Ignite Me: Shards of Glass, Part One (32 page)

I took a breath I was about to confess something I had never told anybody. “Before then, against the door, I've never had sex without a condom... I liked it! I could feel you properly does that make sense?! It felt so much more intense! Also, I've never really been that regular with having sex.” I chewed my lip as I thought.

He tugged my lip from between my teeth. “You will chap your lips!” He smiled as he stroked a hand over my face softly. “It makes perfect sense, but I feel bad now! I just assumed and had I of known I would have asked if it was okay! I hope I wasn't too rough, but I'm glad you enjoyed it, if you want we don't have to use condoms all the time! I want you to feel comfortable with what we do! I never had unprotected sex with anyone else aside from my last partner and no that wasn't Erin! I didn't trust her!” He kissed my lips softly. “Having a high sex drive doesn't make it wrong! We will challenge each other!”

I moved closer to him, his tie was all wonky and his shirt creased. “You mean you thought she might try and trap you?!”

He nodded. “Yeah, she was kinda obsessed with me, that's why I cut her loose! She wanted all of this, all of the sweet and caring after sex stuff that I could never stand before! I mean I didn't want her stroking my face and telling me she had never felt anything like it and I didn't want to lay with her and hold her and tell her how much I loved her, or that she did things to my emotions that I wasn't aware was possible!” He grinned.

I ran my fingers over his tie undoing it and pulling it loose. “Why am I so special Cameron?! I don't get it! Why do you want all this with me?!” I was confused by the fact he had been having sex with all these women but had never once held them like he did me, it did make some things make sense, though, the way he had been about washing his own hair, he'd never experienced that before! Or any of this. He was learning as we went along.

He stroked the back of his fingers down my cheek, his eyes wide. “Simply because I love you darling! I fell in love with you the moment you told me you'd hit that cretinous arsehole for taking advantage of a minor that you didn't even know! When I touched you that night to fix your finger, I wanted you there and then, but I didn't just imagine me fucking you over my desk, I imagined you and me together, both grappling for control and I liked it! I knew it that night you were too scared to knock on the door after you realised you'd left the ring behind! You were confused and walked away, I knew deep down I had kept the ring so I would have an excuse to see you again! I still have it!” He took hold of my hand and kissed it.

I had never been the type of girl that would cry over something a man said to me, in fact the me from a few weeks ago would laugh at the me now and tell her to get a grip but hot unwanted tears rolled down my face. I tried to stop myself from crying by closing my eyes.

“Evan?! You're crying?!!” He used his tie to clean the tears away, but the gesture just made me cry even more.

“Did I say something bad?!” He sounded so confused. “Was I that rough with you?! I tried not to be... fuck.”

I took a breath and opened my eyes to look at him, his face was hovering over mine concern all over it.

“No, not at all, it was a lovely thing to say! I'm crying because I'm happy! Happy that we just had amazing sex and because you actually opened up to me! I have never felt like this before! I love you Cameron!” I smiled.

He closed his eyes for a second, the smile spreading across his face. “I love you too! Hearing you say that just makes me feel like I'm finally alive! Finally have someone that I want to share my life with!” He used my hand and pulled me to lay flush to him, forehead to forehead.

I had never felt so centred by a man. “I am glad you want to share things with me, I want to share my life with you too! I feel like I was always meant to meet you, like everything in my life was just working up to you! I've never wished to be possessed by anyone before but for you I would happily!” I snuggled into him. I felt on top of the world.

“Evan I don't wish to possess you I just wish to love you!” He stoked my hair.

I sighed happily. “So what desk did you have in mind that night?! Just out of interest!” I giggled.

He chuckled. “Oh well desk duty will come soon enough my love!” He stroked my back. “But right now, we need to take a shower, then eat that food you so kindly brought for us!” He kissed my lips softly, his lips brushing mine.

I savoured the taste of his lips on mine, how they felt as he applied a little more pressure as I kissed him back.

“Let's get you washed, do you feel okay?!” He glanced down at me.

I understood he was asking if I was sore from the sex. I was a little but not that badly. “I'll just take some pain killers and I'll be fine! It's just cause you’re bigger than what I'm used to!” I rolled my eyes as he smirked.

