City Lights (Satan's Sinners M.C. Book 1) (21 page)

We had the funeral, what can you say about a funeral? It was nice, beautiful even, but damn we were there to bury somebody we all loved. We are all going to miss him so much. Hanger sang Knockin' On Heaven's Door by Guns N Roses, it was almost too much to take. Seeing Chatty break down, she's just so lost now. After Hanger was done singing, I don't think there was a dry eye. Poor Chatty tried to do the eulogy, but she couldn't get through it. So I went to help her. I gently placed my hands on hers and took the paper from her hands, and started to read.

"Ripper was my best friend, my love, he was my life. He was everything to me. I met him when I was twenty and he was thirty five. Yeah, there was a big age difference but he would always tell me who cares when it comes to love. I don't and I love you. He chased me until I finally gave in and took a chance on him. He was so persistent, never giving up. I will forever regret missing out on the days I made him chase me, when I could have had that time with him. I will love you and will miss you every day. Until the day I see you again, Ripper." I hug Chatty tightly to my chest help her to her seat, help her sit. Then I go into Hanger's waiting arms and cry my eyes out.

The funeral was last week and I've taken over for Chatty at the bar. I'm cleaning up when she walks in "Hey, Crazy Girl. I need to talk to you."

"Okay." We sit down and I'm looking at her this can't be good.

"I want to thank you for everything you have done for me. But my time here is over. I can't be here anymore. It’s not the same without him. There’s just a bunch of memories. It's too much to take. There's no place for me here now."

"Chatty, what are you talking about? I need you, your one of my best friends. The guys need you. You take care of them, shit all of us. I don't want you to leave." I start crying.

"Crazy Girl, you will always be my friend, and for the guys they have you now. I know you love all of them like I do. You will take good care of them for me. I gotta go. I need to be with my family and try to get past all this. You never know I might come back one day."

"Will you still call me? I'm pregnant and you’re gonna miss it. What about the wedding?"

"You know I will call you. You can tell me all about the wedding and the baby."

"When do you leave?"

"I called a taxi, they are on their way to pick me up. I have all my stuff packed already. I just wanted to say goodbye to you before I left. Tell Hanger and the guys I said I love them and I’m going to miss all of them? I just can't do all the goodbyes, it's already too hard."

"Okay, I'll tell them. Oh Chatty I’m going to miss you so much. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me I love you."

"I'll miss you too and I love you too girl. We had some good times." And with that she stands up gives me a tight hug and she walks away from us.

Today Zoey has to go back to the doctor, it's been a month since her last visit. It's been hard watching her get sick all the time, the nausea medicine helps some though. She's tired a lot, I have to tell the guys to quiet down so she can get sleep. I keep thinking more and more about buying a house.

I walk up behind her and put my arms around her, she is already showing and I love it. I love seeing her belly grow with my baby inside her body. "You ready, Babe?"

"Yeah, almost. I can't decide what top to wear. None of my shit fits. I have pornstar tits now and my belly is like a small basketball. Hanger, how can I be this big already? I wasn't even showing the first time."

"I don’t know, Babe. But I do know that I love your pornstar tits." She turns and slaps my arm. I start laughing but grab her before she can turn away. "Crazy Girl, seriously you are so fuckin' beautiful and even more now that you are starting to show. I didn't think it was possible for you to get any sexier but you proved me wrong. I love you, Crazy Girl." I kiss her tears away and give her a tender kiss on the lips while rubbing her belly.

"Thank you, Hanger. I love you too. I'm so emotional, this pregnancy is messing with me." She gives me a smile. "Can I wear one of your shirts?" I walk over to the dresser and pull out a shirt and hand it to her. She puts it on "Okay, I'm ready." We go out to the truck, I help her in and head to the doctor's office.

We've been waiting about twenty minutes when the doctor comes in. "It's nice to see you guys again. How are you feeling Zoey?"

"Well, I’m still gettin sick, I'm tired all the time. I guess other than that I'm good."

"Yes, sorry to say all of that is normal. It should go away when you get into your second trimester but I’m not going to say that it will because some people have morning sickness and are tired the whole pregnancy. I wanna take a look at the baby today and listen to the heartbeat."

"Okay." The doctor says she will be right back and goes out the door. Zoey looks at me and says "I'm nervous, Hanger." I get up and take her hand, kissing her palm, turn it over then kiss all her knuckles.

