Second Chances (11 page)

Luke did something to me when he kissed me and made me feel things I loved
but was scared to feel. He turned me on so much. He was a very skillful kisser
and made it so erotic and luring. I could seriously kiss him all day and it
still wouldn’t be enough. Before I knew what I was doing I shifted forward on
his lap getting closer and I felt his excitement growing beneath me. He was
turned on as much as I was and this time it was him to moan against my mouth.
“Baby, stop moving you’re killing me here.” I lightly laughed and grinded on him
again a little more forceful this time as I brought my hands down his chest and
went straight to his stomach. I took my fingertips and ran them just under the
hem of his shirt across his waist. He gasped and pulled back to look at me but
I pulled him back to me with one hand on the back of his neck. After holding
him there for a moment I brought my second hand back to meet his waist. My kiss
deepened and I rotated my hips so I could once again feel how aroused he was. I
started to unbutton his pants and he grabbed my hands, “
Zoey
not like this we need to stop okay.” I looked at him trying to hide the hurt
and embarrassment. I slid off his lap but he kept his hands on my waist as he
turned with me. “I’m sorry I just thought you were attracted to me.” I looked
down to my hands in my lap as I knotted them and then I slowly got up. He
followed right behind me, “Are you kidding me right now
Zoey
?
Not attracted to you, that must be a joke. Of course I am attracted to you.
It’s just I know this isn’t what you want right now. The timing isn’t right.
You’re upset about Whitney and you think this is what I want…what you have to…”
I turned to face him. “You think that I’m throwing myself at you because of
Whitney? That I really think that little of myself that I have to have sex with
you to feel important. Wow Luke thanks.” I walked passed him to go to my car
and he followed right behind me, “Baby listen I didn’t mean that how it
sounded. Please don’t leave let’s talk
Zoey
.” I just
got into my car started it and drove away. Yeah shutting down and blocking
people out was the way I handled things. The thing was I was so embarrassed
that I just needed to get away. He was kind of right I was bothered by Whitney
and her comments from earlier.

My phone rang a couple times but I just let go to voicemail. I walked in
upset and my mom was on the couch. She saw my face and I turned away heading
toward my room. Following me she stood at the bottom of the
stairs
,“
Zoey
I know right now you think you hate me.
I can’t say that I blame you. I have made a lot of wrong decisions over the
last year. You can hate me for every single thing I have done wrong honey...but
I love you very much and I don’t like not being able to talk to you. I told
Bruce I couldn’t see him anymore. My relationship with my daughter means more
to me. I can’t lose you
Zoey
. I can’t! Please don’t
shut me out. Let me be here for you…please.” I turned to her as the tears kept
rolling down my cheeks and I sat on the top step placing my head into my hands
and I cried. She came up to sit next to me still not touching me. I raised my
head after a moment and without looking at her, “I just threw myself at Luke.”
I heard her breath in quickly as she held her breath waiting for me to
continue. “He shot me down. He told me I wasn’t ready for that yet. I am so
embarrassed because he’s right and the only reason I did it was because his
ex-whatever you want to call her made me feel like I had to have sex with him
to keep him. Then I got mad at him and ran off.” She placed her hand on my
shoulder and I fell into her allowing her to hold me as I cried.

The doorbell rang startling me, “That has to be him. I c-can’t see him
right now I h-have to calm down,” still stuttering from my cry. “I will go
stall him for a few moments. Go splash some cold water on your face and then
come down.” I stood and went off to the bathroom. “Mom, Be nice please. He is a
good guy.” She smiled back at me at said, “Well for him not taking advantage of
you in a vulnerable state gives him some real bonus points with me. I’ll go
light on him.” She winked as she walked away. I knew my mother and I still had
a very long way to go and I was sure it was going to get worse before it got
better once we started talking about what she did to my daddy.

