Repented (4 page)

“Sure,” I knew I was going to regret it, but I needed something to take this edge off. Lifting the vial to my nose, I let the white powder infiltrate my system. “Thanks.”

“Wanna go for a walk? It’s so nice out! It feels like such a waste to sit around here. Let’s go catch up properly.” She lifted her hands above her head exposing her sexy stomach and climbed to her feet holding her hand out. Placing my hand in hers, I stood and started walking beside her. “So any lady friends I should know about?”

“Nope,” I didn’t want to get into it. Not tonight. I just wanted to forget. “Want to head to my place? I’m walking distance.”

“Perfect,” she grinned.

CHAPTER FIVE

SCREAM NOW

By the time our quick walk back to my place was over, the coke was in full effect. I was feeling good, really good. I fumbled, finally flipping the switch to illuminate the living room. Dana turned to me and pressed her lips to mine. Jumping up, she wrapped her arms around my neck and legs around my waist. She was tiny enough that I could hold her up using just one hand under her ass. Ten more pounds and she was going to waste away to nothing.

A smirk grew on her face, “how about we go get reacquainted?”

Carrying her back to my bedroom, I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard a ruffling coming from the walk in closet. I put a finger to my lips telling her to be quiet and set her down on her feet. One foot in front of the other¸ trying to be silent I pushed the door the rest of the way open.

Looking like a deer in the headlights, Bryn stood there dropping a handful of stuff. “What the hell!”

“What are you doing back here?” I asked her. “You said you’d be in touch to come get the rest of your things and made it pretty fucking clear that you wanted nothing to do with me. You can come back later.” It was the coke talking, but it still felt a little good to make her feel some of the pain that I’d been experiencing. I pointed to the door.

Picking up a few things she dropped, she walked out and saw Dana standing there.

“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me! Not even twenty-four hours after I’m gone, and you’re already back to fucking skanks. Great job, Kevin. You’re just proving what I guess I knew deep down all along,” she took her ring off and tossed it at my face before slamming the bedroom door.

“I thought you didn’t have any lady friends I needed to worry about,” Dana laughed.

“We’re over. Now where were we?” I asked, leaning down to kiss her.

Her hand reached down and cupped me. She began stroking me through my jeans. Everything was heightened, and despite what just happened, I felt on top of the world. Dropping to her knees, she undid my pants, her silky tongue swirled around my balls. I ran my hands through her thick hair, stopping at the base of her neck and held her there while she continued her assault. Slowly, she worked her way up my shaft to the tip of my now painfully hard erection.

My eyes met her lust filled ones as she licked her plump lips and opened her mouth taking me inside. The moist heat from her mouth and the smoothness of her tongue felt like heaven as she took me in deeper, inch my inch until she reached the base. As she moved out, she pressed her tongue up slightly, making me jerk in her mouth. Fuck, it felt good. I began guiding her gently using my hands laced in her hair to keep up a steady pace. She worked me in and out of her mouth, swirling her tongue, pressing up on all the right spots and before long, I was coming down the back of her throat. Offering her my hand, I helped her to her feet as she wore a smug sense of satisfaction.

“My turn.” Grabbing her by the hips, I sat her on the edge of the bed and began an assault of my own. Starting by gently rubbing my thumb on her clit, down to her entrance, I slipped a finger inside, then another as I licked her bare pussy. Placing her feet on either shoulder, I tasted her as if she were my favorite meal. Her juices were soaking my fingers, and I knew she was close.

“Fuck me,” she cried out. “Now!”

She wasn’t going to have to tell me twice, and I was already more than ready for round two. Getting to my feet, I grabbed a condom from the end table and positioned myself with her heat. Gliding the tip up and down her slit, I teased her clit one last time before sliding in and filling her with a swift motion. Letting out a loud moan as she arched her back, making her fake perfect DD’s bounce.

“Harder,” she demanded. Picking up the pace, I slid out to the tip and thrust forward again. Slow, then fast. “I’m going to cum!”

“Let it go, baby! Let me feel you.”

