Obsession: Loving An Alpha Male (20 page)

I think Josh has created a sex monster in me.

With everything that had happened, I should be ringing him a new one. I had so many questions that I wanted and needed to have answered, like how long did he know the truth about me? I needed to find out if he put my life in danger.

I wanted to know who Josh really was, why did he lie to me, and what else did he lie about? And more importantly, was he still lying? And the main issue that we needed to talk about was the fact that we just had unprotected sex like a bunch of times. What the hell?

But all that had escaped me and continued to escape me every time he put his lips on mine or every time he invaded my personal space, like now for instance. Earlier I wanted him, and when he walked through my door, I took what I wanted. But now, lying here next to him I still felt like I was unfulfilled. And heaven knew I shouldn’t feel that way. I mean, sex with Josh was so amazing, so exhausting, I couldn’t imagine functioning with him around all the time. When I was around him that was all I thought about. How his hands felt when he caressed me. How his lips felt when he kissed my lips, neck, shoulders, chest, breasts, nipples, oh hell, I loved it when he kissed my entire body, and most of all, that sensitive part of my body that seemed to cream the moment he smiled at me.

So to satisfy my hunger, I got up and went to the bathroom. I cleaned myself, brushed my teeth and brought a hot rag with me. When I approached the bed, Josh was still asleep lying on his back with one arm over his eyes and the other lying to his side. The sheet draped lazily on his hips, covering but not hiding, the semi–erection that was drawing me. I licked my lips and moved slowly over his body. When my lips connected to his collarbone, I felt him move slightly, which excited me. I smiled and kept my eyes on him until I heard him moan and felt his hands move to my head and in my hair.

God, this man is fine.
Even with his short hair tussled all over his head, and the sleepy look, he still looked good. The urge to satisfy him came over me as it always did, and I moved my lips and tongue over my playground, which if you didn’t know was his body.

His pecs were something of a legend in my eyes. And his abs… man, they were formed and beautiful and they showed how much power he had running through him. And the scars that I’d finally noticed told stories that I knew were unbelievable. I ran my tongue down the center of his stomach. At the same time, I moved the sheet, revealing his impressive hard on.

When I wrapped my hands around him, I grabbed my washrag and began wiping him off. I felt his body vibrate, and I looked up into an amused expression.

I shook my head. “Don’t judge me,” I told him.

“I wouldn’t dare. Just make sure you don’t miss a spot.”

I squeezed my hand tighter and moved it up on his shaft, getting a sharp hiss as a response.

“Behave,” I told him admonishing him.

His smile grew bigger. “Yes, ma’am.”

I tossed the washrag somewhere and gripping my favorite ride on my playground, I descended until the tip was at my mouth. I looked at him and watched his already dark eyes grow darker as I licked the tip with my tongue.

The first time he showed me how to please him, I was a little uneasy and hesitant but curious. I wanted to know what made him feel good, what could make him lose his cool and self–control. Giving a man a blowjob I knew was a skill that you needed to craft, so when I was in college I used to watch some of Wayne’s pornos to teach myself.

There’s nothing like the real thing though, but it helped to know the basics. Learning how to relax the throat was hard, but believe it or not, I practiced. Don’t ask how or what I used to practice with, just know I practiced. The first time I went down on Josh, I let him show me what he liked. This time, I was going to show him what I liked.

Looking at him watch me, I licked him from the bottom of his shaft slowly up to the top, leaving no part of his love stick… yes, I said love stick, uncovered. Then as he moaned his appreciation, I slowly took him in my mouth and traveled down his shaft.

“Shit, baby, yesssss…”

Josh’s hands gripped the sheet tight next to his waist as I moved up and down, slowly making sure my tongue licked around his head like he liked.

I know what you’re going to say… I was doing nothing special, and I wasn’t, not really. So, as Josh was relaxing and enjoying my mouth, I decided to step it up. I gave him a good lick from head to bottom then when I took him into my mouth I took him as deep as his length would let me, and I felt Josh get tense.

“What the hell, baby? You’ve been holding…” he didn’t finish his statement as I added my hand to meet my mouth as I went down on him.

I created a nice rhythm combo with my mouth and hand as I added moisture from my mouth as well as making sure I used my tongue. I didn’t give him a chance to relax, and I didn’t let up. I started playing with his balls and got the reaction that I wanted.

Josh started losing his mind. He moved and squirmed, as he gripped the sheets, then placed his hands in my hair while gripping my strands, as I moved up and down him, making wet sounds and a humming noise with my throat.

“Fuck…Sweets, you are driving me fucking crazy with that mouth… Ahhhhhh… Damn…” Josh groaned deeply and gritted through his teeth word combinations that I didn’t think made sense, but I loved that I was doing this to him.

I wanted to think that I was the only one that could do this to him, but I knew that couldn’t be the case.

I got up on my knees for added leverage and simply concentrated my hands and mouth to bring him to a climax. Suddenly I felt him swell in my mouth.

He started growling at me. “Sweets, if you don’t stop, I’m going to come in your– Fuck me. Ohhhh shittttt!”

He closed his eyes and brought his head back as I deep throated him and made a sucking motion right before I felt him release. I swallowed him eagerly, making sure I got every drop.

When I sat up and licked my lips, Josh grabbed me by my waist, turned and brought me underneath him.

He was breathing heavy, and I could still see the effects of a sated unhinged man, and I did that!

“Holy shit, Sweets. You’ve been holding out on me. I thought you said you’ve never done that before.” He breathed out.

I smiled. “I haven’t.”

“Baby, the shit you did was better than… Let’s just say it’s not what someone who doesn’t know what they’re doing should know.”

My smile and my head got bigger.

