Crushed (5 page)

Ryan
was at the house when Lacey and I got back. We walked inside and Lacey headed
outback to see what he and Jason were up to. I told Lacey I was going to jump
into the shower, and I would head out when I was done.

         
I turned on my stereo in the bathroom and took a nice cool shower. That’s the
thing about living in California, even with the AC on, you always feel sticky
and gross. The humidity is insane, and it doesn’t rain often. It kind of sucks.

As
soon as I dry off, I decide to put on a cute little maxi dress, with my bikini
on under it. I might go swimming after we eat, and I would wear anything that
would make me feel cooler at this point.

I
toss on a little mascara and put my hair into a pony tail and head out back. I
see Jason and lacey sitting at the patio table. When I walk out I notice Ryan
sitting on the opposite side, with the other chair beside him opened, a beer
sitting in front of him. I grab one out of the mini fridge that Lacey and Jason
keep out back and head to sit beside him.

As
I sit down I notice that he is watching me again. He always does that and it
bugs the hell out of me.

“Hey”
I say to him as I sit down

I
look at Jason “your baby mama has the hardest job ever. We had to fire a
druggie, file two police reports for stalking and we were hit on by a group of
potential clients. There is no way I am going back to that place” I laugh

“I
don’t blame you” Lacey says “I don’t even know if I am cut out for it anymore.
I was ready to punch that one guy in the face for calling me a hippo, I’m not
even fat. He just wanted to piss me off.”

We
both started laughing, remembering the forty year old guy who came in and asked
us about someone who wasn’t even one of Lacey’s clients. When she told him that
she didn’t have the information he was looking for, he told her she looked like
a ‘sweaty hippo’ and Lacey punched him. When the cops came, she blamed it on
the hormones and the cop laughed.

I
started grabbing chips and salsa off the plate in front of Jason

“Hey
want a chip nerd?” he asks sarcastically, pushing the plate away from himself
and towards me

“They
taste better when they are yours ass face” I laugh

Lacey
starts to tell Jason about how tired she was and how her feet her when I look
over at Ryan

He’s
looking at Lacey and Jason with an odd expression. Almost like wanting.

Oh
my God, does he like my sister?

No,
there’s no way. Right?

He
leans back into his chair and turns his head towards me just as I move to open
my kindle and start reading from my new book. I turn the kindle on and I am a
few pages into my first chapter when I can feel him still looking at me. I am
trying to ignore him, but it’s hard when someone is actually staring at you.

I
look up at Lacey and Jason who have started making out. Like full blown groping
each other. All of a sudden Jason pulls his chair back, grabs Lacey’s hand and
drags her into the house. She looks back at me and waves, giggling as she
follows Jason inside.

“They
are like a bunch of teenagers” I say looking back down at my book

“Are
you going to look at me, at some point or keep pretending you are out here
alone?” he asks

I
stop and look at him “I’m looking at you” I say

He
smiles that damn smile. God what is it about him? It’s driving me seriously
crazy

“You
really didn’t like working with your sister?” He asks turning his chair so it’s
facing me and closer

“No,
I really didn’t. I loved helping her out but the drama with police reports for
her clients who are being harassed and firing people as clients. It’s too much.
I need a job, but I don’t know that I want
her
job”

Ryan
looked down at his lap “you could come work for me”

“What
do you mean work for you?” I ask

“I
need a new PA, the guy that I had for the last 2 years quit and moved to Hawaii
with his wife and new baby. Lacey has been helping me, but I was between jobs
so it wasn’t that hard, now I need someone who can schedule my appearances,
bring me my scripts and basically do all my odds and ends” he says

“Like
a maid?” I ask lifting an eyebrow

He
laughs” No I have one of those. Stella has been my maid for 5 years. I really
need someone I can trust. I could call the agency and find one, but I… I have a
serious issue with letting strangers into my personal life, not everything you
do will be for my job. Sometimes I need to make a doctor’s appointment and I
can’t always feel like I need it risked where I get my teeth cleaned. I think
you would be perfect for the job, you need the money for starting over and I
need someone I know and can trust.”