"Me too, Babe, but everything is gonna be okay." The doctor comes back in with a little machine, and starts setting everything up. She tells Zoey to lay back and to pull her shirt up over her belly. She then puts gel on Zoey's stomach, and then puts the thing she's holding on her stomach.

"Okay, guys. Let’s see your baby, oh wait a minute."

"What? What is it Dr. Greene is everything okay?" I ask suddenly terrified as fuck something is wrong. I'm squeezing Zoey's hand so hard, I don't know if she's got feeling left in it.

"Oh, I’m sorry. Don't worry, Hanger. Everything looks good. The thing is there isn’t just one baby in there, you guys are going to be having twins."

"Twins? What the fuck?" I look to Zoey. She's looking at me, both our eyes big, mouths open then at the same time both of us break out in smiles laughing.

"Do you guys want to hear the heartbeats?" We both just nod and listen. All of a sudden the room fills with the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. One little heartbeat fast and strong and then another one.

"Okay, the heartbeats are healthy, and strong everything looks great. So I want to see you back in a month."

Zoey says "Okay, thank you." I help her get the gel off her stomach, then pull her to help her sit up and we head out. Once we are in the truck she pulls her phone out, and makes a call. "Hey Chat, how are you?"

"I'm good."

"Guess what just fucking happened. We just got out of the doctor’s office.

Our second appointment was today and we found out we are having twins."

"I know right! Okay, I love you and miss you." She hangs up and turns to me, I can see she's about to cry.

"It is okay, Babe. How is she doin'?"

"She's okay. She’s starting to sound like the old Chatty again. I miss her, Hanger."

"I know, Babe. We all do but she needs this."

"I know. So twins, huh?"

"Yeah. What do you think they are?"

"I think they are girls. What about you?"

"No. No fuckin' way, nope. It's gotta be boys. If it's girls then karma is coming back on me like a motherfucker." I smile and then she busts out laughing.

"Let’s go to my parents' house. I want to tell them." I head there while she calls Jacey, to tell her, then she texts her sister.

We head into my parents’ house, I just walk right in and I call out "Mom, Dad."

My mom responds "Yeah, honey we're in here." I follow the sound of her voice into the kitchen.

"Hey, what are you guys doing?"

"Oh, I was just trying out some new recipes. And making your father taste them."

"Oh, well how are they Dad?"

"You know your mother is an amazing cook. So it is delicious but I think she's gonna make me fat." We all laugh.

My mom says "It’s not Sunday. What brings you two by?"

"Well, we got some news and I couldn’t wait to tell you guys."

My dad asks "What is it? Is everything okay?" I see the worried look on his face.

"Everything is fine, Daddy. I'm pregnant."

"What?" They both say in unison, then they look to each other. My mom turns back to me "I'm gonna be a grandma?" She whispers out with unshed tears in her eyes. I nod my head while smiling. She runs up to me, throwing her arms around my neck hugging me "I'm so happy for you baby." My dad’s next with the hugs, they both even hug Hanger too.

"Well, that wasn't all we wanted to tell you." They stop and stare at me.

"I had a doctor’s appointment today, and we got to listen to the heart beat. Come to find out there wasn’t just one heart beat there were two. Looks like we will be having twins."

My mom says "Twins?"

My dad says "Hot damn." We all start laughing again.

"When do you find out what you’re having?"

"Mom, I'm just under three months. It will be a couple more months before we can find out."

"Well. You come tell me as soon as you find out. Then we will go shopping."

"Okay. Mom I will." I say with a big smile on my face. We stay for a while longer. Trying the recipes that my mom had and they are in fact delicious. We hug them both again on our way out and head back to the clubhouse.

Today was Ever's graduation from fashion school. I couldn't be more proud of my sister. Watching her go from this shy little girl, and grow into the beautiful confident woman she is has been amazing. She always had to have an interpreter with her throughout school just like in college but she never let that slow her down. Writer went with us to the graduation. I couldn't ask for someone better for my sister, you can see all the love he has for her every time he looks at or mentions her. Today though seeing him watch her graduate, I saw nothing but pride in his eyes. We spent a few hours at our parents' house but now we are on our way to the clubhouse.

"Alright, Demon shots for everybody!" He gives me a look with his eyebrow cocked. "Well, everyone except me, of course." I say while laughing.