*Luke*

Making out with
Zoey
was great…more than great
it was amazing. She made me feel like I was on fire. I know that she is
bothered by Whitney I could tell something was going on and when Sophia let it
out well the puzzle was solved. I knew that
Zoey
wouldn’t throw herself at me like she did without feeling insecure about us.
She has been through a lot lately. I just had to stop it. I care for her to
much to let her have regrets tomorrow about us. It was extremely difficult
because she felt so good but it was the right thing to do and now here I stand
on her front porch trying to fix this. I felt sick. I really hated when we
argued or whatever this is. I heard the door handle and when the door came
opened I expected
Zoey
. I saw a picture of her mom
once when she showed me a photo she had in her purse. This was definitely her
mom, “Good Evening ma’am I was wondering if I could speak with
Zoey
?” She laughed and at once I felt extremely nervous.
Was she laughing because there was no way in hell she was going to let the
college guy that her daughter spent an entire weekend with without her
knowledge into her home? I swallowed hard and I was trying to stay calm. “First
of all, don’t call me ma’am I’m not my mother my name is Grace and second of
all if I let you in do you promise that you won’t be making my daughter cry?” I
just nodded my head I was feeling a little sick to my stomach. I am not one
that usually gets intimidated by woman but this particular one really makes my
stomach tighten and my palms sweaty. I stepped in and stopped just at the edge
of the table then turned to face her “I am so sorry that I made
Zoey
cry. I never intended to... I just well we just um…” I
wasn’t sure how to tell her mom that we were making out and things started to
go a little further than I knew they should. “
It’s
okay, Luke is it?” I nodded to her “My daughter told me what happened and I
have to say I can’t bring myself to continue on with the opinion I had already
formed of you. I mean what mother wouldn’t think badly of a guy who on the
first weekend of knowing there daughter had help her hide out from her frantic
mother in his home doing god knows what.” Ouch okay get yourself out of this
one Luke… “I just wanted to be there for her. I care about your daughter. For
the record it’s not like that between us. I know that um
Zoey
is a
vir
….Um well.” Damn this conversation was really
making my head hurt. “Let Me help you out Luke…my daughter’s a virgin. She also
has a very hard time facing any kind of embarrassment or hurt. She tends to run
away and hide or shut down.” I kind of smiled and looked at her, “Well I’m not
too sure that’s always the case Grace. I saw her knee a guy in the nuts because
he started a nasty rumor about her in the first week of school.” She raised her
Eyebrow at me oh shit…”Um sorry…I mean in the groin.” She was now laughing at
my reaction to her look. “I never said she took shit from anyone. She wasn’t
raise to take anyone’s bull. Her daddy made sure she could hold her own. She is
just like him in that way. Don’t cross her because she sure as hell isn’t
gonna
wait around for you to do it again. She’s strong she
just underestimates herself a lot. She never really grieved her daddy she just
shut down for months. I thought moving her here would help but I was selfish
and cruel. I just want to make sure you’re not
gonna
hurt my girl.” Her eyes were full of tears and it took a second to swallow back
the lump that formed in my throat. I took a deep breath, “I have no intentions
of hurting your daughter. I can’t take back my past and the crazy decisions
that I made. I wish I would have been a different person. Your daughter makes
me want to be better. I really love to make her smile and to hear her laugh.
It’s infectious; she is beautiful in so many ways. It kills me to see her sad.
I just want to talk to her if she’ll talk to me.”  Grace started to say
something and then we both looked in the direction of the stairs where
Zoey
stood. “Well I guess I’ll excuse myself and allow you
two to sort this out.” Grace walked to
Zoey
kissed
the top of her head whispering something quietly to her.
Zoey
just smiled lightly and looked up to me. I couldn’t understand how this girl
had such a hold on me. My throat tightened and I felt like the room was
shrinking for a moment. I took a step toward her she lowered her head and
stared at the floor. It really bothered me that she wouldn’t look at me. I
didn’t want her to be embarrassed about this. “Baby...
stop
looking at the floor. Look at me
Zoey
please.” I
tilted her chin up our eyes connecting I leaned forward and kissed the tip of
her nose. “I need you to know that I am severely, extremely attracted to you.
Anyone would be.
Zoey
you are so Beautiful, sexy and
addicting. I have to control my urges every single time I’m near you. When the
time is right and we take that step, making the choice to be together sexually
it isn’t going to be at some party or in the backseat of a car. I want it to be
special you mean more to me that just some quick fling. I really care about you
and I want you to feel special because you are very special to me. I know I
have a bad track record of being an ass to girls. You are different I can’t
explain it…hell I don’t even understand myself yet but there is something more
between us than that. Don’t for a second think that you have to have sex with
me to keep me happy. I’m happy baby…more than you know. Being with you, holding
you, laughing with you that makes me so happy. Just stop hiding from me.” I
leaned forward and kissed her very softly. Tears rolled down her cheeks. She
wrapped her arms around my neck and I lifted her up as she laced her legs
around my waist. She continued to cry on my shoulder and I held her.

