Delphi Complete Works of the Brontes Charlotte, Emily, Anne Brontë (Illustrated) (509 page)

August, 1852.

I am thankful to say that Papa’s convalescence seems now to be quite confirmed. There is scarcely any remainder of the inflammation in his eyes, and his general health progresses satisfactorily. He begins even to look forward to resuming his duty ere long, but caution must be observed on that head. Martha has been very willing and helpful during Papa’s illness. Poor Tabby is ill herself at present with English cholera, which complaint, together with influenza, has lately been almost universally prevalent in this district. Of the last I have myself had a touch; but it went off very gently on the whole, affecting my chest and liver less than any cold has done for the last three years…. I write to you about yourself rather under constraint and in the dark; for your letters, dear Nell, are most remarkably oracular, dropping nothing but hints which tie my tongue a good deal. What, for instance, can I say to your last postscript? It is quite sibylline. I can hardly guess what checks you in writing to me. Perhaps you think that as
I
generally write with some reserve, you ought to do the same.
My
reserve, however, has its origin not in design, but in necessity. I am silent because I have literally
nothing to say
. I might, indeed, repeat over and over again that my life is a pale blank, and often a very weary burden, and that the future sometimes appals me; but what end could be answered by such repetition, except to weary you and enervate myself? The evils that now and then wring a groan from my heart lie in my position — not that I am a
single
woman and likely to remain a
single
woman, but because I am a lonely woman and likely to be
lonely
. But it cannot be helped, and therefore
imperatively must be borne
, and borne, too, with as few words about it as may be. I write this just to prove to you that whatever you would freely
say
to me you may just as freely write. Understand that I remain just as resolved as ever not to allow myself the holiday of a visit from you till
I
have done my work. After labour, pleasure; but while work was lying at the wall undone, I never yet could enjoy recreation.

SIMILE LETTER OF CHARLOTTE BRONTË.

Slowly page after page of “Villette” was now being written. The reader sees from these letters that the book was composed in no happy mood. Writing to her publisher a few weeks after the date of the last letter printed above, she says: “I can hardly tell you how I hunger to hear some opinions beside my own, and how I have sometimes desponded and almost despaired, because there was no one to whom to read a line, or of whom to ask a counsel. ‘Jane Eyre’ was not written under such circumstances, nor were two-thirds of ‘Shirley.’ I got so miserable about it that I could bear no allusion to the book. It is not finished yet; but now I hope.” But though her work pressed so incessantly upon her, and her feverish anxiety to have it done weighed so heavily upon her health and spirits, she could still find time to answer her friend’s letters in a way which showed that her interest in the outer world was as keen as ever:

September, 1852.

Thank you for A —
 
— ‘s notes. I like to read them, they are so full of news, but they are illegible. A great many words I really cannot make out. It is pleasing to hear that M —
 
— is doing so well, and the tidings about —
 
— seem also good. I get a note from —
 
— every now and then, but I fear my last reply has not given much satisfaction. It contained a taste of that unpalatable commodity called
advice
— such advice, too, as might be, and I dare say was, construed into faint reproof. I can scarcely tell what there is about —
 
— that, in spite of one’s conviction of her amiability, in spite of one’s sincere wish for her welfare, palls upon one, satiates, stirs impatience. She
will
complacently put forth opinions and tastes as her own which are
not
her own, nor in any sense natural to her. My patience can really hardly sustain the test of such a jay in borrowed plumes. She prated so much about the fine wilful spirit of her child, whom she describes as a hard, brown little thing, who will do nothing but what pleases himself, that I hit out at last — not very hard, but enough to make her think herself ill-used, I doubt not. Can’t help it. She often says she is not “absorbed in self,” but the fact is, I have seldom seen anyone more unconsciously, thoroughly, and often weakly egotistic. Then, too, she is inconsistent. In the same breath she boasts her matrimonial happiness and whines for sympathy. Don’t understand it. With a paragon of a husband and child, why that whining, craving note? Either her lot is not all she professes it to be, or she is hard to content.

In October the resolute determination to allow herself no relaxation until “Villette” was finished broke down. She was compelled to call for help, and to acknowledge herself beaten in her attempt to crush out the yearning for company:

October, 1852.

Papa expresses so strong a wish that I should ask you to come, and I feel some little refreshment so absolutely necessary myself, that I really must beg you to come to Haworth for one single week. I thought I would persist in denying myself till I had done my work, but I find it won’t do. The matter refuses to progress, and this excessive solitude presses too heavily. So let me see your dear face, Nell, just for one reviving week. Could you come on Wednesday? Write to-morrow, and let me know by what train you would reach Keighley, that I may send for you.

The visit was a pleasant one in spite of the weariness of body and mind which troubled Charlotte. She laid aside her task for that “one little week,” went out upon the moors with her friend, talked as of old, and at last, when she was left alone once more, declared that the change had done her “inexpressible good.” Writing to her friend immediately after the latter had left her, she says:

Your note came only this morning. I had expected it yesterday, and was beginning actually to feel weary — like you. This won’t do. I am afraid of caring for you too much. You must have come upon —
 
— at an unfavourable moment, seen it under a cloud. Surely they are not always or often thus, or else married life is indeed but a slipshod paradise. I only send
The Examiner
, not having yet read
The Leader
. I was spared the remorse I feared. On Saturday I fell to business, and as the welcome mood is still decently existent, and my eyes consequently excessively tired with scribbling, you must excuse a mere scrawl. Papa was glad to hear you had got home well — as well as we…. I do miss my dear bed-fellow; no more of that calm sleep.

