Chapter 43
“God has never asked us to help
Him do His job. It's when we decide to
help Him out that we get into trouble.”
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Angel King
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Kina unlocked the door to her apartment expecting to find everything the way she left it. Instead, she opened the door to new furniture she didn't recognize and her friends' smiling faces.
“Surprise!” they exclaimed as soon as Kina opened the door.
Kina grabbed her chest, caught completely off guard. “What's all this?”
“What does it look like, silly?” teased Sullivan. “Happy birthday!”
“No, I mean
all this!
” Kina gestured toward the new living-room suite. She was beyond stunned to see her worn, borrowed, and hand-me-down furniture replaced by a brand-new sectional, entertainment unit, a flat-screen television, and coffee table. “Is this for me?”
“Yes, Kina,” replied Sullivan. “Don't you like it?”
“Of course, but I can't accept this.” She shook her head. “It's too much. I appreciate the effort, but it's got to go back. You know I can't afford all this.”
“Kina, relax and enjoy it,” said Lawson. “It's all paid for. The only thing it'll cost you is a great big smile.”
“This is so nice,” said Kina, looking around at her newly furnished apartment. “Y'all didn't have to do this for me.”
“Obviously,
we
didn't,” replied Lawson. “Miss Moneybags over here did most of it.” She picked up a crystal bowl, which was the centerpiece of Kina's new coffee table. “Reggie bought this, though, and sends her love. Happy birthday, cuz!”
Kina hugged her. “I love it! Please tell Reggie thanks for me.” She released Lawson and turned to Sullivan. “I can't believe you did all this for me. Why?”
“Aside from the fact that your old furniture bordered on hideous, you saved my husband's life, Kina. This is the least I could do to thank you.”
Kina shook her head, overcome with guilt. “I wish you would stop saying that, Sullivan. I didn't save him, God did. Believe me . . . I don't deserve any of the credit.”
Sullivan put her arm around Kina. “If nothing else, you deserve credit for being such a good friend to me. Kina, I know I probably don't say it enough, but I love you. You're my family. I know keeping this secret about the baby and Vaughn has been hard on all of you, but I know it's been the hardest on you, Kina, since you work with Charles and have to see him every day. I know how much you respect and admire him, so I especially appreciate that you've let all that take a backseat to your loyalty to me.”
Kina couldn't receive the adulation. “This is just too much . . .”
“Kina, you have earned all of this,” insisted Lawson. “You've been through so much, but you never let it break your spirit and change who you are. No matter how much we all fight with each other, you're always the one who brings us back together and who keeps the peace and reminds us of how much we all love one another. You've been so selfless. You're constantly putting other people's needs ahead of your own, whether it's Kenny's or the church's or your friends' needs. It's time someone did something for you for a change.”
“Sullivan, this is all very generous, and I thank all you for your kind words and faith in me, but I can't accept this.”
“Kina, stop being magnanimous and let us bless you, okay?” teased Sullivan.
Kina was adamant. “Sullivan, I can't keep this.”
“I'm not taking it back!”
“Fine . . . I'll just donate it to the church or something.”
“You will do no such thing!” objected Angel. “Kina, learn how to let other people help you. You're not in this by yourself. We didn't do this because we had to or because we felt sorry for you. We did this because we love you and wanted to show you how we appreciate you, especially Sullivan.
“And I'm going to keep on spoiling you whether you like it or not, so get used to it!” demanded Sullivan with a smile. “As soon as Charles gets back on his feet, expect him to be just as kind.”
Kina dissolved into tears.
Angel rubbed her back. “Why are you crying, honey? Charles is going to be fine. Your prayers, love, and support are part of what's getting him through this.”
“He's never going to forgive me,” sobbed Kina.
“Forgive you for what?” asked Sullivan, confused.
“The strokeâall of it! It's my fault,” sobbed Kina.