“Well a man always likes to hear that my darling but my ego aside I should have asked first.”

I shook my head. “It's fine! I wanted to just as much as you!”

After a shower we sat in the lounge area eating the now warmed up bagels. I was dosed up on painkillers to which he’d insisted on me taking.

“So what have you got planned over the weekend Evan?!” He took a huge bite out of his half of the bacon and Bree.

I swallowed my mouth full of food. “Uh, well um I thought I might go shopping Saturday afternoon.” I smirked. “I've got something on order that I think you'll love!” I had put the order in for the underwear Jess had told me about.

He raised a brow. “Hmm by that sexy smirk I'd guess it's something I get to enjoy on you?!” He grinned at me.

I laughed. “Rumbled! But you don't get to know what it is until I show you! Also, I kinda said I would meet Damon for pizza he really wants to talk about his ex-girlfriend. She's in the hospital!” I glanced up at him through my eyelashes. His face was almost impassive.

“I really hate the idea of him being anywhere near you when I'm out of town but I know I trust you! Why's his ex in the hospital?!” He placed his hand over mine.

I linked my fingers through his. This was the best I could hope for. “She took an overdose, I think she thought it would get him back! He's kinda cut up about it, I think he blames himself!”

He raised a brow. “Oh, I see. So when I'm at my parents being bored out of my brain can I ring you say sat evening?!”

I smiled at him shyly. “Of course you can! If you’re very lucky I might send you photos!” I winked.

He moaned. “Oh, I will look forward to that! I will miss you, when I come back late Sunday evening, could I come and see you?! I've never wanted to spend this much time with anyone before, I enjoy your company.” He smiled.

I grinned. “I'll give you my spare key!” I picked up my bag and rummaged around digging out the key. “That way you can just come on up without asking for me to let you in! Keep the key, and thanks for my key card too, Jones gave it to me before.”

He looked at the key with interest. “I will keep this safe. You are welcome! I want you to feel comfortable enough that if you wanna escape for a while you can come here anytime you wish! I will never turn you away! I like it much better when you're here!”

I smiled happily at him. “I've only stayed one night, but thanks, I will remember that.” My bag sat open on the sofa and it reminded me of the shirts I had shoved in there. “Oh hey, I dug these out! I figured I would give your sister one to wear tonight! She can keep it! I've got loads of these! I helped run their merch stall a few years back! It's what I wanted to go back home for to dig them out!” I pulled them both out, and unfolded them.

He looked at them with genuine interest. “Oh, she is gonna love you! You'll be all she talks about all weekend! I hope that when she sees us together as a couple she will be able to tell that we are serious and tell my parents that! Not that I should have to get approval of my parents, via my little sister, but I want them to like you! You are genuine and if they can't see that then it's their loss!”

I puffed out my cheeks. “No pressure then! I know I'm not and never will be like Miss A Line skirt or have any major heritage, but I have something that is better than any of that! I have love for you and what you do! I won't lie, I know they won't like me and it will crush me a little inside, but you love me and that's all I care about.” I glance up at him.

He stroked his fingers down my cheek. “I don't want them to taint you! Your spirit is what makes you unique! I will never allow them to take you from me!”

I was silent for a few seconds before a smile spread across my face. “Oh trust me, I won't let anyone tell me how to be, not even you and no one will take me from you.” I didn’t quite get what he’d meant by that.

He laughed as he stole the last of bit of my bagel. “Oh, I know that darling, trust me, I know that!” He smirked as he popped the stolen food in this mouth.

“Hey! Stealing my food! That's not fair you took advantage of me!” I mocked pouted at him.

He shook his head and laughed. “Well, you snooze, you lose sweetheart.”

I fell backward into the sofa laughing.

“So where should we go for food later?! I was thinking like one of the high end burger places?!” He sat back and hung his arm around my neck.

I placed my fingers over his. “Uh, sure, oh they are the kinda places that make sweet potato fries! I love food, I swear if I didn't work out I would be the size of a house!” I hadn't always been slim, I had lost a lot of weight, I just learnt to do exercise and eat better.

Cameron hummed as if he was thinking over what I had said. “Well, if you ever wanna use the gym downstairs you can! Not that you need it! I'll book a table, it’ll be a good thing that you are here actually because for once she will see someone like yourself eating a full meal! I swear she thinks all celeb females live off health shakes!” He tutted as she pulled his phone from his pocket.

