Rockstar's Girl (Decoy Series book 2) (18 page)

I'm not an idiot, I know it's because of Naomi, the fucking bitch upsetting Kendal on her birthday. Why does shit like this always happen in fucking nightclubs?

I look over to Sophie and see she's already looking at me. She looks at Kendal who is standing with Tanya, James and Mark. She's laughing at whatever Mark is saying but it's not real. I see Sophie shake her head at Kendal and then look up to the balcony and frown. I follow her gaze and lock eyes with Naomi, she smiles down at me, but I scowl at her. Why the fuck would I want her over my one and only woman? When she realises I'm not going to smile up at her she looks down at Kendal and gives her a nasty look.

I see Kendal messing with her dress, she feels uncomfortable. Why would she let Naomi effect her? She's stunningly beautiful and perfect. Has she not seen how many death glares and threats I've given out tonight at every fucker who dared look at her?

I'm fed up at watching Kendal look defeated. She's supposed to be enjoying today. I make my way behind her and grab her soft body against me. God she gets me so fucking horny without even trying. Kendal gasps and relaxes into me when she realises it's me.

"You scared me."

I plant a soft kiss on the back of her neck and we start to sway to the fast music. Her friends drift away so we're alone. Kendal leans her head back against my shoulder. She's my world, along with Finley of course and together they make me so happy. I just want to hold onto her and protect her from everything bad. I know without a doubt that if anyone hurt Kendal or Finley or our future children I won't hesitate to kill them.

I need to see Kendal's beautiful face, so I turn her to face me.

"Have you enjoyed your birthday?"

I stroke her cheek and leave my hand there as she smiles.

"I've loved it Jax. You're amazing."

I know we're both drunk but what I need to say would be the same if I wasn't.

"You're so beautiful baby."

I see her bright blue eyes glisten under the flashing lights. I place my other hand on her other cheek and kiss her.

"I mean it. I only need you. I can't live without you."

We stay like that for a while. We dance and I hold her against me, I whisper sweetness into her ear and nobody disturbs us. I need her badly, I have to get her home now.

~Kendal~

I laugh as Jax drags me over to my friends to say goodbye and out to the limo. Jax doesn't allow me to sit on the seats instead he pulls me onto his lap so I'm straddling him. As we are driven home we kiss with pure hunger. We need each other so badly I'm afraid that we can't wait to get home. I can't control my body as I grind against Jax's hardness under his jeans. The driver needs to hurry up, I need Jax right now I can't even think straight!

As soon as the limo pulls up in our drive we jump out and Jax quickly asks the driver if he can go back and wait for the others. I would have felt sorry for the driver if Jax hadn't pushed me through the front door and slammed me up against the wall of our entry room. He takes my mouth one more time and then drops down onto his knees in front of me. He kisses each leg as he takes off my shoes. Jax rolls up the front of my dress and looks right at me as he slides his tongue along my thong. He's deliciously teasing me and Jax growls as he rips my thong away. Before I can shout at him for destroying another item of my underwear his tongue silences me as he flicks my clit. I forget all about the stupid thongs and I can think about nothing else but the pleasure Jax is giving me with his tongue. He places one of my legs onto his shoulder so he can access me better and oh my god I'm so glad we're alone because my panting is so loud. It's not long until his talented tongue brings me to my climax and with my body still weak with pleasure Jax picks me up with my legs wrapped around him.

Jax carries me to our bedroom which is still covered with rose petals. A romantic setting to all the dirty things he is going to do to me.

Jax throws me down onto the bed and petals flutter everywhere but he doesn't even notice. I have his full attention and he strips me from my dress. He leans over me and kisses me, the hardness of his shirt sending blissful sensations through my hard nipples.

