Denying Heaven (Room 103) (21 page)

“Make me feel good, River.” He took my hand and placed it
over his erection while his lips travelled my neck up to my mouth where he covered
my lips with his and worked me into a kiss.

My heart was bleeding as Bulk’s face penetrated my head;
his soft smile, his mischievous wink and his passionate and honest kisses, but
he had called an end on us.

He had given me nothing to fight for, nothing to latch
onto and provide a reason to battle what was happening.

I had nothing, I
was
nothing. I didn’t deserve
happiness anyway but there was still sparks inside me that screamed for the
fight, demanded that I take what I wanted and attack the ‘No’ I had received.

My spirit wrestled inside me as Danny continued to kiss
me, the high pitched squeal it assaulted me with was deafening as my soul
hunted for who it wanted, telling me with a pain in my gut that this man, this
ugly vile creature, wasn’t him.

“No!” I fired out as I shot backwards and pulled my dress
back over my breasts, sickness coursing through me at his touch. “Please Danny,
give me some time.”

His eyes narrowed on me and he tipped his head
sinisterly. “I don’t think you understand what I’m saying, River. You – don’t –
have – a – choice, and I call time
now
!””

I stood up quickly and turned towards the door, “Take me
home, please.”

I stilled when a laugh filled the cavernous tin room and
I closed my eyes in distress as I reached stealthily into my bag, pulling my
phone into my fingers and feeling my way over the keys, desperately trying to
hit the hash key and number one to speed dial Janey.

“I suggest you get that pretty little arse back here,
River. And you can put your phone away, there’s a few reasons I brought you
here; one of them is that there is no signal.”

I swallowed heavily and cursed when I realised I was
trapped. “Danny, I… I’m not saying no to us but just that you give me some time
to think about it.”

I jumped sharply when he grabbed my hair and whipped my
head back severely. “You are beginning to fuck me off, River. Listen to me, and
listen well. You are mine, you’ve always been mine.  I
own
you, every
fucking inch of you and I am going to take back what is mine, with or without
your fucking say-so.”

He pulled me back and grasped my breast harshly causing
me to grimace in pain, “I know what’s been happening between you and the
pierced prick but now I’m telling you that it’s over.”

My eyes widened when a small clear bag full of snow
dangled in front of me. “You see, River. I know how to look after you, give you
what you need.
Feed
your hunger.”

He dragged me back to the blanket and began to chop and
form a line on top of a large flat stone.

My mouth watered as my brain fired shots of excitement
through my blood, triggering a deep longing to fill my body. Its power was
astounding as my eyes refused to move from the thin white line of ecstasy and my
blood danced in excitement as my heart rate shot to an alarming pace, its
frantic beat pounding my ribcage mercilessly and thudding a deep intense rhythm
in my brain.

I placed a shaking hand over my nose, telling myself if I
blocked its route inside it would make the rejection easier. Blinking hard, I
tried to force my gaze away to anywhere but on the seamless white stripe of
promise and a choked sob clambered up my throat when Danny held out a rolled
twenty, inviting me to hit the edge hard.

“I… I…” I rubbed my moist face with my hands as my body
started to tremble with the need stifling me. “I can’t,” I eventually managed
and held my breath when I waited for his wrath.

I started to cry when I heard Danny’s draw in the
quietness of the building; the deep inhalation driving a painful hankering
through me, piercing my nerve endings and making my whole body vibrate
violently.

“Oh wow, that’s sooo pure, baby. Come on.”

I was starting to pant now as sweat trickled down my face
and dripped heavily off my chin and onto my breastbone, where it continued its
trail down between my breasts. I licked my lips involuntary, almost
experiencing the tingle on my gums and the shot of nirvana provided by such a
bland simple product.

“Danny, I…” I couldn’t find the words as my body
commanded my control and fought hard to battle with me.

“You what, baby? River, I feel so good. Heaven, just pure
heaven. You remember how good the fuck is when we’re soaring? How much deeper
and intense everything feels?”

“Oh God…” I croaked as I dropped to my knees beside him,
my eyes fixed hard on utopia as I took the make-shift tube from him.