He
leans his chair so that his legs are now between mine, he pushes them open
slightly and leans forward “I like you Emmalyn, I kissed you last week at the
pool because if I didn’t, I thought I would seriously combust. I don’t know
what it is, and I am not sure what it’s ever going to be but I like you. I want
you to work for me though, so whatever you and I are or aren’t I want you to
take the job. It would be a great experience for you, and I promise you won’t
have to fire anyone that you don’t want to.

I
start to consider his offer. I really could use the job. I mean I am not
hurting for money, but I also haven’t started spending the money that is in my
savings account thanks to my dad dying. I have been saving that, I don’t know
for what I just am.

I
look back up with him, he’s watching me with eager eyes waiting for my
response.

I
lift my legs up and put my feet up on the sides of his chair, so that his legs
are still between mine, but my legs are opened

“Okay,
I’ll take the job”

“Really?”
He asks a surprised look on his face

“Really.”
I say

He
sits there looking at me for several minutes

He
leans forward again, inches away from my face he looks down between us, not
moving my legs so he can move his body between them, when he looks back up he
has a smile on his face “can I kiss you Em?” He asks

I
sit there, watching him for just a moment before I nod my head.

He
leans in slowly brushing his lips against mine.

It
started out slow, the way it had in the pool last week, gentle like I was made
of glass and he didn’t want to break me

He
stuck his tongue out and gently ran it across my bottom lip, asking for me to
open up for him. As soon as our tongues met, a moan came from him. He takes one
of his arms and wraps it around my waist, pulling me forward in the seat so I
am closer to him.

His
hips lean forward and I can feel how hard he is. I let out a slight moan as
soon as I do he moans louder and starts to deepen the kiss. Grabbing onto my
hips with both hands and pulling me onto his lap.

As
soon as I am on top of him, he reaches up with one hand and grabs my hair,
pulling me closer to him. His other hand is around my breast squeezing.

I
could feel him growing harder under me as he stopped kissing me and pulled the
top of my dress down and pulled one of my breasts out of the bikini top.
Kissing and swirling his tongue around the nipple. Then moving over and doing
the same thing on the other side

“Holy
shit Em” he groans

I
start rocking back and forth on top of him, which only makes him suck my nipple
harder. Causing me to cry out

As
soon as I do he pushes me back onto the chair, spreading my legs apart. He gets
down on his knees and moves my dress up around my waist and then pulls my
bikini shorts down and off.

He
looks up at me with awe in his eyes “that’s the most beautiful pussy I have
ever seen Emmalyn”

He
sits up and gives me another panty soaking kiss, as soon as our tongues begin
twirling around one another I feel him start to rub my clit with his finger in
small circles. I throw my head back never feeling anything like it. Of course I
have had orgasms before, but they were always solo, his touch alone was causing
me to feel like I was on fire.

Ryan
steps back and looks at me with a sexy smile and gets down on his knees

“I
can’t wait to see what you taste like, I haven’t been able to stop thinking
about it since the moment I saw you”

I
thought about stopping him, I was suddenly nervous. This was going so fast this
wasn’t the kind of girl I normally was, but being with him seeing how worked up
he was just from a little foreplay made me want to keep going… I
HAD
to
keep going

His
tongue skimmed the inside of my thighs, like he was preparing me for what was
about to happen, and teasing all at the same time.

As
soon as his tongue hit my pussy my head flew back again, he began licking me
gently while his thumb played with my clit making me cry out again.

I
reached down and gripped his hair in my right hand, pulling. I thought I might
hurt him, but all it did was make him moan through his licks and go even
faster.

I
was trying to be quiet, I knew that Jason and Lacey were upstairs having sex so
they wouldn’t hear me and we were far enough from other houses that I didn’t
have to worry about neighbors, but I felt like I was being too loud and that
Ryan would make fun of me.