Her nails dug into my forearm, as I felt her muscles tighten around me. She went over the edge as I followed her.

“That was awesome! You certainly learned a thing or two since when we used to hang out,” she teased.

I pulled out and ditched the condom in the trash before going and taking a spot next to her on the bed. She asked if I was going to tell her what happened with Bryn. So I explained about what happened at the wedding. I told her about Kennedy and Skylar and what a clusterfuck my life had turned into.

“That’s some serious shit,” she rubbed my arm and sighed. “So the test is tomorrow?”

Nodding, I wrapped my arm around her. I was already crashing from the coke and wanted more, but convinced myself that it was a one-time thing. Sleeping with Dana probably wasn’t the best idea either, but I’d be lying if it didn’t feel fucking fantastic and make me feel a little better.

I wasn’t unattractive, according to everyone else I was the exact opposite, but I lacked the personalities the other guys had. They saw what they wanted and took it. When I was on drugs or drinking, it was easier for me to be in that element. Otherwise, I lacked the confidence to take what I wanted.

“Did you want to stay, or is that a stupid question?”

Pressing her back closer to my chest, “there’s no place I’d rather be right now.”

My phone kept ringing in the pocket of my jeans, but I couldn’t be bothered going to pick it up. It was probably just one of the guys anyway. Sleep took over, and I drifted off…

Banging. More banging. Followed by yelling. Must be morning.

“I’m kicking the door in if you don’t get your fucking ass up and open up this minute,” a pissed off Aubrey was waiting on the other side.

Sliding out from behind Dana, I made my way to the front door and opened it.

“You could have saved yourself a lot of effort and possibly your voice box. The door was unlocked,” I motioned for her to come in.

“Where did you disappear to last night?” She demanded.

“Dana and I were catching up. We came back here and fell asleep. Besides, I wasn’t up for going out partying.”

She was shooting daggers at me. “You have exactly fifteen minutes to shower and be back here before we have to leave and head to the lab. Move.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Making my way back to the bedroom, I saw Dana sprawled across my bed. Her hair was in disarray, and she looked sexy as hell. My dick twitched. I quickly grabbed a change of clothes and made my way into the bathroom. After brushing my teeth, splashing some water on my face, and taking a shower I was ready in record time.

I grabbed a pen and paper from the kitchen and wrote Dana a note. I left it on the pillow next to her for her to find when she regained consciousness, so she didn’t think it was a fuck and run. Aubrey was tapping her watch and her foot. I closed the door behind me and made sure it was locked this time. She chirped the white Range Rover and handed me a green tea from Starbucks.

“Sometimes I swear I’m going to go prematurely gray looking after all of you. Jake was worried sick. He wanted to come here last night, but I reassured him you wouldn’t be doing anything stupid and I better not find out otherwise,” she glared at me out of the corner of her eye and I felt extremely guilty. “Listen, I know things are shitty right now, but you don’t get to use it an excuse to go out of control. It never ends good, and you damn well know it.”

“Bryn was there last night.”

She slammed on the brakes and pulled off to the side of the road. “And?”

“And, nothing. She was there grabbing some stuff from the closet. Then she walked out and saw Dana standing in the bedroom, she wasn’t too happy about that.”

Her eyes widened. “Fuck!”

“Yep. Though she specifically said in her letter that she would be in touch to come get the rest of her things and that she's done.”

She pulled back onto the road and started heading toward the lab, again.

“Never in my life have I been exposed to so much drama. The webs you assholes weave for yourselves are insane. How are you feeling this morning about everything?”

“I’m just ready to get it over with. To just know one way or another, so I can start reclaiming my life. Sure, I’m still upset about how things went down and losing Bryn, but who knows maybe it was for the best, after all. I deserve someone that won't jump ship as soon as the water gets a little choppy.”

“I’m glad you’re not losing touch with reality. I wasn’t around when you were out of control, but I heard how bad things were. I don’t want that for you, Kev. You’ve become like family to me. You’re an uncle to my kids, and we’re all worried about you. Derek will get over it and him being with Joss will help blow it all over too. But, you need to keep your head level. You know my story. You know how easy it is to become self-destructive, just keep on focusing on who you’ve fought to become. Please,” her eyes brimmed with tears.

