Ignite Me: Shards of Glass, Part One (27 page)

“Okay! I guess I don't know unless I try!” He licked his lips and closed his eyes.

“I'll stop if you tell me too! I promise.” I picked up the wash cloth and put some of the body wash on it lathering it up with my hand. I started at the top of his right arm. He tensed as I swept the cloth down his arm. I was slow and careful not to touch him too much. I hummed to myself to fill the silence. I moved to his left arm and washed gently down.

“What's that tune your humming?!” His eyes were still shut.

I grinned as I slowly moved the cloth in circles over his chest.

“I'm not really sure, I just hum when there is silence! A habit I can't break.”

I felt his body relax as I used my fingers to wash the subs off his chest.

“Whatever it is I like it! I also quite enjoy you washing me! It's relaxing. I've never really let go of any control before. It wasn't too bad.” He smiled.

I leant forwards and placed a kiss on his cheek. I couldn't say what I wanted so I let my body speak for me. I kissed his face again raining little soft kissed all over his face and neck.

His eyes blinked open. “Is that my reward for being a good boy?!” He smirked.

I pulled a face. “Maybe! Seriously though, maybe after a few times of sharing a bath you'll let me wash your hair! I understand all of this is new! Having to let me have complete control is new and I won't push you!”

I shivered. The water was getting cold now.

“Are you cold, I can add more warm water?!” His eyes searched mine concerned.

“I think I'll get out now, leave you to wash your hair! I'll go brush my hair out!” I stroked my fingers over his cheek and tilted my head to one side. I hated that I found it so hard to just tell him that I was falling in love with him. I was held back by my own fears and worries.

He narrowed his eyes. “What are you trying to tell me?!”

I ran my thumb over my lip as I studied him. “I think I might love you! I mean I didn't want to say it because I'm kinda freaking out and part of me wants to talk myself out of it because love hurts but I think I do. Love you that is! Sorry!” I was terrible at this. I had nowhere to hide, sat in naked in front of him.

His whole face split into a grin. “I'll take you think you love me over nothing at all! I hope you don't talk yourself out of it! I won't hurt you! I will take time to let you do simple things like wash my hair, but you're helping me learn and are patient with me and I love you for that! I know we will take time to work all our little kinks out, but we will!” He lent forward and kissed me softly on the lips. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I knew we'd take time, we'd not been dating all that long, but I was going to embrace how I felt. I didn't want to bury how I felt for him like I had others.

He let me go. “I will be done shortly, I put your hair brush in my room on the dresser, thank you for tonight! It meant a lot!” His eyes sparkled at me.

I grinned lopsidedly. “You are welcome! I will now attempt to get out of the tub without breaking my neck!” I giggled as I pushed myself up with my arms and stood up.

Cameron laughed out loud. “You can lean on my shoulder for support!”

“Thank you!” I was pleased he'd said that. It was so deep that getting out was harder than getting in. I placed my right hand on his right shoulder and managed to get out and stand safely on the bath mat. I picked up the blue fluffy towel and wrapped it around my body and did it up. Before picking up my shirt and panties. I smiled and blew him a kiss before I left the room, he caught it and held it over his heart. It didn't bother me he'd not let me wash his hair. He'd let me wash him and had enjoyed it. He was learning still and in part so was I.

chapter 17

I grabbed the brush from the dresser and walked over to the window and started to work on my hair as I watched the lights of the city blinking and twinkling away in the distance. I cursed a few times at my stubborn hair as I caught tangles. I dried myself off and dressed again.

I looked around the room and realised I had left my phone in my jeans in the lounge area so I folded the towel up and left it on the dresser before heading back into the lounge. I picked up my jeans and fished out my phone. I checked for texts and saw I had one from Damon. Hitting open I read it.

Thanks for the offer of talking, she reacted badly to me breaking up with her a few months back so she took an overdose! I mean I feel for her, but I think I'm gonna make it worse by staying at the hospital so I'm heading home.

I frowned as I replied.

