Authors: Marcia Willett
âBut we'll stay in touch.'
They stood together in the study that they had shared for the last year, their things packed, shelves and desk tops emptied, and looked at each other.
Cassandra, blue-eyed, tall, full-breasted, her long fair hair twisted into a French pleat, was elegant in a cashmere twin set and a navy blue pleated skirt, pearls in place.
Kate grinned. âD'you remember sneaking out to see
Expresso Bongo?'
âAnd that year I got twelve red roses and a Valentine card from Moira's brother and they were confiscated?'
They roared with laughter.
Kate, with her mop of unruly brown curls and grey eyes, was shorter and stockier than her friend and made no attempt at elegance. She wore honey-coloured tweeds; going-home clothes.
They hugged and hugged.
âYou must come and stay. We'll have lots of fun.'
They separated. Cass went to her father's flat in London for a year of relaxation and to thinkâvery vaguelyâabout getting some sort of job. Kate went to her home in Cornwall to thinkâvery reluctantlyâabout attending a course on cookery or shorthand typing. Both thought very seriously indeed about falling in love and getting married.
At a party barely a year later, Cass met Tom Wivenhoe, a midshipman in his final year at Britannia Royal Naval College, and shortly afterwards Kate received a telephone call.
âS'meee. How's the typing course?'
âAwful. Terrible. How are you?'
âNever better. Listen, I've met this smashing chap. Now! How about coming to the Summer Ball at Dartmouth? You know, the naval college.'
âAre you serious? The tickets are like gold dust!'
âAha! Trust your Fairy Godmother. You shall go to the ball, Cinderella.'
âBut who shall I . . . ?'
âTom's got a friend called Mark Webster. His partner's broken her leg or something and he's at a loose end. He's nice. Honestly. A bit quiet but tall, dark and handsome. What about it? We'll book a double room at the Royal Castle. It will be just like school. What do you say?'
âOh, Cass . . .
A year later, after Fourth Year Courses and a continual round of balls, ladies' nights and parties, they were both married; Cass and Tom in August with Kate as bridesmaid and, two weeks later, Kate and Mark, with Cass as Matron of Honour. In a rapture of white silk, the thunder of the organ in their ears and a vision of married bliss in their dazed eyes, they passed beneath the arches of naval swords and out into the sunshine of Happy Ever After.
On their return from honeymoon, Kate and Mark had moved into a furnished ground-floor flat in a lovely Georgian terrace in the village of Alverstoke, one road back from the beach. Kate had spent many happy hours making it as cosy and homelike as she could with their few possessions whilst Mark, now a Sub-Lieutenant of sufficient standing for the single gold stripe around each cuff to have lost its obvious newness, went daily into
Dolphin
to complete his submariner's specialisation course.
Cass and Tom were in Alverstoke too. He was the only other married man on the course and he and Mark were drawn together, more by their newly-married status and the long-standing relationship between the girls than by any similarity of character or outlook. They started to adopt a more serious and responsible air than the rest of the course who were living in the Mess and whose main topics of
conversation were still parties and girls and arrangements for drinking sessions in the pub in the evenings. The four of them often got together for informal suppers at Kate and Mark's flat or at Cass and Tom's cottage and sometimes met late on Sunday mornings in the Anglesea Arms for a pint. Tom and Cass often had other members of the course round at the cottage for curry suppers but when Kate tentatively suggested that they might do the same at the flat, Mark said that he had quite enough of them during the day, thanks very much and, although Cass and Tom seemed to have a great deal of fun, Kate was pleased that Mark seemed content with her company.
For Kate, being a naval wife was endowed with far more glamour and responsibility than being any other sort of wife except, perhaps, a doctor's or a vicar's. Her motherâand othersâhad warned her about the loneliness of her life to come, the difficulties involved in dealing with emergencies and moving households from one base to another, often all alone. She had felt pride that she would be âdoing her bit' and making sacrifices herself in order that Mark might do a demanding job involving national security whilst having the comfort and support of a home and family in the background to which he could return.
