Shades of Gray (7 page)

CHAPTER 11

P.J.
lay sprawled on the couch, pain knifing through her body as surely as the blade had
cut into her skin. Nelson loomed over her but he was frowning. He didn’t like passive
women. He’d said as much.

Well that was fine because the drug was starting to wear off and if the asshole gave
her just a little more time, he was going to have one hell of a fight on his hands,
because she wasn’t going to lie here and take it like she’d been forced to do for
Brumley.

Rage ate at her. It was acid in her blood, eating a hole in her very soul.

There was nothing more horrific than being so helpless that she hadn’t been able to
move. She could barely speak. And it hadn’t been enough for the bastard to rape her.
He’d gotten off on making her bleed.

The smell of her own blood gagged her. It was an assault to her senses. Smeared all
over the front of her body where he made the jagged cuts. He hadn’t minded the mess.
He’d wallowed in it like a gluttonous pig.

Nelson left the room and P.J. immediately tested her ability to move. Some of the
lead had left her limbs and she could move both arms and legs. She looked around for
something, anything, she could use as a weapon. She wasn’t strong enough to get off
the couch yet, but she could make the bastard sorry he’d ever touched her.

To her utter shock, the knife that Brumley had used on her was on the coffee table
just a few inches from her grasp. She leaned as far as she could, straining and reaching
for the blade.

She bumped it, sending it into a slight spin. Swearing mentally, she tried again,
wincing when the edge sliced into her fingers. It was a small price to pay for pulling
it closer.

She turned it so she could grasp the hilt and then she took it, transferring it to
the hand closest to the inside of the couch, and then tucked her hand between the
back of the couch and her side.

Nelson returned a moment later with a damp cloth and set about cleaning the smeared
blood. He frowned when he realized she was still bleeding from the cuts.

He looked . . . pissed.

“There was no point in this,” he muttered. “No need to cut you at all, much less so
deep. You need stitches.”

An odd thing to say when he planned to kill her. What the fuck did it matter if she
was sliced open?

“Please,” she rasped out, trying to buy more time. “I’m just an American college student.
I was out for a good time. I don’t even know who you are. I just want to go home.
No one will ever know.”

Nelson’s lips thinned into a firm line. “I have orders.”

He wiped at most of the blood and then finally gave up. He rose, and she was appalled
to see the bulge at his groin. Despite his seeming disgust, he was certainly turned
on, blood or not.

“I wanted you to be able to fight,” he said in irritation. “It’s not fun when you
just lie there.”

Come get some, bastard. You’ll get your fight.

He unzipped his pants, not even bothering to remove them. He shoved them down his
hips and then he yanked her legs apart and was on her and inside her in a brutally
painful thrust that momentarily paralyzed her in her shock.

“Come on, bitch, fight me,” he snarled.

“Be careful what you ask for, asshole,” she hissed.

His eyes widened in surprise just as she nailed him right in the jaw with enough force
to break it. Pain lanced through her fingers, but she ignored it. Then she raised
the hand holding the knife and plunged it into his back.

He howled in pain and immediately rolled off her, ripping himself from inside her.
She struggled upward, fighting the effects of the drugs. Her weapon was gone and now
it was up to her wits to escape alive.

And then the roar of an engine and bright headlights flooded the entire living room.
It was obvious that whatever it was, it was coming straight for them.

Nelson scrambled away and bolted for the back, his hand reaching for the knife as
he went. The knife clattered to the floor and P.J. lunged for it, prepared to defend
herself however necessary.

A moment later the living room exploded in glass and debris as a utility van crashed
through the front windows. She threw herself onto the floor and covered her head to
protect herself.

“P.J.! P.J.! Goddamn it, where are you?” Cole roared.

She sagged in relief, her strength gone. Her team. It was her team. Finally here.
She was safe. Nothing else would hurt her.

Suddenly Steele was over her, his eyes so intense and full of hatred that she flinched.

“He escaped out the back,” she said hoarsely. “He’s bleeding. Don’t let him get away.
Don’t let that bastard get away.”

Steele turned and barked to the others. “Stay with P.J. Van and I are going after
Nelson.”

Steele moved beyond her, Donovan on his heels. And then she found herself carefully
enfolded in a strong pair of arms.

Cole.

She’d know him anywhere. Could smell him.

She buried her face in his chest as shame crashed over her.

“P.J., P.J., sweetheart. Oh my God, baby. Oh my God.”

It seemed to be all he could say as he rocked her back and forth, his heart beating
like a drum against her broken body.

“I’m so sorry,” he said brokenly. “I’m so damn sorry.”

Pain screamed through her system and she let out a whimper she could no longer call
back. Now that she was safe, her barriers were down. The adrenaline rush was gone.
She had nothing, no buffers to what had happened. She’d been raped by two men and
sliced open like some piece of meat.

