Atonement (The Atonement Series) (19 page)

“My last STD and HIV tests were right before we left for this trip. What about you?”

“The same. I had to go to the doctor because of an injury I sustained in an accident. It’s a pinched sciatic nerve I suffered in an automobile accident and he adjusted my medication by taking me off a low dosage of Vicodin and Prozac. Instead he just gave me a steroid injection and told me I should be fine until we get back to the States. He ran a full blood panel just in case so I’m clean too.”

“Good. I’m protected…I’m on a low hormone birth control pill so we only have to…I mean, if you want to…”

Colin placed a finger underneath my chin and stared me deeply into my eyes. “Do you usually use condoms with your significant other?”

I shook my head. “After Drew and I…well, when our relationship changed and we were no longer exclusive, I insisted because I didn’t want all the intimacy involved when condoms aren’t part of the deal. It just…it does create a barrier and I don’t feel as connected which was a good thing in our case.”

He grabbed my hand and led me to the bed which was still neatly made up. His hands were slightly chilly on my warm skin as he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me towards him. Our first kiss was soft and innocent before his mouth opened and his tongue sought entry in my mouth. Our tongues intermingled with a thrilling urgency that shot a feeling of pure pleasure from the top of my head to my lower belly.

Colin’s hands wandered underneath my sweater and met with bare skin which spread goosebumps everywhere they touched me. They teased my back, his index finger slid up and down my spinal column as our kiss grew deeper and I felt myself relax in his arms. Why did my skin feel absolutely electric everywhere he touched me? It was such a different feeling from when I had allowed Liam to claim my body and although it felt crass and rude, I couldn’t help compare their techniques.

Colin slipped my sweater over my head and revealed a pretty lace bra which matched my sweater. His fingers traced my collar bone and between the slopes of my breasts. I shivered, not because I was cold, but because I felt like he purposely teased me to draw out this experience as long as possible. I pressed my body against his but he stepped back intentionally. Not quick enough for me to feel the hardness of an erection bursting to break free.

“This isn’t about me, Deirdre, it’s about you,” he murmured in my ear before his mouth left a trail of kisses from my neck to my shoulder.

I wanted him to rid my body of the lace bra already but he slowly worked his way down, unbuttoning my skirt and freeing it from my body. Then he took off my tights and I stood in front of him in a matching thong and bra set yet nothing else. My hair was a wild mess of waves around my shoulders and I was forced to stare at his clothed body.

“Take off your clothes,” I finally said as I stepped onto the bed on by knees and sat down demurely.

Colin took off his shirt and pants in a leisurely way that didn’t seem hurried or desperate. He wore a pair of black boxer-briefs underneath and I soon realized why he never wore them to bed when we slept together at his grandparents’ house. They were highly revealing and left nothing to the imagination, including a monster hard-on that was aching to be released.

He crawled toward me on the bed and forced my legs open before he lay between them. “Don’t worry. We’re not going to get to that part yet. I just wanted to know how it felt to lay between those silky thighs of yours.”

I smiled before he hovered over me again and then our lips found one another and the passion between us was so completely palpable, I pulled my head up from the pillow as I didn’t want our lips to stop touching. His fingers undid my racerback bra’s front clasp and he explored my breasts with determined and skilled hands. My nipples hardened under the touch of his soft palms and I sighed out loud with pleasure.

His lips kissed my chin, my neck and my collarbone before he kissed my right nipple softly before his mouth claimed it in open warm wetness. I sunk into the bed as an expert tongue teased my nipple while his fingers pinched my left nipple. Not to the point of the pain but merely to tease and I arched my back towards him as my hands wandered through his silky hair.

I wanted the pleasure to go on forever as his mouth switched breasts and devoured my left nipple as his talented fingers pinched the right nipple in the same tortuous way as he’d done previously. I wanted his hands lower on my body, between my legs were my sex ached with need and it was well beyond lust or just getting off.

Colin kissed his way up my body and his lips found my own as our mouths became one entity and our tongues caressed one another mutually. His fingers never left my breasts and the feel of my nipples pressed between the padding of his thumbs and index fingers was extremely erotic and almost drove me over the edge with a desire I hadn’t felt in a very long time.

He ended our kiss reluctantly and stared into my eyes with an intensity I’d never seen in them. “If you aren’t sure then we don’t have to continue. I haven’t passed that point of return yet and we can just cuddle if this isn’t what you want to do.”

I looked at him as if he told me he the world was going to end in the next ten minutes. “I will kill you if you don’t stop teasing me and go further. Does that answer your question? Remember I’m not some vestal virgin. I have done this before and I very much want you to…make love to me.”

I almost said “fuck me” but that would have been too vulgar and like a good young woman, I always thought the first time should be slow and beautiful. We could fuck each other when we knew one another’s bodies better and knew it meant nothing to have rough sex; merely we were in the mood though it didn’t take away from any of the emotions we felt for one another.

Colin smiled at me before he spread my legs and worked his way down my body with kisses that lit every sensual part of my body on fire. He literally left a trail of pleasure and ecstasy everywhere he touched me. Although that didn’t mean he was a complete and utter gentleman as he slid my thong to the side and his mouth began to devour my sex. His suckling on the inner lips was absolutely sinful in how good it felt but when he parted me and his tongue slid over my clit, I thought I would lose it at that moment.