Even so, Kate was beginning to realise how very long a day could be. It was so difficult to spin things out. She had always been an early riser and found it impossible to laze on in bed in the mornings. She would deal with the solid fuel stove and take as long as she could over her bath and breakfast. If it was as late as half-past nine when she'd finished, she felt that she'd done well but there were still twelve long, empty hours to be filled before the bedtime routine could be embarked upon. She made so little work all on her own that after a while she tended to let things mount up so that the jobs seemed worth doing. Preparing food took minutesâit wasn't worth cooking elaborate meals just for herselfâand took even less time to eat and she spent every mealtime with a book propped up in front of her plate. She had mentioned the possibility of getting a part-time job when the boat sailed but Mark had vetoed that at once: he wanted a wife at home when the boat was in, not off somewhere, working.
Surely she could cope for a few weeks alone? he had said. After all they'd see little enough of each other as it was. And Kate, anxious to pull her weightâand who, at that point, had never been alone in her lifeâagreed that she could manage perfectly well and shelved the idea of a job at once.
At the end of this course, Mark was appointed to one of the older conventional boats as Fifth Hand: Casing Officer and Correspondence Officer. It was a proud and a solemn momentâReal Life had started at last. Within a few weeks of Mark joining, the boat had sailed for Norway to âshow the flag'. Tom's career, thus far, had followed an identical pattern and when his boat had sailed for Middlesborough, Cass had hurried down to Devon to help her father, now retired, settle into his new home on the edge of Dartmoor.
Kate trudged on. Mark's letters arrived intermittently and she learned that it was difficult to get letters away from a submarine unless it was in port. Occasionally a helicopter would rendezvous with the boat to collect and deliver mail and then there would be a letter from him telling her how much he missed her and how he was looking forward to coming home. He wrote very little about his life on board but Kate didn't mind that. It was so lovely to hear from him, to see the envelope with the familiar handwriting lying on the hall floor. She would carry it with her when she went out, to read it over and over, sitting in one of the shelters on the front or in the little cafe in the village. It made her feel less lonely, as she watched other women gossiping with their friends over coffee, to bring out Mark's latest letter to read yet again.
Coming back to the present, Kate realised that she was hungry and, turning her back on the sea, she headed for the road which swept along the sea front and curved back into the village. As she turned into the Crescent a small car passed her and pulled up at her gate. Kate quickened her step. The driver of the car was getting out, opening the gate and going in. It could have been a visitor going to one of the upstairs flats or to the basement but Kate prayed that it was someone for her. To talk to someone other than at a shop counter or on a bus would
be bliss. She hurried up the road. Hearing the gate clang open, the woman glanced back. She was short and slight, with sandy feathery hair and a dusting of freckles on her pale, small-featured face. She wore sailcloth trousers and a jersey and to Kate's nineteen years she looked very mature, twenty-eight at least.
âHi!' She was turning back from the front door, smiling. âCould you be Kate Webster? Do say you are. Oh, good!' as Kate nodded breathlessly. âMy mission is to track you down and take you home to tea. I've only just heard about you.' She made it sound as though Kate were a new species, just invented. âI had a letter from Simon this morning saying that no one knew you were here. It was too bad of Mark to go off like that without introducing you to the Wardroom but he's a new boy so we'll have to forgive him. I'm Mary Armitage.'
Kate was aware that her hand was being pumped briskly up and down and that Mary's smile had a fierce frowning quality, rather quizzical and assessing. Behind this, however, she felt a real anxiety. Simon Armitage was Mark's First Lieutenant and, if Kate knew that submarine Captains were God to their junior officers, she also knew that First Lieutenants were the Archangel Gabriel. She prayed that Mary wouldn't want to come inside. Housekeeping had ceased to be important with Mark at sea and she could imagine Mary reporting the cobwebs, the pile of unironed clothes and the lack of cake or biscuits to Simon. Mary, however, was moving back down the path.
âCan I carry you off with me? I've got to pick my son up from school and I daren't be late. First term and all that. Then we can go home and have tea. I can drop you back later although, to be honest, you could walk it in ten minutes.'
