Authors: Tessa Bailey
Tags: #police, #Romantic Suspense, #brazen, #line of duty, #erotic, #new york, #Contemporary Romance
pleasure? It was just another line. She
knew
it and yet, combined with the way
he looked at her, she felt like the only
person in the room. “That’s just bad
manners.”
Gray eyes twinkled. “They’re the only
kind I have.”
“You’re confusing me, Bowen.” She
took a deep breath. “I need to get back to
work.”
When she tried to extricate herself, he
didn’t budge. “That’s the first time
you’ve said my name.” He rubbed their
lips together. “Whisper it again in my
ear, then I’ll go.”
“You’re a lunatic.” He simply raised
an eyebrow and she sighed, annoyed at
the traitorous smile playing around her
mouth. Holding his shoulders for
support, she pressed up on her toes and
laid her mouth against his ear. After
taking a moment to inhale his smoky
leather scent, she let his name fall from
her lips. “
Bowen
.”
He actually shook. The arm banding
her waist tightened, and the breath
whooshed from her lungs. Then just as
quickly, he let her go. “I’ll be
right
back.”
All she could do was nod.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Bowen bit the inside of his cheek to
silence the screaming in his head, the
churning sickness in his stomach. His
knuckles ached and he needed to wash
them off before he saw Sera. It helped to
think about her, so he hung on to the
image of her lying in the middle of his
guest bed. Any minute, he would get out
of this car full of jackasses bragging
about
the
beatdowns
they’d
just
delivered and see her again. And maybe
she’d let him pretend like earlier. Maybe
she’d let him kiss her and call her
Ladybug and fantasize they weren’t so
different. Maybe, maybe, maybe.
Not one fucking certainty in his life,
except for pain. The giving of it and the
receiving of it. Not a day went by
anymore where he didn’t condone the
use of violence. As a teenager and even
through his early twenties, he’d loved
fighting. Lived for it. He’d loved the fact
no one ever got the drop on him; he
could use his fists to get out of any
situation. That time had long passed, and
now it was work. The kind of work that
breaks you down until nothing registers.
For a while now, he’d experienced slips
into numbness. It got a little easier every
time, to issue the order. A little easier to
think of people as dollar signs instead of
living, breathing human beings with
souls.
Had
he
been born with a soul? He’d
often wondered if it were possible to
walk upright, communicating and living
life with just the idea of where his soul
should be. Worse, did people see that
lack in him? Is that why everyone left in
the end?
An image of the woman, hair streaked
full of pink, replaced Sera in his mind,
but he grabbed on to her and held tight,
the way he wished he could do in real
life. He didn’t want to think about the
woman or why she’d left or if it had
been something he could have prevented.
Something
he
could
have
done
differently. Right now, at least he had a
purpose. Protect Sera. Keep Ruby’s
involvement in his father’s arrest
confidential. If he could do those two
things, maybe he could look back one
day and say he’d done something that
mattered. Keeping his own ass out of jail
didn’t quite rate in comparison, but it
drove him, too. No way would he pass
his father in the Rikers Island cafeteria
and see smug satisfaction on his face.
Finally, after an eternity, the car
pulled over to drop him at the curb
outside of Rush. The other passengers
were still in their element, mimicking the
cries of pain they’d induced tonight,
already talking about the next time.
Irritation snapping behind his eyes, he
stooped down and leaned into the
passenger side window. Everyone shut
up, attention zeroing in on him. “Listen
up. You assholes want to go out and get
your dicks wet, get drunk? Have at it.
But keep your fucking mouths shut.
You’re about as inconspicuous as a
couple of Macy’s parade floats. This
isn’t your first fight and it won’t be your
last, so quit acting like it. You’re
embarrassing yourselves and me in the
process.”
The driver held up his hands. “You
got it, boss.”
God
, he hated being called that. Boss
of what? A car full of shitheads. He
straightened and patted the car’s roof
once. “Take it easy on them girls.”
Spirits somewhat restored, the car full
of men pulled away as Bowen walked
into Rush, nodding in greeting at the
bouncer. As he wove through the crowd
at the bar, he heard his name spoken
several times. Some of the voices
female, some male. He ignored them all.
The moment his eyes landed on Sera, the
screaming in his head died down to a
whisper. Face flushed, hair falling out of
its ponytail, she looked more than a little
flustered. Since he’d left, the place had
grown busy, the typical Saturday night
crowd looking to get rowdy. The tray
full of drinks in her hand looked seconds
from gracing the floor.
Good Lord, the girl was a horrible
waitress. Why did that make him want
her even more?
He didn’t even realize he was walking
toward her until Connor stepped into his
path, bringing him up short. “Driscol.”
Bowen gave a quick nod, angling
himself so he could keep an eye on Sera.
“Look at you, fully clothed. Is there a
special occasion?”
“Nah.” Connor shrugged. “I just don’t
have a beautiful girl in my bed at the
moment.”
