Infinite Desire (31 page)

Not
being able to sleep, I leave Savannah resting and head down to the nursery.
Walking in, I quickly get to work washing my hands and giving the nurses a
quiet hello. I sit down in one of the glider chairs as the nurses’ wheel them
over to me.

I
spend the next hour taking turns rockin’ and feedin’ them before finally givin’
in to my exhaustion and headin’ back down to Savannah’s room to get some rest.

Everyone
will be back tomorrow during visiting hours to meet the twins. I talked to
Savannah’s parents earlier when we first got to the hospital. They’re flying in
first thing this morning. I need to rest up now, because God knows we’ll have
Brooklyn here bright and early, and her stubborn ass won’t want to leave until
the nurses make her.

~~~

Savannah

I’m
lying on the sectional feeding Brayden a bottle, when I spot Kayden walking
into the family room with look of disgust on his face. Looking down at me he
says, “I think Colton pooped.”

Laughing,
I smile up at my gorgeous husband giving him an impish grin, “Well, there are
wipes and diapers over on their pack n’ play.”

“You
want me to change him?” Awe, my poor husband! He has been spoiled having our mothers
here helping with the twins. Today we gave them the afternoon off to go out for
lunch. It’s the first time Kayden and I have been alone without any help since
we came home two weeks ago.

“Yup,
oh and don’t forget to put his pee-pee cone on unless you want an afternoon shower.”
I can’t contain my laughter as a look of utter shock spreads across his face.

“Okay
big guy, Daddy’s going to change your diaper, go easy on me okay?” I can’t stop
smiling as I hear Kayden talking to Colton the entire time he’s changing him.

It’s
a gorgeous afternoon, so we’re getting the babies all fed and changed so we can
take them for a walk over to the stables to meet Mack and Cheyanne. Brooklyn
will be here soon enough to lend me an extra pair of hands, while Kayden goes
into the office later.

Since
we came home, I barely have a second to shower let out alone breathe. The boys
are up every three hours; but I wouldn’t change a minute of it. Becoming a
mother has been the most rewarding thing to ever happen to me.

“Oh…God!”
Kayden shouts gagging as he is trying to wipe Colton’s butt.

Smiling
down at Brayden, watching as he eagerly drinks from his bottle, I whisper,
“Look at Daddy, he’s trying so hard, do you think I should go save him before
he pukes all over your poor brother?” Brayden stares up at me intently with his
big blue eyes looking as if he’s telling me,
yes go help Daddy
.

Both
boys have blue eyes, but the doctor said they could change to green; it’ll be a
few months before we know for sure.

Standing
I make my way over to Kayden and gently rub my hand across his face, “Here,
take Brayden and burp him; I’ll finish changing Colton’s diaper.”

Kayden
sighs with relief and happily takes Brayden into his arms, “That is just
fuckin’ nasty. Baby poop is just downright gross, it gets everywhere. Do I have
that many creases baby?! Baby, whoever we hire for a nanny, we’re going to have
to invest in hazard pay, for her having to change these two poopin’ machines.”

I
let out a small chuckle as I finish cleaning Colton up and get him redressed.
“There, he’s all changed, Daddy. Are you ready to go show these two lil’
buckaroos’ the horses?”

Walking
up to me, Kayden snakes his arm around my waist, while holding Brayden like a
football in the other arm. “Do you think they’re too young to go for a ride with
Daddy?” He asks fluttering kisses along my jaw sending shivers up my spin. We
have four more weeks of no sex…it’s already been a very long two weeks. I don’t
know how we’ll get through four more. Kayden needs to stop looking so freakin’
irresistible all the damn time.

That’s
my only solution.

“I
think we better wait a few more months before we start putting them on horses,
they’re too little.” I laugh, as he follows me out to the strollers pouting.

“Mommy’s
no fun.” He says, looking from Brayden to Colton as we strap them all in.

I
just laugh and shake my head. I love this man even when he’s trying to drive me
absolutely insane.

Fourth of July 2015

Savannah

These
last fourteen months have been a whirlwind. So much has happened since the
twins were born. After my six week maternity leave was up, I went back to my
routine of working during the week from home, and flying to Los Angeles every
Friday. Traveling with the twins every week; even with our nanny Sylvia, was
hard, so after a lot of consideration I decided to leave Envy. It was the
hardest decision I’ve ever had to make, but like they say, when one door
closes, another door opens.

After
a lot of contemplation and long nights of brain storming with Kayden, I decided
to start my own magazine:
Savvy Baby
. Once I became a mother, I
discovered that it’s hard to find a great magazine that covers everything from
baby tips to hot trends for moms and kids. We just celebrated one year since
publishing our first issue. It has been the most exhilarating experience.

I’ve
even had a ton of my celebrity friends, who are also moms, ask to do a special
mom-centered interview. I graced the cover of our first issue with Brayden and
Colton when they were just one month old. I have that cover framed and hanging