Kate found herself in the car and being driven away, schoolwards.
âThis is very kind of you,' she began, rather shyly. âI've been looking forward to meeting some other wives. I wasn't sure if there were any living near the base.'
âYou poor child. You'll soon learn the ropes.' Mary, sounding like a very senior Girl Guide, patted Kate's arm. âThere's lots of wives to meet, all like you with husbands away. No need to be lonely again.'
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âB
UT, HONESTLY
, C
ASS, THAT'S
what she said. “Learn the ropes!” I thought: it'll be tying knots next. It's the way they talk.'
Kate's relief at the sight of her old companion had been overwhelming. Cass and Tom were living in a tiny cottage near the church in the village and as soon as Cass had returned from Devon, Kate had rushed round to see her. Her new friends were very ready to integrate her into their society but Kate could already see a requirement to conform that was rather terrifying. The sight of Cass, piling a most unsuitable-looking teaâcrisps, sausage rolls and shop-bought chocolate cakeâon to the old deal table that was squashed into the corner of the sitting room, was immensely comforting. Kate thought of Mary Armitage's home-made scones and cakes and jams and experienced a sense of release from pressure. Being with Cass was like taking off a tight corset or kicking off a pinching shoe.
âI know exactly what you mean.' Cass crammed some crisps into her mouth. âTom says it's a wonder that some of them don't have stripes on their handbags. You know, the ones who start a conversation: “And what is your husband?” Not even “who” you notice. Oh, well. We'll probably be just like them when we're old.'
âI hope not!' Kate looked horrified. âWhat a terrible thought. I just wish there were more wives of our age.'
âTom and Mark have married very young. It's not at all usual. Anyway, much more fun like this. Just think of all those spare men! What bliss when Tom's at sea!' Cass disappeared into the tiny kitchen to make the tea.
âYou've only been married five minutes.' Kate leaned against the door jamb to watch her.
âI know that, but you must remember the Navy rule. Be prepared!'
âThat's the Boy Scouts.' Kate wandered back, sat down at the table and took a sausage roll.
âOh, well. Same thing.'
âYou're hopeless. And you've eaten all the crisps, you pig.'
âI haven't.' Cass put the teapot on the table. âHere they are. Listen. It's Happy Hour at
Dolphin
tonight. Why don't we go along?'
âWhat? Without the boys?'
âCan't go with them, can we, lovey? They're hundreds of miles away.'
âBut we can't just go on our own.'
â 'Course we can. Lots of wives were there on their own when we used to go with the boys. Why not? All their friends are there. That's one of the good things about having
Dolphin
just down the road. It's somewhere to go when the boys are at sea. Like the curry lunches they have on Sunday after church. Everyone understands if you turn up on your own. It's what it's all about. Like having a big family round you. I'm not going to start behaving like a nun just because Tom's at sea.'
âBut will there be anyone we know now that the specialisation course is over? All the boys on the course have joined boats and none of them were married. Everyone will be terrifyingly senior.' Kate was very sure that Mark would be deeply disapproving.
âGeorge Lampeter will be there for one. I saw him in the village. His boat is in for a few weeks, apparently. He told me that it would be fine. He'll be coming for us later to take us in.'
âOh, well.' Kate hesitated. George had been at BRNC with Tom and Mark and they were all good friends. Surely Mark wouldn't object? The evenings were so long and empty and it would be rather fun.
âWell?' Cass raised her eyebrows. âSquared it, have you?'
âSquared what?'
âThat terrible conscience of yours. It must be hell having to worry all the time. Thank God I haven't got one!'
M
ARY
A
RMITAGE INSISTED THAT
Kate come with her to meet the boat when, finally, it docked at
Dolphin
. By this time, Kate had discovered the hard way that an ETA was truly only an estimated time of arrival and not by any means something to be relied on. Much to her surprise
and delight, she had learned that the submarine was due back on Mark's birthday and had decided that she would make his homecoming very special indeed. On the day before he was due home, she walked into the village with the birthday supper shopping list: steak, mushrooms and a bottle of Mark's favourite wine. She went into the butcher's shop.