âI don't care what people say. They don't know Misaki as I do.'
âExactly â because you haven't given them a chance to know her,' Taro said. âBut when they do meet her, they'll discover as I have a young woman of great beauty and charm. Though the fact that you married from outside the domain has come as a big surprise, there's no cause for shame . . .'
âShame?' Shimizu's voice was cold. âIt never occurred to me there would be a cause for shame.'
âOf course not.' Taro seemed unaffected by the hauteur in his friend's tone. âBut we've known each other for a long time, Minoru. I know something is troubling you. Something more than the tragedy.'
Tragedy? I strained forwards. What tragedy?
âI don't know what you mean.' Shimizu sounded defensive.
âIf you have a problem, won't you let me help you? Is there some trouble with Misaki? Perhaps my wife â'
âNo! Say nothing to Miri. It's just that Misaki is not . . . she's not used to company.'
âBut surely coming from the castle at Morioka she's used to a big busy house full of people. Yet here you have her secluded in a private house with only a single
churo
for company. Or â what was the word you used? â for protection. Why would you say that? Protection from whom?'
There was a long silence.
âThat's it, isn't it? She didn't come from the castle, did she?' Taro probed.
Silence.
What did he mean?
âBut how did you persuade the daimyo?'
I had really lost the thread now, but Shimizu hadn't; he seemed to know exactly what his friend was implying.
âI didn't persuade him,' he said heavily. âI lied to Lord Kinoyoshi, told him she came from a family well known to my own. My family has long had ties through marriage to the highest circles of the Morioka domain. He didn't question me.'
âOhhhh.' Taro let out a long breath. âMinoru, if this was discovered . . .'
âI know!' Shimizu said, clearly distressed. âI've behaved like a madman, I can't explain it. I have always put loyalty to my lord above everything. But after . . . you know . . .'
âI know.'
âWhen I met Misaki it seemed fated. Like â like the answer to all my questions. She has given my life new meaning.'
âI understand. You must love her very deeply. Well, she has the manners and appearance of a perfect lady. While she may not have been born a samurai, you have made her one.'
Not born a samurai?
âBut I'm afraid of exposure,' Shimizu admitted. âYou know that what I've done â marrying outside the samurai rank â is strictly forbidden. And to make matters worse, I have concealed the truth from Lord Kinoyoshi. He would be within his rights to demand my death if he knew.'
I was riveted to the spot now. I knew Misaki would be wondering what was keeping me, but I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
âAnd now that you know, old friend, my life is in your hands.'
âI am honoured by your confidence,' Taro was saying. âI will take it to the grave. Not even Miri will know.'
âIt's a hard secret to keep,' said Shimizu.
âI promise you, no one will ever guess. But your behaviour is so odd that others, like me, must be wondering why you are shielding your new wife. You should bring her to the fireworks festival and let people meet her. It's the perfect opportunity. There'll be no chance for long conversations.'
âYou might be right.'
âAnd if you ask me, a marriage such as yours is not so grievous a crime these days. Things are changing. Only in old families like ours is rank treated so seriously. In special circumstances surely a man may marry for love â and given how you have suffered . . .' Then, as if not wanting to dwell on the topic of suffering, Taro's tone grew hearty. âSo bring Misaki to the festival and join us for some fun. Tell me: when did you last have fun?'
âFun?' To my surprise, Shimizu laughed. âWhen have you ever known me to be interested in fun?'
âNever. It's always been duty first with you. That's why you feel your offence so deeply. But there's nothing wrong with fun, especially when things are so grim.'
Shimizu's voice was grave again as he answered, âYou're right about that. I don't like the way things are going politically. I fear that conflict is inevitable. I'm about to
begin some important negotiations with other domains, and I could use your help.'
His tone was ominous as he mentioned conflict, but he was talking of politics now, and politics didn't interest me; it was what Shimizu had revealed that occupied my mind as I returned to the house. This, I understood, was the big secret: Misaki wasn't from a samurai family. It was unthinkable that a high-ranking retainer of a daimyo should marry a commoner. More than unthinkable: it wasn't allowed. They had married for love, it seemed. But how had such a marriage come about? Was she from a wealthy merchant's family, perhaps? Maybe her family had bought her a position as a lady-in-waiting for one of the noble women of the Morioka domain. I imagined myself catching the eye of some rich and powerful samurai as she had. Or such a man's nephew . . . But Misaki was beautiful, I reminded myself, so beautiful that a man like Lord Shimizu would risk everything for her, and I was not.
I understood now why Shimizu had thought I would make a suitable companion for Misaki, despite my humble family and lack of training and accomplishments. His wife had grown up not among the wives and daughters of samurai of his domain but among the townsfolk of Morioka, far away in the north-east. They had concealed her background, and they couldn't risk someone from Lord Shimizu's own domain uncovering the truth; Shimizu would be ruined, and the daimyo would appear weak for allowing it â and weaker for being kept in ignorance. And if it became known that Misaki had the daughters of other retainers â girls of a higher rank â
to act as her ladies-in-waiting, it would be taken as a deep insult. Not to mention the fact that such girls would be better able than I to discern Misaki's own shortcomings as a samurai's wife. This explained Misaki's cold attitude to me at first: she was worried about revealing anything of herself for fear I would guess her secret. She might even have thought that I
had
guessed, and that I was making fun of her when I'd made such a mess of her hair that first day. When she found that I was a commoner, like her, she must have been relieved.
Misaki looked up as I entered the kitchen. âThat jug proved difficult to fetch. Did you have to chase it all around the garden?' It was the kind of thing Hana would have said, though Misaki was smiling to soften her words, which my sister wouldn't have done. I must have had a strange look on my face, though, because she asked, âKasumi? Are you all right? What's wrong?'
I opened my mouth to blurt out what I knew, then stopped, suddenly unsure. Should I tell her what I'd overheard? If she'd wanted me to know, she would have told me herself. And of course she didn't want me to know: look at how much was at stake. Lord Shimizu had, in fact, expressly told her not to reveal the truth the first night I arrived. No, I decided; I would keep my knowledge to myself.
âNothing's wrong,' I said at last. âI was watching a butterfly, but it turned out to be a moth.'
I hadn't even thought about what I was saying, but as the words left my mouth I realised that was exactly what others would think if they knew the truth. But they didn't know Misaki as I did.
âThat's a shame,' she said.
âNot at all,' I said truthfully. âI prefer moths.'
âWell, come here, Moth,' she said affectionately, âand take this plate of sweets. I'm sure Taro-san will have finished the first plate by now.'
Lord Shimizu ate at home that evening, but he said nothing about the invitation to the fireworks festival. Instead he recounted details from his journey, describing Matsumoto's castle, known as âCrow Castle' because it was predominantly black rather than white like most castles. He had also brought back some sweet bean-filled dumplings called
oyaki
for us to try, and by the time we went to bed that evening I had almost forgotten Taro's visit.
But Taro's arguments must have worked, because as we served Shimizu breakfast the next morning he announced that he and Misaki would attend the opening of the fireworks. I was sure he would have been as gratified as I was to see Misaki's face light up. Was it the thrill of fireworks, or the fact that her husband was finally drawing her into his world? It felt like things would be different now, after the long dull weeks of the plum rains. There would be events to anticipate and prepare for, then to talk about afterwards. But, as I was reminded not long after Misaki was dressed, there were still things to dread, like
ikebana
.