I said to him, “I never said I didn’t know how to do it, I just never done it on a man that’s all.” Josh looked confused, and I just said to him, “Pornos.”

He laughed and buried his head in my neck. He mumbled, “You are unbelievable. I’m so glad you’re mine.”

My breath caught, and as he rose to meet my eyes I knew they were wide as saucers. Josh, still on his elbows half on me and half off, touched the side of my face and gently caressed it. He wore one of the most endearing looks on his face.

I felt my eyes start to water.

He said, “I don’t know what you’re thinking, Sweets, but for me, there’s no one I would rather be with than you. I’ve never wanted or desired a woman as much as you. Whether you like it or not, right now, right here, I’m officially claiming you.” He moved his hand from my cheek and slowly caressed my body. “I’m claiming this body, your mind, your spirit,” he leaned down and kissed my chest. “Your heart…” he smiled and touched my lips with his index finger and said, “I’m claiming these lips and everything that comes with them.” He leaned in closer where his lips were inches from mine. He whispered, “You will not kiss another man the way you kissed me earlier.” I couldn’t help but smile as well as turn a few shades darker than usual. “These lips are dangerous, baby.”

“You will not do what you just did with this mouth to anyone else but me.”

He climbed on top of me and pushed my legs open with his knees so he could settle between them. He eased into me slowly, and I arched my back and closed my eyes at the invasion.

He started moving his hips slowly. “This pussy is mine. You will not give it to anyone else but me.”

He moved his lips to my neck and took one of my legs from his hips up to his shoulders. It was that moment that the beast that I seemed to have awakened, thoroughly unleashed pleasures I’d been thinking about ever since I started playing on my playground.

****

After a long sexing session and a shower, in which I was reminded how strong this man really was, as he kept me tight and up against the wall of the shower until we both climaxed, we finally came up for some air.

We ordered pizza, and he went to pick it up while I changed my sheets and lit some candles. I didn’t know if my apartment smelled like the sexfest we had, so I tried to air it out and freshen up the place a little bit.

Josh finally made it back with a six–pack of beer in one hand and two pizzas in another. I licked my lips watching how his jeans hung low on his hips, and the tank top style t–shirt that revealed all his muscled glory.

“Behave yourself, woman,” Josh told me, smirking.

I laughed and grabbed the beer from his hands as he set the pizzas on my dining room table.

We had eaten a few pieces in silence until finally I figured it was time to have this talk. I was sitting Indian style on my couch while Josh was sprawled on my floor with a few pillows propping him up enough to drink from the bottle he had resting on his chest.

I took a deep breath and asked him, “How long have you known?”

Josh looked over at me but didn’t reply at first. I wondered at first if he heard my question. Josh then sat up from the floor and stood up. He walked around to the other side of the couch and sat next to me. He faced me and placed his beer on the table.

“I’ve had my suspicions that something was up, so I had Junior look into your background. I learned who you were right after our first date.”

I shook my head. “God, and you didn’t say anything?”

“Sweets, there wasn’t anything to say. Yes, I looked into your background, but that didn’t tell me shit about you…. I wanted to know what kind of danger you were in because you were so tight lipped about it. I felt the need to protect you, and fuck if I wasn’t going to learn who I was protecting you from.” I didn’t say anything to that, and he continued, “Then I had Junior look into your ex.”

“Why?” I interrupted.

“I told you, I wanted make sure you were safe, and I was going to make that happen.”

I shook my head. “And how would you have done that?”

“I have my ways,” Josh replied dryly.

“Josh, I know you want to help me, but there’s no way you could do that. Don’t you think I’ve thought of many ways I could get back at him for doing the things he’s done.” I shook my head. “He’s untouchable. His father is connected to every political name you could mention.”

Josh sighed as if he was holding onto patience that was wearing thin.

He managed to keep his tone even and said, “Sweets, to be honest, I don’t give a fuck who he is or his father. You don’t deserve to be walking around here afraid to live your life. You shouldn’t have to be in hiding, away from your family and the life you’ve known.”

I shook my head. “Believe me, my life wasn’t anything to write home about. As a matter of fact, my life sucked.”

“It doesn’t matter, you had the choice taken away from you, and it’s time for that shit to be over,” Josh said and took my hand in his and squeezed it.

I said softly, “I just don’t want to see you hurt because of me. Noah and his father are vicious, and they don’t care who they hurt or who they destroy to get what they want.”

Josh moved closer to me and kissed me lightly on the lips.

He said to me, while keeping his mouth inches from mine, “I love that you care about my well–being, Sweets, but I’m not the one you should worry about.”

He kissed me a couple more times, then backed away.

I stared in his eyes, and the look that greeted me told me he meant every word. Josh had a dark side, I knew, and even though I hadn’t seen it, I knew it was there. I shivered at the thought of what he really was capable of.

Josh sat back a little and said, “Tell me about you and Noah.”

I stood and shook my head. “There’s nothing to tell. I told you I met him through my father. His company employed my father’s to manage their revenue and investments. I’m sure this is something that you know already.”

“Yes I do, so you know that’s not what I want to know. I want to know about you and him, Sweets. Namely, I want to know how the fuck he got to put his hands on you.”

I sighed deeply and stood at my counter with my back to him. I didn’t want to look at him, knowing exactly what was in his eyes. I knew what he wanted to know, but just the thought of telling him made the food we just ate start to travel back up my esophagus.

I jumped slightly when I felt Josh’s hand on my shoulder, and as I turned, I put my head down not wanting to meet his eyes. Of course, Josh, being who he was, gripped me by my hips and settled me on top of the counter positioning himself between my legs. Wow! A little déjà vu, huh? He tilted my head up forcing me to look at him.