Secrets (Swept Saga) (12 page)

I don’t know what it was about it, but having him feed me and feeding him was turning me on. It could be the memories that I have of this place, the way the sparkling moonlight played off the water, or the fact that Ryan was overly sweet, but I wanted him. I wanted to make a new memory in this spot and some part of me wanted to compare experiences between him and Gabriel.

I leaned into Ryan and kissed him passionately. He responded to my kiss with desperation, I could tell he wanted me too. He held me tight and kissed my neck and I felt his hand grasp my breast. I moaned with desire. He pulled at my shirt and managed to get it off. He put his head between my boobs and kissed the tops of each one. He reached around and unhooked my bra. He sucked on one nipple while he rubbed the other. I felt like I was ready to attack him, but I held off. I’ve learned over the past weeks that Ryan was really good at building me up. The orgasms that I had with him were powerful and earth shattering. Gabriel could make me come, but there wasn’t the same intensity.

Ryan pulled his shirt off and I traced my fingers down his rock hard body. If Ryan had never told me how he felt about me, this would not be happening right now. I was really starting to enjoy having Ryan as my boyfriend and I’ve developed a new appreciation for him. Ryan kissed me, and then asked me to stand up. I did as he asked. He moved the basket off the blanket and led me through the grass to the tree line. He spread the blanket and asked me to lie down. He pulled what appeared to be a rope out of the basket and asked me to raise my arms above my head. He tied my hands, the rope was soft and the knots were firm, but not overly tight, and knot the other end to a tree.

I laid there with my arms stretched above my head, and Ryan put a blindfold over my eyes. I couldn’t see anything and I felt excited by the anticipation. I waited to feel his touch, my senses felt heightened as I waited in what seemed like agony. I felt Ryan’s hands reach for the top of my pants and I gasped as he pulled them down. I felt Ryan’s lips on mine and he kissed me fervently and his hand traced down my body and cupped my pussy. I exhaled as he rubbed my clit and pushed his fingers inside. I wanted to reach out and touch him as he stroked me with his fingers, but I couldn’t.

I moved my hips urging him for more. He sucked tenderly on each breast, and then he kissed further down. Ryan was unusually quiet, and didn’t command me at all. Apart from being blinded and tied to a tree, Ryan was being very sweet and tender. I felt Ryan’s mouth encompass my pussy and he put a finger to my lips. “Taste.” He said and I sucked his finger, enjoying my sweet and salty taste. I drew a sharp intake of breath as Ryan sucked and nipped at my clit. His tongue licked me and I moaned. He lifted my ass in the air and buried his face into my pussy. I moaned again and heard an echo, and I found I liked the sound of my own voice repeated back at me.

Ryan eased me down after a few more pleasurable minutes, and I listened to the silence fill the air. I didn’t sense Ryan near me and I wondered when he was going to surprise me. Suddenly I felt two hands on my hips, they flipped me over and he assaulted my pussy with his fat cock. I let out a surprised squeal and Ryan smacked my ass and slammed into me. His hand reached around and stroked my clit. My breathing became rapid and turned into moans, and as I built they turned into screams, that I heard repeated. My body reached a fever pitch, I couldn’t take it anymore, and I shattered into a million pieces. My body tingled as I recovered, and Ryan lay down next to me. I lay on my side and Ryan traced a finger over the curve of my hip. I turned to him and kissed him, and he sucked my lower lip into his mouth and bit it. I couldn’t believe the kind of connection we have.

Ryan took the blindfold off my face, and untied the ropes around my wrists. He handed me my clothes and I got dressed. “Ryan, you’re amazing.” I praised breaking the silence. “I doubt I would be this amazing if it wasn’t for you.” Ryan said and pulled up his pants.