I sighed. “It's sad, but that is actually true for some! For the guys too! They worry more than anyone! I love good food! Food is very sensual really!” I watched as he used an app on his phone to book the table at the restaurant and it reminded me of the photo. “Hey, um if you don't mind, can I ask who emailed you the photos from earlier cause they knew your email!” I found that a bit odd.

He signed. “My unwanted guest from this morning! He seems to think it's proof that we won't work out, it's really nothing, though, and he’s just trying to wind me up.”

I shook my head. “This Leopold dude, what the hell is his issue?! I didn't even see anyone around at the time! I wrongly assumed it was Jones! Oh god...” I cringed. “I gave him such a dirty look thinking he'd ratted me out!”

He laughed. “Yes, he said, actually he called it a death stare, but don't worry he didn't take offense! He was more worried you may have burnt your hand after the coffee incident! And it wasn't someone who took the photos, he most likely used the CCTV! He has a habit of that! That's the trouble with the public ones, easily gotten at if you know how! Don't worry about him, though, he knows to stay away.”

My hand was fine. “Yeah, this morning wasn’t a good day for my coordination!” I didn't understand why some friend of Cameron's would even have reason to hack a CCTV camera just to try and provoke a reaction! It was kinda creepy too. “Wow, that's kinda mental! How the heck does he get away with that?! Surely it's illegal to do that?!”

He sighed. “Yes, well Leopold is somewhat above the law! Just don't ask! It's taught me a lesson though! Which he won't have countered for! And that is that I trust you and that I have to understand there will be times when you have a photo taken with someone else and it be totally innocent! It's new to me and he thought it would unnerve me which in part it did, but I didn't react how he thought I may!” He sounded proud of himself.

I smiled. “He sounds like a total asshole to me, he doesn't even know me and yet he makes assumptions based on my public profile! It's good you can see past all that BS to see the bigger picture!” I shuffled over and rested my head on his shoulder, we had a while to go before we headed out.

His arm wrapped around me. “I am just sorry I let it affect me! I am so glad you fight back because you made me see that I was being a total pillock!” He chuckled.

“Yes, but you are my pillock and I won't have anyone messing around with that!” I smiled as I placed my hand on his leg and softly squeezed it.

“Oh, I meant to ask, I’ve been invited to a wine and dine sort of thing, and I would normally take well you know who but I'd like it very much if you'd come with me! It's a black tie kinda event.” His hand rubbed my shoulder.

I knew who he'd meant and I was glad he'd asked me. “Sure I'll go with you, I hope I don't show you up though, I don't have the same experience as you do with these kinda things!” I was worried I'd do or say something and embarrass him.

“You will be fine! You're my girlfriend, I want you to come and support me, you can choose a dress, and it’s not for another few weeks so I'll let you consider the invite.”

I smiled. “No considering needed! I'll come! Wow a dress... Will have to practice being more lady like!” I giggled.

“You are perfectly fine as you are! You will be stunning my darling!”

I smiled. “So where is this taking place?!” I wondered where it could be, somewhere in London, some high end hotel or another.

“Oh, it's in New York! The clients are trying to win the contract to help build elements of a solar wind farm that my company is half funding! They are on my short list!”

I sat in silence, shocked. How could be just be so casual about it being out of the country. He said it like he was simply saying it was down the road. “New York as in the Big Apple?! As in America?! As in the place I fled from?!” Oh my god... What is he trying to do to me?! This had disaster written all over it.

“Yes in America! That's why I said I'd like you to come! You have local knowledge! We'll be flown by private jet so you won't have to worry about being seen! Nobody need know!” His hand around my shoulder moved to play with my hair.

I took a breath in. He underestimated how badly I used to get followed around by the papzz. I did want to go though, this was important to him and I didn't want him half way around the world with Miss A line skirt or some other bimbo so I would have to suck it up. It would mean I could see my Dad and maybe even Jessica. “The private jet isn't an issue, it's more that you will have to be prepared for the pap to stalk us! They aren't like press over here! I will go with you though! You can meet my Dad!” I bit my lip wondering what my Dad would say.