Where was there for her to go? To hide? They would all see her. Her shame. And know
that she hadn’t been able to prevent what had happened.

She wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

“I’ve got you,” Cole whispered, his voice choked. It sounded like he had tears, but
she was nearly unconscious now.

“Blood. All over you,” she managed to whisper.

“I don’t give a fuck,” he said fiercely. “I’m getting you the hell out of here. You
need medical attention.”

She shook her head, trying to grasp his shirt to gain his attention. But there was
something wrong with one of her hands, and in the other she still gripped the knife
she’d plunged into Nelson’s back.

Cole gently took hold of her hand and pried the knife away, closing it with a click.

“No!” she protested.

She struggled, trying to reach for the knife again. She wanted it, damn it.

Cole pressed the closed knife into her palm in an effort to soothe her and she gripped
it until it left indentations in her skin.

She had to remain conscious. This was too important. It could mean her life. It could
mean the lives of those baby girls. She would do anything to spare them what she’d
endured, and they’d fair much worse. They didn’t have her team. They had no one. She
had to save them or her very soul had been sacrificed for nothing.

“P.J. Ah hell, P.J. Talk to us. Don’t go out. Not yet. Come on.”

It was Dolphin. He’d hunkered down next to Cole. And Baker. She could hear him and
Renshaw arguing over who stayed and who went to help Steele and Donovan go after the
bastard who did this to her.

She smiled faintly, so in shock that it seemed appropriate to smile even amid all
the blood and horror of what had happened.

But then she refocused and remembered the objective. She reached for Cole’s shirt,
shocked at how weak she was. Her fingers wouldn’t curl and she ended up flailing uselessly
at his neck.

He captured her hand and held it to his lips. He quivered beneath her touch and she
realized how hard he was shaking. He was losing it. Right here in front of everyone.

“The girls,” she said, rousing every ounce of her flagging strength. “He mentioned
them. Said the pickup was tomorrow night.”

“I know, baby. We heard. We heard every goddamn thing,” he said in a tortured voice.

It was a reminder, a slap to her face. Yeah, she knew they’d heard, but his words
just brought home how public her humiliation had been.

“Have to save them.”

Tears of pain crowded her vision, and she hated that she couldn’t be stronger. She
hated that these sons of bitches had managed to subdue her and force her to submit
to their depravities.

She was fading fast, and she had to make sure those girls would be taken care of.
If she didn’t, she’d see their faces right alongside the faces of her rapists every
night in her dreams.

“Promise you’ll save them,” she whispered. “Promise me. No matter what happens to
me. You can’t let this happen to them. They’re just babies. So scared.”

She choked off before she said, “like I was.” But she knew they’d heard the unspoken
words. Could hear them in her tone.

A loud clatter from the direction where Donovan and Steele had run made her teammates
draw their weapons and surround her. Cole’s grip tightened on her and then Donovan
was there, pressing in close.

“Talk to me, P.J.,” Donovan said in a low voice. “How are you, sweetheart?”

“C-cold.” She turned her face upward, her head so heavy she could barely manage the
feat.

He all but pushed Cole out of the way and took P.J. into his own arms, lowering her
to the floor.

“Get me something to wrap around her,” he ordered.

“What about the cuts?” Cole asked hoarsely.

P.J. struggled not to succumb to the blackness surrounding her. “Where’s Nelson? Did
you get the bastard?”

She’d never forget the look on Donovan’s face as long as she lived. It was full of
regret, rage and guilt.

“He escaped. He had a car parked behind the house, and our first priority is you.
We’ll find him, P.J. I swear to you we’ll make that son of a bitch pay.”

She closed her eyes, tears leaking down her cheeks in hot trails.

“We’ll get you to the hospital,” Donovan said. “You won’t hurt much longer.”

He was wrong. So very wrong. She couldn’t imagine ever not hurting. Some hurts were
so deep, beneath the skin. Soul deep.

“Not here. Take me home. He owns this city. I don’t trust anyone here. Just take me
home and find those girls.”

Cole leaned down as Donovan carefully arranged a blanket over her body. He smoothed
her hair back and kissed her brow. “I’ll do whatever you want, P.J. Whatever you need,
baby. I swear it.”

Steele knelt and framed her face in his strong hands. His blue eyes bore into her
with burning intensity.

“We’ll get the girls, P.J. But right now we’re going to take care of you.”

She nodded weakly and closed her eyes, welcoming the yawning abyss where she floated
free of pain and shame.

CHAPTER 12

THEY
bundled P.J. into the back of the van, and Baker hopped into the driver’s seat while
Cole and Donovan took positions by P.J.

Cole managed to pry the knife from her fingers without her protest this time, but
he pocketed it because she’d been adamant about keeping it. Then he closed his hand
around hers, unwilling to let her think even for a moment that he wasn’t right here,
by her side. That her entire team wasn’t surrounding her.

