A Nation Betrayed: Secret Cold War Experiments Performed on Our Children and Other Innocent People (19 page)

Mengele in
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on German Passport
Mengele in Paraguay 1960 (Corbis)

Josef Mengele Photo for Mengele’s false ID card

(Associated Press left top and two bottom)
http://www.crimelibrary.com/mengele/research.htm

Conclusion

When I look at the betrayal of trust by the United States Government during the Cold War, and how it was promulgated against it’s very citizens by the power it wielded, I cannot help but compare that to incest. A daughter generally remains loyal to her father after being violated because he uses his power to keep her silent and submissive. Many times the secret remains hidden for decades. So too, due to fear and the top-secret classification of these files, the entire picture of covert experimentation has remained hidden from the very citizens who themselves were used as guinea pigs.

A child who is removed from a hostile environment and then placed in an environment where it receives protection, can be resilient, recover, and go on to lead a productive life. We too, as a nation, can recover from the horrendous effects of this abuse of power, if we will only speak out. We must let our leaders know that we will not stand to let this lay dormant in the shadows of secrecy any longer. If we allow these abuses of power from the past to go unpunished because we are enjoying democracy today, then we may as well get used to the idea that Hitler will rise from the ashes in another form.

We can make each day the beginning of a new and better life for our children and their children. We can bury the hardships and deceit of the past by building a government that is worthy of our trust. The foundation of that trust must be built on truth, not secrecy. None of us expects a life free from worry or care, but we must demand to have the same kind of trust in our government that an innocent child has when he looks at the stars and believes a new day will dawn.

My life, from the time of my last remembered experiments at age 16, has taken many twists and turns. I married at 17, gave birth to the first of my three children at 18, and struggled to keep a marriage together with an unfaithful alcoholic husband for the next sixteen years. The loss of my mother when I was 29 was followed two years later by my dad’s demise. At last I was free from the unconscious control this man had played in my life.

I became quite successful as a District Manager of a large temporary help company, traveling to six different cities with total budgets exceeding $6,000,000 and finally felt financially and emotionally stable enough to divorce. As I continued to spread my wings and see the heights I was able to climb unfettered by the past, I met the man who was to stand beside me as my husband through my long and painful journey to heal.

Four years into our marriage, my programming started to deteriorate and my memories began to haunt me. My struggle to free myself was the most difficult road I had yet walked. Many times I survived solely because others believed I could and would. Along with my doctor, my dear husband and sister became my confidantes. It seems I cried enough tears in the last ten years to turn the Sahara desert into an oasis. As the healing continued, I found a new person hiding beneath all the splintered diamonds of my personality. Integrating the facets of these troubled pieces of myself came naturally as I remembered, felt and understood that I no longer had to walk the trail of tears from the past. I could at last be free to choose my path and change courses at any time. It was all such a marvelous discovery—this freedom of mind, this tranquility, this peace.

Today I continue to work on recovering from the emotional and physical effects that still plaque me as a result of being used as a human guinea pig by my own government. I wish I could say that I have been free from all contact by my former programmers and handlers. I can’t. Had I not started that healing journey in 1991, I would not have been able to break the programming that was installed in me for the Ides of March 1999. It was a pathetic program to be sure, installed by pathetic men when I was only 16. I have every reason to believe that the people who installed it cared little for the person who was to be the recipient of the “Red Fire.” They hoped to move another piece of the power puzzle that only they truly understand.

My handlers no longer contact me. The last time they tried by phone to activate an alter with preprogrammed cues--they failed. The man who phoned was extremely upset. He and so many others believed our programming would never break down, and if it did they counted on the insane sounding nature of these experiments to totally discredit any survivors who spoke the truth. What they could never foresee was the indomitable fighting nature that perhaps they themselves had instilled. The need to find the truth and expose it was much larger than the fear they used to control me.

I am not looking for notoriety. I don’t believe I am special. I’m just one of the many Cold War children who were convenient lab rats for a group of despicable people. I thank God for the Accountants of the world and the records they keep. Without those MKULTRA, Bluebird, and Artichoke documents, my story would sound like just another piece of science fiction.

Three years of my life have been spent documenting this book. I would have preferred to forget this ugliness and go on with my life. Instead I have walked through a trail of tears that I sometimes felt I would drown in. The emotions of the hundreds of thousands of the victims of this cold war nightmare still haunt me. They will never leave me, but by exposing the truth, I have at last been able to free much of my own hatred and pain. Understanding, speaking the truth, and forgiveness frees. Like the eagle on the cover of this book, I am soaring free of the fear and hatred that consumed me for a good portion of my life. I hope this book will continue to speak for the silent masses for decades to come. The truth can set us free.

Collin A. Ross has a complete listing of the 149 MKULTRA projects with known institutions and doctors involved in Appendix C of his book
Bluebird: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists
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TAB A
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xxxxxxx
87624

3 April 1953

MEMORANDUM FOR: Director, Central Intelligence

SUBJECT: Two Extremely Sensitive Research Programs

1. Approximately 6% of the TSS research and development effort lies in
two highly sensitive fields
in which it is not possible to conduct the work through the customary contracts for security reason and other considerations.

2. These two sensitive fields are: a)
Covert studies of biological and chemical warfare

b) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

3. Permission of the DCI is requested to handle work in these two fields in the manner outlined in Tab A without contracts and with reimbursement to be made against invoices properly certified by TSS.

4. All controls established in the PRC approval of the original Research Program (other than signing a contract) would remain unchanged. Periodic financial and progress reports will be made. All documents will be retained by TSS.

5. No new funds are involved. This procedure would apply to funds previously approved for research.

6. Tab B is a memorandum to the Deputy Director (Administration) for your signature authorizing this procedure.

[Signature]
Richard Helms
Acting Deputy Director (Plans)

Attachments: (2)

Tab A - Description of Project MKULTRA and the controls which will be exercised over its execution

Tab B - Suggested Memorandum from DCI to DD/A authorizing payment of invoices under Project MKULTRA

87624
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TAB A

PROJECT MKULTRA

Extremely Sensitive Research and Development Programs

1. On 5 June 1952, the Project Review Committee approved the TSS Research Program for Fiscal Year 1953. [Three lines redacted]

2. The PRC approval authorized the Director of Research, at his discretion and with the approval of the Research Chairman, to apportion and obligate the research funds among individual projects, such projects to be subject to the usual Agency procedures and administrative controls.

3. This Research Program has been actively underway since the middle of 1952 and has gathered considerable momentum during the past few months. It is now evident on the basis of work currently underway that approximately 94% of the projects contemplated can be handled through regular procurement channels by means of customary contracts signed jointly by the Agency and the organization undertaking to carry out the work. It has also become apparent that approximately 6% of the projects are of such ultra-sensitive nature that they cannot and should not be handled by means of contracts which would associate CIA or the Government with the work in question. This 6% of the current research effort now lies entirely within two well-defined fields of endeavor, namely:

Research to develop a capability in the covert use of biological and chemical materials. This area involves the production of various physiological conditions which could support present or future clandestine operational. Aside from offensive potential, the development of a comprehensive capability in this field of covert chemical and biological warfare gives us a thorough knowledge of the enemy’s theoretical potential, thus enabling us to defend ourselves against a foe who might not be as restrained in the use of these techniques as we are. For example: we intend to investigate the development of a chemical material which causes a reversible non-toxic aberrant mental state, the specific nature of which can be reasonably well predicted for each individual. This material could potentially aid in discrediting individuals, eliciting information, implanting suggestion and other forms of mental control.