Always Yours (33 page)

But I wanted to run. I wanted to run away with him. I wanted this pregnancy to be a hoax. I wanted Amber out of his life. But none of those things were ever going to happen. He was having a baby with her and what I wanted didn't matter. They would forever be bound by this child. And I....if I stayed with him, I would always be
that
woman. The one his child would blame for its broken family. I didn't want to be
that
woman. I couldn't. I hated that woman and I refused to ever become someone I hated.

"I'm not running, Cam," I said and his grip relaxed.

He removed his face from the crook of my neck and stared at me. My heart broke all over again as I stared into his muted, distressing eyes. "What am I going to do?" he asked, like I had the answer he was looking for.

"Depends on what you're talking about," I said and his brow creased. "If you're talking about the baby, there isn't a whole lot you can do. What's done is done. It's scary as hell but you're going to be a father and I know you're going to be the best dad to that baby."

A faint smile appeared on his face. He reached up and brushed his thumb softly across my cheek. "And if I'm talking about us?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "Then I don't know," I said, breaking eye contact. I looked at the v-neck collar on his white shirt as I released his neck and placed my hands on his chest. The only sound I could hear was the thumping of my heart as it thrashed violently inside me. "I came from a broken family, Cam. I know what it's like to wish your parents were together." His grip moved to my arms and tightened around them as if he knew what I was going to say next. "I don't want to be the reason your family is broken. If you can make things work with Amber then you have to try, Cam. You have to try for the baby's sake."

The words tasted like bleach as they came out of my mouth. I wanted to take them back but I couldn't.

He lifted my face so I was looking at him. "So where does that leave you, Cara? What are you supposed to do while I'm off trying to make things work?"

Biting my lower lip, I fought like hell to fight back the tears. "I stop feeling and just think."

"That doesn't really seem....fair."

"Life is never fair, Cam. If it was my dad would have never left, Lance would have never left, I never would have lost the baby, and Amber would have never moved back. You can't control the cards your dealt but you can control the hand you play with them. That baby is going to become your whole world and you'll do anything to make your world happy, even if that means sacrificing your own."

He pushed his forehead to mine and closed his eyes. "Why is it we're always saying good-bye?"

"I guess it's just in our cards."

A tear rolled down my cheek as he softly pressed his lips to mine. I could taste the salt from my tear as he entered my mouth, deepening the kiss. He enfolded me in his strong arms as his kiss turned desperate—he knew this was the end.

Pulling away he took my face in his hands. "I want you one last time, Cara. There's no tomorrow for us. Tonight, let's forget about everything." He kissed the corner of my mouth and my heart broke. "Let me make love to you," he whispered. I closed my eyes as he trailed his mouth down my neck to my collarbone. "Let me feel you."

I didn't even try to speak. I knew I wouldn't be able to, so I nodded—silently agreeing as I wrapped my hands around the back of his neck, pulling him closer. He kissed me hard as he picked me up in his arms. Never breaking the kiss, he carried me upstairs to my bedroom.

He set me on my feet next to the bed. Pushing my hair out of my face, he grabbed my neck and kissed my forehead before running his hands slowly down my body. He never took his eyes off mine and I could tell from the look in them he wanted to savor every second of this.

"Lift up your arms," he said and I obeyed. He removed my shirt and ran is hands over my body again. The roughness of his skin touching mine made a rush of desire flow straight to my core and I rolled my body into his touch in response.
God, I missed his hands on me.

Reaching around me, he unclasped my bra before pushing it down my arms, letting it fall to our feet. "So gorgeous," he murmured, eyeing my body. Pulling my body to his he wrapped his arms around my waist. My skin tingled as he streamed light, wet kisses across my shoulder and goose bumps broke out all over my skin.

Tugging at his shirt, I pulled it over his head before running my fingers down his perfectly toned chest and abs. Slipping my hands into his jeans I grabbed his hardness and he released a deep, throaty moan into my ear. The sound traveled through my body, straight to my sex. I was soaking wet and desperately wanted to feel him...all of him. I knew he wanted to take it slow but I couldn't wait. Frantically, my shaking hands made their way to the button on his jeans.

My fingers tried to work quickly, but before I could unfasten it, he grabbed my hands and pulled them away. "We have all night, firecracker. I don't want to rush this. I want to feel it....I want to feel
you
."

He slammed his lips down on mine again and pushed me backwards until my legs connected with the bed. Carefully, he lowered me onto it and then crawled over me, his muscles flexing with every movement.

He took my breast into his mouth and swirled his tongue around my nipple, making me writhe beneath him. Kissing every inch of my stomach, he made his way down my body, stopping when he reached my jeans. He unbuttoned them and slowly pulled them down my legs, his fingers brushing my skin. It was pure torture.

Oh, God!

He kissed his way back up my right leg as his hands slipped under my panties. He tugged lightly and I lifted my hips so he could slip them off. He discarded them on the floor then he moved to my left leg, kissing it little by little. My whole body was shaking with desire. I wanted him so bad.

When he reached my thigh he poked his head up and smirked at me. "Spread those legs for me, firecracker." He pushed on my thighs and I relaxed, allowing my legs to fall open.