in my office, which is on the ninth floor of the Beaumont Industries building. It’s
great ‘cause we can get together with Kayden for lunch dates.

One
weekend a month, we fly to LA and stay with my parents so they can see the
twin’s and we can get together with Reagan. Rebecca moved to Houston a few
months ago. I couldn’t believe it when she took me up on my offer to come work
for me. I know Jax probably had something to do with it because he’d been
trying for months to get her to move to Houston and live with him.

We’re
in Memphis right now for my parents’ annual Fourth of July Picnic and Bar-B-Q,
but this year we’re doing it at our new house. We just finished it last month,
and I couldn’t wait to come and stay for a few weeks to get away with Kayden
and the twins. Our house is exactly as I’d imagined it to be; I’m absolutely in
love with it. It’s rustic and outdoorsy for Kayden, but a country chic feel to
it for me. It’s perfect!

Brooklyn,
Dixon, Jax, and Rebecca all flew in with us to stay for the weekend. All my
aunts, uncles, and cousin’s came in from all over Tennessee. Colton and Brayden
are having a blast playing with all the kids.

I
keep asking Brooklyn when she and Dixon are finally going to try for a baby so
we can have play dates together, but she keeps saying maybe next year. She’s
been so busy lately with work; I can’t blame her. She just landed a major movie
about the life of Elvis and Pricilla Presley; which is ironic since she and
Dixon were married by an Elvis impersonator. She’s hoping this will be the big
movie to help her gain more box office roles.

Mya
and Braxton just had a baby last month, a little girl they named Delia. She’s
the sweetest little thing ever. It makes me miss when the twins were that tiny.
Now they’re little chunky monkeys’ running around tiring mommy and daddy out.
Maybe down the road we’ll try for a little girl, but for right now the boys are
keeping us busy enough.

We’re
all sitting at the picnic tables, watching the boys stumble around trying to
chase my Cousin Amy’s daughter Sarah, who just turned nine. She’s having a
blast playing with the boys; all little girls at that age love babies. The boys
are definitely keeping her busy; they’re just as wild and rough as their daddy.
I swear their energy is never ending.

They
are the spitting image of one another so we have to keep them in designated
colors to help us and everyone else tell them apart. They have brown hair, like
their daddy, and the same gorgeous green…mischievous eyes. Today, Colton’s
wearing a red Fourth of July muscle shirt and patriotic swimming trunks and
Brayden’s wearing the same, but in blue.

So
far it’s working, but I’m dreading when they get older and decide to play games
on us or their teachers, and pretend to be each other. With these two, I know
it’s going to happen.

“You
want another Twisted Tea?” Kayden asks, as he presses a kiss to my lips,
standing to grab another Corona. 

I
graze my fingers over his day old stubble, smiling up at his tantalizing green
eyes; they always look even more radiant out in the sunshine. “Sure. Thanks, Baby.”

Brooklyn
plops down beside me, handing me a burnt hot dog covered in ketchup, my
favorite. “Here bitch, eat something. We don’t need you drinking on an empty
stomach and getting all wasted.”

I
bump my shoulder into hers, “Excuse me. I’ve only had one Twisted Tea so far,
and my parents are taking the boys to their house tonight so we can hang out by
the bon fire and shoot off fireworks.”

Rolling
her eyes, she swallows a bite of hotdog before continuing her spiel, “All I’m
saying is, don’t get too drunk. Since you had those twins, and aren’t drinking
every weekend, you’ve become a light-weight. I for one don’t want to spend my
Fourth of July holding your hair while you’re face is buried where no face
belongs.”      

Walking
back towards us with a plate full of food, and our drinks under his arm, Kayden
gives us a curious look before sitting back down beside me. Handing me my
Twisted Tea, he looks from Brooklyn to me, “Do I even want to know?” He asks,
his voice dripping with sarcasm.

Chewing
my hot dog, I glance at Kayden and shake my head no. He lets out a low chuckle,
and dives into his food.

Half
way through my hot dog Brayden starts crying. Setting my food down; I make my
way over to him, picking him up and giving him a small smile, I run my hand
over his head, “What’s the matter baby, you ready for your nap?” I turn towards
my mother, who’s tossing her plate into the garbage, and yell over to her, “Can
you help me put the boys down for their nap?”

Nodding,
she says, “Sure honey.” Picking up Colton, we make our way inside and get them
laid down for a nap. Grabbing my baby monitor, I head back out and rejoin everyone.

It’s
close to a hundred degrees today, so as soon as we finish eating, I give my
mother the monitor, and we all head down to the dock where Kayden has our speed
boat. We spend the next two hours tubing around the pond. After everyone left,
we sat around the fire. I gladly snuggled with Kayden in an Adirondack chair,
and watched the spectacular fireworks show that Jax set off for us all.

This
has to be by far the best Fourth of July ever; I cannot wait to fill our new
house with photos from today…like my parents, we are making this our Fourth of
July tradition.