“River…” Danny’s lips were already sucking on my neck,
his teeth grazing my hot skin as his high fuelled his lust. “Come on baby, I’m
waiting in ecstasy for you, join me.”

My sobbing was becoming uncontrollable as I leaned
towards the stone and inserted the roll into my nostril, sealing the other half
of my nose with a finger. Danny’s hand was already between my legs, his palm
rubbing my clit frantically and I moaned as I started to grind against him, my
treacherous body unable to win back restraint as my desire forged my actions.

“Do it!” he hissed and a memory of four years ago
assaulted my brain with a fierce clash.

“Do it, Summer, suck my cock, make me come on your
face.” Danny held Summer’s head between his hands and drove repeatedly into her
mouth as I stood naked and tortured in the corner, unable to look away yet so desperate
to look away.

“Bend over the bed; let me fuck that hot pussy.”

Summer stood and gazed over at me, quiet and
whimpering as I used the wall to hold me up. She bent, palming the mattress as
she smiled sinfully at Danny, “Fuck my arse, Danny. Do it, do it!”

They both growled violently as Danny slammed into her
backside, forcing her flat on the bed as he pressed against her in his frenzied
fucking.

Their frantic loud moans were drowning out my sobs as
I watched my sister fuck my fiancé, his pounding increasing along with their
erotic groans and my knees finally gave way as I sank down the wall and fell in
a crumpled heap as my heart finally broke and shattered inside me and my mind
finally went crazy.

“Come inside me, Danny. Do it, do it, do it, do it, do
it, do it…..”

 A tortured sob broke my train of thought and I stumbled
backwards when I noticed blood everywhere. It was all over; down my dress,
masking my face as my vision blurred with a red tinge. I could taste the acid
of it on my lips and I retched at the pungent metallic taste.

A strangled whimper gurgled from me when I stared at the blood
stained rock in my hands and I dropped it with a heavy thud when I shook so
much I couldn’t hold onto it.

The long loud scream that left my lips when my gaze
landed on Danny was inhumane and ear-splitting, its shrill bouncing off the
walls and hitting me again and again with each piercing echo.

His head was missing a chunk of skull and I could
actually see his brain as his eyes stared lifelessly at me. Half of his face
was caved in, the place where his eye should be was a hollow gouge and his nose
had disappeared leaving a huge gaping mess of pulp. The stone had fell beside
his vacant face, blood blanketing it as gooey stuff dripped from a sharp edge,
sliding with elasticity onto the ground and tainting the beige sand red.

I couldn’t breathe; my lungs were panicking as I tried to
inhale short sharp bursts of air but my head started to swim at the lack of
oxygen and I palmed the floor for support. I screamed again when I fell against
some loose pieces of Danny’s skull, the flats of my hands crunching against the
shattered fragments of bone and my fingers sinking into chunks of bloody flesh.

I frantically clambered backwards, the fear fuelling my
movements until my vision started to tunnel and a mist obscured my vision as my
heart rate peaked and I finally collapsed as vomit spluttered violently from me
and a strangled gasp of air distended my lungs.

Then I passed out.

“Alright!” I shouted again as I rolled out of bed,
landing with a hefty bump on the floor. “
Fuck!
” I hissed, holding my
head in my hands as the sunlight that filtered through the blinds hurt my
retinas making we wish I hadn’t devoured so much Jack last night. Call me
stupid but the bloody stuff had made me feel nearer to Spirit. How sad was
that?

The pounding restarted both in my head and on the door as
I pulled on some shorts and went to answer whoever was trying to knock the damn
thing down, my mood ready for a fight.

Janey pushed her way in as soon as I had unlatched the
lock. My heart vaulted up my throat when I saw her pale and tear stricken face,
“Janey?”

“I can’t find her, Bulk, I can’t find her!”

She was frantic, her arms were flapping about and her
eyes darted around the room as though she would find the answer in my hallway,
“Bulk!”

“Janey, calm down and tell me what’s happened.” My whole
body was clenched with apprehension. It had to be something to do with Spirit,
or Janey wouldn’t have come to me. “What do you mean you can’t find her?”

