Rockstar Daddy (Decoy Series) (37 page)

      "Tough day?"

I look up to him and tell him all that has happened. James and Mark come closer and listen in too. When I've finished Mark takes me in his arms.

      "You want me to have a word with them?

   "No."

Mark and James never really got on with Jax, Rhys, Max and Leo. The last thing I need is Mark to start something.

      "I can if you want me to."

I step back so he can see how serious I am.

      "No, it's fine. I mean it."

Tanya joins me and points at Marks chest.

     "Don't start no shit."

Mark huffs and goes to stand by James and Sam. Tanya grabs hold of my hand.

      "Come on Kendal, lets get drunk."

She pushes through the crowd and drags me to the dance floor where Maisy is standing at a tiny table which already has drinks waiting. She hands me a shot of I don't no what but it burns my throat anyway. Then a glass of vodka and lemonade which I happily take from her.

      "double vodka."

She whispers to me and I'm thankful, this is what I need.

   A few songs later I dismiss myself to go and ring Finley before I get too drunk. It's about his bedtime so I can say goodnight to him. I walk through the big double doors into the house and then into the hallway. I want to be able to talk to Finley without people or music disturbing me. I dial my mums number and it only rings twice before Finley screams down the line.

      "Hi mummy!"

I nearly cry when I hear his voice. I'm really missing him today, probably because I've been around Jax.

      "Hey honey, you OK?"

   "Yea, mama and grandad let me have pizza!"

      "You are a lucky boy. Are you being a good boy for mama and grandad?"

   "Yes!"

      "Good. Can you give the phone to mama or grandad please."

   "OK love you"

      "Love you too."

   "Cake mummy! Get cake!"

I laugh and grimace at his panicked screeching down the phone.

      "Yes I'll remember the cake Finley."

I hear some shuffling and then my mum says her hellos. I fill her in on the day so far. She thinks I should just get on with it and get together with Jax now. Being rich and famous probably has something to do with that. After making sure Finley has been fine I ask to talk to Finley again before I hang up.

      "You going to bed now? It's late."

   "Me and grandad watching Cars first."

      "Oh I bet grandads just loving that."

I laugh, my dad gets so annoyed with Disney films.

      "Grandad went night nights so I smacked his face to wake him up."

I hear my mum laughing in the background and I can't help but laugh aswell.

      "Finley you shouldn't smack grandad."

   "Sorry mummy but grandad was naughty. He has to watch it all."

      "OK, well I'm going now so night night and I'll see you tomorrow OK?"

    "OK, is the wedding boring?"

     
"Yea really boring. Everybody is kissing and dancing."

I can't say it's fun can I? It will make him sad.

     
"Errrrrrr. Night mummy."

   "Night Finley, love you."

      "Love you mummy."

Just before I hang up I catch sight of Jax watching me smiling and then I hear a screaming from my phone.

       "Jesus Fin stop shouting. Whats the matter?"

   "My cake mummy."

      "Yes I will remember the cake now go to bed."

   "After Cars."

      "Well be a good boy then and you can have the cake."

   "Good girl mummy"

      "Night rockstar."

He hangs up laughing, leaving me alone with Jax. Oh shit I just called Finley rockstar when Jax is right here.

      "Rockstar huh?"

On no!

      "Erm.."

Shit I don't know what to say!

      "Sure sounds like he wants some cake."

He chuckles his sexy laugh and I join in.

      "Yea, he keeps reminding me. He loves Jessica's cakes."

He looks at me with a weird expression and I feel awkward.

      "So why rockstar?"

My heart stutters, oh fuck.

      "What?"

He laughs, probably at the stupid look on my face.

      "You said, goodnight rockstar and I know you wasn't saying it to me."

Oh shit I can feel my cheeks blushing at that comment. I have just remembered as a joke, when we were together I would sometimes say that to Jax.

      "Yea he thinks his a rockstar. His always asking James to play his guitar and sometimes my dad takes him to Jonnys to play with them. My dad called him rockstar and he loved it, so it stuck."

Jonny is one of the guys my dad was in the band with and they still jam together in his garage like there still in there teens. Finley loves going with him banging on the drums.