After about an hour her mom came back downstairs to find me and
Zoey
on the couch she was snuggled into my side and we were
watching a lifetime movie…yah lifetime the guys would so love to get ahold of
this. Shit this girl had me watching chick flicks and I didn’t care because I
got to hold her and smell her. Every once in a while I even got a kiss or two
out of it. I could really handle this. Her mom ordered a pizza and we all sat
around the coffee table in the living room continuing the lifetime show. I
wasn’t sure if her and her mom worked out their problems I would have to ask
her later but I saw they seemed to be ok for now.

Grace finally excused herself to head off to bed and I stuck around for a
little longer but at about one am I decided I better take off and get home. She
walked me to the door, “Thanks for following me and forcing me to get over my
mood.” I leaned in a kissed her lingering my lips over hers for a second than
stealing another one before pulling away, “I refuse to let you go. You’re not
running away from me…Movie tomorrow?” She looked a little disappointed, “I told
Lily that I would take her and her friend to see a movie tomorrow afternoon.” I
kissed her again just because she is so damn cute and I couldn’t resist. “Can I
tag along? I like animated movies.” I stuck my lip out as if I was pouting.
This time she kissed me and said I could join them. After a couple more kisses I
left and I think I smiled the entire way home. I couldn’t resist texting her
when I got home.

Me: ‘Sweet Dreams Beautiful girlfriend’

And she responded almost immediately

Zoey
: ‘Glad you made it home safe… sweet dreams
to you too my handsome understanding boyfriend’

Me: ‘I have to say being your boyfriend makes me smile’

Zoey
: ‘You make me smile. Thanks for being you.
I am really happy I gave us a shot…it was a great choice. You are wonderful’

Me: ‘That definitely makes me smile and I’m feeling some things for you that
I have to say are pretty amazing’

Zoey
: ‘Good night Luke’

Me: ‘Good night Baby’

*
Zoey
*

I woke up Saturday feeling better since Luke helped me over my
embarrassment. He was turning out to be a pretty great guy. I walked downstairs
and my mom was up and had already made coffee. I grabbed me a cup and joined
her at the table. She watched me as if she thought I was going to speak and
when I didn’t she did. “I like him
Zo
…and he really
cares for you. Daddy would have liked him too.” The thought of that made me
tear up. My daddy would have liked Luke I am sure of it too. Football would
have been the bond. They would have fired each other up like crazy. The thought
made me smile at them two bickering about their favorite teams.

“
Ya
know we still have a lot to talk about. We
can’t sweep it under the rug mama. It isn’t
gonna
be
an easy conversation and I know neither of us really want to but we have to.
Not today Luke and I are taking Lily and Hannah to the theater. We’re
gonna
need to talk it through when Lily’s not home.” She
agreed with me and I knew she was dreading it. I felt nauseous even thinking
about it.

I was drying my hair around noon when I heard my phone ringing.
Ahh
the sexy beach body covered my screen. I quickly
answered “Hey Handsome.”  I heard him laugh lightly, “What times the
movie?” I twirled my finger into the edge of my hair, “It starts at three
fifteen so I thought we could get there at three.” I could picture him pouting
as he replied, “But what if I can’t wait until three to see you?” He makes me
smile so easily, “Well then come over earlier silly.” He was like a little kid
who just got a bag of skittles with excited enthusiasm, “I’m leaving now.” That
was it he hung up before I could say anything. I knew it would only take him
about fifteen minutes to get here so I hurried and got dressed then flipped my
hair as a continued to dry it while trying to maintain its craziness. I didn’t
hear him walk in and when I flipped my hair over I screamed, “Holy hell
Luke…you scared me.” He stood there laughing as Lily and my mom stood just
behind him also enjoying the fact that I screamed. “Thanks a lot girls I am
sure that a heart attack at the age of eighteen may be possible or a panic
attack…
geesh
.” I flopped down on my bad as he walked
in and sat down next to me and then here came Lily following close behind. I
knew she was crushing on Luke I could already tell by her dreamy eyes. I
rustled her hair, “I know exactly how you feel Lily May he’s almost too
handsome to be real huh?” Her face reddened and he leaned over to place a
little kiss on my cheek. We eventually found our way downstairs where we played
a game of Go ‘fish until Lily’s friend arrived.