“What do you think, Van?” Cole asked, trying to control the anxiety in his voice.
“That bastard cut her up pretty bad. She’s lost a lot of blood, not to mention that
he . . .”

He closed his eyes and looked away, unable to say the word
rape
. The bastards had raped her. They’d put their hands on her. They’d
brutalized
her. And he hadn’t been able to do a damn thing about it.

“I want to get her to the airfield,” Donovan said grimly. “The sooner we get her loaded
and take off, the better. I’ll work on her while we’re in the air.”

“What about Sunday? What about those girls?”

“As soon as P.J. is stable, I’m putting a call in to Sam. He’ll have to call in Rio
and his team. They’ll have to be briefed so they know what they’re up against.”

“I want those bastards,” Cole said through gritted teeth.

Donovan leveled a stare at him as they raced down the highway. “Make a choice, Cole.
I won’t stop you. But you have to choose. You going to stay with P.J. or are you going
in with the others?”

Put that way, it wasn’t even a choice. He belonged at P.J.’s side. He’d never want
her to feel like her team had abandoned her. He didn’t want her to think
he’d
abandoned her.

Rio and Sam would exact justice. P.J. needed him.

“I’m not leaving her,” Cole said.

From the seat just in front of them, Dolphin and Steele leaned over the top, closely
monitoring the conversation.

“None of us are leaving her,” Steele said tightly.

“Hell no,” Dolphin muttered.

“We live as a team and we die as a team,” Steele said. “I want to go kick the living
shit out of those assholes too, but P.J. needs us more than we need revenge. We’ll
leave it to others in KGI to get justice for one of our own.”

Donovan barked up to Baker, “ETA?”

“Two minutes. Pilot is on standby.”

On time, the van pulled onto the dirt road to the airstrip on the periphery of the
city. It was a regional airport, mostly used for cargo, and wasn’t a hub for passengers.

The plane was parked at an angle, ready to roll onto the runway. Baker roared onto
the paved tarmac and slammed on the brakes.

The team sprang into action, opening the cargo doors to the van and making sure the
hatch to the jet was open.

Donovan started to reach for P.J., but Cole brushed him off and gently gathered her
in his arms, careful to keep the blanket around her to shield her nudity.

He hurried to the plane, carrying her up the three steps into the cabin.

“Bring her to the back and lay her on the couch,” Donovan said. “I’ll get my med pack,
give her something for pain and then see what I can do to suture the cuts until we
get her to a hospital. Tell the pilot to get us off the ground.”

To Steele, he gave a terse order. “Get on the horn with Sam and fill him in. Rio and
his team need to be here in twenty-four hours and in position to intercept the shipment
of girls.”

Cole bore his precious burden to the back of the plane and gently arranged her on
the sofa so that she was shielded from the view of others.

The slashes to her body were horrifying. Two were deep and the flesh lay raggedly
open. One carved a path down her midline between her breasts. There were two just
underneath her breasts and one across her flat, muscled belly. And another two on
the insides of her thighs.

The son of a bitch had carved her up and then forced himself on her because that’s
how he got his rocks off.

“Damn,” Donovan murmured.

Cole focused on Donovan, trying to calm his fury. Donovan was holding P.J.’s right
hand. It was swollen and bruised. Cole hadn’t noticed because it had been her left
hand he’d clung to as they’d raced for the airport.

“Looks like she broke it,” Donovan said grimly.

He turned it over carefully in his palm and examined the swelling before returning
it to her side.

Dolphin brought back the med pack and then took a seat across from the couch, his
eyes burning with concern.

“Is she going to be all right, Van? How bad is it? Level with us. We’re going crazy
up there.”

Donovan took in a deep breath. “Physically? She’s going to be okay. Eventually. The
cuts are bad but not life threatening. Emotionally? I can’t say. What she went through
was horrific. P.J.’s strong, but I don’t know of any woman who can escape what she
suffered unscathed.”

Cole scrubbed his hands over his face and then through his hair. “This shouldn’t have
happened. I should never have let it happen. Goddamn it, I knew it was wrong. My gut
was screaming at me that it was all wrong, and I let her walk into that situation.”

Donovan sighed. “It was her decision, Cole. You can’t make those for her. It was a
team decision.”

“It was bullshit,” Cole spat. “It was a coward’s move, using a woman to draw out a
monster. There was another way. There’s always another way, but we were too anxious
and lazy to find it.”

“Try telling that to the mothers of the girls we’ll send home,” Dolphin said quietly.
“And then ask P.J. if she thinks it was worth it. Knowing her as I do, I know which
way she’ll go. Do you?”

Donovan gave P.J. an injection of pain medication and then numbed the area around
her wounds. Afterward he began the meticulous task of stitching the wounds closed.