Once we’re dressed I helped him fold the blanket and we walked hand in hand to his car. He drove me back to my dorm and we shared longing looks at each other. I feel a deeper connection with him that I didn’t feel before. When he dropped me off for the night, I realized that I missed him and wished he could stay over with me.
What is happening to me?
I asked myself. I wanted to be with him and I wanted to feel him next to me. I wanted him to share my experiences with him.
Is this love?
  I didn’t want to admit it. The last time I thought I was in love it didn’t end well, and what about Gabriel? I felt close to him, too. Why is it that I feel so confused about those two? I entered my dorm and Tiffany was sitting on the couch with another movie on and to my surprise, Gabriel was sitting there with her.

Their heads turned, as I enter and Gabriel stood up, “Were you out with Ryan?” He asked.

“Yeah, he wanted to take me out to celebrate my grades.” I answered.

“Why didn’t you tell me Gabriel is so handsome, no wonder Emily is after you.” Tiffany said throwing the conversation off subject and I realized this is the first time she’s met him. “What brings you here?” I asked him and ignored Tiffany for the moment.

“I wanted to see you.” He said and I smiled at him. He was thinking about me and came to see me? How sweet. Maybe he would stay the night with me.

“I’m glad you came.” I said and gave him a hug. Gabriel hugged me back and stole a kiss. I couldn’t help but giggle.

“I see you’ve met Tiffany.” I said when he released me.

“He’s quiet, this one. I don’t know how you ever got him to open up; he’s barely said anything to me all night.” Tiffany smiled at me.

“I was watching the movie.” Gabriel said clearing his throat.

“What movie?” I asked, unsure if I really wanted to know.

“Troll Two,” Tiffany answered.

“What is it about?” I asked.

“It’s hard to explain, but it’s one of the worst horror movies ever made.” She answered.

“It’s funny.” Gabriel added.

“So, it’s not scary?” I asked.

“No.” They said in unison.

I picked up my box of chocolates, and looked at Gabriel and Kelly. “I’m going to put these in my room.” I walked to my room and Gabriel followed me.

“I’ve missed you.” He said as he closed the door behind me and wrapped his arms around me. I sat the box down, turned around and hugged Gabriel. He smelled so good. “I’ve missed you, too.”

Gabriel kissed me and I kissed him back. He really was a great kisser, possibly better than Ryan. Gabriel continued to kiss me and I felt his hand creep up my shirt and I pulled away. “I need a shower,” I said breathless.

“Is something wrong?” Gabriel asked. He wasn’t used to me saying no.

“No, I just want to clean up.” I said and gave him a peck on the cheek. I grabbed my shower bag; found some pajamas and headed out the door, leaving Gabriel on my bed.

I hurried into a shower. I didn’t want to take too long and have Gabriel get bored. I ducked my head under the water and let it soak me. When I open my eyes Gabriel was standing in front of me, naked. I jumped and squealed in surprise. “How did you get in here?” I asked

“I opened the door and walked in.”

“Very funny, how did you get in here without anyone seeing you?”

“I was very quiet and very sneaky” He said and pulled me in for a kiss. I ran my fingers through his hair and we both let the water run over our bodies. Gabriel grabbed a bar of soap, lathered up and washed my breasts. He rolled my nipples between his thumb and finger. Then he washed my tummy and reached down to my pussy.

He turned me around and let the soap rinse off my body. I turned around, grabbed the soap and lathered up, and began washing his chest first and slowly worked my way down to his cock. I stoked it again and again, making sure that it is squeaky clean, and fully aroused. I reached to his balls and paid extra attention to them as well.

I looked up at Gabriel and we kissed a kiss that burned with passion and desire. I turned away and let Gabriel rinse off in the water. Once the suds were gone Gabriel turned around and kissed me again. He backed me into the wall and pinned me there. His mouth moved from my lips to my breasts and he kissed and sucked each one and found my mouth again.

I moved my hand down to his cock and I wrapped my hand around his shaft and stroked. I tightened my grip when I got the desired effect of his breath getting shallow. His kisses became more fervent and I felt his hand reach down and he stroked my clit. I moan as his fingers entered me. I became desperate to feel him inside of me and I move my hips closer to his penis.