Without taking his eyes away from me he strips at the end of the bed. The sight of his ripped muscled body and the intense look he is giving me has me squirming with need as I crave for his cock in me. He leans over me and starts to kiss me. I whimper with need, I have to have him soon. His kisses travel from my lips down to my jaw and all down my neck where he pays special attention to the swell of my breasts. With a lick of my nipple Jax lifts both my legs onto his broad shoulders and slowly sinks himself into my core. When his balls deep he quickly pulls out and then slams back into me.

"Jax."

I plead and he gives me exactly what I need. He pounds in and out of me with such fierceness I feel like I can't breathe. His cock feels amazing, so good that I climax again and then he flips me onto my stomach and slams into me again.

"Can't. Get. Enough."

He growls while he slams into me again and again. I moan into the bed sheets. I've orgasmed twice now, surely I can't again. He stretches me wonderfully and I enjoy the feeling of us together again. I won't ever run again. I couldn't survive it. I didn't think it possible but his rhythm picks up and I know he's reaching his climax too. He reaches under me and tugs on my nipple which stirs my pleasure again and I can't believe that I want to cum again. Three times? I haven't managed three times before but I know Jax won't stop until I reach my third. He lets go of my nipple and reaches for my clit instead and that does the trick. My body convulses and I fall into a whirlwind of pleasure that I can't handle. I try and fight it but with another flick of my wetness it completely takes over my body. It feels fucking amazing and I shout Jax's name into the bed sheets as he fills me with his hot liquid.

We stay in that position for a couple of minutes, unable to move. I don't think I can make my body move. That last orgasm made my body shut down with shock. I feel Jax pull out and he cleans us both. I know he likes to take care of me like this so I don't complain when he does it anymore. He helps me to get under the quilt, well I say help, he did all the work. I felt too weak. Jax chuckles as he settles down beside me.

"It's good you're a little thing."

"It's your fault."

Which makes him laugh again. He wraps his arm around me and turns me to face him. I cuddle into his warm chest and breathe him in. Jax kisses the top of my head.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

Chapter 23

Three months later

Being back with Jax these past few months have been some of the greatest moments I have had in a long time. Finley couldn't love his dad anymore and he's the happiest I've seen him too. It seems I was wrong when I thought he was happy enough with just me. Seeing him now while we're living the family life in our new house makes me see how much he was missing out on before.

Since we have moved into our new beautiful home, Finley hasn't woken me once by jumping on the bed, which is lucky for Jax. He loves his new bedroom and secret hide out too much for that to happen now.

I no longer feel insecure either. I know how much Jax loves me so I am enjoying my life now how I should have always been. My birthday was absolutely amazing and I can't believe I let a girl like Naomi ruin it for me. That night Jax proved to me just how much he craves my body as much as I do his.

Speaking of exes, I'm pleased to say that I haven't seen Harley since the day of his fight with Jax. About a month ago his tattoo place turned into a clothing boutique and I didn't even feel sad at all that he left. After the horrible words he said to me, I will never forgive him.

Tanya and Leo still haven't solved anything but I think that's all on Tanya. She won't listen to anything Leo has to say.

Finley is spending his Saturday night at my parents and I'm driving in the dark because Jax has asked me to meet him. I'm a little bit nervous as to why he’s asked me to meet him. The closer I get to him, the more scared I get because lately Jax has been acting a little strange. It seems like he's been preoccupied and a little jumpy. I can't wait to put an end to it all and finally hear what he has to tell me. I hope it's not too bad because I have something to tell Jax as well.

~Jax~

Kendal is going to be here any minute and I want everything to be perfect for when she arrives.

I've been planning this day for as long as I have loved Kendal, but I've never known how to do this or where the perfect place would be.

This week when we took Finley to the park, it suddenly hit me. The perfect place would be mine and Kendal’s secret little garden. We still escape there from time to time so we can be alone. Even though Finley is back at school, we still get visits from friends and family and that takes away from our private time together. As soon as I knew where I wanted to do this, I got in touch with Maisy and all week I've been planning everything.

Now, as I stand in our secret garden that Sophie and Maisy helped me with, I know it's the perfect place I wished it would be.