Maybe it was a cry for help or attention, but you have to do what you think is right! Maybe she thinks if you see her like that you'll find whatever feelings you had for her when you were together. I guess the only thing you can do is say you'll be there as a friend and nothing more. The main thing is she's gonna be okay.

I few seconds later, my phone buzzed again.

Yeah, I did tell her that, she got upset and they asked me to leave! I can't cope with her right now! I couldn't handle how obsessive she was with me! I guess I just have to let it go! Thanks for advice, your boyfriend is a lucky guy!

I sighed. I knew he liked me.

Yeah, he is, but maybe I'm the lucky one! You should get some sleep! Hey also I'm not gonna be able to make the gig fri! I forgot and said I'd take Cameron's little sister to a gig her friend is sick so can't go! Pizza ASAP when we are both free!'

I liked Damon, but he liked me too much and I felt a little awkward now I was with Cameron. Like he thought he'd swooped in and stole me.

My phone buzzed again.

That's okay, I probably won't go, just too much in my head right now! Pizza soon! Goodnight Evan! X

I sighed.

Goodnight Damon! x

I hit send and turned around and headed off to the kitchen to grab a bottle of water. I pulled open the fridge and got two bottles out. I wasn't sure if Cameron would want one in the night.

“Evangeline where are you?!” Cameron's worried voice floated into the kitchen from somewhere in the apartment.

I frowned. “I'm in the kitchen!” I shouted back wondering why he sounded so worried.

“Evan?!” He appeared in the doorway, looking confused as I shut the fridge door.

I studied him. He was standing in a pair of dark blue PJ bottoms with his chest bare, his hair messy, un-brushed.

“It's okay, Cameron I was just getting some water!” I held the bottles up.

His whole face relaxed. “I thought you'd gone! When I couldn't find you! I worried!”

I put the bottles down on the counter, confused as to where he thought I had gone too.

He walked over and pulled me to him, his hands urgently gripping my shoulders like he thought I'd disappear if he didn't hold me as tight as he could.

“Why on earth would you think I'd gone?! I went to check my phone, then figured I would get a drink!” I was confused by his actions.

“I don't know, just after all that stuff in the bath when I didn't find you in my room or the lounge area I freaked out! Your jeans were gone! I thought you'd left me!” His voice shook slightly.

I moved my arms to wrap around his middle and rubbed my hands up and down his back slowly in a way that I hoped was comforting. “Left you?! I don't understand why you would think I'd leave!” Had he actually thought I'd leave without telling him?!

I could feel the tension in his back as my hands rested on his lower back. He didn't say anything, he just held me.

“I bought my jeans in here! They are on the counter with my cell phone! I was just about to come back and get ready for bed!” I grinned.

His whole body relaxed as he swept his hands down to rest on my lower back. “I'm sorry I let my mind get carried away! I knew deep down you'd not leave without telling me!”

I ran my hands up his arms. “I'm actually kinda insulted that you'd think I would be petty enough to leave simply because you choose to wash your own hair! I just told you back in there that I have fallen in love with you, yet you still thought I had left! I don't understand!” I didn't. I was hurt that he thought I had bailed on him. What kinda person would do that?!

He stroked his hand through my hair. “Please forgive me Evan, I never meant to hurt you or insinuate that you were petty, I just felt vulnerable in them moments when I couldn't see you in the darkness and I imagined all sorts of scenarios and didn't engage the brain! I am so sorry! I really am! Please don't be cross at me.” He let me go from the hug and studied me intently.

I shook my head. “It's okay, I'm not cross! I get that you felt that way for a few moments! Next time just don't jump to conclusions. I'll prolly be in the bathroom or here or I dunno where ever! It doesn't mean I've left! Not going anywhere with just your shirt and my panties on! There are laws against that kinda thing!” I grinned.

The relief washed over his face. “Thank you for being you! I won't always be like this! Thanks for getting me a drink too!” He smiled and picked up one of the bottles then caught up my hand. “Let's go to bed! Before my brain has any more stupid ideas!”

I laughed and grabbed the other bottle and let him lead me to his room. My phone was perfectly safe where it was. It wasn't healthy to be so obsessed with it.