“Are you talking about the food you made for him? One helping of soul food didn't do this to Charles. This was the result of years of anniversary dinners, fish fries, and church picnics where fried chicken was as much a part of the scenery as checkered blankets. The doctors and I have been trying to get Charles to take better care of himself for years. Please don't blame yourself.”
“I know all that, but the doctor also said this could've been brought on by stress.”
“Yeah, but that doesn't have anything to do with you. If anybody is the cause of stress in Charles's life, it's me.”
Kina shook her head. “Not that day. He was eager to get home. He couldn't wait to see you.”
Sullivan smiled. “That's sweet of you to say, Kina.”
“I'm not just saying it, Sullivan. He wanted to go home to you. He loves you.”
“I know. I love him too.”
Lawson sensed that something was off. “Kina, where are you going with all this?”
Kina covered her face and cried into her hands. “I can't keep this secret anymore.”
Angel draped her arm around Kina. “What are you talking about? What secret?”
“Kina, did something happen that day you didn't tell us about?” asked Lawson.
Kina nodded. “It's my fault! It's all my fault!”
Lawson peeled back Kina's hands, revealing a face that was beet red and wet with tears. “Sweetie, what's going on? This is obviously eating you up inside.”
“It is. It has been ever since Pastor's stroke,” Kina admitted.
Lawson held her cousin's hand. “Talk to us. What's going on?”
Kina closed her eyes to gather her thoughts. “I don't even know how to tell you this.”
“Just say it,” persisted Sullivan, now both curious and worried.
Kina inhaled, her eyes fell downcast. “I didn't tell you or the doctors everything that happened that day.”
Angel wrinkled her brow. “What did you leave out?”
“The part I said about coming to Charles's office to bring him dinner was true. I did do that, but I didn't just drop the plate off and leave like I said.”
The tone in Sullivan's voice changed. “What did you do?”
“Something I'll regret for the rest of my life . . .” She looked up at Sullivan. “I told Charles I love him.”
Sullivan shrugged her shoulders. “Charles knows you love him. Why would that cause a stroke?”
“I wasn't talking about agape love. I meant that I was
in love
with him.” Kina dropped her head. “Then I kissed him.”
Sullivan sprang up.
“What?”
Kina continued. “I told him I was the woman he was supposed to marry, the one God wanted him to be with.”
Lawson grimaced. “Kina, why would you do something like that? How could you even think that?”
“I was so confused about Joan and dealing with E'Bell's death and being alone. I convinced myself that Charles could be the one to rescue me from all that.”
Angel groaned. “Kina, this isâ”
Sullivan broke in. “She's not telling us everything. I know Charles. Kina isn't the first lonely, pathetic, underhanded woman to come on to him. He's used to dealing with that, so that wouldn't have been stressful enough to trigger a stroke.” Sullivan's eyes morphed into icy slits. “Kina,
what else
did you do?”
Kina paused before going on. “He told me that he loved Sullivan and that he'd never leave her. I couldn't handle it, I just couldn't take another rejection. I felt like you didn't deserve him, Sullivan, and that he would've been better off with me. He was just too blinded by love to see it.”
“So what did you do?” repeated Sullivan.
“I told him,” squeaked Kina, barely audible.
Sullivan placed her hands on her hips.
“Told him what?”
Kina took a deep breath. “I told him about Vaughn and the baby. I told him that you were pregnant and that you'd been making a fool out of him all this time. I told him you didn't love him, that you only wanted his money. I said that you were going to pass the baby off as hisâ”
Without warning, Sullivan swooped down and slapped Kina across the face with full force. “How could you do that? What kind of monster are you?” screamed Sullivan.
Lawson rushed to Kina's side. Angel winced. “Sully, calm down. This isn't the right way to handle this.”
“Oh, I'm sorry,” Sullivan replied sarcastically. “What's the right way to deal with this, Angel?”
“Not by hitting on my cousin,” spoke up Lawson. “She's had to deal with that enough as it is.”
Kina stood up, hold her stinging cheek. “Sullivan, I know you hate me right now, but I couldn't keep the truth from you anymore.”