Some people might think it's a little too soon but I'll just tell them to go and fuck themselves. I can't wait any longer and I know what I want.

~Kendal~

I pull up in the parks car park and look around my car and smile to myself. Even though I was a little mad at Jax for buying me this car I drive it everywhere. It's sad to say that I don't even drive my Beatle anymore but I just can't bear to sell it.

I set out my car and jump when I see Max and Leo approach me.

"Jesus! You two fucking scared me!"

They laugh and I shake my head. Jax had told me to come alone so why are they here? They both tuck each of my arms in theirs and they walk on either side of me. It seems like they can't stop smiling as we walk across the park to the direction of mine and Jax's secret garden.

"What's going on?"

Leo shrugs his shoulders.

"I don't know what you mean."

I look to Max.

"Why are you here?"

"We couldn't let you walk through the park in the dark alone
,
could we?"

That's true. I would have been a little freaked out but that doesn't answer my question.

We reach the little opening in the bushes to the little garden hidden away. I can see through the opening that it's lit up a little.

"What's happening?"

I turn around to face Max and Leo but they have already started walking back
,
so I slowly make my way into the little garden and gasp at the sight.

The surrounding trees and little bushes have sparkling fairy lights dangling from them. There are more along the benches and they light the small area in a soft glow. It's bright enough that I can see white roses have been pushed into the bushes and trees by their stems. Also covering the grass are white rose petals. It looks so romantic and I think I could cry. I can't believe Jax has planned this for me.

Jax smiles at me and he melts my heart. What have I done to deserve a man like Jax who makes me feel so adored?

Jax closes the distance between us and takes my hand. He guides me into the middle of the garden and gives me another little smile. I watch as Jax's eyes look all over my face while he softly strokes my hair.

"What's going on Jax?"

He sweetly kisses me.

"I love you Kendal."

"I love you too."

I interrupt him and he chuckles.

"I know baby. When you left me, I just existed. I didn't feel alive. No matter how many fans had shown up to our gigs when we went out on tour. Without you all of it didn't mean anything."

I hope he's going to flip this speech around because it's making me feel like shit what I had put him through. He softly touches my cheek and plants a kiss on my mouth.

"But then I found you and my life started all over again. All I could think about was getting you back. Then, you told me I was a dad and I couldn't believe my luck."

If I remember correctly, I didn't exactly tell Jax he was Finley's dad. It was more like I shouted it at him while I was a blubbering mess.

"You gave me the family I've wished to have with you since the day you left me. That day I met you, you took my breath away and you still do that now every day.”

Suddenly Jax isn't standing in front of me anymore. He has dropped down onto one knee at my feet. My eyes widen at what I think he's about to do. I can't stop the tears that start falling down my cheeks.

"Kendal, I've loved you for six years. I will keep on loving you every day of my life. Please say yes and be my wife."

Jax actually looks nervous as he looks up at me. I can't believe what is happening. I was so scared telling him my news but Jax asking me to marry him has made this perfect.

~Jax~

Kendal still hasn't answered me and she has started to cry. Shit!

Have I upset her bringing up our past like that? Have I gotten this all wrong?

I thought this place was the right place to propose to her. She is still crying so I grab her into my arms. This isn't how I imagined this going. I thought she would scream yes and jump into my arms.

"I'm sorry."

I whisper against her hair. Kendal looks up at me and she looks so adorable with her wide blue wet eyes. She sniffles.

"Why would you be sorry?"

"You're crying. I thought I upset you."

I'm fully confused now. If I didn't upset her then why is she crying?

Kendal steps away from me and starts to look a little worried. She smiles but it's small and she still has tears strolling down her cheeks.

"Jax I have something to tell you. I've been trying to tell you all week but you looked a little preoccupied and now I see why."

She glances around the garden and her face brightens up.

"It's gorgeous Jax."

I appreciate that she likes it but all that I can think of is that she hasn't said yes.