“Wanna clean my teeth first! I assume you also bought me a toothbrush!” I knew he must have done.

“Yeah I need to clean mine too!” He led us back through the apartment and into his bedroom. “I bought you the same electric toothbrush that I use! I've set it up on the sink I don't use! Feel free to do whatever you need to do! If you tell me what kinda products you like to use on your face I'll stock the sink up so you have all you need here!” He smiled as he put down the water and let go of my hand.

He really didn't hang around. When he did something he went the whole way. “Wow okay thanks! I use this Australian organic stuff I'll give you the website for it! They probably have a UK store too.” I smiled as I headed into the bathroom and saw he'd added the tooth brush and some wash things to the sink that was empty before. It was nice he had made the effort to make me feel at home.

I walked over to the sink and saw there was a selection of sample sized fancy day and night creams and various other wash products. He must have set it all up while I was out checking my phone. I glanced at him cleaning his teeth and couldn't stop myself from grinning from ear to ear as I turned back to clean my own teeth.

Half an hour later, I'd cleaned my teeth, washed my face and sampled the night cream. It wasn't too bad. It made my skin feel like silk. I just prayed I didn't wake up with a red blotchy face. I had some very sensitive skin.

“I figured because you're so pale, you'd need sensitive skin products!” He smiled as he finished rubbing his own moisturiser in.

Metrosexual.
Sean had never been one to take care of his skin and I knew damn well my Dad never so I found it amusing. I liked that Cameron looked after his skin.

“Thank you for being so thoughtful!” I cringed as I heard myself say thank you. After I'd said I'd stop thanking him.

He grinned and took hold of my hand to lead me out of the bathroom.

“Broke your agreement already! Should think of some punishment for each time you do that! You don't need to thank me!” He chuckled softly but there was an undercurrent in his tone.

“But baby don't you see that no one normal would even think about that let alone actually go out and get me products!” I shrugged as we reached his bedroom.

He groaned. “Well maybe more relationships would last if the male did more things like that! I mean it's just natural to assume if you stay you will need wash things! So maybe I'm go above and beyond and really you should know I'm not like your average boyfriend but you'll get used to it!” He pulled me flush to him.

“I will! I wasn't complaining! So what's this punishment then?!” I smirked as I traced patterns on his back with my fingers.

He made a thinking noise. “You like to dare me don't you darling! Hmm choices, choices!” He dipped his head and nibbled all the way down my neck.

I arched my head back and closed my eyes. It felt so good. “That's not... Really a punishment!” I moaned as his teeth grazed my neck, almost but not quite painfully.

“Well maybe I like to punish you with pleasure!” His voice just above a whisper his velvet tones husky as he nibbled my ear lobe.

“Oh god that is so sexy!” I gripped his shoulders. I didn't much care if he gave me a love bite, it was below the line of my t-shirt so I let him punish me. It wasn't a punishment as far as I was concerned.

“I aim to please!” He ran the kiss back up from my neck to my lips and kissed me gently.

“Time for bed!” He smiled at me.

“So I'm on the left hand side right?!” I eyed his bed.

He nodded as he turned off the main lights the lights from the city gave the room a warm glow.

“Yes please! Also if you want the room completely dark I can close the blinds!” He loitered around waiting for my answer.

I scooted over to the left hand side of the bed and pushed the covers back. “I'm okay with the lights, I get it the same at my apartment! Which you will see when you stay!” I assumed he would want to at some stage.

He grinned a wide smile as he climbed into bed. “I'd like that to stay over at yours! That’ll be new to me too! I look forward to it!”

I slipped under the silk duvet and felt like I was in a little cocoon. “Oh wow this is immense! So soft, so snugly.” I turned my head to look at him, he was propped up on his elbows.

“Snugly?! Hmm I suppose it is!” He smiled.

I shook my head. “I approve of the feather duvet and pillows! I also have that! Hey, I sleep to my right side you don't mind if I turn over?!” I leant over and kissed his cheek.

He grinned. “No, not at all! I lay that way too!”