~~~

Three years and three months later

Kayden

“You
boys ready to go watch the Texans kick some butt!?” Scooping Colton and Brayden
up in my arms, I carry them downstairs to the living room.

They
look so frickin’ awesome in their jerseys. Brayden’s wearing Braxton’s number
24 with his last name West on it and Colton’s diehard JJ Watt fan so he is
wearing his number 99 game jersey. My boys are only four but they love their
Texas football just as much as their daddy. If its football season, I am on the
couch with my boys watching every college game on Saturday and pro games on
Sunday, teaching them the rules of the game. They are so smart, they already
understand it all! Savannah makes sure she keeps us supplied with snacks and
juice boxes…I love my life.

“Kayden,
are the boys all ready to go?” I hear the sound of my sexy ass wife yelling
down to me from Kaydence’s nursery.

Walking
over to the bottom of the stairs, I shout up, “Yup, they’re all dressed and
ready for some tailgating.”

God
blessed us with Kaydence Melody eight months ago; she is just as beautiful as
her mommy: blonde hair with the cutest little ringlets clinging to her head and
the biggest
bring you to your knees
eyes. I can already tell I’m in
trouble. With just one look, I’m putty in my baby girl’s tiny little hands.
But, I wouldn’t have it any other way…She’s my doll.

I
couldn’t believe it when Savannah found out she was pregnant again; we’d only
tried for two months. Like I told her before, I got some super fuckin’
swimmers. When we learned it was a girl I was over the fuckin’ moon, we had our
twin boys, so a baby girl would be a perfect addition to our amazing family.
When Savannah mentioned naming her after me and giving her Melody for her
middle name, I was shocked. I have the best fuckin’ wife ever…No doubt about
it. 

Our
nanny Sylvia will be staying at the house with Kaydence while we take the boys
to the game. Brooklyn and Dixon are meeting us here then we’ll all head to
Reliant Stadium for some great food and beer, while tossin’ the pig skin around
before the game starts. I love tailgating almost as much as I love watching the
game.

It
kills me every Sunday to not be out there playing alongside my best friend, but
what can you do? When God throws a speed bump into your life, you just gotta
hold on and keep movin’.