He slid his tongue down my folds, avoiding all contact with my clit and I released a long moan.
Is he slowly trying to kill me?
Hovering between my legs, he gradually kissed and teased every inch of me. The throbbing inside of me was building with each lick—like a thunderstorm, waiting to unleash. My hands fisted in the sheets while my eyes rolled back in my head. I didn't know how much longer I would be able to take this. His mouth was pure fucking heaven and when he finally flicked his tongue over my clit, every feeling that had been mounting inside of me surged to the surface like a hot bolt of lightning. I cried out as he continued to assault me—brushing his tongue over my nub harder and faster until my orgasm raked through my body in waves.

My breathing calmed and when I opened my eyes he was already crawling over me again. He pushed his tongue into my mouth and I could taste the saltiness of my arousal. I dug my fingers into his back and scraped my nails down his back. Groaning into my mouth, he pushed his pelvis into me, his hardness pressing into me through his jeans.

There is way too much clothing between us.

Pushing on his shoulders I tried to turn him over but he wouldn't budge. "I want to return the favor. Let me taste you," I said breathlessly.

He grabbed my wrists and pinned them over my head. "Tonight is all about you, firecracker." He leaned down and kissed my neck. "Just relax and feel me."

Every nerve ending in my body reacted to his words. Lighting up like the neon lights of Vegas, they buzzed with currents of electricity. He released my hands and stood up in front of me. Little by little he pushed his jeans down, freed his erection. Biting down on my lower lip, I memorized every inch of his spectacular body as he stood before me.

My sex tightened when he took himself in his hand. "Do you want this inside you?" he asked, looking down at his erection.

"More than I've wanted anything in this whole fucking world," I replied, my voice rough and full of need. "Make love to me, Cam."

I said the words and they ripped at my heart. I knew this was going to be the last time we were ever together and it killed me.

An approving grin materialized on his face. "Your wish is my command."

She wanted me to make love to her and that was exactly my plan. Tonight was all about her. I wanted her to remember this forever because I knew I would.

Trapping her in my gaze, I climbed over her trembling body as she spread her legs for me. I pressed my dick against her sex and instantly felt her arousal. She was ready for me and I fucking loved it. "God, you’re fucking soaked, firecracker."

Looking down at her I watched her face as I slowly slid into her. Every muscle in her face twisted with pleasure as the walls of her pussy clenched around me. She was so tight. "Oh, fuck," I muttered. "Your pussy feels so fucking good, baby."

She rocked her hips into me and mumbled something I couldn't make out. By the sounds she was making though, I assumed it was positive. I pulled out of her and her legs squeezed around me. "No don't." She grabbed my backside, pushing me down into her again. "I want you as close to me as possible. I want to feel all of you. Please, don't pull away."

Tears started to fill her eyes and I knew I wanted to be face to face with her—holding her tight as we made love. "Come here, firecracker," I said as I pushed off of her and stood up.

Taking her hand I helped her up and then I took a seat on the edge of the bed. I pulled her to me and she climbed on top of my lap. She lowered herself gently, sliding over me and I filled every fucking inch of her perfectly.

I pushed a lose piece of hair out of her face and whispered into her ear, "Can you feel me?" I hoped she would understand my double meaning.

She inhaled a deep breath as she tried to keep the tears at bay. "I can feel everything, Cam." Grabbing my head with her hands she stared into my eyes as she began rocking her hips back and forth. "I can feel it here," she said, thrusting her hips forward. "And here." She trailed her fingers down my chest, landing on my heart. I pulled her closer and kissed her lips until we both ran out of air.

With our foreheads pressed together and our eyes locked on one another we moved in unison. Our breathing increased as the passion rose between us. As we climbed higher and higher to our climaxes, I could feel myself breaking down. I didn't want this to end. I wasn't ready to say goodbye and as the tears finally began to roll down her cheeks I knew she wasn't ready either.

The pressure in my dick started to become unbearable and I knew it wasn't much longer before I exploded. Cradling her face, I wiped the moisture away from her eyes with my thumb. "I love you, firecracker," I whispered and her eyes shut tightly as more streams fell down her face. I kissed them lightly and she wrapped her arms around me, clinging to me desperately.

She moved harder and faster, her warm pussy tightened around me like a vice grip and I knew she was on the edge. She opened her eyes and found mine as I pushed deeper into her. "I love you too," she whispered and that was my undoing. The pressure finally burst and an explosion of electricity blasted through me. Closing my eyes, my whole body tensed as I shot into her, my dick twitching with each gush.

Opening my eyes I watched as she fell over the edge with me. Her whole body was shaking, her head falling back as her mouth opened and a loud scream of pleasure escaped. Her nails dug into my shoulders and I pulled her closer, still thrashing into her so she could ride out her orgasm.

As we came back down to earth we didn't move. Her head was resting on my chest, her arms around my neck. My arms were secured tightly around her waist. I never wanted to let her go. Resting my head on hers I closed my eyes. I could feel her tears dripping onto my skin like rain drops falling from the sky but I still didn't move. Maybe if we just stayed like this forever we wouldn't have to face reality tomorrow.

I woke up the next morning before the sun rose with Cam still wrapped around me. His arms and legs were draped over me like a warm blanket and I smiled knowing he was still here. Reaching for my phone, I checked the time—5:27am.