Remember Me (6 page)

“I’m not doing that. You’ll bust a stitch.”

“Not if it’s in my ass.”

I chuckled, unable to accept that she was giving me permission. “Yeah right. Baby, don’t joke right now. My dick can’t take it.”

She grinded more as she spoke. “I want it in my ass, Shayne. Please.”

Oh God. Now she was begging me to fuck her in the ass. How much more torturous could this be for me?

She scooted her body forward, allowing me to sit and consider her sincerity. I rubbed my face, thinking maybe this was all some dream. We’d been messing around for at least twenty minutes and neither of the twins had made a peep.

Ash climbed off the bed and let her panties fall to the floor. She climbed back up and kissed me hard before pulling away and looking right into my eyes. “Shayne, I trust you. I know you don’t want to hurt me, but I also know you need more. I want to please you.”

“Baby, I can wait. We can wait.”

She shook her head and kissed me slowly, this time feeding her emotions into the kiss. “Please.”

Thinking she’d change her mind as soon as she felt me trying to invade her entrance, I got her in a comfortable position and let my cock press against the base of her little asshole. A tiny cry escaped her lips and I closed my eyes, trying to convince myself that this was justified because she’d asked me to do it. As much as I wanted her, this didn’t feel right.

Then she took ahold of the situation, literally. She spun around and spit all over my dick, putting it inside those puffy lips and soaking it
with saliva. After that spun back around, sticking her ass in the air. I felt myself being pulled, dick first, to penetration. I held onto her hips and moved slowly, entering her tight hole.

As much as I’d pictured it in my mind, nothing could have prepared me for what it was like to have intercourse, even if it was anal, after so long.

Ash remained calm, possibly trying to focus on anything but pain. I knew this was something she didn’t care for. This was all for me, not for her, except I didn’t want it to be that way. I wanted her to enjoy this with me, because we were experiencing something for the first time together.

Halfway in, she let out a single cry. I pulled out, feeling like the moment had ended. Instead, she leaned back, letting me know she was okay. I went slow, again, this time sliding in further.

I’m not going to lie and say that it didn’t feel amazing, because it certainly did. As Ash relaxed, I started going at a slow-gentle pace. Her cries turned into moans and it took over my senses. We’d held out on this for too long and tensions had built up. She wasn’t just giving me something, she was feeding her own desires, with the only thing she could.

Our moment didn’t last long. I couldn’t hold it in any longer. So I reached forward and rubbed her pussy, while my body tightened and I exploded all of my pent up
frustrations into her ass.

She made a funny sound when I pulled out of her and fell back onto the bed. We both knew it wasn’t like we’d just made love, but it was the closest we’d ever gotten. Considering her predicament I was grateful. She was making sacrifices to keep me happy, possibly because she feared losing me. I wished there was some way to prove to her that I wasn’t even remotely thinking about going anywhere. There wasn’t another woman in the world that had ever held my interest the way Ash did. It was probably because we were such close friends. We knew each other’s secrets and I felt comfortable with confiding everything in my life with her.

After cleaning up, she rest her naked chest over mine. I felt her fingernails crossing over the small patch hair on my chest. “It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be,” She admitted.

“Thank you for that.” I pulled her closer and kissed the top of her head. “You didn’t have to do that. I hope it wasn’t too painful.”

She shrugged and  intertwined one of our hands together. “It wasn’t so bad once I stopped fighting it. I knew you wouldn’t hurt me.”

“Never.” I kissed her again. “I’ll never hurt you, Ash.”

“Do you ever feel like we don’t deserve to be this happy?” She looked right at me, making me think about her question a little too much. “What do you mean? Ash, everyone makes mistakes. You did what you did because you loved someone so much that you felt as if you had to do something ridiculous to get him back. I’m the one that cheated and ran around on my girlfriend, telling my friends and family lies for my own personal gain.”

“Okay, let’s just agree that we were both young and stupid. Still, how could anyone take us seriously? Us being together is just unbelievable.”