His vision swam with red. “I’d be
more careful about what comes out of
your mouth. I don’t care if this club
belongs to your cousin. Don’t talk about
her.”
Connor considered him in a way that
made Bowen almost uncomfortable. This
wasn’t a typical neighborhood guy. Too
much went on behind his eyes. A quick
glance at the man’s forearm and the navy
tattoo told him Connor hadn’t spent his
entire life in Brooklyn, like the rest of
them. “I just wanted to confirm my
suspicion.”
“The suspicion that I’d like to kick
your ass?”
“Nope.” He tipped back his bottle of
Heineken. “The suspicion that the
ladies’ man I’d heard so much about is
gone over one chick.”
Bowen accepted a glass of whiskey
from the bartender, not bothering to deny
it. He’d already screwed himself with
his possessive behavior. “So what? You
want to go paint our nails and talk about
it or something?”
“Funny. You know why I brought it
up.” His voice trailed off when the
music quieted between songs. When
another one kicked in, he spoke again.
“She overheard something. Something
she shouldn’t have.”
“Excuse me?” Bowen swore he could
feel the blood turning to solid ice in his
veins. “We’re talking about Sera?”
“No, the other girl you almost ripped
my throat out over.”
“Talk,” he gritted out.
Connor finished his beer and set it on
the bar. “Last week. Hogan had a phone
conversation in the hallway outside my
room. He didn’t realize she was inside
changing my bandage.” He glanced over
his shoulder at Sera where she took a
drink order. When he turned back, his
eyebrows were drawn low. “It was the
date of the shipment. She heard it. No
location, but it was enough to worry my
cousin. That’s why she’s marked, man.”
Even having already known Hogan
wanted Sera gone didn’t ease the blow
of hearing it spoken aloud. Over his
dead body would those words ever
come true. “The question is, why are you
telling me this?”
“I’d be dead if it wasn’t for her. I
repay my debts.”
Difficult as it was to admit, Bowen
believed him. He’d had a lot of
experience dealing with liars, and this
guy wasn’t one. Second, he knew all too
well the way Sera could work her way
under your skin, make you question your
own loyalties. Watching her call an
order to the bartender, his throat
squeezed. He needed to distract himself
or he would carry her out of there over
his shoulder. “How’d you end up here?”
Connor raised an eyebrow.
“Going from the navy to running
small-time game in Brooklyn?” Bowen
shrugged. “That’s pretty far to fall.”
“Thanks, man.” He pulled his wallet
out of his pocket. “You want to go paint
our nails and talk about it or
something?”
“Fair enough.” Bowen watched as
Connor laid a twenty-dollar tip on the
bar. “Listen,” he said, uncomfortable
expressing gratitude. “I owe you one. I
repay my debts, too.”
Connor turned to leave, then stopped.
“You might want to clean the blood off
your knuckles before you go see her.”
Bowen
showed
no
reaction,
continuing to sip his whiskey. His gaze
sought Sera over the rim of his glass,
Connor’s parting words echoing in his
head. What kind of man had to clean
blood off his hands before going to see
his girl? A man too tainted to touch her.
The glass froze at his lips when he
didn’t immediately see her in the dining
room. Quickly, he scanned the bar, panic
like a hot poker in his stomach.
Relax,
she’s probably just in the bathroom.
But when several minutes passed and
she didn’t emerge, fear replaced panic.
No way could she have passed him and
left the bar. He would have sensed her
walking by, would have seen her. She
had to be somewhere inside the bar.
His attention snagged on the kitchen,
his feet beginning to move before any
type of decision registered. When they’d
gone out to the alley on Friday night,
he’d noticed a door inside the kitchen,
one he presumed led to the basement. If
she’d gone down there, he prayed she
was alone. That she hadn’t been taken
down there against her will. Jesus, why
had he let Connor distract him? Had it
been intentional?
The cook called his name as he
entered the kitchen, but Bowen ignored
him, taking the stairs leading to the
basement two at a time. Her name
burned his throat, dying to be shouted,
but he didn’t want to alert anyone to his
presence until he knew what he was up
against. When he reached the bottom, he
saw light coming from another door. An
office? He went closer, stopping short
when he saw Sera, rummaging through a
drawer, flashlight wedged between her
teeth.
Hogan’s office. She’s looking for the
ledger.
The ledger I’ll have to take away.
One my name is definitely in. Probably
multiple times.
His first instinct was to drag her from
the office, tell her to forget everything
she’d seen. The more she knew, the
more imminent the danger to her life
would become. What if someone else,
not him, had come down and seen her?
Hundreds of customers were upstairs.
People loyal to Hogan who would jump
at the chance to score points with him by
turning in Sera. How could she take such
a stupid risk?
Then logic resumed. This was her job.
This was why she was there in the first
place. It hit him then, how much danger
Sera had put herself in. God, if
something happened to her…
No. He wouldn’t allow it. She might
be on a mission to bring down Hogan
and get justice for her brother, but that
undertaking conflicted with his own.