He wasn’t anywhere near being done with his treatment of the pleasure spot as his mouth surrounded it and suckled on it gently before he increased the pressure and my hands immediately went to his head as if to keep his mouth right where it was at that moment. I didn’t think it could get any better but he slid two fingers inside my soaking sex and caressed my g-spot.

I was beyond all thought of reason and decorum as my hips bucked to meet his thrusts in and out of me. The first orgasm he brought me to was probably so easy and effortless on his part but it didn’t stop me from shuddering beneath his talented mouth and fingers never-the-less.

My breath came quick and hard as he worked his way up my body and kept my lips spread. “That was absolutely mind blowing…”

“You’ll do me later, yeah?” he whispered in my ear. “I need to be inside you. Right. Now.”

My eyes fluttered open and I observed the look of need and longing in his eyes. They were magnetic in their intensity. I nodded as he ripped my thong unceremoniously and tossed it on the floor before he managed to slide his boxer-briefs down his legs to free himself.

I slipped my arms around his neck as he kissed me again and this time, it was a lazy kiss, nothing rushed or urgent about it but I did taste myself on his tongue and that was an absolute turn on. His hands held my hips and without any guidance on his part, his hard cock found me and slid all the way to the hilt inside me. The feeling of having him inside me filled me with a sated longing that finally quieted every emotion of pain and heartache in my brain. I was at peace and the experience was mind-numbing.

It wasn’t just sex; to have him inside my body felt like a missing piece of a puzzle which had been discovered at the exact moment and although he’d yet to move inside me, I already felt fulfilled and complete all at once.

We kissed for a long time, each stroke of our tongues an erotic journey of its own as his cock rested inside me, hard as a proverbial rock. When he finally did move inside me, I arched my back and pulled him closer to me. Every thrust inside me felt absolutely delicious and right. Our bodies entwined were tailor made for one another and every movement he made brought me closer again to that place of absolute pleasure and fulfillment all over again.

I realized he knew exactly what I was thinking and we did make love that first time with a beautiful yet calm intensity of lovers who were destined for one another. It didn’t make any sense how intense my emotions for him were and his for me but somehow, we understood one another.

Like the perfect gentleman, Colin brought me to orgasm first before he rode on the plateau of my own and came in a shudder moments later. He kissed me all over—my face, my neck, my lips and then lay between my legs in a rested position.

After what felt like an eternity, he moved away and stood. I turned onto my side and watched as he walked to the bathroom. I heard the faucet run and then he brought back a hand towel which felt warm and damp.

It was then he spread my legs and gently cleaned the excess moisture from my sex. His touch was gentle and teasing at the same time as he wiped the insides of my thighs, my sex and finally his own manhood. He folded the towel and set it on the bedside table before he crawled back into bed and spooned me from behind.

“Can you please let me know what happened because I am still recovering and I can’t believe this was our first time? It was so perfect and everything I’d imagined it to be yet so much more and then some. I had no idea and now I feel like a fool because if I had any idea it would be anything like we just experienced, we could have done this ages ago,” I murmured in a post-coital haze.

“No, we couldn’t have and I’m glad you made me wait. It made the whole experience that much more fulfilling.” Colin kissed my forehead. “You may not believe me but that is some of the best sex I have every experienced in my life and I know it’s because we have feelings for one another. If you were just another conquest, I wouldn’t have cleaned you up—I’d be asking you to leave and do you know how that would make me feel? The thought of dismissing you like that would be…awful. I wouldn’t ever do that to you, I promise.”

I turned to face him and threw him on his back. He winced slightly and that’s when I remembered the pinched sciatic nerve. I gritted my teeth together. “Sorry. Did I just murder your back?”

He opened his eyes and blinked back tears. “No. I don’t think so but I am just glad I have an emergency stash of Vicodin because I am going to need one.”

I helped him up in a sitting position and he walked over to his jacket where he removed a small pill box, grabbed an extra strength Vicodin and swallowed it with bottled water provided by the hotel.

I bit my lip and slid out of bed. I strode over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist before I lay my head on his back. “I’m sorry. I forgot all about it. I just wanted to tell you how wonderful this was and how grateful I am you have come into my life. You make me remember all the wonderful and amazing events that happen in our life.

“For so long, I have been completely maudlin and focused on the negative but now…you’ve opened my eyes and I want to experience the wonderful and beautiful with you. After what I did to your back, you don’t hate me and wished you had traveled to Europe all by yourself…?”

Colin turned toward me and bent to kiss my lips. “Nope. I think we have seen enough of Norway. It’s cold and I am ready to go somewhere that is nice and warm. I know you have your shopping excursion with Clarissa but afterwards, can we just say our goodbyes to my grandparents’ and head down to the south of France? It should be a lot warmer there than it is here.”

I nodded my head. “So, what’s the plan?”

He slipped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. “How about this? We fly into Nice Airport, spend a few days exploring the city and then rent a car and tour all of the south of France? We can go to Marseille, Monte Carlo, Cannes and everywhere in between. We can stay in
gite
d’hôtes
and generally have the time of our life.”

Colin paused and pulled me closer. “If you’re really adventurous, we can drive into Italy and we can explore Tuscany together. I love Florence…it’s one of my favorite cities beside every major city in France and Germany. There is just something about it that is so…amazing. Then we can also go to Venice, climb onto a gondola and buy too much cheap glass jewelry. Let’s just play the rest of the trip by ear. No plan, no itinerary—just what ever we want to do?”