"You got it, Crazy Girl." He brings a tray over, hands everyone shots and me an orange juice. "Here this one’s for you. Why they call you, Crazy Girl, anyway?"

"Oh, Demon, just you wait until I have these babies, you'll find out." I give him a sly smile and he smiles back. "
I want to say how proud I am of you Ever. You will do amazing things in the future. Congratulations. now drink up."
I grab my shot of orange juice and tip my head back along with everyone else. We all bust out laughing. I mean really, who shoots orange juice? Crazy Girls that’s who. The music is going everybody is dancing or playing pool. Hanger comes up to me and grabs my hand "Let's dance, Babe." He leads me out to the dance floor. Grabbing my hips, he pulls my back against him as close as I can get. Then we start moving to the beat of the music. He runs his hands over my belly and puts his mouth to my ear, his breathing on my skin causing goose bumps and a throbbing between my legs. He takes my hand and puts it on his jeans, letting me feel his massive erection. "You feel what you do to me, Crazy Girl? Just from a look or one touch you got me feelin' like a teenager again. You drive me fuckin' insane with how fuckin' sexy you are, with my babies growin' in you."

"Shit, Hanger." I love his dirty words, the throbbing is almost unbearable, and the heat rising in my core is almost uncontrollable. Then all of a sudden there's a big kick I grab his hand and move it to the spot, and there’s another kick. We both start laughing, what a way to kill the mood. When the song ends he leads me back to the bar. It would be rude to skip out on Ever's graduation party.

Later on Hanger walks up to me "How you doin' Crazy Girl?"

"I'm good." I give him a smile as he sits down next to me.

"You’re not too tired, are you?"

"No, I'm good. I promise."

"Alright, Babe, you tell me if you wanna lay down. Yeah?"

"Yeah, okay. I will."

"Are you having fun Babe?"

"Yeah, I like sitting here watching everybody else act a fool for once." We both start laughing. We just sit back and watch everyone, drink, dance, and do all the other shit people do at these parties.

It's been a few hours and the party is in full swing. The guys are starting to get with the whores they'll be with tonight. Ever and Writer went to his room a while ago, I've been sitting at the bar with Hanger. I look over and see Bear making his way up to me. I've been avoiding him the best I can, I really don't want to lie to him. Shit, it's too late, I can't get away now, he will know something is up if I jump off this bar stool and run to our room. "Crazy Girl, why's Jacey not here?"

"Well, she had some shit to do." I hope that’s a good excuse, I can't look him in the eyes.

"Crazy Girl, your lyin' to me, you know you are a shit liar. Jacey hasn't been here for months."

"Bear, I can't tell you. If she wants you to know, she will come and tell you."

"I call her, she don't fuckin' answer, and she’s stopped comin' round. Somebody needs to tell me what the fuck’s goin' on."

Hanger looks over and very calmly says "Bear, you need to watch yourself. Watch how you talk to my Ol' Lady." I place my hand on Hanger's arm and look back at Bear.

"Bear, I would tell you if I could, but it's not my place. You guys have got your club rules, well us girls have our girl code. Just give her some time. I think she will come to you."

"Whatever. Fuck it. I'm so fuckin' done with this shit. I'm outta here." I watch him walk out the door feeling like the world's worst person.

"Hanger, I’m ready to go lay down now." He looks at me a sad expression on his face, he knows how much I care about all the guys and Jacey, but it’s not my place to tell him.

"Okay, Babe let's go." Once we get in the room he helps me change and get ready for bed. I grab my phone and call Jacey.

"Hey Jacey.”

"Well, Bear just came up to me, he wanted to know why you weren't here, and why you haven't been around in months."

"No, Jacey, I didn't tell him."

"Jacey. You’re going to have to."

"No, it's not too late, not yet anyway."

"You have had plenty of time."

"No, you need to tell him."

"Jacey, I hope to God you make the right decision on this."

"No. I'm not going to keep this forever. It’s not right."

"I'm not happy with you, for making me keep this from them. If you don't tell him by the time it happens, then I’m going to."

"I'm done talking to you now. You’re being a bitch and really pissing me off. Bye."

I hang up, toss my cell to the night stand and lay back on the bed, now exhausted. "Babe, are you okay?"

"Yeah. I'm just tired, this whole thing is a mess, Hanger."

