Authors: Sara Craven
appreciation like a Victorian orphan
outside a baker's shop. She had no idea
what the smell was, but it was certainly
not tinned stew and rice pudding, which
was an unmixed blessing. She scrambled
out of the tangle of blankets and
cautiously lifted the flap of the little tent.
It was very early, she realised. There
were still little wreaths of mist around
the tops of the trees, and deep shadows
where the sun had not penetrated. The
air smelt cool and damp and incredibly
fresh, a freshness that tingled on her skin
and made her shiver slightly.
A few feet away the fire crackled
merrily, and Vitas de Mendoza was
squatting beside it intent on the fish he
was grilling on wooden skewers. Rachel
would have sworn that it was occupying
the whole of his attention, and she
started when he said without turning his
head, 'Breakfast is almost served,
senorita.'
She climbed out of the tent and stood up,
smoothing the creases from her clothes
with nervous hands. She had slept the
previous night better than she expected
or even hoped to do, and had woken
with a feeling of well-being she was not
at all sure she deserved.
Now, as she stood in the sunshine, she
found herself thinking that her most
justifiable
emotion
would
be
apprehension. He was stripped to the
waist, his black shirt hanging carelessly
over one bronzed shoulder, and his dark
hair gleamed with moisture. Clearly he
had been for an early morning swim,
Rachel realised, resenting her own
tousled dishevelment.
'I suppose you caught those with your
bare hands,' she remarked, her eyes on
the sizzling fish.
'I regret to have to disappoint you, but I
used a hook and a line like everyone
else.' He withdrew one of the fish from
the fire and deposited it on a tin plate,
deftly removing the skewer.
'The coffee's ready too,' he went on,
indicating the steaming pot. 'Take care
not. to burn yourself.'
'You think of everything, don't you?' She
was aware how ungracious she sounded,
but she couldn't help it. Her first delight
in the newborn day had curled away like
the mist from the trees at the sight of him,
dark and lean, the muscles in his
shoulders and arms suggesting a latent
power. For one blinding moment as she
stood there looking at him, she'd known
how his skin would feel under her
fingers, imagined her hands clasping his
back, her breasts crushed against his
torso. She didn't like the images she had
conjured up and she loathed herself and
the way they made her feel. So, he was a
superbly made animal. Well, there had
never been any real doubt of that, but it
did not mean she had to react like an
animal too.
She accepted the plate and poured
herself some coffee. The fish was
wonderful, firm rather pinky flesh, and a
faint flavour of woodsmoke, and for no
logical reason she felt her resentment
grow.
She said flatly, 'Would you mind getting
dressed? Nudity in the early morning
doesn't turn me on, I'm afraid.'
He burst, out laughing, and she glared at
him, feeling she had made herself
ridiculous.
'As the
senorita
commands.' He put his
own plate down and sketched a
burlesque of a bow before thrusting his
arms into the sleeves of his shirt and
tucking it down into the waistband of his
pants. 'If that is how you feel it's just as
well you didn't emerge from your
sanctuary five minutes earlier. Unlike
you, I don't sleep in my clothes, and I
don't swim in them either. As it is, I can
only hope that I have not irrevocably
disturbed your appetite.'
She sent him a suspicious glance under
her lashes, sensing some ambiguity in his
words, but his dark face wore an almost
bland expression and she decided she
would only make a fool of herself if she
pursued the matter as she half suspected
he was waiting for her to do. Besides,
she was too ravenously hungry to want
to argue. After all, she hadn't eaten since
that noontime break yesterday, she
suddenly remembered, and her spirits
faltered as she also remembered how
very different the circumstances of her
waking this morning might have been.
She went on eating, moving her jaws
automatically, but the edge had gone
from her appetite.
After a while she said jerkily, 'I don't
think I—thanked you properly for
arriving when you did yesterday. I want
you to know I am very grateful.''
He finished his last mouthful of fish and
tossed the bones into the fire. His mouth
twisted a little as he looked at her.
'Gratitude,
querida
? That isn't what I
want from you.'
Her heart skipped a beat. 'But that's all
there is,' she said quickly, too quickly.
She put down her plate and leaned
forward, looking into the fire which was
dying now, avoiding looking at him,
letting her pale hair swing like a curtain
between them. 'I know that—last night
was rather fraught, but we've both had
time to think now, and I can't believe you
really meant what you said, or that you
mean to go through with it.'
'Then you had better believe it, Raquel,'
he said softly. 'Because I meant every
word.' He paused as if expecting some
response, but she sat motionless and
silent, her eyes fixed on the fire's
glowing embers as if she was trying to
hypnotise herself. His voice went on
mercilessly, 'I don't share your views on
nudity in the morning,
querida.
You look
very lovely when you have just woken
up, with your hair ruffled and your eyes
large and bright with sleep. The
prospect of waking and finding you
naked in my arms has an almost dazzling
appeal for me.'
