Pulse 3 (Pulse Series) (17 page)

“…
I had lunch earlier today,” he said.

“
What did you have?”

“
Spinach and shrimp ravioli. Light-salad with a vinaigrette. Small glass of red wine.”

“
How was it?”

“
I don’t know. I just kind of shoved it down and…”

“
Got right back to work.”

“
Yeah…”

I put my hand up to his face. My fingers massaged his cheek. It felt like so long since I
’d seen him even though it was only a couple of days.

“
What are you doing here?” he asked me. “It’s still Sunday.”

“
I might ask you the same thing. Is there another important deal on the table that you had to spend your entire weekend here?”

“
Yes.”

“
Is it going to be bigger than the Peterman negotiations?”

“
Nothing is as big as that—”

“
Then why are you still here?”

“
Because it’s important.”

“
More important than Friday night?”

“
Friday? What are you…”

The confused look on Rafael
’s face disappeared as it dawned upon him. He shook his head and the regret in his eyes was obvious.

“
I’m sorry,” he said. “I forgot.”

“
Obviously.”

I couldn
’t hide my disappointment.

“
They’ll be back in town again,” he said. “I promise I’ll meet them when I get the chance.”

“
But you said that this deal wasn’t that big. How do I know that you’ll be able to walk away and actually take the time for me?”

“
Alice, you know that I have to work.”

“
I know that. But you could have taken a few hours away to yourself.”

“
Fine. I’ll take some time as soon as this deal is done.”

“
As soon as this deal is done, there will just be another one.”

“
What are you trying to say, Alice?”

Rafael looked at me and waite
d for my response. I turned to the window and looked out into the Sunday night sky.

“
There are people out there,” I said. “In their homes and on the street. In every restaurant and every cafe. They’re in their cars heading toward their destinations. An entire city of people enjoying the end of the weekend.

“
But you, the one person who can actually afford a night out, you’re… you’re still inside of your office, still working like you’re trying to get a promotion.”

“
Okay. I’ll take some time away and take a break. That’s what you want, right?”

“
And then you’ll just come running back to your office.”

“
It’s my job, Alice. What do you want me to do?”

“
I don’t want you to do anything. I just… None of this feels right.”

“
What?”

“
I work in this office all day. The only time I spend with you anymore is in this building. We eat here, we sleep here, you even bought a couch so that you could fuck me on it.”

“
Then take a break. Take some time away.”

“
I don’t want to take time away! Because this is the only chance I get to see you!”

My emotions finally began to boil over. I knew how needy and demanding I sounded but I couldn
’t fight it anymore. I could feel my whole body shaking as I stood there in front of him. Rafael placed his hands on my shoulders to try and calm me down.

“
Alice, please…”

“
I… I just need some time to think. I need to take a break.”

“
A break? From your job or from me?”

“
What’s the difference?”

I pulled myself free from his arms. I couldn
’t think straight. I ran my fingers through my hair as I walked toward the exit to his office. I could feel Rafael pacing after me.

“
Alice, just tell me why you’re so upset?”

He grabbed my arms and turned me around.

“I just want my boyfriend.”

“
I’m right here, Alice.”

“
You’re not my boyfriend. You’re just my boss.”

“
Alice—”

I struggled in his grip but Rafael tightened it upon me. He held me tight and pressed his lips against me. I tried to pull my face from his but couldn
’t. He was too strong and too powerful. At the same time, I was still fighting the same desire I had inside of me that I always had. I wanted him to let go of me but he wouldn’t.

“
I can’t,” I said, my voice muffled underneath his lips.

“
Yes, you can.”

He grabbed at my blouse and massaged my breasts. His fingers rubbed the ma
terial and continued to stir the arousal within me. His other hand dug into my skirt. He quickly found his place between my panties and pussy, his fingers rubbing my clitoris.

“
Please…” I begged him. “I just… I need to… leave…”

“
Why?” he whispered into my ear. “I’m right here. Isn’t this what you want?”

“
I… I don’t know…”

I wasn
’t able to comprehend what was going on. The pleasure racking my body was undeniable. Logic was flying out of my head and all I cared about was how good he made me feel.

He unbuttoned my blouse and exposed my bra. He yanked my bra down and I gasped as one of my breasts became exposed. He leaned his head down and swallowed my nipple. I sighed as I grabbed the back of his head with both of my hands. He worked me over with h
is mouth, his hand still digging into my skirt.

It was no use. I was powerless. I was overwhelmed. All I wanted was just one thing.

Rafael pulled his mouth away from my nipple, the pink flesh now swollen and wet. He freed his hand from my skirt and grabbed my hair with both of his hands. With my head tight in his grip, he kissed me deep and hard. His tongue swirled inside of my mouth and the arousal in me burned even hotter.

I gasped as he pulled my face away from his. I stared into his eyes and lost myself.

“What do you want, Alice?” he whispered.

“
I want…”

“
What do you want, Alice?”