      "Wow, your dad still play?"

I nod.

      "Yea, Finley likes to bang his drums and he prefers Jonnys guitar to James."

   "Finley sounds like a cool kid."

We stand in an awkward silence.

      "Look Kendal, I don't want us to be awkward together. I really miss you. Can we at least be friends?"

Friends? With Jax? I miss him too and I hate it being like this between us. If his moved back I will be seeing him more. I will be telling him he has a son tomorrow and I know he will want to be in Finley's life so I will be seeing a lot more of Jax. Weither it will be on good or bad terms yet I won't know until tomorrow.

      "Yea, friends sounds good."

"Can I have your number? I can call you before I come by tomorrow."

A good idea actually so we swap phones and enter our numbers into each others phones.

      "It's good to talk to you Kendal. I really have missed you. No matter where I was I was thinking of you. These past couple of days seeing you has been good."

   "I'm proud of you Jax. I heard when you got signed and I was really happy for you all. I've missed you to but you're living your dream you always talked about now."

He nods slowly looking towards the floor. I hear him mumble something but I'm not sure what it was, I think he said 'Not without you.' But I'm not sure, surely he didn't say that. Probably just me hearing what I want to hear.

      "I'd better go and find everyone."

   "Yea OK. Have fun."

I nod and try not to make it obvious I'm trying to walk away as fast as I can. I relax a little when I get outside and breath in the fresh air. I return to my group and I'm handed another shot which I happily drink. I join Tanya and Maisy with there grinding and I can't stop laughing as Jessica shakes her head at me. Now I'm having fun.

   After about an hour of dancing I take a break and walk up to the table Jessica is sat with the guys.

      "I don't know who you were looking at like that Jess because your dancing with Sam wasn't very PG."

She leans over to Sam and licks his cheek. The guys moan in disgust and Sam laughs.

      "Jess!"

She laughs at me and sits herself on my knee. At first I think it's because she's really drunk but then she whispers in my ear.

      "Jax hasn't taken his eyes off you since you came back out here."

   "We had a little chat after I spoke to Finley. He heard me call Finley rockstar."

Her eyes bug out.

      "Shit, what happened?"

I give her the information she wants to hear.

      "Did he buy that?"

I nod. The story I told Jax about how Finley got his nickname wasn't 100% true. My dad does take him when he plays with his old band mates and he does think his a little rockstar but the main reason why he has that nickname is because Jax is his dad and Jax is a rockstar.

      "He wants to be friends. He took my number."

   "So, at least you can get in touch with him now."

I don't answer, I'm dying to turn around and look at Jax. I can feel his eyes on me.

      "Can you be just friends with him?"

I really want to but I don't know. I'm trying really hard to stay away from him and keep my feelings locked away but I don't know for how long. God knows what I'll be like if Jax tried anything.

      "I hope so."

Tanya interrupts us and pulls Jessica off my leg.

      "Come on you two! Lets dance, Sophie's joined us."

We follow Tanya and dance, all the girls together. Just like on the hen trip. Sophie grabs me into a hug and dances with me. Sam, Mark and James show up and say there congratulations to Sophie but then quickly disappear when Call Me Maybe comes on. We all sing it to each other in a funny tipsy way. I love my girls.

Chapter 28

   After a long time on the
dance floor with the girls were in need for another drink so we all sway over to the bar. Laughing al the way there. We chat to the guys at the bar and Rhys joins us and wraps his arms around Sophie. They look so happy.

      "I'm so happy for you two."

   "Awww Kenny. I'm glad your here with us."

He pouts at me, yea Rhys is drunk too. I poke his bottom lip that his sticking out.

      "Me too, I missed you. You know you're the brother I always wanted right?"

And so the drunken soppiness begins.

      "Obviously. I've always thought of you as my little sister, you know that."

He grabs me in a tight drunken hug and I hear Sophie laughing. I know the drink is letting us speak out feeling  but it's so true. I'm so happy for him and I love Sophie to bits. So happy they found each other. Happy happy happy. I can't help but laugh when I hear the DJ announce the next song.