Crystal Bella (24 page)

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Ethan was now in the ether. He could see Kali sitting down in a garden. He came in flying from above and glided to her in a position that would be impossible to hold in the human world. He turned up unexpected and she couldn’t help but be surprised and excited by his dramatic entrance. He asked Kali to come with him. He held her closely and took her into the air and they flew through the forest at fast speeds. It felt amazing to fly especially within the purity of the ether, it just made the feeling of flying more immense. They were flying at great speeds, often going from tree to tree, always heading higher. They went incredibly high, where the world below gave a new sparkle from seeing it from such a height and under a different perspective and angle. They looked down from above into the forest and Ethan communicated without words and asked her to look into the rock pool below. They looked in and saw an old life appear before them. It was a few hundred years ago and they saw themselves living in a beautiful place in nature. Halo was with them and another beautiful child. Halo was a child they looked after once and the young girl was their gorgeous daughter in that life. Ethan remembers her well now, the love he had for her and how much she meant to him. He knows he will see her again, his little angel he used to call her. The love for her was overwhelming in that life.

Ethan kept
travelling, flying through the forest. He came to a tree so high up in the air and he stood on the branch, high above the ground.

“
I’m taking you through a portal,” he said.

Kali looked nervous, she gave a slight
, heavy breath. Going through a portal is like going through a human death, (not as painful as most humans would think; the human death) there is that unknown quantity that you have to go through. It feels intense at the time of going through it, but you need to accept and allow it to happen and enter.

Ethan grabbed Kali’s hand. S
he had to trust him, he was leading the way. He found the portal, it was right next them on the branch they were standing on. Kali couldn’t see it but was aware it was close, hidden in the ether somewhere. Ethan knew where it was. It was right by the branch hidden from sight but available in his vision of seeing so much now, everything was highlighted. He loved being here and showing off his powers to the one he loved more than anything.

As soo
n as they entered it became intense again. It felt like a human death but without the mind panicking and there was no pain. But it was a transition and you had to have no fear and be pure within to get through. You had to surrender also, be untouched, just pure while it was so intense all around. After about four seconds they came through it and they were in another dimension. It was sacred and beautiful and the energy had lifted. They floated around, they had been here before, but the memory had faded and now it returned in a spark infusion where it blasted the senses. But Ethan wanted more and headed straight into the next portal. Kali looked at him with eyes that looked slightly alarmed.

“You have to trust,” h
e said.

T
hey went through again with the four seconds of intensity. The portal was full of light and it was intense but they got through and another world was opened to them. This world was open and vast and they could see the fields below them as they flew through the open air. It was such an open feeling, the rivers were wide and they formed so elegantly against the landscape. A Moa bird was just beneath them, flying also. It had wings but they were light, transparent, more like the energy of wings but they were lightly formed in their visuals. She had two chicks flying with her and as Ethan looked at the beauty below him, as they flew through the sky, he felt a connection, a past he had with them once. He had seen them before in this ether but also in the human world 300 or so years ago in one of his past lives. They were in a forest and they had both shared the same water in a pool by the river. They had both sipped the same water that day, shared the same spot. That day he just felt love when he saw them, she was huge and majestic with the cutest chicks. The chicks were almost like, ‘who is he mom?’ When he saw the Moa that day he had been in awe of their beauty. They faced each other under the dense bush, the river flowing and the rock pool on the side.

It was an epiphany
for him back then as when he looked into the Moa’s eyes the beauty he saw reminded him of God.
What was behind those eyes?
he wondered. Freedom was the answer, and behind that was peace. Behind peace was joy, behind joy was the feeling of love and behind love was God, and the feeling behind that? It took a while for Ethan to know. He looked deeply into the eyes of the Moa, feeling love, knowing his immortal self, her chicks stood also in awe of their surroundings and the answer came to Ethan, the feeling behind God was eternal life time love.

The Moa in all her beauty gave Ethan
his moment of an epiphany all those years ago by a rock pool in the land of Aotearoa. They responded with the same energy that day and were gentle and friendly. They were not usually friendly around humans but that day was different as they could sense Ethan was special and kind and responded with the same energy. Animals have a soul and Ethan loved it when he was able to connect with an animal he knew from before. They never really die.

Ethan and Kali
flew from the sky and landed onto the ground, their feet in perfect rhythm to take their landing. They now walked along a glittering path full of trees and plants in the ether. Ethan looked at Kali and kissed her. He had to take her through this, into the different portals and she glowed with all her beauty. They walked together in this sparkling, divine world. As they walked through, an image like a circle of an image appeared to the left of Ethan. He stopped and looked, he knew immediately what was in it, if he chose to look or go inside. Kali looked at Ethan, she knew as well.

“Do you want to go in?” s
he asked.

“Yes.”

“Don’t worry you won’t remember this part when you awake.”