Sullivan glared at her. “You need to get out of my face before I do more than just slap you,” threatened Sullivan in an even, acidic tone.
Kina tried again. “Sullivan, we can get past this if you just try to understand where I was coming from and forgive me.”
Sullivan stood akimbo.
“Forgive you?
You want me to
understand
you? Are you freakin' kidding me, Kina? Do you have any idea what you've done?”
“I wasn't thinking clearly,” Kina tried to explain. “I'm sorry.”
“You're about to be
real
sorry,” threatened Sullivan and lunged toward Kina, locking her hands around Kina's throat. She wrestled Kina to the ground.
“Sullivan, you're hurting her!” cried Angel. Kina was practically powerless against Sullivan's rage and years of street fighting.
Lawson tried to wedge in between them. “I believe that's the whole idea!”
“Think about your baby, Sullivan! Think about little Christian,” pleaded Angel.
Upon hearing that, Sullivan eased her grip on Kina, her chest heaving. “You better be glad I'm pregnant. Otherwise, I would've killed you with my bare hands!”
“Sullivan, I'm so sorry,” wept Kina. “I never meant for any of this to happen.”
Sullivan clutched her stomach as if to reassure the baby that everything was okay. “From this point on, Kina, we're done. Don't talk to me again, don't even
look
at me. This friendship is over.”
“Hold up, Sully!” butt in Lawson. “Are you seriously trying to blame Kina for this?”
“Yes, Lawson! Kina and her big mouth gave my husband a stroke. You're darn right I blame her for this!”
“No, your lies and infidelity are what gave your husband a stroke!” maintained Lawson. “This was going to come out one way or another, Sullivan. We've been telling you that all along.”
“Kina had no right to say anything, especially since she did it out of malice and after a failed attempt to seduce my husband!”
“Granted, she was dead wrong for that,” conceded Lawson. “But we all know that Kina hasn't been herself lately. Look at everything she's gone through these past couple of years.”
Kina chimed in. “Sullivan, I never should've gone after Charles. I don't know what I was thinking.”
“Is she talking to me?” Sullivan asked looking around the room, “Because I could've sworn I told all man-stealing, wannabe, jealous witches to stop talking to me!”
“Was that really called for, Sully?” asked Lawson with disdain.
Kina took another stab at explaining herself. “Sullivanâ”
Sullivan flung up her right hand. “I don't want to hear it, Kina!”
“Well, you're gon' hear it!” demanded Lawson. “We're not just friends, Sully. We're sisters, all of us! Family doesn't turn its back on family.”
Sullivan was dumbfounded. “You expect me to forgive her?”
“Yes, just like the Lord and Charles have forgiven you over and over again.”
“My husband could have died, Lawson.”
“But he didn't. Frankly, there wouldn't have been anything to tell him if you hadn't created this whole mess.” Lawson turned to Angel. “Take Kina in the back and get her cleaned up so I can deal with Sullivan.”
Both Angel and Kina obeyed. Neither was in a hurry to be on the losing end of Sullivan's temper.
Lawson turned her attention back to Sullivan. “You know you have to hear her out, right?”
Sullivan pouted. “I don't have to do anything.”
“Kina is my cousin, and you're my best friend. I'm not about to take sides in this, neither is Angel. You and Kina are just going to have to find a way to work this out.”
“I didn't see you in a hurry to work things out with Garrett or the tramp who seduced him,” retorted Sullivan. “The minute you tell her that it was okay to sleep with your husband will be the minute I tell Kina it's okay to try to sleep with mine!”
In Kina's bedroom, Angel pressed an ice pack against Kina's busted lip to prevent more swelling. “Kina, I love you, and I know you've been to hell and back over the past couple of years. I think we all underestimated the toll all that took on you. Even with all that, though, I still can't understand why you'd want to do that to Sullivan. You're not a scheming, vindictive person, how could you do that to one of your best friends? We all know that Sullivan can be a drama queen, but something had to drive you to that point where you'd want to destroy her life.”