I
get the boys all buckled in to their seats and get to work loading the back of
the truck with all the coolers, cookers, chairs and a tent. Just as I’m closing
the tailgate I spot Savannah bouncing down the front stairs looking as sexy as
ever in her tight 99 Watt Jersey and painted on blue jeans. Her hair is pulled
up into a ponytail. I love it when she wears it down so I can run my hands
through it, but she’s been wearing it up a lot more because Kaydence loves to
pull mommy’s hair.

“Hey
babe, we’re all ready to hit the road, just waitin’ on Dixon and Brooklyn.” I
say; holding her against me and cupping the back of her neck with my hand as I
pull her in for a kiss. Almost six years together and her kisses still do crazy
things to my body. Just as I dart my tongue into her mouth, deepening our kiss,
I hear the roar of Dixon’s Silverado comin’ up our driveway.

He’s
constantly bustin’ my balls for drivin’ Fords. He’s a Chevy man through and
through, but I just love my new Ford F-150 Supercab. Savannah got it for me
this past summer for my birthday. It’s high-gloss black, chrome trim and the
tailgate has a custom graphic of one big-ass orange Longhorn logo.

She
lets out the sweetest little moan as my lips leave hers; I squeeze her tight
little ass and whisper into her ear, “I’ll fuck ya good and hard tonight baby.”

She
lets out a small laugh, and nibbles on her lip. God, when she bites down on her
plump bottom lip, it drives me fuckin’ crazy. “Is that a guarantee, Knox?” She
asks, flashing me a sultry smile.

“You
bet your fuckin’, sweet ass it is.” If we didn’t have to get to the stadium,
I’d be carrying her back inside for a quickie.

Dixon
helps Brooklyn out of the truck and she waddles over to us with Dixon right
beside her, she’s 9 months pregnant and lookin’ ready to pop. She and Dixon are
donning Braxton’s number 24.

Savannah
wiggles out of my embrace and runs to Brooklyn; resting her palm over
Brooklyn’s baby bump, she says, “How’s lil’ Miss. Charlotte Emmaline treating
mommy today?”

Dropping
her gaze to her belly Brooklyn tells her, “She’s been beating my ribs all
freaking day. I cannot wait for her to finally decide to come out! My due date
is in three days, but I don’t think she has plans to leave any time soon.”

I
love nothing more than riling Brooklyn up, so I lean back against my tailgate
and flash her a cocky grin, “Just try not to go into labor until after the
Texan’s beat the Titans asses, okay?”

Dixon
burst out laughing as Brooklyn shoots me the look of death. Her hormones are
raging and I wouldn’t put it past her to kick the shit out of me right here. I
let out a deep laugh right along with Dixon, as I run around the driver’s side
door. Opening the door, I jump up on step bar and peer over the hood of the
truck, “Are we going to stand around chit-chatting or are we gonna get our
asses to the fuckin’ stadium.”

“Don’t
get your panties in a twist, Knox.” Brooklyn shouts over her shoulder, as she
and Dixon head back to his truck.

~~~

After
spending hours drinkin’ beers and eating way too much food we all head into the
stadium to our seats just behind the players. The boys love these seats so they
can talk with Braxton and the other players.

Savannah’s
friend Kellie, from kickboxing, and her boyfriend met us at our tailgate party
and
they’re seats are right beside us for
the game. Kellie is madly obsessed with JJ Watt. I told him he may need to
watch out because I wouldn’t put it past her to jump the wall and tackle his
ass…Boyfriend or not.

Mya
was already in the stands, waiting for us, when we made our way down to our row
of seats.

I
prop Brayden up on my shoulders, and Dixon has Colton on his as the Titans kick
off. Colton is screaming to Watt who’s stretching in front of us, he turns and
flashes him a big smile as he sprints over to the side wall. He gives Colton his
ritual high five before the game.

“Hey,
West!” I shout, to Braxton who’s getting ready to go out onto the field with
the offense. He runs over to us, “Hey, y’all ready to see me run the ball over
some Titans?” He asks, as he gives Braxton and Colton high fives.

“You
go kick some butt, Uncle Braxton!” Brayden shouts, bursting with excitement.