T
hey entered the circle, the image and they went inside. Once they were through, they came to the open sky and they zoomed through it in the open air. The sky was blue and it felt so free to roam and see everything from high above. They were flying through the San Francisco bay area. It was no different from doing this in real life. It was just in a different time zone and done without the human body. They could see the city, the bridge and they glided around. They were flying around freely and looking at their surroundings, then they got the feeling to go closer to the land and they went towards some markings they knew. As they came closer they could see the car traffic. They watched the cars and the flow of the traffic in San Francisco. Ethan thought about being in one of the cars and suddenly he was there inside it. His manifestations were so quick now and he was there sooner than a split second. He followed the car, sitting inside it. Eventually the car left the condense traffic area and went into the winding roads of San Francisco, an area with a cliff, it went high and followed the coastline. It was a beautiful drive with amazing scenery. Ethan was happy he chose this car. Ethan left the car and jumped back into the air again. He could sense Kali, she was watching from somewhere but she was hidden, so mysterious, her powers were becoming enhanced. He could feel her, but he couldn’t spot her, she was watching him, he knew that, he could feel her stare, and he chuckled to himself, adoring her strength and power. From above he looked at the car he was in. Some rain has fallen and the road was now wet. As the car came around the corner there was a truck and another car overtaking it, coming right towards the car that Ethan was in just a moment ago. Ethan could see there will be a front on collision unless something changes, he decided to enter back into the car. The car swerved the oncoming car. It missed the car by inches but by doing so exited onto an off ramp that had road works and cones. The car headed down the off ramp, into the light barrier, through it, then over the edge into the open air. Ethan watched and saw the sea below and saw how serene and picturesque that image looked despite what was happening. He decided to hop back out of the car and went back into the sky.

He flew around
looking for Kali and there she was. She came out of nowhere with a glint in her eye.

“I know you’
ve been watching me,” Ethan said.

“I
know, I can’t help it.”

Etha
n and Kali come out of the San Francisco sky, the portal in a flash and were back in the original forest.

“I like
watching you, when you can’t see me,” she said.

Ethan looked at Kali
his goddess. They laughed together, their love so intoxicating, they kissed still laughing.

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The morning arrived and Ethan could remember clearly going to the ether. For the first seven minutes when he awoke, this human world felt like an illusion as he was so connected still to the ether. It was like he was still there or had just left and had to enter this plane with all the memory of the ether and this human world was the distant one. The opposite to how everyone usually feels; this human world and the other supposed heavenly, spiritual realm that could exist. The human world now felt like the secondary place or the illusion for Ethan as the memory of the ether was still so potently with him. Ethan lay there thinking how it had been two minutes since he had last seen Kali, then three, four. It was all so real. Then slowly he returned to this world with a slight thump. It was bland here compared to the ether. Ethan could remember the whole night crystal clear though the memory of going through the coastline of San Francisco at the end was very vague to him now.

Elis
abeth came into his room and handed him the phone. He was half asleep in bed. He knew it was Kali.

“
Hi.”

“
Darling angel, remember taking me through the forest last night?”

“
Yeah, you remembered.”

“
Yes, next time I’m taking you through a portal.”

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Kali jumped out of the shower, her body hugged the towel and her hair was wet. It was Thursday and she had packed and had done everything she needed. She had everything boxed up and ready to be picked up and stored. Jason had stayed home today and had decided to take two days off work. He was expecting her to leave on the weekend, but she was leaving today and would stay in a hotel for a few nights before heading back to San Francisco. She had told Jason the night before of her plans. She couldn’t keep staying here.

Jason
had gone out for a couple of hours and it gave her a chance to have a breather and double check that she had everything. She felt slightly rushed but she had to do it and make her move. If she did leave something behind she could always arrange for it to be delivered to her later, but she was pretty certain she had everything. She had her main things like passport, wallet. She had too much stuff anyway, all she needed was a suitcase and Ethan. That was all she needed now, nothing else. That excited her, she felt free. She didn’t give a fuck now about anything else. She didn’t care if she left some of her belongings behind, it didn’t matter. She had herself, Ethan and now freedom.

Jason
arrived home and Kali was all ready to leave. She said hi and tried not to look too happy, but she felt freedom. There was a mix of emotions but mainly it felt like escaping and feeling excited.

“Jason
.... this is it. Just because I’m doing this, doesn’t mean it’s easy, or that I don’t care…it just wasn’t meant to be forever...I guess.”

“
If you leave, Kali I can’t be in touch, I have to get on with my life.”

“
I know. I understand that.”

“
I don’t know what to say, is there someone else?”

“No. Even though it’s the end I’ve spent six years with you, knowing you....” she was going to say, ‘and loving you,’ but she couldn’t say it, there was a gap in her speech and she just finished with, “it’s a sad moment.”

“
We don’t have to say goodbye, there’s a part of you that doesn’t want to leave…”

“
Jason, no. It’s sad but I feel relieved. I wish we could talk like friends and connect and be honest for a change, but you can’t do that.”

She stopped and looked at Jason
, these would be her last words to him so she wanted to be really present in the moment and say what she needed, she continued.

“In t
he two months I have been away I’ve changed. I also realize I’ve processed a lot in that time away. There’s no baggage, I’m just over it. I’m sorry to say that but I am.”

I
t seemed tough for her to say it be she was being honest. She had processed it, she thought she would be sad but the closer the door got, the better she felt.

“
Sure, easy for you to say that, I’ve spent every part of me to be with you, helped you financially, supported you. I’ve been so good to you and you just shut it down with no discussion.”

“
We did discuss this. We had a break and now a choice is made. This is how I feel. I understand it’s not what you want...but it’s me being true to my feelings.”