I don’t know why I felt like I needed to get it out in the open, but I blurted out the words before thinking. “I called Lacey and told her not to stop by like that anymore. I don’t want you upset when I’m not home, or ever. If me being friends with her bothers you, I’ll stop. As far as everyone else goes, I don’t give a shit what they think about us. I’m sure other people have made a life out of a lot less than we have together. We’ve lived together for months and known each other for even longer. We’re comfortable being together and it feels right. Don’t you think so? Don’t you think all of the haters should just kiss our ass? I know I do. Especially my dad. He can kiss my ass.”

“Shayne, I don’t want you to lose your job. We need to think about the kids. If you don’t want me working we’ve got to be responsible.” Her concern was the same as mine.

“I’m goin’ to talk to my uncle tomorrow mornin’. Maybe we can all work somethin’ out. Don’t worry about me bein’ unemployed. As much of a dick as my dad is bein’, he won’t stop payin’ me. He acts like an asshole, but somewhere inside of that fat-head of his, he has a heart. He doesn’t want his grandkids to be homeless, trust me.”

That was the truth. We may be butting heads, but he wouldn’t ever want his family in hardship. I’d seen him do everything to save my aunt, so I knew most of his arguments were a bluff.

Ash relaxed and rested her cheek on my chest. “I hope you’re right.”

I closed my eyes, feeling content with our situation. My uncle didn’t know I was going to ask, but I felt as if I needed a reprieve from my father. If he thought I was really seeking a different job, he might chill out and give me some much needed slack. There was
a time when our paths barely crossed on the job. Now, all of the sudden, he was in my shit almost every day.

Something had to give.

When I finally let myself fall asleep, I dreamed about living in an old farm house that I’d seen for sale on the way home. I’d had a friend that grew up there and his family lost it when times got tough. The dream was so vivid that when I woke to a screaming baby, I sat up and looked around, as if we’d be in that house.

It was enough to make me wonder if it wasn’t a sign for me to look into buying it. We couldn’t live in an apartment forever. The twins were going to need a yard to run around in and I was going to make sure they had it. Hell or high water, they were going to want for nothing, even if I had to suffer the wrath of
my father each and every day for the rest of his life.

Chapter 8

Ashley

For the record, anal sex wasn’t my cup of tea. I did my best giving Sh
ayne something more than a blow-job. When I got up in the middle of the night to feed the twins I felt like I’d been blessed with hemorrhoids. Far be it from me to take away from Shayne’s happiness. He’d finally gotten a little more than he was used to. I had to admit that it did make me feel closer to him. Maybe I was just scared that if I didn’t give him more, he would go somewhere else to get it.

The twins only got up two times in the middle of the night, so I felt more rested than I had since I’d had them. Much to my surprise, Shayne was up early holding Beka when I walked into the kitchen. He leaned over and kissed me before handing her to me. “I need to get goin’. I’m meetin’ my uncle at his shop before I go into work. My sister will be here in an hour. If she’s not, start blowin’ up her phone.”

“Why would I do that?”

“Because I’m paying her a hundred bucks a week to sit around here with you and help with anything you need done. She’s lookin’ for a job and until she finds one, she can make good use with her time. Besides, she owes me for a million times she’s interfered in my business.”

“Shayne, if she doesn’t want to be here, we can’t force her.”

“The hell we can’t. She’s coming. Make sure you have pants on.” He kissed me slowly, letting his lips linger over mine. “Thank you for last night, Ash. I know it wasn’t anything memorable, but it meant a lot to be so close to you.”

I placed small kisses around his lips. “It was nice.” Just not nice enough for me to ever beg for it again. He didn’t have to know that, though. “I just wanted to be close to you.”

“We’ve got plenty of time, Ash. There’s no hurry. I mean, it’s going to be the best night of my life, I already know that.”

My cheeks heated up hearing him say that. I’d never been with someone that complimented so much about me. “How can you be sure?”

“Because I’ve never felt this way about anyone else. I’ve never loved anyone before, not like this.
I know I must sound like a broken record.”