“
I…”

“
Say it…”

“
I want you to fuck me…”

For a split-second, I felt a moment of resentment. But it quickly went away as he pressed his lips against mine once again. His hands still on my hair, he led me toward the couch on the side of his office. He threw me upon it. I tried to turn around to lo
ok at him but he grabbed me and turned me again. He forced me onto my knees upon the cushions, my hands resting just above the back of the couch.

I sat there, bent over, as I waited for Rafael to continue. My body vibrated with anticipation. He grabbed hold
of my panties and skirt and with one violent tug, he pulled them down around my knees. Before I could react, Rafael pushed his face between my legs. I felt his tongue slide between my ass. The sensation was a new experience but not completely objectionable. I groaned in ecstasy, my fingers struggling to maintain their grip on the edge of the couch.

He worked his tongue in and around me. Up and down, long and wet strokes pushed my desire even further. I didn
’t want him to stop. Even if I did, I couldn’t. My mind was gone. Even with my eyes wide open, my vision was hazy and clouded.

Rafael pushed his tongue further into my anus. Up until now, the forbidden nature of what laid hidden between my ass cheeks was something I never considered. He puckered his lips
and trailed kisses between my legs to make sure that I couldn’t resist.

He finally pulled his head away and I could hear the sound of him unbuckling his belt.

“I’m going to fuck you in the ass, Alice.”

I didn
’t say anything. Instead, I closed my eyes and grinded my hips in anxious anticipation.

“
I said I’m going to fuck your ass. Is that what you want?”

He leaned forward and gripped my head in his hands. I gasped as he turned my head toward his.

“Yes,” I whispered to him. “That’s what I want.”

“
Then that’s what I’m going to give you.”

He pressed the tip of his cock to my anus. It forced a grunt out of me. He pushed it even deeper. I could feel it stretching to accommodate him. I didn
’t know how he was going to make it fit but he was pushing to make room.

I b
it down on my lips and shut my eyes tight. Rafael gripped my hips and shoved himself into me. My eyes began to water. The feeling was indescribable. I wanted to enjoy it but my muscles were too tight.

“
Just relax,” he whispered to me. “Just relax…”

He push
ed himself deeper into me until finally I felt the base of his cock pressing against my ass. With him resting firmly inside of me, he held the full length of his cock there and didn’t move. I took slow and deep breaths to try and maintain control. Rafael reached around my waist and massaged my clitoris. The feeling of his fingers increased the pleasure I felt and momentarily made me forget about being stretched out.

The walls of my insides contracted as he slowly slid himself out of me. But without warning,
he shoved himself back in. My entire body shifted as I grunted. I didn’t have time to respond to the pleasure and pain as Rafael began to take slow and controlled strokes. Before I realized it, he was moving back and forth inside of me in a slow and steady rhythm.

The pain began to subside as I grew more accustomed to his size. The grunts were replaced with groans. The unintelligible sound coming from my lungs was my way of telling him to keep going.

Rafael complied. He banged his body against me and eventually, his strokes were the same as any of our other sessions. He fucked my ass just like he did my pussy. The ecstasy from the agony he initially put me through was worth it.

Rafael grew louder. The
amount of work he was putting in was obvious. I could feel him twitching and throbbing inside of me. He increased his speed and suddenly, I could feel him close to the edge.

With a few hard and short thrusts, Rafael exploded inside of me. His semen spilled
against my walls. The wetness dripping in and out of me was enough to make me tighten around him. I milked him for every drop he had. I’d never wanted a man to finish inside of me so bad before.

After a few short seconds, the feeling dissipated. His hard
length no longer strained against me as much as it did before and he slowly pulled out of me. I collapsed on the couch, my arms no longer able to hold me up. As I rolled over to look at him, I watched as he zipped himself back up. My skirt and panties rested against my knees. I could only imagine what I looked like to him.

As I watched Rafael compose himself, I suddenly found myself back where I started. Feelings of guilt replaced the feelings of ecstasy I had just moments before. I enjoyed it but it didn
’t feel right. I felt empty. Rafael must have seen the disappointment on my face.

“
What’s wrong?” he asked me. “Did you not enjoy it?”

“
I did.”

“
Then what’s the problem?”

“
That’s
the problem.”

I slowly made my way back up to my feet and pulled my outfit back
on. I stood up straight and looked into Rafael’s eyes.

“
We’ve been dating for how long now?” I asked him. “You fucked me in the middle of a stairwell the first time. Now the only difference is you’re doing it in your office. Nothing has changed. Nothing is different. I still feel like a whore.”

“
Alice, don’t say that.”

“
It’s true. It’s just the sex. That’s all it was from the start. And that’s all it is now. Being my boss hasn’t changed anything. I thought there was more but…”

I regained my composure. I st
raightened my outfit as best I could. He stood there and stared at me, waiting to see what I was going to do next.

I only needed a few seconds to think about it.

I made my way over to his desk. I reached for the bracelet around my wrist and took it off. Then I placed it down on all of the papers and files he was always dealing with. I took a deep breath and sighed. The entire time I could feel him watching me. I didn’t know if there were a right answer. Maybe I was asking too much from him. All I knew was that I couldn’t take it any longer and it was just something I had to do.