Aubrey was always so blunt and unfiltered. She had one of the biggest hearts out of anyone I’ve ever met. As crazy as it sounds, I knew the first time I met her that she and Jake were meant for each other. I always worried deep down if I was destined for failure, or being alone, until Bryn. In hindsight, I realize now that I never had the opportunity to experience things on my own after I got my shit together and that maybe this would be a good time to do that. To take some time to do things for me.  

“We’re here,” she said pulling into a parking spot in front of the lab.

“Aubrey, thank you. Thank you for being here with me and for everything. You’re a great friend.”

She leaned over and pulled me into a strong hug. “You’d do it for me and any of us.”

Opening the door, I drew in a deep breath and waited for her on the sidewalk. The inside of the lab was completely unwelcoming and sterile looking. Kennedy was already there with Skylar. I wondered how she explained what was going on.

“Morning,” I said to Kennedy. “Hey, buddy.”

I held up my fist to Skylar to bump, which he did with a smile on his face.

“You ready for this?” Kennedy asked.

“As ready as I’m going to be. Thanks for coming.”

“Johnson and Scott, we’re ready for you,” A nurse with a clipboard called.

“Here goes nothing,” I said, following Kennedy and Skylar. Aubrey went and sat in one of the waiting room chairs and picked up a magazine.

We were ushered into a room and given forms to sign. After checking each of our ID's, the tech took cotton swabs and took samples from my mouth and Skylar’s. She explained the process and that someone would be in touch as soon as the results were in. In less than fifteen minutes, we were out of there with my future hanging in the balance. Aubrey stood up and started digging through her bag pulling out an envelope.

“I got you guys tickets to go to the zoo. We figured it would be good for you to get in some quality time while you’re waiting.”

Taking the envelope from her, I was disappointed in myself for not thinking of something like this on my own.

“Does that sound like fun?” I asked Skylar, who shyly nodded his head. Kennedy smiled, and I could see she was pleased with the idea.

Aubrey wrapped her arms around me and told me she would check in later to see how we made out. I followed Skylar and Kennedy to their rental car and gave her directions toward the zoo. Since I was an only child, I didn’t have a lot of experience with kids. Sure, I had been around the guy’s kids since they were born, but they were still little. I wasn’t sure how to start building a relationship with him.

Looking over at Kennedy, it was crazy how much she still looked almost the same as she did in high school, a little older, but not much. Though I remembered bits and pieces of the night we slept together, there was still a lot that I didn’t. I guess at the time, I would have considered us friends, but now we were nothing more than strangers with possibly a kid in common.

My parents had also been calling relentlessly since the wedding, but I didn’t need an earful of hippie love crap either. Awkward silence hung in the air, but surprisingly it wasn’t necessarily uncomfortable. I don’t think either of us knew what to say to break the ice. It was harder with Skylar being able to listen to our every word.

Following the signs, we pulled off into the packed zoo parking lot.
Don’t kids go to school anymore?
Then I remembered it was summer. Turning around, Skylar’s face brightened up. He was still wrapped up in innocence and not corrupted by how fucked up of a place the world can be. I needed to remember that.

KENNEDY

Taking a deep breath, I opened the back door and got Skylar out. I put on the happiest face that I could muster and took his hand. Kevin wasn’t known for being the quiet one when I knew him back in the day, so him being practically silent on the way here made it a little uncomfortable. It seemed like he wanted to be here, but I couldn't tell if it was just a facade. There was so much I wanted to say but didn’t know how. I didn’t know what to say or do to break the ice. My little life had changed so much in the blink of an eye. I was doing my best to keep Skylar shielded from everything as much as possible. I didn't want him affected by any of this. How we lived was what he knew.

Kevin stood waiting for us and pulled the tickets out of his back pocket.

“You ready to have some fun, Skylar?” He asked.