I shook my head and smiled, feeling more happy than I could ever remember being. “No. You can keep sayin’ it.”

“Just know that I’m going to make this work. I’ll do whatever I have to. It’s you and me against the world, Ash.”

He kissed me one more time before taking his coffee c
up and walking out the door. Immediately, I heard Eli crying. Beka was happy in my arms, but I was certain she wouldn’t feel the same way about being put down. “Be a good little baby for Mommy. I’ve got to go change your brother.”

She started wailing before I could make it to the next room. I didn’t want to spoil them, but I hated hearing either of my infants crying. After rushing to change my son, I hurried back and picked up his sister. It was difficult maneuvering them both, but getting them on the same schedule helped, especially at night.

I’d no sooner got them both on a breast when someone knocked on the door. It was quite a predicament to be fully exposed and unable to answer it.

I went to yell, but heard it opening. Alarmed, I turned and saw Peyton standing there with a bag full of fast-food.
“It’s just me. Shayne left me a key under the mat, but told me to knock first.” She covered her face. “Do you need me to wait in the kitchen? Should I turn my back?”

I rolled my eyes and laughed. “Seriously? You do have breasts right?”

She looked down at her chest. “Last time I checked.”

“It’s not a big deal.”

I felt the couch move as she sat down on the other end of it and started pulling out the food. It smelled so good that my mouth began to water. Out of the corner of her eye I caught her catching my desperation to taste something so appetizing. “I got you somethin’. Shayne told me what you like. He sure does know a lot about you.”

“Yeah, he does.”

She took a bite of a hashbrown and turned her attention back to me. “So, supposedly I’m at your disposal. He says that if I piss you off, even one time, he won’t pay me. I guess I’ll be changin’ diapers and making runs to the store for you. I don’t clean toilets. I’m just tellin’ you that right now.”

I laughed when she said it, thinking about her bent over cleaning the toilet. Peyton was too prissy to even consider doing something remotely disgusting. “I won’t ask you for much. Mostly it’s helping me manage both of them. We’ve started supplementing the formula in case they want to eat at the same time at night, but as you can see, I can manage
, it’s just hard.”

Peyton acted like
she was too good to break a nail. After giving birth to twins, without pain management, I was pretty okay with cleaning a toilet, once I could squat and not feel like my vagina was going to catch fire.

Much to my surprise, she was actually a big help. It was nice having an
extra set of hands to manage the twins. Plus, she was their aunt, and even though she wasn’t in the know about their real paternity, they were still her brother’s children, just not the brother she thought.

After a few hours she brought up the day before. I’d been reluctant to talk about
it, not really knowing how bad her brother had laid into her for that unexpected visit.

“Sorry about yesterday. It’s just, well, I spend a lot of time over at Joey’s now, and Lacey lives there. She’s always been so nice to me and I knew that she hates how nobody talk
s to Shayne anymore. I thought that if I could make you two be friends, everything would eventually start workin’ out. Shayne and Ford need to make up soon. He gets along with Joey fine, but it’s just weird. They were best friends growin’ up, ya know?”

“I was there when we were growin’ up, Peyton. I’ve been out on so many double dates with Ford and your brother it’s insane. Of course, I was datin’ Ford and it was completely different, but still. I know they were close. We were all close before Harley died. After that happened everything changed. Ford changed.”

It made me sad to think back when that all happened. I felt so alone, having him push me away because he couldn’t deal with it. Things got really bad for me after that. Not only had I lost my boyfriend, but I didn’t really hang out with the best people. I smoked a lot of marijuana and drank until I couldn’t feel my emotions anymore. I was lost and wanted to drown my pain however I could. Ford knew it and that’s probably why he stayed away. I know that deep down inside he blames me for her death. I blame myself sometimes too. Indirectly, I suppose it was partly my fault. I never should have talked her into going to that party, and I certainly shouldn’t have coaxed her to drink. Ford and I were on the rocks, being that he was going to school so far away. The whole whirlwind of my life changed everything. In one moment I lost my first love and the family that I’d always considered my own.