Before
I could even think about quieting down, Ryan slipped a finger between my wet
folds and entered me. As soon as he did I opened my eyes and looked down at
him.

He
was staring at me with pure lust in his eyes. His mouth was hanging open in
concentration to what he was doing.

I
bit my lip as he sat up, not stopping the use of his fingers inside me and
kissed me. Hard.

“You
are so fucking tight baby” he whispered as he sat back down and began licking
my clit as he worked his fingers in and out of me “So wet”

He
was devouring me, I honestly thought I was going to die. All of a sudden I felt
my orgasm take over, I threw my head back and moaned loudly Ryan was still
pumping in and out of me as I came down from my high.

When
I was done he moved away and pull my dress down then sat up and kissed me

“I
cannot wait to see your face when I do that again” he said

Again?

“God
yes” was all I replied

Ryan
laughed

We
sat there, not really saying much for a while, just watching each other. I
wanted to ask him a million times what he was thinking but I was scared to find
out. He scared me like nothing else.

All
of these feelings were so sudden, and I knew what his reputation was like,
Lacey warned me but I couldn’t stop them all from crawling in.

 Ryan
spoke first “I’m going to have to have you come by the house for a bit
tomorrow. We can sign all of your paper work and I can show you what I need
done it might take a few hours, but I will buy you lunch”

He
was being sweet, but it wasn’t the conversation I thought we would be having
after what just happened

“Oh,
okay sure I will have Lacey give me the directions what time should I be
there”? I asked

“Can
you do 9? I like to work out first thing so that will give me time to finish
and shower before you get there” he asked me

“Yeah,
I can do that” I smiled

He
leaned in and kissed me again “I should get going, I need to clean up a bit
before you come over tomorrow, I am kind of a slob and Stella only comes over
twice a week... neither of those days were today.

As
he walked towards the doors to head inside I walked up and grabbed his arm
stopping him “Wait” I said

He
looked at me confused

“Does
this... I mean what we just did, what does it mean?” I asked

He
grinned “what do you want it to mean Em?”

I
paused “I want it to mean that we are going to see where this leads, that we
are dating, because I think I like you, and that’s kind of scary.”

 “I
don’t really date Em. I mean ever” he said

“Oh”
shrugging my shoulders “it’s totally no big deal, forget I even brought it up

I
turned around to grab my kindle and sit back down feeling his eyes on my back I
didn’t look back at him.

He
left

Lacey
gave me the address for Ryan, and I punched it into the GPS before pulling out,
it was only 10 minutes, but Bradbury had a lot of side streets, and I didn’t
want to get lost so I left a few minutes early.

Lacey
and I had talked that night about Ryan’s job offer. She was actually pretty
excited for me. She knew that I felt like a burden staying with her and Jason,
even though she assured me many times that I was not, I wanted to do something
to make money and get my own place. I just didn’t want to spend my dad’s blood
money and the rental money for our old house was not enough for a house this
close to the big city.

As
soon as I pulled into the big gates, I showed the guard my license he buzzed me
through. I drove up to Ryan’s it was big, but it wasn’t mansion big. I knew he
had a lot of money, but it was pretty modest.

I
walked to the front door and pushed the doorbell.  A few minutes later
Ryan answers the door in nothing but a towel, water droplets falling down his
face and bare chest

He
is freaking ripped!

 “Um,
sorry” I say looking down. “I’m early but I wanted to make sure I didn’t get
lost. I’m not use to this town yet”

He
laughs and turns to let me pass by him “that’s okay, just let me run upstairs
and get dressed”

He
leaves me to head up but I don’t move. I’m remembering his conversation about
not dating ever and I feel uncomfortable just being here

As
soon as he comes down he laughs at me “you can come in you know, this house is
huge the doorway is not the best part”

I
look up at him, he has a tight pair of blue jeans and a button down white dress
shirt on.