He got the hint and reached down and picked up my legs and penetrated me. He pushed me hard against the wall and began to thrust. I stabilized myself by holding onto his shoulders. He kept going, speeding up until I was calling his name. He slowly dropped me down, and I look at his hard cock. It was only fair that I return the favor, so I dropped to my knees and licked the tip of his penis before I opened my mouth and sucked.

I bobbed, and swirled my tongue, picking up speed until he grunted and came in my mouth. Gabriel and I spent the rest of the shower, bathing and kissing. By the time we were done every nook and cranny was exceptionally clean. I dried off, put my clothes on and handed Gabriel my towel. He didn’t have anything to wear except his clothes that were lying on the floor. He wrapped the towel around his waist, picked up his clothes and followed me out of the bathroom and into my dorm.

I didn’t see Tiffany, and Gabriel followed me to my bed. We fell asleep in each other’s arms where I felt warm, safe and loved.

I woke up refreshed, and Gabriel was lying next to me. I watched his chest rise and fall with each breath he took. He looked so beautiful, like a Michelangelo sculpture. How is it that this guy wants me? He seems so sweet and so kind and I’m not near as impressive as he is. I wonder if he’ll always care about me the way he does or if he’ll find someone else. I let my mind explore that thought for a moment. He tells me he’s in love with someone else, and he’s leaving me never to be heard from again. My breath catches in my throat. No more rides with Gabriel, I won’t learn new things with him, I won’t be with him physically, and he won’t be around to talk to. I feel panicked when I think about him not being in my life. I’ve gotten used to him and I rely on him for his advice, friendship and companionship. He’s challenged me and taught me so much. If it weren’t for him I wouldn’t have done half the things I have. If it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be here right now at Bates. I’m not even sure if I would be with Ryan if it weren’t for him. I would exist in a reality that seems so foreign to me. I took a deep breath and pushed all those thoughts away. I have Gabriel right here right now, and I fully intend to enjoy the moment. I lightly kissed his forehead and jumped out of bed. I’m going to make breakfast.

I entered the kitchenette, and looked through the mini fridge for food. I found some eggs, sausage and bread. I pulled them out, and set them on the counter. I heard a door open and turned to see who’s up. Tiffany yawned, stretched and walked towards me.

“What are you doing?” She asked, rubbing her eyes.

“I’m making breakfast.”

“Since when do you make breakfast?” She asked in disbelief.

“Since Gabriel stayed the night.”

“How do you do it?”

“Well, I toast the bread, crack the eggs open and fry them, and heat up the sausage.”

“No, not make breakfast. I know how that’s done. How do you juggle Ryan and Gabriel?”

“Well it helps that Gabriel knows about Ryan.” I shrugged.

“If I were in your position, I would be stressed out. I just don’t understand how you can be with both and not prefer one over the other.”

“I like both of them.” I shrugged again. “I do stress out about it, Ryan would be furious if he knew about Gabriel, but I can’t decide between them. Ryan has been my friend since I was in grade school, and Gabriel? Well he challenges me to take risks and do things I would never do on my own.”

“Sounds to me like you do prefer one over the other.”

“Really? Which one do you think I like more?”

“Gabriel.” She said simply.

“Why do you think that?”

“You smiled when you talked about him and your tone of voice changed as well. I wouldn’t be surprised if you’re actually in love with him.”

“Me? In love with Gabriel? I don’t know about that. I’ve only known him a month, maybe two? I feel like I need to know him better.”

“What would you like to know about me?” I heard Gabriel ask and I spun around.

“Um-I-um” I stammered, caught off guard.

“She’s in love with you, Gabriel and she doesn’t want to admit it.” Tiffany said with a big smile.

“Is she now?” Gabriel asked.

I could feel my face turning bright red, and I wanted to disappear. I wasn’t planning on this conversation happening. In fact this whole scenario was completely unexpected. I wanted to make Gabriel breakfast and have it in bed together, and maybe fool around a little. I guess that’s gone out the window now. I turned around and tried to concentrate on cooking the eggs. The toaster dinged and I flipped the eggs in the skillet.

“As far as I can tell, she loves you,” Tiffany said, grabbed a slice of toast and walked into her room, her door thudded.