Her pen now began to move more quickly, and the closing chapters of “Villette” were written with comparative ease, so that at last she writes thus, on November 22nd:

Monday morning.

Truly thankful am I to be able to tell you that I finished my long task on Saturday, packed and sent off the parcel to Cornhill. I said my prayers when I had done it. Whether it is well or ill done I don’t know.
D. V.
, I will now try to wait the issue quietly. The book, I think, will not be considered pretentious, nor is it of a character to excite hostility. As Papa is pretty well, I may, I trust, dear Nell, do as you wish me, and come for a few days to B —
 
— . Miss Martineau has also urgently asked me to go and see her. I promised, if all were well, to do so at the close of November or the commencement of December, so that I could go on from B —
 
— to Westmoreland. Would Wednesday suit you? “Esmond” shall come with me —
i.e.
Thackeray’s novel.

Every reader knows in what fashion “Villette” ends, and most persons also know from Mrs. Gaskell that the reason why the actual issue is left in some uncertainty was the author’s filial desire to gratify her father. Charlotte herself was firmly resolved that she would
not
make Lucy Snowe the happy wife of Paul Emanuel. She never meant to “appoint her lot in pleasant places.” Lucy was to bear the storm and stress of life in the same manner as that in which her creator had been compelled to bear it; and she was to be left in the end alone, robbed for ever of the hope of spending the happy afternoon of her existence in the sunshine of love and congenial society. But Mr. Brontë, altogether unconscious of that tragedy of heart-sickness and soul-weariness which was being enacted under his own roof, and which furnished so striking a parallel to the story which ran through “Villette,” would not brook a gloomy ending to the tale, and by protestations and entreaties induced his daughter at least so far to alter her plan as to leave the issue in doubt.

So “Villette” went its way, as “Jane Eyre” and “Shirley “ had done before it, from the secluded parsonage at Haworth up to the busy publishing-house in Cornhill, and thence out into the world. There was some fear on Charlotte’s part when the MS. had been despatched. She herself was gradually forming that which remained the fixed conviction of her life — the conviction that in “Villette” she had done her best, and that, for good or for ill, by it her reputation must stand or fall. But she was intensely anxious, as we have seen, to have the opinions of others upon the story. Nor was it only a general verdict on its merits for which she called. She was uneasy upon some minor points. According to her wont, she had taken most of her characters from life, and it was not during her stay at Brussels alone that she had studied the models which she employed when writing the book. Naturally, she was curious to know whether she had painted her portraits too literally. So “Villette” was allowed to pass, whilst still in MS., into the hands of the original of “Dr. John.” When that gentleman had read the story, and criticised all the characters with the freedom of unconsciousness, her mind was set at rest, and she knew that she had not transgressed the bounds which divide the story-teller from the biographer.

In the meantime, her work done, she hurried away from Haworth to spend a well-earned holiday at B —
 
— with her friend. “Esmond” accompanied her, and the quiet afternoons were spent in reading it aloud. On December 9th she writes from Haworth, announcing her safe return to her own home:

I got home safely at five o’clock yesterday afternoon, and, I am most thankful to say, found Papa and all the rest quite well. I did my business satisfactorily in Leeds, getting the head-dress rearranged as I wished. It is now a very different matter to the bushy, tasteless thing it was before. On my arrival I found no proof-sheets, but a letter from Mr. S —
 
— , which I would have enclosed, but so many words are scarce legible you would have no pleasure in reading it. He continues to make a mystery of his “reason”; something in the third volume sticks confoundedly in his throat; and as to the “female character” about which I asked, he responds that “she is an odd, fascinating little puss,” but affirms that “he is not in love with her.” He tells me also that he will answer no more questions about “Villette.” This morning I have a brief note from Mr. Williams, intimating that he has not yet been permitted to read the third volume. Also there is a note from Mrs. —
 
— , very kind. I almost wish I could still look on that kindness just as I used to do: it was very pleasant to me once. Write
immediately
, dear Nell, and tell me how your mother is. Give my kindest regards to her and all others at B —
 
— . Everybody seemed very good to me this last visit. I remember it with corresponding pleasure.

The private reception of “Villette” was not altogether that for which its author had hoped. Her publisher had objections to urge against certain features of the story, and those who saw the book in manuscript were not slow to express their own disapproval. It was evident that there was disappointment at Cornhill; and the proud spirit of Miss Brontë was keenly troubled. The letters in which she dwells on what was passing at that time need not be reproduced here, for their purport is sufficiently indicated by that which has just been given. But it is worth while to notice the scrupulous modesty with which she listened to all that was said by those who found fault, her careful anxiety to understand their objections, such as they were, and her perfect readiness to discuss every point raised with them. Of irritability under this criticism there is no trace, only a certain sadness and sorrow at the discovery that she had not succeeded in impressing others as she had hoped to do. Yet she is scarcely surprised that it is so. Had she not written years before, when “Shirley” was first produced, these words? —