He
look gorgeous, which makes my stomach fill with butterflies like a fucking 9
year old school girl

“Come
into the kitchen, I have the paperwork all set up so we can go over it all”

I
follow him into the kitchen and I am shocked to see the wall lined with pots
and pans of different sizes.

He
follows my gaze and looks back at me “I’m a really good cook”

I
look at him slightly shocked “I figured you would be the ‘pizza 3 nights
Chinese 4’ kind of guy”

“No,
I only order out when I have been working a lot I find cooking to be relaxing
don’t be so judgmental” he said poking me in the side

I
take a conscious step back, not wanting to give him any signs that I want a
repeat of yesterday just so I can be shut down.

He
notices, his brown furrowing

“So”
he says leading me to the table “this is the shit load of papers you need to
sign and fill out to work for me”

I
looked through them, most of them were just tax papers. I started filling them
out while he sat there watching me. Always watching.

“What
did you do last night after I left?” he asked quietly

“I
hung out with Lacey and watched a movie, then she called your friend Alex and
invited him over for dinner. She’s pretty excited”

He
was quiet, I looked up at him but he was looking behind him at something

“Alex
is coming to your house tonight?” he asked looking back at me

“Not
my house, but yeah he’s coming over Jason and Lacey want me to meet him, and
they said they haven’t seen him lately so it’s really perfect timing”

He
didn’t respond, just pushed another set of papers in front of me

“Excuse
me, I need to use the phone”

What
the fuck was his deal?

I
ignored it and went back to filling out the mountain of papers. They were
asking for tax information, criminal history it was just like a normal job
application. I thought it would be a little different working with someone who
made 100 million dollars a year. Guess not.

That’s
when I heard him yelling into the phone

“Why
the fuck would you do this to me Lacey, I want to know why……….You know I can’t
just fucking date her, that’s not me and I sure as shit am not going to change
my whole life for one chick…….No I do like her, but it means nothing…….Fine do
what you want, but I am coming too”

It
means nothing...

Fuck
him.

I
have no idea what the fuck his issue in life is, or why he feels it is okay to
be hot one second and cold the next, but I am done.

He
comes back in and sits down “sorry I had to call my agent about something”

He’s
not looking at me.

“That’s
fine, I’m about done”

I
flip over the last set of papers and notice that they have an official seal on
them with the bold letters ‘non-disclosure agreement

“What’s
this” I ask

“That
is an NDA, you need to sign it, and it basically says that anything you learn
or see while you work for me you won’t sell to a reporter when you are done”
he’s still not looking at me

I
signed the paper. I wasn’t the kind of person who would tell anyone anything he
ever told me anyway, but obviously he didn’t trust me

“So”
I said setting the pen down “anything else?”

“Yeah,
let me give you a tour and tell you what I need from you” he stood up, eyes
still not meeting mine

He
leads me through the house, 3 bathrooms, and 5 bedrooms. He didn’t show me
where his room was, but he showed me all the guest rooms, they were beautiful,
one was light pink I looked at him questioningly

“The
previous owner had a baby, this was the nursery. I never got around to changing
the décor” his tone didn’t really leave room for questions

“So
really what my PA usually does is follow me around. I don’t really know what I
will need until I need it. I won’t make you follow me onto each and every set,
but sometimes I am going to need your help with different things so if I call
you, you can just come to me, or you can stay with me while I work, whatever
you think will be easiest”

“Can
we decide later, for now I will come by when you need me and we can go from
there, Lacey said I might be able to do most of what you need from home?”

He
looked at me for a long moment before he answered “Whatever works for you”

“Okay,
well if that’s all I will be heading out”

I
knew he forgot about offering me lunch, and I wasn’t about to bring it up.
Clearly he got what he needed from me.

He
opened the front door and I passed by him, when I reached the bottom of the
stairs I looked back at him. He was checking his phone

“So
about Alex, Lacey tells me he is single but Jason tells me I should stay away
from him... What do you say?”

Ryan
looks at me, steps back and slams the door.

Not
the response I was expecting.

But
I couldn’t help but smile.