“This is beyond my scope,” he admitted. “There is tissue damage that needs to be repaired,
but my main concern is to get the wounds closed so infection doesn’t set in.”

He checked the pulse in her injured wrist and then did another perusal of the swelling.
Then he wrapped an ice pack around it and secured it so she couldn’t move it if she
awakened.

Steele ducked into the back. “How is she?”

Donovan’s shoulders heaved. “I’ve patched her up. She needs care more advanced than
I can provide, but she’ll do until we get to Fort Campbell. Have you gotten us clearance
to land there instead of Henry County? Will sure as hell save us some time.”

Steele nodded. “Sam’s getting it worked out now. They’re pretty pissed and they want
blood. He’s called up Rio and his team. This could get messy. I told him we were staying
with P.J. unless he absolutely needed us. I don’t want to leave her, but I don’t want
any member of KGI getting killed either.”

Cole studied his team leader for a long moment. Steele wasn’t much of a talker. He
rarely volunteered more than a terse order or a very cut-and-dried summary of a situation.

But this had shaken that legendary composure of his and melted some of the rigid ice
that seemed to encase him. Anger—no,
fury
—burned in his eyes, making them colder than ever. His jaw was set in a permanent
bulge, and he looked like he wanted to physically put his hands on someone—anyone—and
make them suffer a long, painful death.

But then Steele was all about the team. The team was it for him. He lived it, breathed
it. He performed his duties, and he’d never failed in a mission.

Until now.

It was a weight they all had to bear. They weren’t used to failing. They always did
whatever it took and they accomplished their goal.

Well, they’d accomplished what they set out to do, but one of their own had paid a
very dear price, and for Cole, that was unacceptable. It was an epic fail on their
part that they couldn’t keep P.J. from harm and succeed in their mission.

It was a truth they’d all have to confront, live with and deal with in their own way,
but Cole knew his team and he knew this weighed heavy on their minds and would for
a long damn time.

* * *

WHEN
they landed at Fort Campbell, they were met by Sam and Garrett along with the base
commander who’d given permission for the jet to land. A medical team hurried in with
a stretcher, and P.J. was loaded and quickly hustled away.

Cole put up a fight when they wouldn’t allow him in the transport with P.J. She was
still out. Donovan had kept her medicated during the flight so she’d be pain free,
but Cole didn’t want her to wake up and feel like she was back in that nightmare.

Dolphin, Baker and Renshaw restrained him, pushing him back against one of the vehicles
parked nearby.

Sam and Garrett both wore fierce expressions.

“What the fuck happened, Steele? What went wrong?” Sam demanded.

Steele’s demeanor was normal for him. Cold and formidable. But his eyes told another
story. Usually cool, icy even, they blazed with a fury Cole hadn’t seen in all the
time he’d worked for his team leader.

Steele met Sam’s gaze unflinchingly. “I failed my team.”

Garrett swore. “Bullshit.” He glanced around at all the members of Steele’s team,
almost as if he could see the same thought in all their heads. “Look, I get that you’re
all feeling shitty over this but you can’t get so down on yourselves. We need facts.
Not guilt.”

Steele’s lip curled but he gave the report, not leaving a single detail out. Cole
closed his eyes as Steele repeated what Brumley and Nelson had done to P.J. The rest
of the team stood stiffly. Dolphin looked down as if he didn’t want anyone to see
his eyes or expression.

Cole just wanted to get all the chitchat over with so he could go to P.J.

“Son of a bitch,” Sam swore, closing his eyes momentarily.

“What are you doing for the shipment of girls?” Steele demanded. “We belong here,
with P.J. She needs her team right now.”

“Rio and his team are already en route, and Nathan, Joe and Swanny are meeting them
in Vienna. They’ve been briefed. Resnick wants Brumley alive, and he might very well
get him that way, but after Rio and his team heard what the son of a bitch did to
P.J., I think he may be missing a few body parts when he’s delivered.”

Cole curled his hand into a fist. He wanted to be there when Brumley was taken down.
He wanted it badly. He’d never wanted to hurt someone as much as he wanted to make
Brumley pay.

He’d killed people when he was a SEAL and then in his time with KGI. He was a sniper.
It was his job to take people out effectively. Quickly. Quietly. But it had never
been personal. He did his job without emotion because it was what he was paid to do.
The people he dispatched were the bad guys. He didn’t need to justify his actions,
but the world was a better place without the people KGI went up against.

But with Brumley, rage was a living, breathing fireball inside him. Cole wanted to
make him suffer many times over what he’d made P.J. suffer.

“If everyone’s been briefed then can we get on with this and get back to P.J.?” Cole
snapped.

“Hooyah,” Dolphin said, his lips thin.

Even Steele looked impatiently at Sam and Garrett.

“Yeah, let’s go,” Sam said, motioning toward the two parked SUVs.