'No!' The sound came almost strangled
from her throat. 'Don't!'
He ignored the pitiful appeal in her
voice. 'Yes, I too thought last night,
chica,
but my thoughts didn't run on the
same lines as yours. I thought of that
black velvet mole on your hip and how
much I wanted to press my lips against
it.' His voice roughened. 'Hair like
honey and skin like cream. A man would
have to be a eunuch to look at you and
not wonder how you would feel, how
you would taste.' He gave a harsh laugh.
'Poor Carlos! He must have thought it
was both La Navidad and his birthday
when you agreed to ride off with him.'
'Don't you dare mention Carlos to me,'
she said raggedly. 'I lied when I said I
was grateful to you. You—you're worse
than he is!'
He lifted a mocking eyebrow. 'Surely
your comparison is a little premature,
querida.
And unfair to poor Carlos, who
was hardly given the opportunity to ...'
'You know what I mean!' she shouted.
'And you can just stop making your
damned edged remarks as well. They
may go down well with your—bleached
matrons from Santa Barbara, but to me
they're a pain!'
She wanted her words to sting, to get
under his guard and hurt him, but he only
laughed.
'You're beautiful when you are angry
too,
chica.
That cool, composed facade
cracks a little and one catches a glimpse
of the passion underneath. You will be a
rewarding experience.'
'Thank you,' she said bitingly. 'Please
don't expect me to feel flattered.'
His mouth slanted sardonically. 'I pitch
my expectations of you higher than that.
And now, if you have finished your
breakfast, we had better prepare to
depart. I have saved some warm water
for you if you wish to wash yourself. I
don't recommend the river. The currents
are deep and strong, and there could be
other inhabitants who might find that
white skin of yours an irresistible lure.'
Rachel reached for the pot of warm
water he had indicated and stood up
carefully.
'I'm
obliged
to
you
for
your
consideration, of course,' she said with
glacial sweetness and patent insincerity.
'But if it ever came to a choice between
you and a shoal of piranhas, I'd choose
them every time!'
And she turned on her heel and walked
away.
CHAPTER FIVE
In spite of her brave words, Rachel
decided it would be more prudent to
make use of the warm water for her
ablutions. She was an adequate but not a
strong swimmer, and the swirling brown
river looked curiously uninviting in the
bright sunshine. Besides, she had not the
slightest desire to parade around in front
of her antagonist clad in little more than
a skimpy towel.
The wash freshened her, in spite of the
cramped inconvenience of the tent, and
she brushed and combed her hair,
securing
the
thick
honey-coloured
strands in an elegantly secure knot on top
of her head before cramming on her hat.
She had no idea what she looked like,
and she didn't care either, she assured
herself ferociously. If she looked like a
fright so much the better. At the back of
her mind lurked a fear that Vitas de
Mendoza might choose to exact payment
before they reached Diablo and she
could rely on Mark's protection. In fact
the more she thought about it, the more
likely it seemed, because, arrogant as he
was, Vitas must surely know that her
brother would not idly stand by and
watch her sacrifice herself. She would
have to be on her guard all the time, she
warned herself, buttoning her shirt to the
throat.
Besides, she tried to rally her spirits, if
she made herself look as plain as
possible and behaved as objectionably
as she knew how, she might even
manage to diminish her attraction for him
sufficiently for him to decide the game
wasn't worth the candle and abandon his
pursuit of her. No matter what he might
claim, she thought, a man like Vitas de
Mendoza would not want to share his
bed with a woman who made it clear she
found him repulsive.
The thought made her smile with
satisfaction. She was rolling up her
blankets, however, when a dismaying
thought struck her. At a distance she
could loathe him quite cheerfully, telling
herself he was everything she most
despised in men, sexually arrogant and
monstrously conceited. She wasn't a
declared feminist by any means, but she
had no patience with that brand of
macho
either. But she could not deny
that physically he had the most
disturbing and unwelcome effect on her.
Yesterday a man had tried to rape her,
an experience which might have left her
scarred for life and which had frightened
and humiliated her. But if she was
honest, she knew that Carlos' pathetic
attempt to take possession of her body
had hardly impressed itself on her mind
at all. The really shaming memory which
kept intruding upon her was that of
herself in Vitas de Mendoza's arms back
in Asuncion, her mouth parted for his
kiss, her body straining towards his in
unspoken offering.
She sat back sombrely on her heels, both
thoughts and actions arrested by the
realisation. She had to face facts. If
Vitas began to make love to her, she was
going to find it very hard to hang on to
her moral sense and her self-respect.
Nothing she had shared with Leigh had
prepared her in any way for the flame
which Vitas had lit in her body. It was as
if he had unlocked a forbidden door and
shown her a whole new world crammed