"Well, just lay back and get some sleep. I love you." He kisses my forehead, I look over at him.

"I love you too." It doesn't take long for me to fall asleep, once he pulls me to him and holds me the best he can with my growing belly in the way.

I'm almost five months along now, it's time to go to the doctor again, but today we are going to see if we can find out what we are having. I'm so huge now but the morning sickness has stopped and I'm not always so tired. My sex drive has kicked up through the roof and Hanger is loving every second of it.

"Hey, Babe, you ready?"

"Yeah." When we get to his truck, he lifts me up to help me into the cab and we take off.

We have to wait for about thirty minutes before the doctor comes in with the sonogram machine.

"Hey, guys how are you?"

"We are good. We are so ready to find out what we are having."

"Well, first is everything okay? Any problems?"

"Nope, I feel great."

"Good that's what I like to hear. Go ahead and lay back." I do then she pulls my pants down a little and puts the gel on my gigantic stomach. She then puts the thing on my belly and we get to see our babies. She starts moving around the little wand thing and clicking buttons on the computer. I look at the screen then look over to Hanger.

"Look at them, Hanger."

"I see, Babe." He says with a chuckle and a huge smile.

"Okay, everything looks good. Here are the arms and legs, the heads. Measurements for both baby A, and baby B look good, right where they need to be. The babies are healthy, and have strong heart beats. Now, the part you two have been waiting for. Let’s see if we can find out what you are having, shall we?" Hanger walks up closer to me takes my hand and kisses it. "Okay, baby A is a girl and baby B is also a girl." I smile because I knew it. I look to Hanger and he is expressionless. I can’t help but laugh at him. He might have a heart attack in here.

"No. No way. Doctor you gotta check again, you got it wrong."

"Nope. Hanger, they are defiantly both girls."

"Fuck me. Karma is such a bitch." I start laughing even harder. The doctor even starts to laugh. Then Hanger smiles.

"Alright guys, I’m going to print you out some pictures of your girls and I want to see you again in a month."

"Thank you, Doctor Greene." Hanger helps get the gel off my belly, then he pulls me to sit up. We get in his truck and he takes us up to the hill. It looks so much different during the day. It's still beautiful though. We get out and walk around the back of the truck and he lifts me onto the tailgate, then he hops up. He puts his arm around me and pulls me close while we sit on the tailgate. "Hanger, how do you feel about having two girls?"

"Crazy Girl, to be honest, I was in shock at first, but I'm gonna love them. I'm gonna spoil the shit outta them and they will both be daddy's girls. So I'm good with it. I'm just as happy as I would have been if they would have been a boy and girl or two boys’. How you feel about it?"

"I feel good. I'm happy, Hanger."

"Yeah, Babe."

"I love you so much."

"I love you too." He leans over to me and gives me a slow breath taking kiss. He tries to pull away but I grip onto the back of his neck, keeping him to me. He murmurs on my lips "Crazy Girl, what are you doin?"

"I need you."

"Okay. Babe, lay back." He helps lay me back on the bed of his truck. He leans over me and pushes up my shirt and bra, my breasts spill out and the top of my belly shows. He gently kisses my nipples. Then he pulls down my maternity pants letting the rest of my belly show. He kisses his way down giving extra attention to my stomach. As he makes his way down my belly he’s slowly taking my pants and panties all the way off. Once he is at where I need him, he carefully spreads my legs apart. Putting his face to my sex and his tongue on my clit, I can’t help it I buck my hips. I let out a soft moan and he starts working harder, picking up speed then slowing down, running his tongue all over me. Once he slides two fingers in, hitting my g spot and rubbing it, with a few more flicks with his tongue on my clit, he has me screaming out "Nico."

He doesn't waste time getting settled over my body and placing himself at my entrance, pushing in, taking himself home, balls deep. He rolls and rotates his hips, thrusting into me, throwing me right into another mind-blowing orgasm. He starts thrusting into me faster and harder each time. "Fuck. Crazy Girl, your so god damn wet."

"Yes. Fuck, Nico faster." He does just what I ask, going so fast hitting the right spot. "Shit. I'm gonna cum again."

"No. Hold it in, Babe, go with me." He's slamming into me. He’s rocking my body. The truck is moving back and forth, from the power of him driving and pounding into me. I fucking love it.

"I'm close, Babe." A few more thrusts "Now, Crazy Girl." I let go with him.