“She went out with Danny last night and I’ve heard
nothing from her since. I know she’s angry with me at the moment but I went
round to her flat this morn, I have a key, and she wasn’t there.”

I swallowed heavily as I traced my teeth with my tongue;
a slight boil in the pit of my stomach simmered a slight anger within me. “Then
I presume she stayed the night at Danny’s.”

She shook her head, “She wouldn’t Bulk, I know she
wouldn’t not unless…”

“Unless what?” I asked as I narrowed my eyes on her.

She bit her bottom lip and closed her eyes. “What if… he
made her?” The dread in her voice was crushing and I frowned as something
stirred inside me.

 If he had hurt her I would kill him and I had to breathe
deeply to keep the rage under control. Suddenly images of Spirit crying as
Danny forced himself on her overwhelmed me and I went in search of my phone.

It didn’t even ring, just connected straight to voicemail
and I tried a second time, getting the same result causing my gut to clench.

“Do you know where he’s staying?”

She shook her head as she followed me into the bedroom
and stared at me as she watched me pull on some clothes. I knew she wasn’t
perving on me because she batted for the other side so I let her. “Kenny?” I
asked.

Her face lit up slightly and she nodded frantically.
“Right, let me get the guy’s together and we’ll pay him a little visit.”

***

“I have no fucking idea, you piece of shit, I’ve already
told you.”

Jax delivered another blow to Kenny’s face, causing his
head to snap sideways as he grunted with the pain, “Talk, nut-job!”

E came to stand beside me triggering a scowl from Jax
after he had told her to stay outside but she scowled back at him and I
couldn’t help but smile at their interaction, “You want me ring Sal?”

Involving the local mafia was a thought I didn’t relish
but I knew deep down something had happened to Spirit and I knew I needed all
the help I could get. I nodded slowly as I cringed, “Yeah” I answered with a
grateful smile.

She nodded and patted my shoulder before she pulled her
phone and left the room.

“Fuck! Okay, okay” Kenny finally relinquished when Romeo
ground the heel of his boot into his lap, “1265 Blaire’s court.”

***

 We searched the empty flat several times; trying to find
anything that would give an indication of where they were but nothing! Fucking
nothing!

“Jesus Christ!” I snapped as I stood rubbing my hands
over my head and trying to desperately think what to do next.

The door opened and E entered with Sal, her father and
four hefty looking guys. My eyes widened on her but she smiled encouragingly
and made introductions. They wasted no time and within seconds they were
pulling drawers and slashing sofa’s, their expertise in matters like this
comforting and reassuring.

Half an hour later, Sal walked up to me with a few items
in his hands. “A receipt from a toy store for a pool and sand, a DIY store
receipt for wood and fixings, a telephone order for a picnic basket all dated
yesterday and…” he shook his head with disgust as he held up a bag of coke and
tutted.

I frowned at him, wondering if he had gone slightly nuts,
“Why the hell does that help?”

His face darkened and I’ll admit I cowered slightly, so I
gave him a timid smile and dipped my head in apology; he was trying to help
after all. “It helps because these were dated yesterday morning and they were
with this.”

He held up what looked like property title deeds and I
squinted at it. “It looks like a cheap sale on some property.”

He nodded and pointed to the date beside the two
signatures, “It looks like an old out-building of some sort what Danny purchased
cash yesterday.”

My eyes flicked up to his, “Do you think…”

“I think he’s… I dunno, created some sort of romantic
picnic scene and they have stopped there over night.”

My gut clenched with his brutal honesty and I swallowed
back the lump in my throat. “No!” Janey shouted, “She wouldn’t, I’m telling
you…”

My phone rang and I pulled it out despondently, my heart
heavy in the realisation that Spirit had wasted no time in moving on, wiping me
away and taking whatever was on offer.

My brow rose when Spirit’s name flashed on my phone
screen and I looked cautiously at Janey, “It’s her.”

She exhaled heavily and closed her eyes in relief, “Oh,
thank God.”

I nodded although I did wonder why she would be phoning
me if she was with him. Was she doing it to gloat?

I nearly didn’t answer, but I’m so fucking glad I did.